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@melancholicvnt
dexrlybel0ved -> melancholicvnt
t shirt that says i survived hell and all i got was this stupid personality disorder
Yeah, I self isolate and then feel awful because no one seemed to care about it.
Please dont ask me to describe myself. I barely know who I am.
they say you can't pour from an empty cup but i've been doing it my whole life and aside from all of these mysterious ailments it's working out great for me
My fiance and I are having multiple surgeries soon. We dont have dates yet, but we are told to expect consults within the next month or so, and to expect things to move quick after. These surgeries are gender affirming, but they're being pushed through so quickly because they're also going to treat severe, life affecting medical conditions we both have. This is amazing, especially because insurance will cover most of the medical costs.
But there's one massive issue. Hospitals generally cannot feed us. So we need to bring our own food which is going to be incredibly expensive (breakdown below the cut) and on top of that, weve been prescribed medication that insurance wont cover, so we need $85 for that.
I do art as seen below, I have a patreon and kofi for those. I have a GFM up to help with this and that explains a lot more too. If you'd like to help outright, here are some links.
PP V $C
$5 has been recieved since this was posted. I had posted previously about needing medications for both myself and my fiance that insurance wouldn't cover, we got mind, and we arent far from gettinf his. We are currently estimating between the med for him that insurance won't cover and the food for the weeks in the hospital after surgeries, we will need $1,245. Obviously insurance hasn't yet processed everything, but insurance is expected to cover everything else. All things considered, this is extremely cheap for a handful of gender affirming surgeries + surgeries that will treat long term organ damaging health issues. It is also not something we can achieve by ourselves.
Huge thank you to anyone who shares or helps. It feels really surreal to be getting all this scheduled during pride month in an increasingly fascist country.
We have gotten $120 to go towards surgical costs since this was initially posted, and $45 to get the meds that my fiance needs. The goal is adjusted accordingly below. We are managing back to back specialist appointments (5 this week) leaving us little time for anything else, so any help making progress on this is incredibly appreciated.
$120/$1,200
My fiance and I are having multiple surgeries soon. We dont have dates yet, but we are told to expect consults within the next month or so, and to expect things to move quick after. These surgeries are gender affirming, but they're being pushed through so quickly because they're also going to treat severe, life affecting medical conditions we both have. This is amazing, especially because insurance will cover most of the medical costs.
But there's one massive issue. Hospitals generally cannot feed us. So we need to bring our own food which is going to be incredibly expensive (breakdown below the cut) and on top of that, weve been prescribed medication that insurance wont cover, so we need $85 for that.
I do art as seen below, I have a patreon and kofi for those. I have a GFM up to help with this and that explains a lot more too. If you'd like to help outright, here are some links.
PP V $C
$5 has been recieved since this was posted. I had posted previously about needing medications for both myself and my fiance that insurance wouldn't cover, we got mind, and we arent far from gettinf his. We are currently estimating between the med for him that insurance won't cover and the food for the weeks in the hospital after surgeries, we will need $1,245. Obviously insurance hasn't yet processed everything, but insurance is expected to cover everything else. All things considered, this is extremely cheap for a handful of gender affirming surgeries + surgeries that will treat long term organ damaging health issues. It is also not something we can achieve by ourselves.
Huge thank you to anyone who shares or helps. It feels really surreal to be getting all this scheduled during pride month in an increasingly fascist country.
We have gotten $120 to go towards surgical costs since this was initially posted, and $45 to get the meds that my fiance needs. The goal is adjusted accordingly below. We are managing back to back specialist appointments (5 this week) leaving us little time for anything else, so any help making progress on this is incredibly appreciated.
$120/$1,200
DPDR culture is being with someone you love and you suddenly feel numband disconnected, and they feel unfamiliar to you. It's like all your emotions get sucked out. And then it finally passes and upsets you. You feel like you don't care about them for a bit and it worries you, contradicting as that is.
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nothing ever feels real. always. it's a constant that i can never break free from. there is no moment in time that i can recall where i was able to merge with the world. everything has always been detached, disconnected, and unreal.
i envy fiction for feeling more real than i am.
Letter to Jane Williams from Mary Shelley / Unknown artist / The Elektra Complex by Joan Tierney / Art by Jesper Waldersten / The Rum Diary by Hunter S. Thompson / I dreamt november 2014 by Karolina Koryl / How We Fight For Our Lives by Saeed Jones
Sometimes I'm a shitty person. I'm sometimes a poor communicator, I have an explosive temper, I manipulate and I ghost people and I'm a complete ass to those I love if they come near me.
But I'm getting better. I'm learning how to control my temper. I'm working on my trauma so I don't perceive so many things as threats. I'm working on better communication, which is always a two way street so it's best if my side of the street isn't a fucking minefield. I'm working on not ghosting people (which is so so fucking hard but I'm fucking doing the work).
I have been a bad person. I have done some capital e Evil shit. I've been an asshole, I've hurt people, I've been a bad friend to people who really needed me. And I've apologised to the people I can. I've put in the work to make sure I don't hurt them again. I'm working so fucking hard to be better.
And a lot of that work was only able to be done when people listened to me. I have had to be so vulnerable and say "I suck. Please help me not suck." I've had to give people warnings about myself before becoming friends. My closest circles are the ones where we have understood ways of dealing with me. And if those people hadn't trusted me to change, I never would have had the chance to.
Bad people can become better. If you don't believe that you are creating a self fulfilling prophecy where any mistake or relapse (very common in recovery) is a sign of failure.
You have to give people the chance to become better.
They should invent a form of existence that isn't just an endless loop of waking up and feeling misunderstood and alone