Sisyphus On A Smoke Break

33, East Coast, Matt. Youths begone (25+ only please). Caterwauling into the void.

[havingapoemwithyou]

to the new year by W.S. Merwin

[brazyinterlude]

at war with myseIf because I know I can do better.

[museiums]

annie steg gerard

[maltedmalaphors]

I feel like a failure of an english program graduate because, for the life of me, i cannot bring myself to enjoy steinbeck’s east of eden

[7bitter]

is it possible to fix my life but still be weird abt books tv film & music forever? i will attempt it

[princecroutons]

his head is so fucking wide

[princecroutons]

[soracities]

“It’s summer now, and you’re craving a simpler existence. You want to read. You want to write. You want to meet strangers for dinner, and not refuse another drink at another bar. You want to dance. You want to find yourself in a basement, neck loose, bobbing your head as a group of musicians play, not because they should, but because they must. It’s summer now, and you’re looking forward to worrying less. You’re looking forward to longer nights and shorter days. You’re looking forward to gathering in back gardens and watching meat sputter on an open barbecue. You’re looking forward to laughing so hard your chest hurts and you feel light-headed. You’re looking forward to the safety in pleasure. You’re looking forward to forgetting, albeit briefly, the existential dread which plagues you, which tightens your chest, which pains your left side. You’re looking forward to forgetting that, leaving the house, you might not return intact. You’re looking forward to freedom, even if it is short, even if it might not last. You’re looking forward.”

— Caleb Azumah Nelson, Open Water

[punkitt-is-here]

this duck LOVES pink drink

[punkryuki]

[maltedmalaphors]

I’m under 200lbs for the first time in over 10 years and my shoulders and arms are getting huge

[eymurn]

Oh! The intimacy of adopting each other’s vocabulary.

[sealedbeastnue]

“what time is it” you ask, i pull out my 2.7 metric ton granite sundial and immediately crush both of your feet, I loudly announce “it is cloudy”

[creepish]

babygirl you’ve never met someone as isolated as me before

[andreweatspussy111]

Is this guy bothering you? cuz I could bother you too but in a different better way

[joyousjoyfuljoyness]

Phenomenal!

[guineapiggies]

Via mrs_larissa_domogalla

[anyablossom]

NOT hiding this

[wizardpostsdotorg]

made the most unappetizing and non-food coloured cup of tea of my life.

mushrooms, blueberry tea, coconut milk, honey. i cannot describe the flavour other than.. floral wood? 1/10 would not reccomend. i have named it the gnomes laundry water.

[cardinalmecha2]

[maltedmalaphors]

Sometimes i get down on myself for not achieving more in my 20s but then i remind myself i survived debilitating illnesses, undiagnosed life destroying migraines, family members needing end of life care and dying, literally being 50% blind in both eyes for 2 years, and a relationship of 5 years with someone who intentionally sabotaged my attempts at self improvement constantly and she only admitted it after breaking up because they thought I’d leave them if I got healthy.

Like, when I start to go over just how terrible my 20s were it’s remarkable I’m as well as I am today. I had my labs done and all the work I’ve put in has paid off. I’m perfectly healthy now, whatever autoimmune issues i’ve had are gone and even the food sensitivities/allergies seem to have disappeared.

I’ve started putting on muscle so fast my coworkers thought I was on steroids. I have to basically run on the stairmaster to even get my heart rate over 150.