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tw vent // asd, anxiety, ptsd, bpd, bipolar, osdd, baddie// a bit more hopeful these days

[tabathastan]

I think one of the worst symptoms of bpd is the lack of emotional permanence no matter how many good and loving people you have in your life the second you are alone it feels like you were never loved and it was all just a figment of your imagination

[gabapentinblues]

feeling detached from everything in a way that scares me

[insaneinpink]

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[motelhymns]

when you’re laying in your bed crying and wondering when the pain and fear will stop and suddenly you’re 14 years old again and wondering why everyone you love hurts you and uses you and leaves you and why you aren’t good enough

[aleksanderyearns]

sometimes i mourn the person i could've been if i hadnt gone through all this trauma and didnt end up with a personality disorder

[happyherringbonkpickle]

[allygirlll]

[hello-friends9500]

"Tough love" didn't really work on me.

[yourgirlinpieces4]

all roads lead back to the loneliness i felt as a child

[pup-purgatory]

[bpdohwhatajoy]

[karmareleased]

Really gross of me to desire attention, disgusting honestly.

[pastelcottoncandyunicorn]

i feels like there’s something missing in me that the rest of the world has and it’s not fair

[motelhymns]

when you’re laying in your bed crying and wondering when the pain and fear will stop and suddenly you’re 14 years old again and wondering why everyone you love hurts you and uses you and leaves you and why you aren’t good enough

[mentally-ill-loser-rants]

the way I can go from.normal to suicidal is crazy

[hel7l7]

Guess this will hurt for a while

[shatteredmirror-sys]

people need to talk about socially acceptable abuse more. it's literally why we're a system. the spanking that people refuse to believe is physical abuse when there are multiple studies showing it affects kids just as much as any other type of physical abuse. the way a parent might talk down to their kid their entire life and make them feel like they cant make any choices themself or be independent that they only notice when someone else points out how their parent(s) talk too and about them. the parentification of the oldest kid(s) when they have a single parent. the unnoticeable praise towards the "easy" child that all the other children pick up on. the neglect the "easy" child has to go through. a kid being punished for going to their parent(s) when they mess up and need help. not being taught how to clean or cook or do laundry or even how to wash certain parts. it all destroys a kid and it was all socially acceptable in my family and in the communities i grew up in.

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