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laura, she/her, lesbian, over 30 🌸 icon: meyocoart

[merrilly]

glowingvenus -> merrilly

back to basics ✌️

i'm a writer, on ao3 (Merrilly) although I haven't posted anything in a while, still chipping away at it when I can 💪

[mostlysignssomeportents]

20 years ago, it was a scandal that Google started to track which links you clicked on the search-results page,

[sabertoothwalrus]

this is like finding a journal written by someone before the zombie apocalypse happened

[eszlelesihezag]

[anarchistmemedistro]

[ruderubicante]

A Love for Ignorance

[momosweetpeach]

Roaming

Going to be turning this into a series of paintings and then prints!

[helenvaughans]

[zitasaurusrex]

[merrilly]

On the topic of license plates, do you think Seiji or Nicholas would have vanity plates in Shattered Pieces Shine? 💭

aww praline, I rly appreciate your asks. it makes me feel so nice that someone is still thinking about SPS. despite the slings and arrows of life I can't wait to finish that next chapter eventually 💪

I don't think Seiji would want the kind of attention that a vanity plate brings - I think of him as a guy who doesn't like to flaunt his wealth, but when he meets Nicholas he's like... this guy is too beautiful, I need to cover him in nice things 😌

as for Nicholas, CT allows for up to six characters on a custom motorcycle plate so I could definitely see him going for something like F3NC3R or PASTU (cuz he passed you? lol. you know how motorcyclists like to weave through traffic... be careful out there Nicholas 🙏 )

[ink-the-artist]

I had a dream where a bunch of grey long-snouted creatures were gathered around this other creature, who was their creator, and were chanting “give us the wisdom of not knowing death” over and over again in a cheerful sing-song tone. They wanted their creator to make it so that they wouldn’t know about death/know that they will die, believing this would free them or enlighten them, or make them wiser.

[tourdion]

classic post rant quora phrase

[tiktoksthataregood-ish]

[stuckinapril]

“Do it scared” “do it alone” are all great tips, but my biggest takeaway from therapy is do it messy. This is especially true if you’re getting out of a burnout, which I experience often. Literally just do it messy. You don’t need to pick the perfect trail to walk, the perfect playlist to listen to, whatever the fuck it is. You don’t need to have a meticulous to do list and wake up at the exact time you planned and drink the exact amount of water you planned to drink. Like the biggest thing for people like me to remember is sometimes it’s okay to do it messy. Put on a random yt workout and just get it done in sweats. Do 5 minutes of a daunting task and go from there. Sometimes just getting up is a win during intense burnouts or depressive funks. Literally just do it messy.

[fishgummy]

[keke-i]

[fakegothboyfriend]

Coven Bakery, London

[merrilly]

actually the reason I can't fully anne rice out is bc my own original characters and stories never rly feel real or compelling to me in that way. I envy that. I'm over here acting mildly crazy about other people's fictional mfs because my own dolls bore me. I hope to find a cure for this one day bc my wife keeps telling me I should write a novel.

[flopstat]

i think abt anne rice’s answer to “what are your work habits for a novel?” probably every single day

[flopstat]

[cottoncandylesbo]

what the fuck

[violently-puppy-deactivated2026]

ohhhh you elfsturbating 😧😲

[sumikatt]

I think there’s a really odd gap in general supply chain knowledge in which people scapegoat AI as this new devastating environmental concern, when internet data centers have been an environmental problem before that. The internet already had the infrastructure to support it in 2017, before GPT-1 was released. Data centers are not a new problem. The internet already had a large physical presence, but people didn’t really think much of it until there were new AI-related developments (and then attribute all data centers to being related to generative AI? Where do people think YouTube videos are stored? The literal clouds in the sky?)

A Makeship plushie has a bigger carbon footprint than a thousand LLM queries but it is seen as an acceptable environmental impact, because it has been deemed socially acceptable to contract low wage factories in the Global South to make toys to sell to customers worldwide at a 3000% markup, with all the profits staying in the Global North. Not many people think of that environmental impact