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Rose, she/they, 32, Filipino. one day i'll have time to make art again 😞

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Guys, my friends are starving. @yousefmoner and @mohamedmoner1994's families are starving. Please help them afford food. Please keep supporting them.

No aid has entered Gaza in months and God knows where and how they are able to eat anything. They're surviving on lentils and canned foods. Please donate to them so that at least they will have the funds to purchase what little there is in the markets of Gaza today.

Donate even just a minimum of £5 to any of the links below.

Yousef's GFM

Rewaa's GFM

Karam's GFM

Ismail's GFM

If you help my friends eat and send me proof of your donations, I will tell you a story about a hungry little girl from the philippines.

This is the first chapter of the Filipino novel I am reading at present. For proof of donations, I will send you the next 4 chapters, as a PDF and audio file.

Visit Original Link

Content warnings for this chapter and the rest of the novel under the cut:

For Chapter 1

implied infant death

For the novel in general

graphic descriptions of child abuse from the point of view of the child character

(will add more warnings as I keep reading since I can't remember if there's more I should tag)

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independence day tomorrow and also coincidentally the day i'm going to be free of my current job! but i'm transferring to another job that's potentially just as exploitative if not worse. just like how june 12 celebrates fake independence from our colonizers 😔✊️🇵🇭 #myhuwadnakalayaan

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my boss is the same age as me (almost mid-30's) and his boyfriend is a 19-year-old baby-faced college student 😬 i saw him playing around with his sister outside their apartment and they still have that annoying teenager laugh where you try to stifle your laugh so that the adults in the room don't scold you for being noisy. how the hell my boss can stand being in a relationship with someone that young i can never understand. one time he had to help him enroll his subjects in college and i overheard him complaining that he had to be both boyfriend and parent to him. ???? beh bakit ka kasi nag-jowa ng disinuwebe anyos???

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devastating earthquake in mindanao on the first day of classes

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hindi ko na mabilang kung ilang aktibista na ba ang pinatay just this first half of the year. parang every time magbubukas ako ng facebook the leftist and communist pages i follow are posting another killed activist. so many students who are barely in their 20s. from negros. from bikol. tapos puro laugh reacts from fascist trolls. i don't try to open the comments section anymore. when i go home to my province the roads are lined with anti-communist, anti-NPA banners painted on empty rice sacks and hung on trees.

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america really is intensifying militarization in far flung provinces here my god. my god. protecting corporations who are stealing lands from indigenous peoples and killing npa soldiers and activists who try to protest against it. all to build hubs for weapons manufacture and AI. jusko. jusko. sobrang init na ng klima tapos malapit na naman dumating mga bagyo. may mga binabaha na nga ngayon palang.

death to america na lang talaga.

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hm.

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sometimes crying gives me some relief but other times i feel like it's just gonna make me feel more miserable so i choose not to

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i finished iiiiiiiit aaaaaah 😁😁😁😁😁😁 started on friday and stayed up late last night while the power was out bcos i wanted to know how it ended. first book i've ever read in full in japanese 🥹 now i'm gonna download the translation to see if i was reading the names correctly lmao

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it started raining 👍👍 (cooler weather)

my workplace's ceiling was leaking badly and all the light switches were drenched so the lights started flickering and we had to turn everything off 👎👎

i told my mother and she was like 'ha! same with our classrooms' and just laughed 🙄😩

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and now the power went out again 😐

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it started raining 👍👍 (cooler weather)

my workplace's ceiling was leaking badly and all the light switches were drenched so the lights started flickering and we had to turn everything off 👎👎

i told my mother and she was like 'ha! same with our classrooms' and just laughed 🙄😩

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jusko it's 11:30. i think this is gonna go on until morning 😭😭😭😭😭

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gotta think of good things gotta think of good things. i've started reading manga and light novels in japanese 🥹 i'm using jidoujisho and yomitan so i can select and look up the words/kanji's i don't know yet and that has really sped up my reading pace

most of these i'v already seen the drama / anime adaptations of so that also helps me understand the dialogue/story better without having to translate full sentences

at first i just tried epub files of japanese novels bcos if you wanna read manga, you need to have your pdfs processed and turned into mokuro files and i couldn't get my head around how to do it/install the mokuro app. but i dug around and found a bunch of manga titles already uploaded as mokuro files and that's how i started reading manga as well.

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the power just went out 💀 you know what actually i give up i'm jumping off the roof

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what else is there to do but laugh

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woke up drenched in sweat and with my period that's at least 2 weeks too early. i think i'm just gonna absent today which sucks because at least at work there's an aircon but i don't think i can do any work today i just want to lie down

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where do you guys find the time to write shitty books ☹️