I Derp Forth As Only a MotorMouth Can @motormouth417 - Tumblr Blog

I definitely cry more than I expected to

And if I compare myself now to myself then

I would still say I’m happier

I’m free of so many things

And even though I cry

My tears are honest

And not hidden or stifled for anyone else’s sake

My heart pours freely

This is who I am

#motormouth #I’m a cryer #tears

I snuggled up with you today

While you were sleeping

On my couch

(Used to be, I could do that

And you would notice,

Somewhere in your dreams.

And you would act in a way

That seemed to follow:

A hand on my knee,

A kiss on my neck,

Or resting your arm across my chest)

But I was disappointed

(Not for the first time)

As your sleeping self

Flung your arm above your head

As if to prove to anyone who might be watching

That you didn’t initiate

And don’t endorse

Physical contact.

I cried,

Because had my dog done what I had just done,

She would be greeted with touch and affection,

Even in your sleep.

Why would a dogs need for touch

Be more important than a humans?

#motormouth #need touch #my soul is dying #water me #i love you

I go with my gut

And I get told how wrong I am

So I try going against it

And just get silence

Where’s the part where I get a reaction?

#motormouth #what am i doing #retarded

What’s the matter?

What’s the MATTER?!

I have to suppress every single urge, any feeling or thought that centers on sex, I do not get to enjoy you in this way even though I have and I know I will, I still find ways to give you some pleasure but there is absolutely no allowance for me .

I need it.

It’s unfair the position I’m in. I can’t just go get some, I can’t have it where I spend most my time, I handle things myself when I can but it leaves a dull ache where I know you fit perfectly.

And if I complain about it, you completely shut down. It is never addressed, it is assumed that I will simply accept this reality with no explanation where it is deserved.

What’s the matter.

Pfft.

You are so arrogant sometimes.

Like I’m going to waste my breath telling you.

#motormouth #this isn’t what I expected #Led to believe something else #hurting #boo #love my boo #connection #wishes #11:11 wish

I wish I could bounce some things off you and see what your thoughts would be, but in this case I literally can't. I wish I could separate you from yourself just long enough to get some perspective and maybe even some clarity. This is the torture that is having one friend and one way feelings on top of that. I ask for my own misery.

#motormouth #boo #connection #wishes

I said, “I love seeing you”

You said, “y?”

I came back with the lamest response ever, “because.”

So let me explain…

I love seeing you because you are my favorite person in the whole world. I love seeing you because there were times I was afraid I wouldn’t see you again. I love seeing you because every once in a while, I still get the feeling like that first time I saw you, and EVERY time I still get that other feeling. I love seeing you because you’re so unaware of what a great treasure you are. Seeing you is the highlight of my every day. You’re my BOO. That’s all the reason in the world.

#motormouth #boo #love my boo #connection #hot

free-my-mindd

My weakness is my strength

In today’s installment of “all the ways I want you”…it’s a Wednesday and I stop by on my lunch break as usual. You’re playing a video game when I walk in so I proceed to your room and start prepping my treat. I’m standing with my back to the door when you come in, silent as always, and wrap your arms around my midsection. I feel you squeeze and I lean back into you in response. Amazing how good you feel around me. Your lips graze my neck as you murmur softly and a slow smile reaches my mouth. Wordlessly we move to the bed and dutifully remove every stitch of clothing. My breath catches when I see your body, fully nude and ready to enter mine. I drop so my mouth is at the level of your cock, extend my tongue and lazily lick and kiss the tip and shaft. You allow this for a moment but soon grab my head and pump rapidly as I slobber and gag. The sound of my efforts seems to spur you on and soon enough I’m choking and you are cumming cumming everywhere every inch of my face inside and outside of my mouth…

#motormouth #11:11 wish #boo #hot

11:11

My new wish is for a breakthrough in our relationship. We’re good and getting better at being friends, and hands down this has been the most fun I’ve ever had with anyone.

The more time goes by the more certain I am of our inevitable pairing and subsequent adventures. I’d be lying if I said I thought we’ll be ready for that soon.

I fear a standstill or something could easily prevent our growth, but as long as we keep trying we can keep that at bay. It means having harder conversations, it means getting through stupid situations without lashing out at each other. It means practicing the things we don’t want to do, the things no one looks forward to. But somehow we bring this out in each other: the desire to do better and be better.

I love him in so many beautiful ways.

#motormouth #boo #love my boo #wishes #connection #11:11 wish

I will never understand

How someone who has such a great capacity for pressing all the right buttons and making me feel absolutely perfect

Can or would want to

To

Do

Less.

#motormouth

Whatever you do…

Don’t cuddle me!

Don’t give me any of that satisfaction.

Instead,

Put your energy into the cat,

The creature you profess to hate.

If you hated me,

Would I get what I need?

#motormouth #needs #flaunt it #I’m going back to work #sasspot #snarky #petty

Grocery shopping this weekend. And before I could say “milk and cheese” in walks a little girl dressed like a hooker (apparently the epitome of style in these parts). He makes a comment about her shorts being shoved up places and I kind of laugh. But then I begin to stew and my face shows it. He is so distracted by this little slut that he forgets what we’re getting.

And I’m not supposed to get upset or say anything, because we aren’t technically dating.

What right do these bitches have tho? For real?