tell me goodbye

san - she/her - khmer irish - love for ian and mickey. and lip too ♡

[ok-notgood-probablybad]

that's not sex, this is lovemaking

[drawballa]

1:24 AM 🌙

[thisfeebleheart]

It's true, I've been with many women, but…

[nmimarks]

[mikhailomick]

[iutram]

a part i unexpectedly tend to forget about

[mikhailomick]

[lavenderprose]

There's never been a fandom ghost like Cliff Marleau. He's a vampire. He's an ally. He's a latent bisexual. He a little confused but he got the spirit. He's imprinted on Ilya like a duckling. He has three sisters, all of them lesbians. He is 42. He is 28. He's French Canadian. He's from Florida. He is being psychosexually tormented by his best friend's thot husband. He is Hollanov's platonic third. He has a beautiful, terrifying wife. He's made out with Ilya but they were in Paris it's chill. Of course he's slept with men he's a fucking hockey player. He is Ilya's ex-husband.

[rapidlysleekdestiny-deactivated]

fic recs?!

this is for @blushingrozy <3

warmth by ooihcnoiwlerh - cock warming, shane hollander has an oral fixation, body worship

spit in my mouth by marisferasi - 5 times the centaurs and other gc friends think ilya is being a pushy or bossy twat to shane, and one time they see shane's true colors.

the ghost of you by notwritinganovel - shane marries and then divorces rose and goes back to ilya.

and i spit out the seeds by linearity - a video of shane sucking ilya’s dick is leaked. over the next twenty-four hours, ilya goes on an odyssey.

deep misunderstanding by some1_around - hayden's pov, he feels like a bad friend to shane.

of a certain age by gurlsrool (anything by gurlsrool actually) marlow thinks ilya is dating shane's dad lmao.

tell me (what you need) by anarchyat4am - or: they communicate just a little bit better and let themselves be just a little more vulnerable, both with each other and their people.

just talk to me by feedmyflame - shane asks ilya to talk to him in russian while facefucking him.

to hate and to hold by writer_and_thrasher - hayden pov, shane has an autistic shutdown during dinner with the pikes and ilya takes care of him.

gather 'round the campfire by writer_and_thrasher - shane, ilya, hayden and jackie play never have i ever on vacation.

dana street (Series) by alspancakes - or, shane's a senior captain with an empty house over winter break. and ilya's the freshman who will be crashing his christmas.

The Boston Year (Series) by windoq - the year between the cottage and ilya moving to ottawa.

[zanniscaramouche]

HOLLANOV FIC REC

I feel like I barely had words to describe these fics individually because they were all insanely fucking hot. There is so much good fucking cake out there folks and it just keeps coming. This list could be three times as long but I had to cap it at some point! If you like this list please rec your own fave smut fic in the comments ;) sharing is caring! 💖remember to kudos & comment on fics you read 💖

Smut Heavy

🏒 free rein by eleadore / @eleadore - 18k "Stop asking me if it's okay. If I want it. You're always, like—whatever. I'm not one of your fucking girls, okay? If I don't like it, I'll stop you. I can make you stop." zannithinks: Do I even need to say anything? If you haven't read this yet, you have homework to do. Chop chop.

🏒 Aching, Aching, Aching, and Alive by verbaepulchellae / @verbam - 17k They’re getting into a rhythm now, though, and Shane can see it. He can see this team winning the Cup this year. He tries not to get ahead of himself, tries to stay focused and go game by game, reminds himself that building up a team takes time and several seasons, but god. He wants this legacy: for himself, for Ottawa, for Ilya. For both of them and everyone else. Which is why, goddamnit, now is not the time to crash out over fantasies of Ilya working his whole hand down to the wrist into Shane’s ass and fucking him on his fist. And yet. - It starts, as a surprising number of things actually do, with a text from Rose. zannithinks: This is sooo intimate and grounded. I fucking LOVE their dialogue in this one, their personalities really shine through in every moment. A fic for those that love build up and realistic hiccups before the payoff.

🏒 it's like you never had wings by creamsicle_melt / @creamsiclemelt - 16k No, Ilya isn’t a martyr, but he isn’t selfish either. Tonight he wants to be selfish. Ilya wants to use Shane. He wants to use his willingness, his body, his everything to make himself feel better. It’s a truth. Maybe an ugly one, but one that he owes to both himself and to Shane to accept. Tonight will be about him. And Shane, for his part, is a willing participant in it all. ‘I want to be useful,’ he had said. zannithinks: this is a sucker punch to the gut. Holy crap was I blown away by the sheer intensity. Mean!Ilya is not fucking joking around.

