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free Palestine 🇵🇸 30s, they/them, musician, writer, artist, unapologetic opinion-sharer, interact at your own risk old enough to be cringe to the young'uns

[meilas]

helpful about me page

nonbinary+transmasc, they/them or he/him alternate names: socks, baxton, nix my AO3 Til I Hear You Sing parody (co-author @from-aldebaran) Gummy Bears Phantom parody (co-author @from-aldebaran) Phantom Wine List (multiple co-authors) my ultimate Phantoms/Christines/Raouls list part 1 part 2 My reviews of mostly POTO boots

[moishe-pipick]

[mommahoney]

Lying Liars

YES!

[gaeliclass]

Law to make it illegal to lie in elections passed in Senedd

Welsh parliament agrees law to outlaw lying in future Senedd election campaigns.

[katiedingo]

I had to check this wasn’t The Onion

[meilas]

@gwalchmedi

[psychic-waffles]

We're at the "JK Rowling is personally funding litigation to try and destroy AMNESTY INTERNATIONAL" stage of rabid UK terf brain.

Screenshot via Alejandra Caraballo @esqueer.net on bluesky

Tldr Amnesty International, global human rights organisation, published a report called 'A growing threat: the anti-rights movement in the UK'. In it is detailed, amongst others, a whole bunch of transphobic groups and organisations, including Beira's Place, JK Rowling's trans exclusionary sexual violence support service. JK Rowling threw a shit fit and got Amnesty to take the report down by threatening libel. This was obviously not enough, because you can't appease a fascist, so now she's going to bankroll a bunch of lawsuits anyway through the JK Rowling Women's Fund.*

You can read an archived version of the report here, please save it and share it.

*Not so friendly reminder there is no way to engage in the wizard books without enabling this shit.

[meilas]

damn she really hates trans people

[xsf0]

Probably more medical detail than opsec calls for, but there's practically zero research on nonbinary chemical gender transition — so I'm throwing my trip report into the collective 'net.

I am nearly 29, knew I was trans since 17 and I have been on HRT (estrogen) on and off for the past 18 months with testosterone for the last 6. Currently: 8mg Estradiol Enanthate weekly, plus 25mg testosterone weekly.

The hypothesis: The body auto-converts excess T→E and excess E→T, so it can handle high levels of both without much trouble. Women regularly take testosterone during menopause — this should be doable.

My theory: Take high E to block natural T production, then supplement a tiny bit of T to compensate. Should keep everything contextually balanced.

Six months in, and I just got my labs back. My doctor (not amused by this experiment) is shocked: I'm healthier than I've ever been across every metabolic marker. Dead center on every single metric. Blood pressure normal (first time ever). Weight stable. I have some breast growth starting, but no solidified nodules — so with raloxifene I could revert 90%+ if I wanted (TBD). They are very sensitive, for better or worse.

I have noticed my body becoming more feminine (appreciated), which is saying something since I am naturally broad and muscular. Think of a very masc blacksmith-NPC-character-model kind of build. I have curves now. Skin is overall softer. Body hair is much thinner (previously was bold, black, and gnarly). Face is smoother, jawline more defined, but the face itself is a bit rounder, especially in the cheeks.

Mental state is solid. Making real progress on projects, feeling hopeful, taking more risks and actually being comfortable with it. More open, more outgoing. Before this was quite depressed, anxious, paranoid, unable to make decisions, and just felt worthless, now its the exact opposite - I have tried every anti-depressant around, and had great luck with LSD, but this has been by far the most 'calm', happy, and level-headed I have ever been. That said, on pure estrogen, my mental clarity is certainly sharper. The combo is still clear enough though.

I understand why most queer people hate these kinds of reports and this kind of experimentation, trust me my friends make that very clear. And sure, I'm probably still denying plenty of things to myself. But , from a research perspective, this has always fascinated me, and the literature is so thin that I might as well add a small, informal case study to the mix.

[xsf0]

Q: Why do queer people hate these kinds of reports? I'm unfamiliar

I am writing this here because the tumblr reply system is purposefully built for extremely short-form communication and this is a longer answer.

This is a mixed answer, all people have different hangups, some are around natural arguments, some are perversions of inclusivity philosophy, some are residual myopic views on gender, and some are just plain worried about what it means for them, or the time sunk cost falacy that maybe they went down the wrong path. I don't have anything against these people, many of them are very dear friends that I would give my life for, but this is the way I read it and have noticed in discussions (and analyzing my own gender woes and hangups). This is a bit longer, so stay tuned after the break:

Welcome back! - let's get into it.

