mary.

intj | ♑︎ | 25 Kinda my diary and safe space~

[marydarkblacknoir]

Alice: I don't love you anymore

Dan: Since when?

Alice: Now. Just now. I don‘t want to lie. Can't tell the truth, so it's over

Dan: It doesn't matter. I love you. None of it matters

Alice: Too late. I don't love you anymore. Goodbye

Here's the truth, so now you can hate me. Larry fucked me all night. I enjoyed it. I came. I prefer you. Now go

Dan: I knew that. He told me

Alice: You knew?

Dan: I needed to hear it from you

Alice: Why?

Dan: Because he might have been lying. I had to hear it from you

Alice: I would never have told you, because I know you would have never forgived me

Dan: I would. I have

Alice: Why did he tell you?

Dan: Because he's a bastard

Alice: How could he?

Dan: Because he wanted this to happen

Alice: But why test me?

Dan: Because I'm an idiot

Alice: Yes. I would have loved you... forever. Now, please go

Dan: Don't do this, Alice. Talk to me

Alice: I am talking. Fuck off

Dan: No I'm sorry. You misunderstand! I didn't mean to

Alice: Yes you did

Dan: I love you!

Alice: Where?

Dan: What?

Alice: Show me! Where is this love? I... I can't see it, I can't touch it. I can't feel it. I can hear it. I can hear some words, but I can't do anything with your easy words

Whatever you say is too late

Dan: Please, don't do this!

Alice: It's done

Now, please go, or I'll call security

Dan: No, you're not in a strip club, there is no security

Why did you fuck him?

Alice: I wanted to

Dan: Why?!

Alice: I desired him

Dan: Why?!

Alice: You weren't there!

Dan: Why him?!

Alice: He asked me nicely

Dan: You're a liar

Alice: So?

Dan: Who are you?

Alice: I'm no one!

[marydarkblacknoir]

You came into my life-not as one comes to visit (you know, “not taking one’s hat off”) but as one comes to a kingdom where all the rivers have been waiting for your reflection, all the roads, for your steps.

Vladimir Nabokov, Letters to Vera

[halfapoet]

December opened her door two days ago and all I can see inside her house is the same month, another year; All I can think about is how the good bye was not long enough. It was this: you standing there, holding the girl’s some other girl’s favourite flowers and the voice in my head telling me it was an honest mistake, because what else could it be. It was someone else’s favourite restaurant, a memorized coffee order from another cold date night, another face behind your closed eyes, repeated words from a failed story you could not close. It was me, slowly fading from your life, and it was you, not turning back to ask. It's a new December now but I think it might always be december and I will always wait outside the door I closed, to see if you ever turn back.

[marydarkblacknoir]

He is the closest person to my heart yet the most distant one physically.

[marydarkblacknoir]

Sometimes I feel like all that love and attention that I get is fake. Like they really don’t want to give it to me and they don’t care, like deep down I don’t deserve it. Then I feel bad for myself. I feel nauseous. I wanna throw up my whole damn life. But then again I remember the only person who is there for me is myself. So I’m used to enjoy my own company. So don’t ask me “how do you live like this?” I rather have my books around me, a cup of tea, movies to watch and endless hours to spend with me…

[nixscriptum]

[marydarkblacknoir]

Whenever you don’t give me attention, it’s like silence treatment. It’s like you’re trying to punish me for nothing. Don’t you understand how much that ruins me?

Relationships must be nourished and cherished to grow. By this time of our lives we should’ve enjoyed life together, with each other. But you’re ruining it. Just like how you did last time.

A gentleman should man up and pursue a lady himself. Otherwise others will get her.

I think my life is going to that way too.

[stuckinapril]

people who only use conventional social media are so funny bc they’ll casually be like “can I see your tumblr??” are you Insane. this is no instagram or twitter. this is my vault of secrets

[marydarkblacknoir]

A round of applause!!!

[marydarkblacknoir]

You won’t ever find the same person and the same feeling twice in a person.

[emo-vampire-mwah-deactivated202]

Imagine trying to explain labubus and italian brainrot to henry winter

[marydarkblacknoir]

He’s going to have the same attitude he had towards bunny’s actions when he was doing irresistible things… sooooo fun to watch

[notebookofnyx]

Imagining covers for a penguin classics edition in this style for The Secret History. Which one is best?

[marydarkblacknoir]

Top left and middle right really rockin’ there!

[marydarkblacknoir]

Love comforteth like sunshine after rain,

But lust’s effect is tempest after sun;

Love’s gentle spring doth always fresh remain,

Lust’s winter comes ere summer half be done.

Love surfeits not, lust like a glutton dies;

Love is all truth, lust full of forged lies.

William Shakespeare, Venus and Adonis

[marydarkblacknoir]

The art that Hannibal Lecter makes with food is so fine that every time that I look at the cooking scenes, I ignore the fact that it’s cannibalism! Like really dude knows how to create something fine even with the most horrible things.

[plays Animals by Maroon 5]

[cherrygracelisbon]

god tier movies

[marydarkblacknoir]

There she was, my new best friend

High heels in her hand, swayin' in the wind

While she starts to cry

Mascara runnin' down her little Bambi eyes

"Lana, how I hate those guys"

[65mpg]

[shipitneverquitit]

Vi, to Caitlyn: Undercity's gonna eat you alive.

Also Vi: it's me, I'm Undercity

[marydarkblacknoir]

Mais, vrai, j'ai trop pleuré! Les aubes sont navrantes. What a sad and beautiful line that is. I'd always hoped that someday I'd have the chance to use it. And maybe the dawns will be less harrowing in that country for which I shortly depart. Then again, the Athenians think death to be merely sleep. Soon I will know for myself.

Donna Tartt, The Secret History