🏒 excoriation by intertwingular / @shangyang - 12k Do you want something, Ilya had asked. The answer was, as it always was, yes. But that had not been the question. zannithinks: holy crap this is so intense. Character study through sex. You're not ready.

🏒 like one of your girls by creamsicle_melt / @creamsiclemelt - 5k Rozanov posts on Instagram a lot. Not on his feed, but his stories. Every time he lands in a city, he posts a story. Usually it's just back of his seat, or sometimes the view out the window—on the tarmac, never anything exciting, one of just many cities their lives are broken up into—and a location tag. Low effort. It’s pretty obvious what it is. Guys laugh about it, call it Rozanov’s Fuck Signal. The easiest way to get the hot girls who follow him to slide into his DMs. Easy pussy. zannithinks: another from this author because the way this had me horny and crying in the club(my bed at 3AM) insanity. Seriously captivating and gut-wrenching.

🏒 wash away these things i never needed by skvadern - 4k "Ilya," he says, and knows even as he says it that he's doing it wrong. That he doesn't sound at all serious about it, winded and belly up on the couch with his boyfriend taking up all the space in the world over him. "Get off me." Sure enough, Ilya snorts and doesn't move a muscle. "Say it like you actually mean it," he shoots back, "and maybe I will." - Shane and Ilya experiment with resistance and with trust. zannithinks: ok ok ok I have reread this one several times because Ilya calling Shane out really fucking gets to me! I love when CNC gets juicy by focusing on Ilya and the thin line of that first C.

🏒 the truth hurts worse than anything i could bring myself to do (to you) by slayswilde - 4k Ilya Rozanov is 36 years old, and he can still play good hockey. At least for now. But does hockey really matter when you have a rookie Shane Hollander standing at your doorstep? zannithinks: A rare AU that has captivated my mind, body, and spirit. A two part series, I would sell my left arm for more. I truly can't praise this enough. The sex, the dynamic, the ache in Ilya's chest. Perfection.

🏒 Edge Control by cacklefruit - 3k “So horny, Hollander.” Shane can feel Rozanov’s hot breath on his neck when he leans closer. One, two, three breaths, then, “Is all for me?” zannithinks: the flooooow ! This fic is written so deliciously and sinks you right into Shane's head.

🏒 Puck Bunny by Lilbaebloo - 3k Shane wears Ilya's jersey. Ilya's brain short-circuits. zannithinks: Fun!! The way Ilya gets hot and bothered and Shane is committed to the bit. The playfulness from Shane is such a huge treat. Let that boy be a little silly while also being a sexual demon!

🏒 close to heaven by lisa6 - 2k You think he gets off on that? Hayden texts, and Shane fights off the wild urge to send back, I do, just so that Hayden can knock some sense back into him. - Shane watches a Boston game. Ilya scores goals, trash-talks, and gets Shane hard in the process. zannithinks: masturbation fics aren't my typical flavour of choice, but WOW does this one get things steamy as fuck. An educational look on how Ilya being an asshole is a big turn on for Shane. Literally.

🏒 hotel, motel, holiday inn by mandathegreat - 2k Shane’s hands shook a bit as he knocked at the door, once, twice, three times. He waited, only a few seconds before the door opened, and Ilya Rozanov stood before him. His voice cracked a bit as he spoke. “Your luggage is here, Mister Rozanov, sir.” ... - Married Shane and Ilya revisit their bellboy role-play from the cottage. zannithinks: there's something about the boys doing a little roleplay that is so captivating. Perhaps it's the comfort between them allows a freedom to be a little silly and have FUN with their sex. Also a sucker for their personalities really coming through in banter as they fuck.

more rec lists: canon/canon divergent | a/b/o + bdsm au | outsider + hayden POV | soulmates | smut

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[freakeduploser]

heated rivalry fanfic favorites masterlist

no one is asking for this but i have to make my one million hours on ao3 mean something

the texture of memory: to write a silly blurb would do it a disservice i think, but just read it i am so serious, completed

your presence has gone through me (like needle through a thread): ilya gets a family and i cry one million tears of joy, wip

the anatomy of a bird heart in slow decay: an impossible love story and meditation on grief, mothers and sons, and survival. featuring ghosts in the literal sense. completed

fall in love again and again: the classic tuna-melt groundhog day, with a house of leaves flavour, completed

