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noise dept.
I'd rather be in outer space 🛸
occasionally subtle
Cosmic Funnies

Kiana Khansmith
Mike Driver
we're not kids anymore.

oozey mess
he wasn't even looking at me and he found me
RMH
Monterey Bay Aquarium
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NASA
Keni

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todays bird
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@maniacalgenius
cold-emailing principle investigators as an undergrad to get research experience in their lab is so embarrassing. "hello, i am a random body willing to do grunt work for you, please take me in like a stray cat and allow me to be the bottom of your totem pole"
i suppose this is on me for attending one of the biggest universities in the country. oops now i know!
cold-emailing principle investigators as an undergrad to get research experience in their lab is so embarrassing. "hello, i am a random body willing to do grunt work for you, please take me in like a stray cat and allow me to be the bottom of your totem pole"
12.29.25
monday recap
🌺 got up, read 2 thessalonians 1
🌺 got ready
🧚 drove to nearby city to visit best friend!! we walked around the shopping district (this is what i'm calling it cause if i said the actual name i would give away my general location lol), got lunch, went to a bookstore with a coffee shop inside, got coffee and talked some more, got dinner, and went back to her house and ate our tacos and watched our show!!
🌺 drove home, got ready for bed, went to bed
💤 6h 53m
💧 like probs 100 oz
👣 8.7k
love and prayers
12.28.25
sunday recap
🌺 went to church with young man and his parents and sister
🌺 went home and got ready for wedding!!!
🧚 went to wedding!!! it was so precious and beautiful and there were so many things that i was like wow this is completely and totally straight from God
🌺 took a shower, got ready for bed, went to sleep
💤 7h 2m
💧 we're gonna say 40 oz
👣 3.3k
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12.27.25
saturday recap
getting ahead for retaking metabolism this spring!! (i passed the class this past spring but Really Liked it and Love The Prof and Want To Know The Things Better)
🌺 got up got dressed and drank water
🌺 drove to my mom's house to say bye to my grandma before she drove home
🌺 went to two different grocery stores i needed to go to
🌺 went to b&n to return a book (i know. the horror)
🌺 went home and put stuff away
🍁 went to coffee shop, did my quiet time. read 1 thessalonians 5 and it was a BANGER
🧬 finished my paper notes on module 1 lecture 1 - intro to metabolism. completed in 0:40 instead of 2:24; saved 1:44 (i have a very intricate spreadsheet where i plan out all my work including time estimates. for the case of physical note taking, the formula is number of slides times 6 minutes per slide. i like to be very liberal with my time estimating so that i feel like i'm saving time rather than taking too long. 😆)
🌺 checked the roommate spreadsheet and paid my roommate for utilities
🧬 added the molecules from module 1 lecture 1 to the molecule wheel (i use wheelofnames.com to practice structures, pathways and mechanisms)
🧬 did the module 1 lecture 1 practice worksheet. completed in 0:34; saved 0:26
🧬 made my notecard deck for module 1 lecture 1. completed in 1:15; saved 2:00 (and tbf while the timer was running i also created the folder and subfolders for metabolism in my notecard app and deleted a bunch of old ones that were just clutter)
🧬 watching the videos and annotating the slideshow for module 2 lecture 2: glycolysis. didn't get very far
my mind was not very disciplined today. hopefully this next week will be better.
💤 6h 57m
💧 60 oz (i'm assuming. i don't really remember)
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🕰️ 3:30 ish hours? didn't keep very good track near the end watching the videos. saved 4:10
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2025 was the year I realized just how much doom scrolling has cost me. My reading capacity, memory, consistency, creativity, ability to keep working hard, etc etc. I used to be the kid with shelves of books and now I haven't read the ones I bought years ago. I can barely keep track of time and the days just fly by, I don't even know what I did during most of them. I obviously can work hard but not persistently, I've lost the ability to put in effort day by day to reap the reward in the end, I'm either hard on myself or I give up and stop caring when I don't achieve something immediately. I barely have any hobbies anymore, its been replaced by scrolling. This has generally been normalized so much tbh, so many people I know don't have hobbies anymore. Even my english is getting worse, while I know my native language instinctively, I hadn't realized that I had to keep reading to not forget vocabulary and basic grammar lol. But this is not who I want to be anymore. I don't like this version of myself, I don't want to be this stupid, useless, and incompetent. I want to change, I want to be better and do better for myself. I've been privileged enough to receive the sort of education and opportunities so many around the world have been denied. Hell, I do genuinely believe I have the brains, I've just not been using it right. I have tried to get my life before so many times before, but I hadn't properly realized where I was going wrong and I've never had the drive I have now. It won't be easy, but I hope 2026 is going to be my year
If you haven't heard, the em dash has been getting a lot of attention lately…
Because it was trained on pirated work—including freely accessible online writing (like fanfic, academic texts)—ChatGPT picked up patterns and quirks native to human writing.
Including (sigh) the em dash.
There are other victims here (RIP tapestry and delve 🫠), but the appropriation of the em dash—a punctuation mark beloved by writers everywhere—feels especially personal.
A kind of low-grade panic is ensuing. Writers who once memed their own em dash overuse—the greatest punctuation mark ever to grace the control-freak’s lexicon, frankly—are suddenly backing away to avoid accusations.
No. More. We have centuries of dash-abusing writers behind us. We will not sit quietly while AI repurposes our beloved stilted aside—or the just-one-more clarification the sentence demands—or the dramatic pause your comma could never—etc.
