a bit of a mess if truth be told

23 year old, perpetual night owl , use this blog to talk about stuff I like

[standupandsaveyourself]

on codependency and hating myself for it

[sailermoon]

be careful with what series you watch/read during emotional points in your life because they will forever contain a ghost of your past self within it now

[sailermoon]

[ribbonlike-and-shrieking]

[metamorphesque]

poems to read while having breakfast at the heartbreak hotel

I know I am but summer to your heart (Sonnet XXVII) by Edna St. Vincent Millay

What lips my lips have kissed, and where, and why (Sonnet XLIII) by Edna St. Vincent Millay

Time does not bring relief (Sonnet II) by Edna St. Vincent Millay 

I Am Not Yours by Sara Teasdale

[you fit into me] by Margaret Atwood

You by Carol Ann Duffy

Be Near Me by Faiz Ahmed Faiz

Blessed be the spectacle by Lev St. Valentine

You Are Tired (I Think) by E.E. Cummings

Hope you're well. Please don't read this by Lev St. Valentine

To Say Dark Things by Ingeborg Bachmann

Lilichka by Vladimir Mayakovski

Love and Hate by Elizabeth Eleanor Siddal

Sanctuary by Jean Valentine

the winter sun says fight by Peter Gizzi

The More Loving One by W. H. Auden

A Primer For The Small Weird Loves by Richard Siken

Dirty Valentine by Richard Siken

Morning by Frank O Hara

We Don't Know How To Say Goodbye by Anna Akhmatova

You'll Live, But I'll Not… by Anna Akhmatova

from “An Attempt at Jealousy” by Marina Tsvetaeva

The Last Toast by Anna Akhmatova

In Dream by Anna Akhmatova

Mad Girl's Love Song by Sylvia Plath

Talking In Bed by Philip Larkin

He wishes for the Cloths of Heaven by W.B. Yeats

La Belle Dame Sans Merci by John Keats

[malusokay]

focus on the likes and not the wants

you may not want to clean your room, but you like the peace and call it brings you after

you may not want to study, but you like the confidence and satisfaction you get from being prepared

you may not not want to apologise, but you like the relief and connection that reconciliation brings

you may not want to cook, but you like the satisfaction of eating a healthy come cooked meal prepared with love

you may not want to exercise, but you like how you feel afterwards and how it makes you confident

you may not want to journal or write, but you like the reflection and calm it brings you

you may not want to step out of your comfort zone, but you like the new experiences and growth you gain from it

my insta @ malusokay

[fandom-trash-goblin]

we've got a life to love living.

[lelif]

on survival

-// @aridante // @orivu // @buzzkillgirls // ? // ? // richard siken// @cemeterything // moomin, tove jansson// @disenchanted-killjoy // isn't that enough, shawn mendes// @ prettytheyswag on twitter// @ coletyumuch on twitter// ? // ? // bird by bird, anne lamott// undertale// @strawberrycircuits

[yvonnesart]

BELATED happy National Poetry Month!

“I Know Crips Live Here” by Leah Lakshmi Piepzna-Samarasinha

“Prayer for Werewolves” by Stephanie Burt

“Tin Busket” by Jenny George

“Give Ear to My Words (Psalm 5)” by Ernesto Cardenal

“Penelope / Odysseus” by Alex Peery Clark @two-bees-poetry

“Achilles / Patroclus” by LJ Moore

“First They Came for the Jews” by Pastor Niemöller

“Two-Headed Calf” by Laura Gilpin

“she asked me if i believed in god and i told her that when i was four i almost drowned in a public pool and in my panic mistook a stranger for my father.” by @inkskinned

“all this living is catching up to me” by @hauntedomens

“The Hymn of Patroclus” by Penelope L. P.

“The first lines of emails I’ve received while quarantining” by Jessica Salfia

“Song for Baby-O, Unborn” by Diane di Prima

“Question” by May Swenson

“Young People” by Richie Hofmann

“The Bronze Arms” by Richie Hofmann

“The Trans Agenda is to Keep My F*cking Friends Alive” by Sol Rios

“For a Student Who Used AI to Write a Paper” by Joseph Fasano

“The Boy Scout Pledge” by Michael Glatze

“How to Watch Your Brother Die” by Michael Lassell

“We Have Enough Dead Friends” by Lena Oleanderson @lena-oleanderson

[liones-s]

one of the biggest things I can advocate for (in academia, but also just in life) is to build credibility with yourself. It’s easy to fall into the habit of thinking of yourself as someone who does things last minute or who struggles to start tasks. people will tell you that you just need to build different habits, but I know for me at least the idea of ‘habit’ is sort of abstract and dehumanizing. Credibility is more like ‘I’ve done this before, so I know I can do it, and more importantly I trust myself to do it’. you set an assignment goal for the day and you meet it, and then you feel stronger setting one the next day. You establish a relationship with yourself that’s built on confidence and trust. That in turn starts to erode the barrier of insecurity and perfectionism and makes it easier to start and finish tasks. reframing the narrative as a process of building credibility makes it easier to celebrate each step and recognize how strong your relationship with yourself can become

[thoughtportal]

[desfraisespartout]

This is a nice video showing an blind/invisible stitch, which is quite useful for repairing tears or finishing something (ex. cushion).

