May 21
It's the worst feeling, when you feel it slowly creeping back in. It's all too familiar. The aches, the indifference, the longing, and yet you welcome it. What else can you do? There's no stopping it. It's comfortable and uncomfortable all at once. You want to shake it. But how? It's different for everyone. So do they notice when it takes a hold of you? How can you fight something that is warning you, protecting you from worse. You sink into sleep, and hope it goes away the next day. But instead it gets worse, and sleep becomes a haven, and yet it eludes you. The hunger it brings and the eventual lack of hunger too. Slowly you forget what it was like before. How you beat it, and scared it away.
How can I beat it, when it feels so safe?