Jessica: teenaged shane as seen through his relationship with his high school girlfriend, i love them both so unbearably much, completed

home economics: nhl lockout leads to hollanov living together in the situationship era-there's no way this could go wrong! completed

Route 96 Kanata: shane suffers a career ending injury before meeting ilya but where there's a will there's a tortured hollanov situationship nonetheless. full of fantastic ottawan idiosyncrasies. wip

World on Your Shoulders: what if shane had a queer rookie while deep in the midst of his internalized homophobia "i'm not gay" era? fascinating and wonderfully pessimistic characterization, this whole series is a dark comedy that i want to swallow whole, completed

wunderkind: breathtaking look into yuna hollander's inner world but everyone really shines through wonderfully here (ilya my heart i love you so much), completed

I have only two emotions (careful fear and dead devotion): shane disappears from hockey post prospect cup and hollanov meets again much farther down the road, gorgeous tender slow burn, wip

we'll make a home on the cracks: journalist shane fights his way out of an ethics torment nexus and finds true love <3 cute hollanov & fun shane characterization, wip

car wash redhead, tube top R.E.M. concert, juror #6: hollanov character study, power and love, i adore those freaks so much <3, completed

frequently, secretly fond of each other: boston! shane, you know it you love it, wip

some pacific wind: the pains of being asian in a nearly all-white sport and having to communicate to the world exclusively in your second language: a hollanov conversation, completed

side note: all of satorussuguru's heated rivalry fics are fantastic and are on here in spirit if not in actual text

It had to be you, Wonderful you: transmasc ilya you are soooo dear to me, completed

Offside: coach/player forbidden hollanov but it's sweeter than you would expect. wip

Honey, you're familiar like my mirror years ago: climbing inside your soulmates body is a thing that is both normal to want and possible to have (ft. painful but warming version of shane's life post. career ending injury), wip

dark out and still thirty degrees: one of the only a/b/o fics i've ever enjoyed (sorry), dives into the misogyny in the bones of the genre in a way that's very cathartic for me. ft. a fascinating trans shane journey. completed

head and body to you: tortured self-destructive shane character study, toxic? situationship hollanov, canon-typical emotion development through the lens of sex, completed

the soviet montage: obviously already popular but i had to, cold-war era hollanov post. ilya's defection from the soviet union, completed

i've been waiting my whole life to know i wanted you: deep dive into shane's militant self denial that also fleshes out a much more culturally-connected japanese-canadian experience for him. #lifegetsbetter(eventually), completed

pronoms possessifs: shane writes a love letter, just wonderful completed

Home Ice Advantage: another boston! shane but diving more deeply into how being traded would impact the hockey of it all, very perfectionism torment nexus, completed (with wip sequel)

Blizost: what if you could climb inside your lover and share one body between two souls?, wip

Mama's Boy, Mama's Boy: shane hollander's journey if the whole time he was also haunted by his situationship's dead mom, fantastic irina characterization, completed

cracked plexiglass: canon rewrite that fleshes out a version of shane's pre-NHL hockey career that's more realistic to the actual environment of high level Canadian juniors, very very good, wip

i know where to draw the line: older captain shane and younger teammate ilya, super cute, completed

there are like millions more that i will add once i remember them

updated: 3/26/2026

[ticklefighthockey]

fics I would kill to read (and would love to write but you know how I am these days):

shattuck st mary’s prep school au where ilya gets shipped off to america after getting caught with sasha. and they were roommates…

@miscelium’s divorce fic where they can’t actually get divorced (bad optics for the foundation and the sponsorships and being the first gay couple in the MLH) so they’re painfully and not at all amicably separated but in a fake marriage… godddd it’s so yummy to me.

infidelity fic where ilya’s dealing with some shit and becomes increasingly distant/withdrawn and shane starts text-flirting with another guy because he’s lonely and he half wants to get caught because then maybe ilya will be hotly jealous of anyone else touching shane, the way he used to be… except then ilya finds out and instead of being jealous he just ends things. because hasn’t he always known deep down that it was too good to be true? that shane would wake up one day and realize ilya wasn’t what he really wanted? so if shane wants to walk ilya’s gonna let him walk.