Also, that extra step for putting back the seam is really nice.

[rattledbrainpan]

This is sorcery

I will cherish it

[severeprincesheep]

How to Hem Pants Without Cutting – Invisible Stitch for a Clean

Hem your jeans without cutting original hem| shorten jeans

[sea-mists]

literally though if you feel like your life is slipping through your fingers and every day goes too fast… try doing hard things, not just taking the easy route, like reading and making art and exercising and cooking a meal from scratch and journaling, doing these things without distraction, without being absorbed on a screen… the time will stretch and you’ll be reminded that life is long and beautiful if you make it so.

[queriesntheories]

Reblogging this with these tags because oh my goodness

To the person I reblogged this from THANK YOU i am now going to stick this on my pinboard where I’m gonna see it every single day

“Life is long and beautiful if you make it so”

[whitehartlane]

OUR BEATING HEART, THE ONE WHO STAYED. ↳ "Let's say I'm a legend."

Frederik Backman, Beartown / Son points to the Tottenham badge / BBC Sport / The Times / Son's first game at White Hart Lane, 2015 / Son talks about his career with Tottenham / Son waves to Tottenham supporters while taking a corner / Mitski, Texas Reznikoff / Clementine von Radics, In a Dream You Saw a Way to Survive / Son speaks in a post-match interview about Tottenham / Son on Instagram to Tottenham supporters after being knocked out of the Asian Cup / Lord of the Rings / Lucky Numbers / Son points to the Tottenham badge / Noah Kahan, All My Love / Son talks to the media about watching Tottenham games while being away for Asian Cup duties / Son on his contract extension / Sue Zhao / Son on his captaincy / Son celebrates with Jamie Donley and Alfie Dorrington, Tottenham academy boys / Tottenham academy boy Mikey Moore celebrates a goal with the Son camera celebration / Adam Silvera, They Both Die at the End / Tottenham players describe Sonny in one word / Son and Porro celebrate with the camera celebration / Vicario's message to Son after Son's 400 appearances for Tottenham Hotspur / Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood / Son makes a heart at his Tottenham boys waiting to receive the Man of the Match award in the preseason friendly against Vissel Kobe, 2024 / Alfie Dorrington on his professional debut / Brennan Johnson on Son / Mikey Moore on Twitter / Son's Instagram post after the Europa League tie against IF Elfsborg, wherein three academy boys scored, 2025 / Florence + The Machine, No Choir / Mackenzie Finklea, Beyond the Halls: An Insider Guide's to Loving Museums / Son talks about his legacy in a matchday programme / Son in a post-match interview / Mitski, Remember My Name / Son on winning something with Tottenham / Lucy Dacus, Historians / Son on his legacy with Spurs / Keaton St James, Anatomy Lessons with God / Son on his Golden Boot winning game / EDEN, Nowhere Else / Oasis, Wonderwall / Son on the Europa League Final 24/25 / Gigi Perez, Sailor Song / Vicario on the Europa League Final 24/25 / Madonna, Like a Prayer / Son pats the Tottenham badge over his heart during the Europa League Final, 24/25 / Son falls to his knees and is comforted by Bentancur as the final whistle goes and Tottenham win the Europa League Final 24/25 / Fall Out Boy, The Kids Aren't Alright / A tearful Son embraces Maddison after winning the Europa League / Orpheus and Eurydice / Son lifts the Europa League trophy as captain of Tottenham Hotspur / Son speaks to the media following the Europa League win / Joanna Newsom, Emily / Stray Kids, Behind the Light / Vicario, Maddison, Van de Ven and Romero congratulate Son following their Europa League win / Maddison talks about Son lifting the trophy in Bilbao on the open bus trophy parade / Ben Haines / Rob Daly / Ange's message to Son after Son's 400th appearance for the club / @bensdavies' tags on this post / Son in front of the infamous Ledley King quote / Ruth 1:16 / Son and Moore with the Europa League trophy / Hozier, Francesca / Son on winning the Europa League with Tottenham / Robert Frost, The Road Not Taken / A Spurs supporter on Son / Leah Horlick, For Your Own Good / Son goes over to the travelling Tottenham supporters after winning the Europa League Final / Son to the media after winning the Europa League Final / Son speaks to the club on the open bus trophy parade / Maggie Smith, Good Bones / Son addresses Tottenham supporters / Son blows kisses to the Tottenham supporters after the trophy parade / Son's Instagram post following the trophy parade / Son addresses Tottenham supporters at the trophy parade / Mo Xiang Tong Zhu, Tian Guan Ci Fu / The Tottenham boys lift the trophy in North London, led by Son / Spurs on Son

[brutalistarchitecture2]

HAMMOND B3 ORGAN CISTERN by GABRIELLE CALVOCORESSI

[thefirstlivingart]

