[mckennasdid]

Looking for moots !!

We need friends to talk to. Preferably other systems. Age 21+ (since the body is 23). Dm us if you want to be moots!

Needs to be traumagenic systems only.

[harleymckenna]

[mckennasdid]

Do any other borderlines feel insulted when someone tries to tell them "you don't have BPD, you're just Autistic with CPTSD"?

Why must they try to make us "feel better" by telling us what we do or don't have instead of what we were diagnosed with?

Why is it so bad for them that people (specifically women) say they are diagnosed with BPD.

...What if I have all 3? Then what?

Edit: god forbid a girl has a fucking personality disorder instead of trying to conform to what people say she is to fit into other people's comfort

[mckennasdid]

I think a hard thing to live with when you have DID, for me at least (as the host and the one that identifies with the body), is feeling so estranged from your younger self.

When it comes to my "Inner child/Inner child work" I feel like there's no hope in trying because I don't know her.

[mckennasdid]

Having DID & BPD is having a hella lot of persecutor alters. And not persecutor in terms of "i hate the body, I want to hurt it" but more so, not able to regulate emotions properly so a lot of alters resort to self harming the body as a way of release or to try to gain control of whatever is going on.

[mckennasdid]

DID isn't just having alters, it's:

Not knowing as the host, who you are most of the days 24/7

Not knowing which name to go by

Derealization/Depersonalization 24/7

[mckennasdid]

[mckennasdid]

You ever dissociate from your own identity... and you're NOT the host??

Like "im not real! There's no way I'm real!"

[mckennasdid]

Instead of asking what pronouns I want to go by today, ask what name(s) I want to go by today.

[mckennasdid]

Having BPD and DID (& DPDR) is really funny because, as the host, I can say my name is this one day, and then something different the next day, and people might think we changed hosts, but really I just can't settle on a name for myself.

[mckennasdid]

I'm 23 years old, yet a younger alter is in control majority of the time, so mentally I'm 8-17 years old. I'm supposed to be enjoying my life, having a great time, but instead a trauma holder is in charge of my life so I'm more introverted, reserved, quiet, sensitive, and more girly than usual.

[mckennasdid]

Need innerworld trauma advice

How does the DID/OSDD community view innerworld trauma?

One of our teen alters is in junior year of high school in the innerworld and she has been going through intense trauma by the other kids at her school. I won't go into detail about what the trauma is for privacy reasons, however, anytime she comes to front, she ruminates on her trauma which makes it hard for me (the host) and her to function in our day to day lives.

Additionally, the teen alter needs advice on how to cope with her (innerworld) trauma.

[mckennasdid]

I very much like to look at myself, but I very seldomly like to watch myself

-Alice Kingsleigh

[mckennasdid]

[mckennasdid]

How does one start a community for alters that were once persecutors (or are still considered persecutors) but are now protectors?

Update: I MADE ONE! Called Persecutor-Protectors!

If you want to join, please do so! Only request is no endos allowed.

All persecutor-protectors are stars!

Side note: I want to preface that anyone of any age may join however let's keep the community mostly PG/PG-13. Our body age is 23 so if you are a minor and don't feel comfortable joining, that's totally fine.

[mckennasdid]

Harley

[mckennasdid]

personal Dissociative Identity Disorder rant

Rowena (a part in our system) is very different from when she's 24-25 years old to when she's 17-19 years old

At 24-25 years old she is a mother to all the littles in the system, very soft, kind, caring, loving towards everyone.

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At 17-19 years old, she's a fucking batshit crazy person who gets angry at everyone and is willing to fight anyone.

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Between the two different sets of ages, when she's 24-25 she often thinks of herself from when she was 17-19 as a thing of the past, a rebellious phase, something she isn't proud of

When she's 17-19, she forgets about her role as a system mother, and doesn't recall the littles she takes care of. Almost like she's stuck in the time period from when she was 17-19.