uhhh if we like endo posts sorgy sometimes tags are not checked, we need to work on that lol
hey! we are a recently self diagnosed system (P-DID as well?? idfk), there are a few of us still hesitant to call us that, including me (the host), but I'm trying to make stuff more accommodating for the others because I do quite heavily believe we may be a system, hence why I created this blog!
we might make our own blogs (prolly except me cuz I'm host currently, why should I get my own blog~ (opinion on this might change))
we (or at least I) have aphantasia, so it's hard to tell who is who when communicating and I can't actually see the inner world/whatever.. fun!
we also DO NOT HAVE ACCESS TO THERAPY/ANY WAY TO GET A PROPER DIAGNOSIS, we need to wait at least a few years before we can go and not have to deal with certain things that get in the way of getting one.
(also whenever we say I, we usually mean the host - Eren)
DNI: basic DNI list
we don't really wanna get involved in syscourse
uhm... intros! those need to happen!-
π Eren - host - he/they/it - afaik, I just feel the age of the body. I think I've been front stuck for a bit, I think I mainly have Renny being cocon/cofront with me out of all the others.
π Renny - @renny-meowmrow - he/she/they/kitty/kittys/kittyself/kit/kits/kitself/mew/mews/mewself - little! we think she's around 5-9! and as mentioned just before, they are the main one who's cocon/cofronting with me! he recently stopped being dormant! yay! likes being called kiddy! (sounds like kitty!! ehehe) but I (π) also likely kiddo nd other ways of sayin it!!
π Clover - @clover-meowmrow - he/him/leaf/leafs/leafself/clov/clovs/cloverself - adult. he seems to be around 25. he's cool and will try to help resolve issues between any of us and comforts us, he's like a big brother/dad:3
π₯ Ember (?) - she/her(?) - she doesn't actually like talking properly to us and mainly just tells me I'm a horrible person and stuff like that. and she seems to be.... some age around 10-13 I think. she's also lowkey highkey a hater
fictives:
π₯ Rui Kamishiro (PJSK) - @rui-meowmrow - he/they - hates vegetables. worst thing to ever exist. loves creating shit, directing shows for his unit, loves his best star (Tsukasa). soda candy π€€
π§ββοΈ Tae Yamada (Zombieland Saga (not awoken btw (idk if she does wake up at some point, but dis one isn't awoken afawk))) - she/it/zero/zeros/zeroself/zomb/zomβs/zombi/zombself/zo/zom/zos/zombself/cor/corpse/corpself - grhhhhhhhhgghgh (only just kinda groans and does chomping stuff (like it bites onto air) with her mouth (its a zombie if you don't know her source))
I love that our friends don't question when "I" start talking in third person and just accept that because they just think I'm an average guy (singlet at least, my friends seeing me as the average guy sounds unlikely lol) who sometimes just starts speaking in a more childish voice/little more limited vocabulary (idk how bad it is) and starts speaking in third person and "meowing" when he's tired... yk? our friends just don't question that and that's good
someone (prolly Renny) makes me feel bleh about my hands mainly (and also just everything else)
(because poor kiddy is not in a kiddy body)
like iwe dont even have big hands but like ill occasionally look down and just itll feel wrong and then later ill look down at my hands and it feels fine/even too small
one time i mentioned it to a friend and they joked if i wanted my hands to be paws instead (Renny meows a lot so we get called furry)
(my friends dont know thye just go like "Eren loses his braincells when hes tired" and "Eren sometimes meows when hes tired" and "Eren speaks in 3rd person sometimes" and they just accept that without really questioning, which im glad about)
Reblog if you are a safe place for people who used to identify as endogenic/tulpas before realizing they were either a) a DID/OSDD system or b) not a system at all
ow fingers are burnt because we wanted to eat the food too quick
this is probably why there's someone here who uses utensils with basically everything tbh
uhm anyways
I'm sad because brother said Multiple Personality Disorder when meaning DID and I didn't wanna correct him because I dunno if it would seem odd for me to correct him and I'm trying to avoid him/my IRLs knowing because I keep getting scared about "what if I'm faking??" (even though if I were, it isn't a conscious effort to fake?? so like?? I can't be faking??? something is probably wrong anyway if I am faking and don't realize?? probably. idk.)
uwaaa
anyway I had ice cream and my fingers don't hurt as much after having our fingers on the cold bowl, but they still do and I also have to wash some stuff can someone please wash that stuff for me? brother always makes me do it and I think everything should be a GROUP EFFORT.
gwaaa
helping a friend make an OC (self insert one into a thingy) and also trying to develop our OC (same thing, different character obv tho) and changing what we want in the OC because other people want different things uwaaa please, let's agree on this last thing for him π
crazy to look back on my messages on this one server because it makes me realize why we get babied a little by some of the people on the server because why is Renny the one who's got their typing quirks most being used on that server ππ
it's funny cuz sometimes we'll be talking in that server and then also going and talking to brother in DMs and Renny is having his typing quirks on that server but then like, it's me(?) talking to our brother in DMs and it's just cutesy little guy and then more serious-er messages in the DMs (mainly also because what we were talking about lmao)
I'm crying who said "burger" when they turned around and saw our brother accidentally dropped some rice/whatever onto the floor when he was trying to eat his sushi
we (not brother) were talking about one of his little tiny figures(?) he has of his fav character and was like "oooh, I love him!" but because we turned around and saw the rice on the floor, it turned out as "oooh, I love him-- burger."
KILL ME PLEASE
(and burger out of all things to say??? and he was eating sushi?? saying sushi would've made more sense vro.)
I was trying to be nice to myself and tell myself I'm not faking last night and I was like:
"hey, come on, its not like you're forcing these guys to say anything!"
