to lay in the foundations of decay

GET UP, COWARD !!!

[meteoritesystem]

hi it's the meteorite system / nik :-) (main blog @aropride)

alter info + preferred terms (<- very incomplete)

faq

Q: who's fronting A: idk

Q: who all is in ur system A: idk

alter sideblogs ⬇

rain: @slashnegative (he's the only one who's even slightly active tbh and even then he mostly just posts on main)

ran: @ranboo240p (inactive)

evan: @forestexpertise (inactive)

mars: @lovemars (for posterity :') )

ventblogging quarantine area -> @secondhandsorrow

tagging system i struggle to use for, well, probably obvious reasons, considering,

[meteoritesystem]

just found out about birdle (which is awesome btw) and played it for the first time and after i won (i won btw not to brag) i saw it has a stats page which i of course clicked on only to find out i have in fact played it before ,

[fairycosmos]

you have GOT to get over god abandoning you when you were 2 like its not even uncommon

[pankendev]

(snaps out of it) OH MY GOD WHAT HAVE I BEEN DOING!! HOLY JESUS CHRIST FUCK WHY DID NOBODY TRY TO STOP ME (eases back into it) ahhhh. yeah this feels right

[kosmogrl]

remembering is the mind killer

[crabussy]

"I just find it hard to believe some people who claim to be systems. why do all their alters have strange names and unique appearances and weird mannerisms?" queer people are disproportionately at risk of experiencing childhood trauma. autistic people are disproportionately at risk of experiencing childhood trauma. there are countless studies on this if you want to hear it right from the source. childhood trauma is the driving factor behind a massive majority of DID/OSDD system formations. I trust that you can connect the dots here!

[crabussy]

if you intentionally choose to disregard peoples' existences based on their appearance or behaviours, you have biases that you absolutely need to deconstruct before people like me can ever feel safe around you.

you can start by saying nothing about how you "just can't believe it" when someone you don't know exists as a system where you can see. you can keep going by trusting the people in your life when they share extremely vulnerable information about themselves.

[crabussy]

telling someone that you're part of a system feels like exposing your soft underside. I've cried from terror almost every time I've had to reveal it to someone I care about, and I don't cry easily. if someone tells you they're part of a system, they're placing a monumental amount of trust in you.

please don't break that trust.

[crabussy]

actually, another thing!!! you are seeing systems who:

1. actually know that they're systems (this is rare. being online makes resources on figuring it out WAY more accessible) 2. happen to exist in the same online space as you, the tumblr user reading this 3. are, as a result, usually younger and/or autistic and/or queer, which are all factors that can influence individual alters' identities.

so of COURSE you think we're all like this. you're looking at one damn tree instead of the whole forest!!! there are systems who are 60 years old and never had the resources to figure out what was going on. there are systems who are 30 and barely use social media for personal reasons. there are systems who are 20 and don't tell anyone because of the cruelty they've faced every time they try. there are systems who are 15 and are SO relieved to have answers to why everything felt weird and wrong their whole life, so they shout it from the rooftops. your limited interactions with systems in specific online spaces does not represent the majority of systems on earth.

even if it did represent the majority of systems on earth we STILL deserve to be treated like people. this should not be something I have to beg for!!!!!

[identitty-dickruption]

being abused or neglected really makes it clear how many things are skills that nobody really treats as. skills. exercising autonomy is a skill. listening to your body is a skill. resting is a skill. being liked and being loved are skills. nobody tells you how to do this shit because nobody even told me I was supposed to have learnt these things when I was a kid. I kind of just have to manually figure out what makes me freak out and work from there. unfair as shit

[sizhens-deactivated20250415]

Hi! Sorry I didn't respond to your message. I got overwhelmed and my mind popped like an overloaded fuse and I turned back into a confused and disoriented 6 year old version of myself.

[your-mighty-words-astound-me]

So we definitely need more positive representation of DID, but you know what would be funny? Mildly inconvenient representation of DID.

Oh the world is ending and you need to know about this one specific thing? Yeah I have a guy for that but he doesn't feel like fronting right now

Sorry what's happening rn is this the bad guy? Yeah I just switched in idk what's going on

I know you're dating one alter but we're currently co-con with another alter who hates you so idk how I'm feeling rn

And just who do i think I am? It's funny you should ask that I actually don't know right now

[thestarseersystem]

Wait I just remembered this. here u go :3

[munneknight]

honourable mention

[netherator]

[meteoritesystem]

saving this thread here bc it was comforting for me

[ceruleanheaven]

honestly given my parents whole [gestures vaguely] i am actually incredibly well adjusted

[meanbuddhist]

good news i AM starting to hear my inner voice more and more bad news she’s reaaaaally upset in there

[aropride]

(ID: A messily-scrawled diary entry from March 4th, 2018, reading: “The last journal entry should be assumed to represent the Nikolas who lived on 2 March 2018 at 11:50pm. The entry should not be assumed to in any way reflect the views of Future Nikolas. [paragraph break] It’s still true though he just shouldn’t have said it.” It’s signed with my name, Nikolas. end ID)

[meteoritesystem]

this kills me bc it was absolutely 100% mars saying this . love the self-awareness of the disclaimer at least he knew he was insane . sometimes . god bless

[meteoritesystem]

WHERE THE FUCK DID MY HOUR GO. it was 9am like 10 minutes ago max

[aropride]

it's ok to have supportive parents but you should keep it to yourself. that should be a shameful secret you only share with close loved ones

[silly-solar-robot]

this is very brave of me because it's very scary to put myself out there like this, but i've been journalling! and i wanted to share my thoughts and feelings with all of you! maybe my experiences will make some of you feel seen! maybe for others, it will help you understand your system friends better! being part of a system is really tricky. it makes me sad sometimes. but i'm so happy to be here!! (^:

[marigoldthe2st]

Every time one of my friends explains something about Plurality to me I have to fight the urge to ask if they're "More people per people" cause of this fuck ass post