Some worry that researching alternative hormone regimens could societaly delegitimize being trans, invalidate their own path, regret through the 'possibility of alternatives', and more. Even in queer spaces, gender is often still treated as a binary. You can switch sides, but you can't exist outside them. That men are men, women are women, and while you can switch between them, you shouldn't, wouldn't, and couldn't be anything outside of that binary. Some hold this philosophically; others fear that expanding the binary will make society hate us more for complicating the conversation. Why fight the system when you can just work to redefine it from within? There are quite a few otherwise progressive people who will accept non-binary as a category, but it becomes clear in conversation that they see it as a subset of the primary dualities of 'femme|female|woman|girl' and 'masc|male|men|boy' . You can be nonbinary [masc.nb] or nonbinary [femme.nb] but "nonbinary" itself isn't a category you're allowed to be. The same people who notably and righteously reject gender hierarchies often still treat masc lesbians as closer to men than to women, or trans men as closer to women than men — even if they hold that trans women are women (or the inverse). They may argue that sapphic or gay spaces should only include femme and masc primary archetypes, and ignore anything that goes beyond those labels. But I digress....

There is also a strange, yet marginally understandable, bio-essentialist reframing of "You can't be both. Your body runs on one primary hormone, synthetic or not." It masquerades as natural fact but often traces back to just plain unexamined essentialist thinking. Now, part of the reason for the natural naturalistic fallacy argument is that non-binary transition paths are radically understudied, even by the scant standards of trans and gender research. We know the 'standard' approach works for transition, and we just build off that through replication of studies and more, but frontier science is nearly nonexistent. So we default to "your body has one primary hormone, don't fuck with nature, god mother nature knows all" and take it at face value.

Another view: any affirmative research into this could be weaponized by anti-trans evangelists to argue that "transition isn't worth it," because it breaks apart the coupled concepts of social transition and chemical transition—the idea that if you're perceived as masc or femme, your chemical makeup can't be at odds with that perception. If the social view doesn't have to match, and you can "solve" being trans chemically, then appearance doesn't matter. And that threatens preconceived notions of what is and isn't natural, biological, expected, or scientific.

You can hear echoes of the same argument from others in the community "You can't and shouldn't boymode, even if you genuinely enjoy it, because the real goal is to be yourself, inside and out. Anything else is just fear keeping you in your comfort zone." You should be free to be yourself. I won't argue against it. But some people would be understandably fine being perceived as a jacked masc dude while running on primarily estrogen.

Here's a hypothetical, and uncomfortable thought experiment: If a pill existed that eliminated dysphoria (you don't need dysphoria to be trans!), depression, and all of the mental and physical desires to transition, trans activists would call it "medical conversion therapy" and oppose it; while anti-trans evangelists would celebrate it as medical conversion therapy and demand it become mandatory. Both sides would find common ground, then eat each other's faces.

If non-binary transition or balanced hormone levels proved effective for people like me, it'd be weaponized by both camps, each treating non-binary as a subcategory of the binary, not an expansion of gender itself. And that terrifies people who may not realize they believe society should forever be bound by a dual gender hierarchy, a two-party system. They'll say they understand non-binary people exist, but still see them as part of the binary. As if the name on the tin isn't literally non and binary - to be not of the binary, and not just used as a collective new superior monolithic third category just as no woman is an island, nonbinary is not a monolith. There's a lot of nuance and straw-manning here, but after countless discussions: with myself, with others, in circles, with people who get it and people who don't, I'm sure I'm still missing some arguments. But, it mostly boils down to these issues.

[meilas]

This girl I knew in high school messaged me out of nowhere back in January. I havn't seen her in 16 years. She's lesbian. She knows I'm trans. This attitude tells me that she does not see me as a trans person. And that's fine! But don't try to hook up with me. I am about to just block her because I am tired of this.

[prokopetz]

You know, when I've remarked that a lot of the responses to my posts feel like people are just plucking out keywords they think they recognise based on the shape of them and replying to what they imagine the post says based on that, the possibility never occurred to me that this is actually how many American schools are currently teaching kids to read.

[meilas]

Taylor Swift was always the girl on the bleachers instead of the cheer team because that bitch can’t dance

[beardedmrbean]

[theman]

I GOT A FUCKING RAISE THE POTATO WORKED WTF

[tattooedzombigirl]

This potato works. Every. Fucking. Time.

[imanutcase-10]

Then bring me luck

[thirddeadlysin]

the day after I posted this last time I was notified that I was selected for a really cool mentorship gig and got an unrelated glowing review at work

[icantbearsedtothinkofone]

Hey Potato, cure my -ing cold so I can have a good time while away.

[dduane]

Here's the potato. Make what use of it you will. :)

[liberalsarecool]

Stay engaged.

[project-catgirlpiller]

[tiny-space-whale]

Reblog if you are a human rights extremist who believes that all humans are equal and has no sense of loyalty to nation states.

[anxietyproblem]

[elsa-fogen]

I'm busy, can you please watch over him?

P. S. You need to get as close to 50/50 as possible to win

Ok!

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Voting ended onJul 13

[hometoursandotherstuff]

A home for the sophisticated Hobbit. Look at this place! Have you ever seen anything like it? Underhill, near Homefirth, UK has 4bds, 3ba, 3,900sqft, and was designed by architect Arthur Quarmby in 1969, completed in 1975. $1,816,019

Let us enter the round front door and take a look inside. Welcome to the Hobbit estate.

You may be wondering why the foyer doors are square.

The round doors have sliding barn doors on the other side.

