Apeirophilia

Adult || All pronouns 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️ Here be fandom content, my musings about the human condition and beyond. Safe space for urban hermits alike, make yourselves at home. Apeirophilia: Antonym of apeirophobia. Love of deep, deep eternity.

[mocharoll]

Mocha <3 𓂂 Neurodivergent 𓂂 Philosophy, literature, stem, art/photography, nature, video games, fashion 𓂂 Legacy﹕ half life/portal, dragon age, mass effect, fallout, breach IF, hogwarts legacy, fallen hero IF, discworld, dishonored, skulduggery pleasant 𓂂 Current﹕ half life, infamous IF, resident evil, fnaf 𓂂 Antifa / faith-diverse / queer friendly space 𓂂 Posts & likes include nsfw, minors dni 𓂂 I use content warnings as much as possible 𓂂 Irl stuff﹕ #irl #myrumes #photos #phd 𓂂 Art and writing﹕ #aaart #mewrites #fanfic #ao3 𓂂 Ao3﹕ mismisto

Active blog: 2012-present. Somehow. Icon: Gideon Rubin – Blonde Header: Rembrandt – Rest on the Flight into Egypt

Currently reading: Plato, Complete Works

Matthew 23:29–33 NLT

[mocharoll]

Dilation today

Out on ao3

[quackysprouts]

ada realizing she can do whatever the fuck she wants

[polishwave]

[savyir-genesizz-the-wizard]

[Polish. A red writing on the wall saying "no smoking" changed to "beating meat compulsory" with a black sharpie]

[punkitt-is-here]

[bakwaaas]

Euripides (Tr. Anne Carson) / @wholeheartedsuggestions / Jenny Slate / Euripides again

[lazuritecrown]

for roygbivibgyor, who asked for wesker demanding an egg from a chicken!

[mocharoll]

Having made my roommates watch some of the RE movies, one of them who loves fashion said that I should be portraying Wesker’s journey through his clothes. I usually don’t think of him or any of the other characters as having a clothed body at all, so whatever references I make to the clothes are usually limited—except for how I imagine Wesker in the far future, maybe. She was flabbergasted and proceeded to lecture me about what I’m missing out on in terms of character design for the next 30 minutes. We were very much like this

[horminu-m]

I'm updating the design of my captain from Sunless Sea

He started with Fallen London, but now he's at sea

[mocharoll]

Trying to meet another deadline. No dilation today.

[antlered-vixen]

I am so tired of short-attention-span, trim-the-fat culture. All writing advice these days is for how to write like Chuck Palahniuk. "Cut 'think', cut 'feel', cut 'wonder' - only action, only pushing forward, show and move and move and move." What if I could emulate this style, and still don't want to? What if I want to write like Henry James, with three paragraphs of introspective musings between each dialogue line? The music advice is, "make it shortform, make it Tik-Tok compatible, make it punchy, hit the refrain as soon as possible." What if I want that 10-minute prog rock piece? What if I want that symphony? What if I want it slow and luxurious and lazy? Movies. Series. Poetry. Bodies. Everything is "trimmed trimmed trimmed trimmed, stripped bare, you have three seconds to win me over, make it airport chic." I don't want to win you over, then, I guess. I want the fat left it. I want the pleasure and the indolence and the indulgence. Fuck this art-advice that's always "your art needs Ozempic."

[prokopetz]

The author's poorly disguised fetish

The author's proudly displayed fetish

The author's fetish you're pretty sure they don't realise they have

The author's fetish which they're firmly convinced everyone has and is just pretending otherwise

The author's non-sexual special interest which just sounds like a fetish because of their habitually unfortunate phrasing

The fetish the author is making a well-meaning effort to cater to in spite of clearly not understanding it themselves

The author's fetish that never quite makes it into the text because they keep getting sidetracked by the requisite worldbuilding

The author's utterly pedestrian sexual preference which the text treats like a bizarre fetish because they've got shit to work through

The author's seemingly innocuous recurring trope they're going to have a personal revelation about ten years down the road

The author's fetish you missed on a first reading because it's so far out of pocket, it never occurred to you that you could sexualise that

[poreyneel]

god requires sacrifice

[mocharoll]

How tumblr’s anniversary message finds me

[charnel-grounds]

Henri Lievens (1920–2000)

original cover design for “Le Moine” (The Monk) by Matthew G. Lewis

Bibliothèque Marabout - Fantastique #267, 1971

gouache on cardboard — source

[unalivejournal]

NO!!!! Characters accepting their sexuality will kill the patient.... She needs deep repression narratives to live

[razzmothazz]

still caring about internet friends you lost touch with years ago is so embarrassing. yeah i had a deam we met up irl recently. the last time we spoke was maybe 7-8 years ago. i still wear the laces we randomly decided was a sign of our friendship. i dont know what any of your socials are or if youre even active on any. sometimes i see someones art resemble yours and i wonder for hours. do you still go by that name you chose? whenever i see it i wonder if its you. we couldve passed each other in this vastness a thousand times and not have a clue.

[razzmothazz]

we were lonely kids having fun together. do you remember?