avoidant

they/them | queer as fuck | 🌈

[mostardentlyavoidant]

One of my book pet peeves is when, from a particular character's perspective, their parent's name is used in the narration. Like, I don’t even care if it's third-person. If we are in character X's head, we are thinking and feeling with them, that's X's mom/dad/parent. Even if I was jokingly referring to myself in third person, I'd never use my mother's name.

A different perspective or fully removed from a specific character? Fine. But if I am following Susan, that is Susan's dad, her dad, her father, whatever, not Joe.

Goes double if everything else suggests they have a good relationship

[imsodishy]

looking forward to a slow push-in shot of ilya and troy sitting side by side on the bench staring deadeyed out at the ice until the coach calls their names and they blink back to life and throw themselves over the boards

[marchingmoths]

thinking about the boston raiders spending years watching ilya flirt with models, actors, pop stars, and all sorts of Professionally Hot People. always at the top of his game, no matter how famous or supernaturally attractive they are. no one’s seen him so much as stutter when chatting up someone whose face looks perfect on a billboard and somehow better in real life.

then the raiders shoot a PSA for the boston library. it’s the first time ilya’s been in a library since he was a child. and he simply cannot handle the librarians. they spend an extra hour filming because ilya stutters whenever someone with glasses asks him a direct question. he misspells his own name while getting a library card when the man helping him rebuttons the top of his collared shirt. he tries to flirt with a woman reshelving books by asking her what the numbers on the spines mean and if he can get hers; she doesn't clock his pick-up line and explains the dewey decimal system to him for ten minutes. ilya blushes the entire time. 

marley tells this to shane years later and shane is like,,,that tracks and no i will not elaborate. but we own an industrial grade glasses cleaner because i couldn’t figure out how else to get cum out of the crevices.

[dworkinism]

the world is my cuck chair

[blackjame]

[logarithmicpanda]

"There's so much I want to read" I say, reading nothing at all

[blackjame]

[gnawu]

i'm sick of purity culture and especially how it's heavily pushed on queer media. the way it's expected to be diluted to be palatable. the way people want a queer character to be the embodiment of good, god forbid a human be flawed and queer.

[immaplatypus]

“so this week my town made the news for—” nope

“there’s a restaurant two miles from my house called—” nope

“today I learned [celeb] went to my high school—” nope nope nope nope nope

these are all real posts I’ve seen on the internet that allowed me to identify a user’s hometown instantly. if it’s a small town, that’s doubly dangerous, because a bad actor could trace you just by a unique first name or selfie you once posted. in an age where doxxing and stalking are some of the worst I’ve ever seen it, you HAVE to think twice about what you’re posting online.

i once saw a 13-year old post an image they noted as being “a few miles from their house.” it had a theater in the shot with a unique enough name to be local. one google maps search, now everyone knew not only what city they lived in, but the possible neighborhoods in that radius too. and they had a HUGE following…who all knew this was a 13-year-old child.

so yeah. not to sound like a 90s internet safety PSA…but I’m gonna be that PSA for a minute.

if you’re posting an image, there is NO need to say that you live there. you could just be traveling. “saw this in Montana” is better than “saw this by my house!”

before you post about a venue, especially a restaurant or small store, check and see if it’s local—CRUCIALLY if it has only one or two locations. people might travel to arenas or convention centers, but they’re far less likely to be traveling to Bartleby’s Fish and Chips. if it’s an anecdote and you still live nearby, you can honestly just leave the name out entirely.

if you’re sharing a news story, it can just be a story you found and wanted to share. you don’t have to clarify “it happened in my town,” because even if you don’t mention your town name, an easily-googled news article will.

if you’re seeing a concert or meeting a celebrity on a tour that’s stopped locally, wait until they’ve hit a few more venues before you post about it, or at the very least wait until you get home. this is honestly a smart move for any event you attend: unless you’re marketing yourself, there’s no need to advertise your location in real time.

check your selfie backgrounds for anything identifying. this includes city names on venues, school names, street signs, and house numbers.

this stuff is flexible if you no longer live in your hometown, or if your city is particularly big, but there’s STILL no reason to tie yourself to your school, your workplace, or your street. you can call it paranoid, but as someone who’s seen my friends get literal death threats over fictional characters before, the last thing I want is someone willing to act on those threats finding out where they live.

anyway. PSA over. does a kickflip or whatever

[hystericalend]

leviticus juxtaposing industrialism with the unruly wildness of the australian bush. factories and powerlines and fences symbolising colonialist supplanting, historically linked with conformity & repression. meanwhile the bush, shot beautifully with a sense of calm and natural rightness, is freedom from those things. the mill where ryan and naim go to be themselves is abandoned and falling apart--fear still present, still controlling, but rusted and fragile. naim at the end of the film destroying the mill with fire, a tool that has been used on country by indigenous people for thousands of years to make way for new growth. idk is this anything

[turnipoddity]

not me

[mostardentlyavoidant]

Thinking about the deaths in Leviticus. How queer people were brutally murdered and no one would be held accountable. Kinda like

[harsleywrites]

“Is God Is” was spectacular. An indictment of an intracommunity system that props up, enables, and sanitizes the reputation of abusers. God and her children were seen as disposable, growing pains for a Man who never actually grew. Children he abandoned and abused will still defend him over the women in their lives. Grown men will cower in fear of him and never seek their own justice. The victims will create hierarchies, decide empathy on a case by case basis. And even knowing all that he’s done, for a second you might even believe him.

[mostardentlyavoidant]

Some people: do you have any fic recs where this character is physically the same but has completely different goals, mannerisms, and personality?? like, same name but different in every way possible?

[code-crow]

I love being gay

[barbiekisser]

i'd like to believe that the entity will stop attacking ryan and naim bc it seems like when they show it love rather than fear, it stops. even if it's just for a brief moment.

[mostardentlyavoidant]

The scene where Naim held his face was all I could think about after, and I had a similar train of thought. But I feel that it isn't necessarily fear vs acceptance, but acceptance of the fear and pain that will come with being who you are and being with that person that terrifies you.

[mostardentlyavoidant]

Just thinking about Ryu sitting on the priest's side of the confessional