honestly… I WOULD read the fic where ilya leaves shane a long & very explicit drunk voicemail that shane assumes was meant for one of his girls. but he still listens to it over and over again and guiltily jerks off to it imagining ilya with some girl saying those things to her. because he can’t quite let himself imagine ilya saying those things to him. just a lil angsty situationship era amuse-bouche who says no

emotionally mess sochi fic that can’t make up its mind if it’s sasha/ilya with shane haunting the narrative or sasha/ilya/shane feel-bad sex with a hefty dose of the sasha/ilya friendship dynamic

this time travel concept where younger ilya gets scared older ilya is going to steal his man

I’m sure there’s more…

[firstprinced]

his 🤏 little face (pt 2: ep5)

[pinenora317]

Heated Rivalry ll S01EP04

[c-nord]

SHAMELESS | 7x05

[chubby-cry-baby]

shane x ilya and the centaurs!!!

they all go to the arcade for 'bonding' and shane and ilya are SCARY competitive and try to get the highest points on everything. At some point wyatt says "i thought they were only competitive on ice..."

harris organizes a centaurs charity calendar and shane and ilya are february because valentines day (awww)

the team will always leave a spot for the other when standing around at practice or sitting at a restaurant - they know shane and ilya want to be beside eachother. warning: DO NOT SEPARATE

theres multiple wedding celebration dinners they get invited to in the summer and there is a lot of "so you're why we never saw roz at any team events hmmm" (harris' family loves shane!!!!!)

sometimes they'll do team rozanov vs team team hollander at practice - it's truly cemented that shane is actually the best player ever of all time

shane and ilya finally go to a Bood BBQ

shane cleans up at poker - he has no tells and he loves winning

harris comes to take content when they’re practicing and ilya teases him “you just want to see your boyfriend” and they look over to see shane and troy doing elaborate passes and harris teases back, “you’re staring more than me”

gayest team in the league

rookies want to play with hollander and rozanov soooo bad (having a centaurs induced sexuality crisis becomes a thing there's a lot of "hey um hollander/rozanov/barrett can i ask you a question")

ilya regular flirts with shane infront of everyone they don't even bat an eyelash but when shane flirts with ilya everyones starts ribbing him like 'ooooh rozy'

“okay tell us who made the first move” “me” “i did” - and a massive argument ensues 

“FINALLY SOMEONE TO TRANSLATE WHATEVER ROZ SAYS IN RUSSIAN” “you don’t want to know what he says in russian”

shane’s insane hockey iq tells each of them what they’re doing wrong their plays improve within weeks (“your angle is wrong” “if you go faster you might actually score”) - he can’t help though he can only tell you what’s wrong

harris organizes a centaurs FAQ video; “twitter is dying to know ‘ilya rozanov can you fight?!?’” “who’s asking” “it trends everytime shane posts a sponsorship or scores a goal or does an interview or gets papped or-” “yes i will fight anyone”

shane and ilya can speak with their eyes and it gets spooky; the centaurs immediately make a game to see who has the best telepathy with their captain

shane freaks out when they get turbulence and ilya always jokes, “we’re already married what would you do this time”

[mimivisb]

I've been reading Heated Rivalry fics since December and I thought today was a good day to look through my bookmarks and recommend some of the best One-shots I've read in this Fandom.

Below are 16 recommendations to honestly incredible fics, some of them are really popular and you might already know them but we have over 20K fics in this tag (insane) so I think this list might still be useful for someone.

(Some of these might fit in more than one category, but I choose the one that I belive better represented the fic)

☆ Character study

Compatible by jewelledfoxes

Explicit / 18K / One-shot

Ilya’s blood has always run hotter than Shane's.

Or: Yay Hollanov free use! Everybody cheered!

(It's about sex but it's also about their relationship and I have read it several times totally recommend it)

The Performer by toxotes

Explicit / 14K / One-shot

Sometimes they're curled up on the bed together afterwards and Shane runs his hands up and down llya's body, rhythmic and smooth, touching just to touch. Ilya stunning in the literal sense of the word: Shane is paralyzed by him, struck dumb. Desire may never be a problem here, but understanding is: Ilya feels distant and incomprehensible to Shane.

A cross-section of Shane Hollander's sex life

(It deals with a lot of complicated feeling about sex and attraction and Shane growing up and accepting himself)

Us until You by chaentics

Mature / 10K / One-shot

you, plural.

or: Svetlana has Ilya, and then she does not.

