madness in the method

des ☼ they/them ☼ ao3

[meanlesbean]

hello, you can call me des or bean!

🔅 they/them lesbian 🔅 posting fic as dezz on ao3 🔅 fic tag // cadence tag 🔅 currently obsessed with loz & batman 🔅 here there be: video games, animals, writing, and miscellaneous gay shit

[bonivers]

(girl who is already extremely private) i think i need to Move In More Silence

[meanlesbean]

well therapy sure will be a doozy tomorrow. still have seen her few enough times that a lot our sessions so far have been covering personal history & family dynamics. the self esteem issues are obvious given my history but not something I've really touched on. well doc we gotta skip right to it today, obviously there is something fundamentally repulsive about me that everyone else in the world can perceive and yet I've been unable to change fix or remove it so like. what am i supposed to do about this thing called "life"

[balaclava-trismegistus]

Just saw my doctor type "FUCKED FOR LIFE" on my chart then he turned the screen away and stopped making eye contact with me

[entiqua]

turns your wolf link into a spirit tracks wolfos

[souplups]

…

[evvergreen]

tumblr is the website for if you're just someone's weird sister

[meanlesbean]

anyone know how to stop feeling like this in every social setting ever

[o0kawaii0o]

Hero of Time

[treecitysessions]

[treecitysessions]

There’s a catastrophic female loneliness epidemic happening rn but nobody gaf bc women aren’t going out and hurting people about it we just betray and destroy ourselves for nothing

[campsis]

Eden Kalif, Good Cats

[tennisfashion]

naomi osaka in custom hana yagi, inspired by japanese ceremonial dress, at wimbledon photographed by sebastian arriagada for british vogue

[chloematis]

“That’s true! I did! I crinkled this!“ A painting of my favorite post from @straycatj I hope my rendition of this dastardly crime did it justice

[straycatj]

Why do you reveal my naughty past… although it’s a good art…but…but…but…

[petewentz-]

It's fun being queer and weird and unconventional until you remember you live in a society

[meanlesbean]

music fest weekend is very fun but also spent yesterday in a mindloop of "am I genuinely being excluded in this social situation or is my perception of exclusion making me anti-social and precluding me from being included" someone just take me out back like ole yeller

[utopians]

I'm sorry guys I know no one is going to want to hear this but I just got resuscitated after being dead for 5 minutes and it turns out hazbin hotel is true

[d94hxc]

Why do people treat near death visions and hallucinations as anything other than identical to dreaming?

I know some people take even dreams seriously, but it concerns me when I think about how people believe near-death or short-death experiences are somehow different or more true??

[utopians]

honestly an incredibly disrespectful and tasteless comment to make on my post about my very real experience of dying and going to hazbin hotel