It's huge in here, open concept, and gets a lot of light from the sliding glass doors and skylights in the hill.

And, surprise! There's a gorgeous indoor pool. Do you love the canopy and skylight over it?

Beautiful poolside rock walls.

Imaging sitting around the pool all year round.

Poolside dining area is in front of the windows.

Sliders open to the fabulous garden.

In this corner there's a large flat screen.

Ultra modern kitchen.

And, the coziest family room.

Then, double doors beside the pool slide open to reveal a pool room with a bar, flatscreen, and skylight.

The primary suite features a sliding glass wall to the beautifully designed bath.

There's also a large walk-in closet/dressing room.

This is a child's room, judging by the toy stove and rocking horse.

And, another lovely marble bath.

The property is amazing. Here's the patio, of course.

You can climb on the roof.

Here are the skylights. The middle one is the beautiful over the pool.

Gardens.

And, the entrance gates to Underhill. Note the 2 car garage, also. A home fit for the most discerning Hobbit.

https://www.jamesedition.com/real_estate/holmfirth-united-kingdom/16015180

[orlissa]

which AO3 tag are you?

Tagged by the lovely @purplesigebert

...I strangely feel both called out and seen.

The Quiz

Tagging @aloveforjaneausten @jomiddlemarch @mercurygray @stargazerdaisy @polikszena @buttercupadventures

[natedogx15]

...I can kind of see this.

@thefcguy @booksrbetterthanpeople @msweebyness @fayflutter @imsparky2002 @vigilante-bardock @whiterosequeen23 @catapuskai @randypelow

[vigilante-bardock]

I uh.. I don’t know how to feel about this…

@thefcguy @fayflutter @fabseg-creator @imsparky2002 @celestiall0tus @cornerverse @sassyduckqueen

[fayflutter]

*....glances at all the bad end aus i've created over the years*

Are we sure about that...? I think mine is busted, guys

@kittysuicoffee @agoraphcbja @theemoreader @shadownymphette @thetimelordbatgirl @thefcguy @catapuskai

[catapuskai]

Me too 😔

@whiterosequeen23 @istansquirrels @gemasthoughts @t4t-amour-yuri @kittysuicoffee

[t4t-amour-yuri]

sounds about right

@mezamun @crappyyuki @silverncats

[silvermeww]

Guess I’ve been called out.

@sinza-official @ofathousandscenes

[ofathousandscenes]

While it doesn’t quite describe my writing or reading, this tag very much does describe my life…

@katarithekat @thetoyakinnie

[katarithekat]

thank you for the tag!!! <3

I got this before and now I got it again (not complaining tho)

tags nf/:

@sothisish0witends @fauna-loves-spinel @cericreatively @certified-dot-simp @inscrutable-ari @obbithecat @trinketcollectingcrow @evee1308 + open tags

[cericreatively]

well, can't a girl just explore multitudes and the many possibilities of "what could've been"? We all need serotonin in these trying times to stay alive :']]]

Anyways, tagging the moots :]]]

@pyrobuyo @quaintcy @aubreelikescats @akaiuchiha @combeferres-mothematics @twyrewolf @cinders-writes @juniperbrick @cawffeechu @fandomdreemur @ravengirl2002-blog @peerlesscinders @flothefrostwolf @thatone-blujae @ravioliiraven @godlessgoatcheese @pudding28 @alystar00 @noritheidiot @auri-ace @e-adlirez @intoomanyfandomstolist @land-of-frogs-and-dragons @crypticw00rm @purrhaptic @yoooo-ima-lurk

[aubreelikescats]

yeah fair.

@musical-ingenue-wannabe @mgmt2 @downtothelandofwonders @dqk-theaceartist @cinders-writes @clemmies-here @combeferres-mothematics @kittysboba @akaiuchiha / open tags

[musical-ingenue-wannabe]

ykw, fair.

@murderbutterfly @conquerthenight @quanta-44 @pleasesetmywagononfire @kdreader02 @whooshtanyth

[paper-faces]

Yeah…

Which AO3 tag are you?

I got fix-it... which ao3 tag are you?

No pressure ever to participate! But I’d love to see what hilarious tags the phandom ends up with.

@from-aldebaran @englishmajorloser @nerdywriter36 @rose-margaritas @brendadaaedestler @ravens-repine @turteltee @greenstripedcat @almostemilyy @wismoth @daaesviolin @64feet @litloverscorsetlaces And literally anyone and everyone else. I can’t tag you all 😭 Too many pookies 😭

[brendadaaedestler]

Yeahhh accurate 😂

Tags: @wheel-of-fish @nerdywriter36 @rose-margaritas @erik-carriere @from-aldebaran

[meilas]

i’m so late to doing this

YOU’RE TOO DAMN RIGHT I’M CREATIVE

[podcastwizard]

LIKES TO CHARGE REBLOGS TO CAST

[the-goddess-of-annoying]

you people aren't CASTING

[the-goddess-of-annoying]

NO

[penny-anna]

what the hell is going on

[meilas]

this fool hasn’t heard of the Clacton byelection