(Svetlana POV on ilya during the whole hollanov situationship)

My 30-Days of Anon HR Freak Shit by Anonymous

Not a One-shot but a series of One-shots (kinda)

(It's really filthy but has really good writing and there's delightful character studies in most of the fics)

☆ AUs that explore Shane and Ilya's relationship with a slight twist (might include magic)

don't leave me this way by frenchleaves

Mature / 36K / One-shot

ilya gets hit on the head during the emergency landing in Tampa and thus begins his week-long stint as a ghost. whatever bad thing that can happen, the proceeds to do so. it's definitely not fun for ilya, and definitely not fun for shane either.

(It's a lovely read and the summary explains it pretty well, you should read this)

for the bible tells me so by vividblossom (dirtymudblood)

Explicit / 17K / One-shot

Shane Hollander struggles to reconcile his faith with his undeniable attraction to a man.

Or a case study in Lust.

(Shane featuring Religious Guilt because why not?)

☆ Time travel (yes it has its own category)

fall in love again and again by Ehlihr (ehlihr)

Mature / 24K / One-shot (kinda)

Chapter 1: Shane wakes up on the same Tuesday over and over again after leaving Rozanov in a rush. Tuesday is his second least favourite day of the week, so he's not really happy about it.

Chapter 2: Ilya notices Shane acts strangely. He just never remembers

(Not a fan of the groundhog day trope but this fic made me reconsider that)

circle back season by Anonymous

Teen / 9K / One-shot

At the cottage, Shane and llya meet eighteen year old Shane Hollander. This is really only a surprise for one of them. Everyone handles it as well as can be expected.

(The time traveler's wife AU basically)

nothing's ever the way that i remember it (i don't want a violent end) by queenofseventeen

Mature / 31K / One-shot

Quietly, in a voice that couldn't disguise his pain, Ilya said, "I already chose you, Hollander." Then so silently that it was barely different from breathing. "Sometimes I wish I hadn't.

(a.k.a llya expresses regret about choosing Shane and Shane gets sent back in time to fix it only in this universe Ilya never came onto him at all.)

(Shane time travels and decides to choose ilya in a different universe)

☆ Hollanov getting outed in different ways

for richer or poorer by lowkey_existential_despair

Explicit / 14K / One-shot

There was a twitter post. A video. The caption said #pissgate. The video started playing automatically, and Ilya saw the nondescript white tile of the Metros locker room, and then the camera peered around a corner, and there he was. There Shane was. It played just long enough for llya to hear himself-say it-and Shane- piss on me. please-before his phone fell from his nerveless fingers and shattered on the concrete.

(I was put off by the watersport tag for a long time until I finally read it and all I have to say it that it deserves to be read even if you aren't into that)

me and my wild boy, and all of this wild joy by colacatenjoyer

Not rated / 4K / One-shot

All in all, it could have been worse.

It's not like you can measure the full length of Shane's dick, or see the exact moment that llya swallows down the mess of spit and his own cum from Shane's mouth after he sucked the life out of him.

It's just, well, everything else.

(A video gets leaked and they deal with the aftermath)

☆ Cute and hilarious and kinda weird (in a good way)

a load of lies by badmetaphors

Gen / 5K / One-shot

BREAKING: Local man gets pavlov'd by the KonMari method, more at 11.

(Featuring Centaurs and Ilya's laundry kink)

Baby By Me by Anonymous

Teen / 7K / One-shot

In which a single misunderstanding spirals into becoming the MHL's greatest secret: Shane Hollander is pregnant.

(Exactly as described in the summary, hockey boys are incredibly stupid in this and it's hilarious)

Teenage Dirtbag by Nullevoy

Teen / 5K / One-shot (but it's part of a series)

Clips and photos of llya's teenage years in Russia get leaked

(Teenage ilya is a menace that wears tracksuits everywhere)

Impacto by ilyacruzeirense

Mature / 16K / One-shot

When Canada's hockey star, Shane Hollander, is your twin brother, it's expected that llya Rozanov becomes part of your life; just not in the way that the public may think.

Or, 5 times that Hudson, Shane's twin, notices something more than a rivalry was happening + 1 one time Ilya finds out that Shane has a brother

(Super weird concept but absolutely fantastic fic 100% would recommend)

Dinner Tonight? by FriPie

Explicit / 15K / One-shot

There was nothing standard about Shane and Ilya's relationship, so it really shouldn't have been so surprising that they had their first date over a decade after meeting each other.

It also shouldn't be surprising that it took roughly five minutes before it turned into a competition.

(It's just them having a first date after everything, so it's really cute)