You don’t write like AI—AI writes like you.
Defend the em dash.
(Feel free to download/share/stick it where it matters!)
12.11.25
23:26
🌺 bought fruit
🌺 ate fruit
🌺 took a shower
🌺 ate dinner (ish)
🧬 gotten all the way to 73/80 multiple choice questions for lec 10
(yes, yes i still have quite a bit to do. there's lots going on emotionally and i spent some time on the phone and also my brain has just been ruminating so i am somewhat slowed down. one winter break goal is to get to a 9 hour nightly average of sleep within a reasonable timeframe that can be sustained when classes resume because so many of my issues right now are either caused or exacerbated by my sleep deficit)
12.11.25
15:37
update: i realized that my exam on tuesday the 16th will not change my letter grade either way so... huzzah, i'm passing 🥳 and that's all the thought that i'm going to put into that because there's no point stressing myself out about it.
that means that the only hurdle left is the bio stats exam tomorrow 10:30-12:30. i have no idea precisely where i sit in that class because the professor has a weird grading system, has had our averages hidden all semester, un-hid them on monday at which point i got out my grade spreadsheet and could not get it to match the canvas average, and then hid the average again because of all the emails she received about it. apparently, i was not the only one with that problem.
i need to keep my C, so mathematically i should not need more than a 70, possibly more like something in the high 60s. but 70-ish is the goal. she sent out an announcement about the final saying to focus on the final two modules, 10 and 11, so i decided to take that to mean "the final will mostly if not only be on these two modules" and run with it.
here's what i've accomplished so far:
🧬 worked through 20 computational practice problems for lec 10
🧬 made lec 10 portion of my formula sheet with formulas and meanings of variables
🧬 started the practice multiple choice problems for lec 10 (6/80)
before the exam that's in 19 hours i need to finish the lec 10 multiple choice practice, add relevant definitions from lec 10 to the formula sheet, do the lec 11 computational practice problems, make the lec 11 part of the formula sheet with formulas and variables, do the lec 11 practice multiple choice, and add definitions from lec 11 to the formula sheet. oh, and install lockdown browser on the chromebook i checked out from the library because my macbook's camera is broken.
sidebar: i'm sitting in the office where i am a student worker at the front desk and i'm getting set up to keep studying in the seating area that's ringed by a squarish U of offices, and one of the ladies that works here emerged and asked me if i was studying for a final and which one and i said bio stats, and then i heard both her and the other lady she had just been talking to go "blech" and i said yep 😂
at some point i also ideally need to go buy fruit. very critical. and finish some laundry. and wash my hair. OH and do the practice exam cause it's worth extra credit.
okay i'll be back later.
12.08.25
alright folks popping back in to ramble to myself during finals week. this semester has been a beast and i am cowering in the corner of the dragon’s lair trying to stretch my remaining strength (focus? will to get up? idk take what you want) until such a time (december 16th at 10 a.m.) when i can finally close my eyes and be at peace (join the friend group winter break minecraft server. and go on guilt-free whimsical side quests. and also sleep).
the unknowns from micro lab (last grades in the class because the final is optional) just got graded and i kept my B 🥳 i also got the genus and species right for both of them, which was only 16% of the unknowns, so not the biggest deal mathematically, and i would’ve been fine if i had lost those points due to narrowing down the results incorrectly, but still very VERY satisfying on a personal level.
my first final, statistics for biology, is december 12th at 10:30 a.m. i need to keep my current letter grade but i don’t know what i need to get on the final because canvas is doing something weird to calculate my average and i tried for like an hour but could not replicate it on my spreadsheet. so we’re just gonna play it extra safe and say that i need a 70. probably not that difficult if i lock in today.
my other final, molecular genetics, is december 16th at 8 a.m. i need a 52. also probably doable if i become and remain locked in for the next seven days. (a 52 probably sounds a lot more doable than my reflection indicates, but the class had an awful prof for the first half who is writing half of the final and i have internalized maybe 10% of the material. honestly, the grades i’ve gotten on the midterms, while dismal, were still higher than i probably deserved, so i’m just hoping that trend continues.)
anyways stay tuned if you want 🫶🏻
"God never gives you more than you can handle" is survivorship bias. People who got more than they could handle are dead.
Oh, dear. I can't reblog that fast enough.
LOUDER FOR THE PEOPLE IN THE BACK
YOU WILL FIND A WAY!!!! YOU WILL FIND A WAY . You will find a WAY ….. you WILL find a way . You will find a way you will find a way……!! YOU WILL FIND A WAY YOU WILL FIND A WAY you will find a Way you will (find) a way you will find. a way you will find a way YOU WILL FIND A WAY!!!!!!!
we’re really at that point in the year where no one cares about anything huh
My psych professor mentioned swaddling in lecture so I emailed him a picture of me being swaddled in my dorm room and asked if I could get extra credit because it was really hot in there and I got really sweaty and he was like “fabulous, sure”
I’m going to miss the Honors Advisor from my university.
This is definitely my favorite email i’ve recieved from a professor, with the subject line “back at it”.
“no matter how many crappy, stupid, useless assignments you throw at me i’m not going to quit and i’m not going to back down so you can go home tonight and think about the fact that no matter what you do and no matter how evil you are at the end of the year on my high school transcript its going to say that I worked on the franklin.” - Rory Gilmore
Tumblr can wait... I have things to do.