This isn't how life is supposed to feel

irsshawty on Pinterest / I Saw The TV Glow / internetfavorite on Pinterest / kiyogakukai on Pinterest / Spotify on Pinterest / ladycranes on Pinterest / micheallasboard on Pinterest / Ryan O'Connell / norhanelhadry474 on Pinterest / @inanotherunivrse on Tumblr / ??? / Charles Wright, Scar Tissue in "Scar Tissue" / Barbara Kingsolver, The Lacuna / Priyer on Pinterest / vangore on X / perfumebathing on Instagram / marvinandrea89 on Pinterest / @hannahlockillustration on Tumblr / stickybaby on We Heart It / lesedimorapeli25 on Pinterest / Jnkskxm on Pinterest / Jeff Vandermeer, Annihilation / Fernando Pessoa, "English Song", A Little Larger Than the Entire Universe: Selected Poems / Jean-Paul Sartre, Being and Nothingness / MrsandMrStyles on Pinterest / Chuck Palahniuk / justgiveittime on Pinterest / Anaïs Nin, The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Vol. 6: 1955-1966 / Mary Macdonald, romanticizeaquietlife on Pinterest / Gillian Flynn, Gone Girl /

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[build-a-problem-musical]

"When," dodie

[vero-niche]

adhd will get you thinking "i should make this doctors appointment" every day for 7 months and counting

[vero-niche]

none of us are making those appointments huh

[twobeesornottwobees]

This is why I have Calls Day once a month

[vero-niche]

wait you might be onto something with that actually

[vero-niche]

[saltair-and-webweaves]

Was I made from a broken mold?

@camaceall/growing sideways, noah kahan/calling a wolf a wolf, kaveh akbar/soon you'll get better, taylor swift/the last words of a shooting star, mitski/unknown/unknown/ @ryebreadgf/@/geloyconcepcion on instagram/god must hate me, catie turner/words from @/simply.simoney on instagram/I can't breath, bea miller/@holyaches on twitter/she used to be mine, sara bareilles/soon you'll get better, taylor swift/idontwannabeyouanymore, billie eilish

[badassbutterfly1987]

(ID: Pic 1: Words on a white background next to an analog clock. "'It will get better', they say. I've been waiting for years for it to get better."

Pic 2: "Cause everyone's growing and everyone's healthy. I'm terrified that I might never have met me."

Pic 3: "I'm sorry. I'm sorry. This may be me at my best."

Pic 4: "The buttons of my coat were tangled in my hair. In doctor's office lighting, I didn't tell you I was scared. That was the first time that we were there."

Pic 5: "All of this turbulence wasn't forecasted, apologies from the intercom, and I am relieved I'd left my room tidy. They'll think of me kindly when they come for my things."

Pic 6: "I burn for what's no longer mine."

Pic 7: "Do you miss it? Can you feel it? How do you cope? Where do you put the pain? Where do you leave it when you lie down to sleep? Do you sleep? Have you been sleeping? Or is everything too much? Have you considered taking a step back? Have you looked at your choices lately? Are you still you?"

Pic 8: "You can never go back! You can never go back! You can bite and scratch and beg but you can never go back!"

Pic 9: Words laid over the siloughette of a person walking along a beach. "I feel trapped in a body that doesn't want me to be truly happy."

Pic 10: "I'll let Him take accountability for everything that's wrong with me. Can't hold myself responsible so I blame the metaphysical. If Jesus died for all our sins, He left one behind, the body I'm in. Same hands that made the moon and the stars got carpal tunnel and forgot some parts. I don't know what I believe, but it's easier to think He made a mistake with me."

Pic 11: "It is overwhelming that I will carry this for the rest of my life."

Pic 12: "Somebody get me a hammer. Wanna break all the clocks and the mirrors, and go back to a time that was different. A time when I didn't feel like something was missing, now my body and mind are so distant."

Pic 13: "Tell me where to put the anger. Tell me where to put the anger. Tell me where to put the anger."

Pic 14: "Most days I don't recognize me."

Pic 15: "Holy orange bottles, each night, I pray to you. Desperate people find faith, so now I pray to Jesus too." End ID.)

[bayouette]

I told my Dad I was "A FUNDAMENTALLY LONELY PERSON" and "I WILL ALWAYS BE ALONE" and he started to cry... (is this autism or am i really alone?)

Fatima Aamer Bilal "Being Unwanted is a Language" / Anna Haifisch / Ruth Madievsky "All-Night Pharmacy" / Jenny Slate / Meggie Royer "For Twenty Year-Olds Who Have Never Been Loved" / Richard Siken "Crush" / ? manga / Marya Hornbacher "Wasted" / Norman Rockwell / Amy Dunne / Marie Alsing / Fiona Apple / Maria Tsvetaeva "On Love" / Haruki Murakami "Norwegian Wood" / Richard Siken / Camille Rankine “Emergency Management” / Caitlin Conlon / @/archbudzar / @/hadodoodles / Anne Carson "Nox"