Escape for Sanity's Sake

Call me Kal. Video Games, movies, and writing help me keep my few remaining wits about me. I'm particularly lost to Mass Effect but anything in geekdom is fair game. My FF.net My AO3

[aibidil]

Too often the fandom forgets HP is in the 90s, the glorious, glorious 90s

Here’s a peek at Theo, Blaise, Draco, and someone else:

Alternative preppy 90s Draco:

Second alternative preppy 90s Draco:

BOLD CHOICE, grunge Draco:

BONUS, 90s Harry is grunge don’t even argue, also he’s listening to Smashing Pumpkins:

@lol-zeitgeistic @shiftylinguini @writcraft @bixgirl1

[marauders70s]

yes yes this is exactly the content i’ve signed up for. to honor my url, let me add some 70s marauders gear

friendly reminder that under equally flamboyant robes, the massive flare dainty waist was THE peak mens fashion

Remus would try for a mustache around James’ wedding. The results would be hilarious.

Peter’s soul colors would be orange, mustard, and brown. He would thrive in sweaters, mutton chops, and feathered hair.

who could out sweater Peter? The answer is of course REMUS LUPIN who would live it up in chartreuse and oatmeal and burnt umber with not only a cardigan but a secret turtleneck.

Note the not successful porn stache. Don’t be afraid! James Potter is here in bright red, dark brown, and navy blue! 10/10 the wide legged lapel boy. He’s the Tommy Hilfiger of plunging necklines and high waisted (probably checked) pants.

And Sirius Black, the boy in punk. Wearing basic white, blacks, blue jeans, he’s the most “normal” but likely over studded, over plaid, and stick straight gelled hair. Forget these cresting bangs. It’s fohawk or death.

even Lily Evans is not exempt. She’s probably okay in bright orange, baby blues, and bright patterns of pink/purple. She’ll wear jumpers and tall socks and trailing headbands and too much eyeshadow.

yo any fan artists please jump in k love you my contribution for the world today is done bye

[annabetart]

I gave it a shot! It’s a bit of a tough look for Remus but… voila!

[aibidil]

REBLOGGING FOR THE ART WHICH INCLUDES SHAGGY!REMUS WHERE IS SCOOBY DOO

[mssticha]

He only comes out at the full moon

[mssticha]

I always wanted to be a mystical hermit working on my garden, secluded in the woods along the ocean. 

I’m sorry I’ve dragged you all with me to achieve this.

[bardofheartdive]

Bard’s Kaidan Week Give-away!

In honor of Kaidan Week 2019, hosted by @spectrekaidanalenko​, I broke out my sewing machine and made this pencil/make-up/travel pouch. (Not gonna lie, I’m pretty proud of it!) In addition, I will be giving it away as a prize for participating in the week. Details below the cut.

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[mssticha]

I guess I better start creating, because this bag is fabulous

[secondarysidecharacter]

Another busy day, another 6 stroke challenge 

[scentedstrangercreation]

Kaidan Week 2019 - Pre Normandy Days

@spectrekaidanalenko

Kaidan had always prided himself on his control. From a young age he knew biotics came with responsibility. He had to work harder, be stronger, be better, if he was going to succeed. He had seen too many fellow biotics fail in a system stacked against them, and he refused to be another statistic.

His determination hadn’t come without sacrifice. Beyond his family, there were few others he’d call close. He had tried, once, and it had almost cost him everything. No. It was better this way, safer. 

He rose quickly through the Alliance Navy, and with each promotion he felt closer to something. To what exactly he didn’t know, but it always felt just over the horizon. So he kept working, kept reaching, kept everyone else at arm’s length.

The hard work paid off when he was finally stationed on the SSV Normandy. The Normandy, led by Captain Anderson. If he’d bothered to keep track of his dreams, this might count among them. But he still couldn’t lose focus, couldn’t lose his control. He’d earned a spot on the ship, but now he needed to earn his keep.

He was focused, he was controlled, he was ready for anything. Then he saw her. Commander Shepard: The Hero of Elysium. He’d only ever seen her in vids, and even then only in brief appearances. She was alone, moving quickly through the hanger, focused intently on the data pad in her hand. 

He considered introducing himself, but something tightened in his throat. Instead, he watched her pass in silence. Taking a distracted step, he misjudged the space and stumbled. He straightened up quickly, desperately hoping no one else had seen him.

Almost as quickly as the hope crossed his mind, it was crushed by the sound of someone slowly clapping behind him, “Well, well, I just lost 20 credits to Jenkins. Turns out you are a real boy.”

Kaidan repressed a groan, closing his eyes and taking a breath before turning to face the familiar voice, “Joker.”

An amused grin spread across Jeff’s face as he crossed his arms, “Just so you know, the Commanders not taking applications right now.”

“And here I was proud I’d made it on the Normandy.” Kaidan crossed his arms, “guess they let anyone on these days.”

Joker dramatically put a hand over his heart, “Ouch, Lieutenant.” He continued walking, “don’t worry, your secret’s safe with me.” he walked backwards, whispering loudly, “I won’t tell anyone you have a living, beating heart beneath all—that.” He gestured vaguely at Kaidan.

“There’s nothing to keep—,” the biotic began to protests, but Joker simply mimed locking his mouth and throwing away the key as he continued backing away.

“See ya on board, Lieutenant.”

The pilot turned around with a lazy salute, leaving Kaidan standing in the bay, one foot aboard the ship and one in the docks.

He cleared his throat and shook his head, dismissing Joker from his mind. This was it. One more step and he would be on the Normandy. One more step, and everything would change. But he didn’t know that last part just yet. 

[sickbitterandcoveredinglitter]

I don’t think healthy people every really get chronic illness.

I have a friend I know from when we were both 6. She is the only person living nearby and so she saw me go from walking through limping to wheelchair on a daily basis. I keep her updated on my health even tho we rarely hang out anymore. She was gonna come over yesterday and I had to cancel. She asked if I can’t hang out later that day. When I said i won’t feel better later, that if I feel that bad in the morning later will only get worse she got annoyed and “joked” that I’m just finding excuses. And I was surprised, she knows all about me being disabled after all? So, a bit taken aback, I told her it’s a normal thing for me.

“But you got the diagnosis now, aren’t you better?? I thought you’ll get better now”

She was honestly surprised and it made me realize a thing. They don’t get it. They don’t get that getting diagnosed only equals benefits like welfare or parking spot for us, and sometimes better pain meds but that is just like pushing luck. That it’s a forever thing. That that one day we felt good a week ago was just a bright spot and doesn’t mean we won’t need our aids anymore, cause chronic illness is not linear and will make a great comeback in next four hours, and the next good day is planned on when we’re 70. Cause when abled people are sick, they get better. And our illness is just an excuse for them. And when we say we will never get better they think we’re being dramatic and pessimistic. And I don’t think they’ll ever get it, cause to get it you need to live it. And I want my friends to stay healthy and not go through hell.

[sickbitterandcoveredinglitter]

This is definitely okay to reblog and abled people are encouraged to reblog cause maybe it’ll help others understand

[sickbitterandcoveredinglitter]

Hello it’s me Lexa and this post is relevant again as I just had the Legit Same Talk with someone and I exhausted my number of fucks to give

[beka-tiddalik]

Oh my god I literally had this conversation with my mother an hour ago.

Mum: “So yeah, I was thinking that when I come down we could do visit an art gallery or a museum or something.”

Me: “I’ll have to see if I’m up for it, I’ve been going through a rough patch. I might not have the energy.”

Mum: “But you love art galleries.”

Me: “I know. What part of ‘it hurts to walk long distances now’ is hard for you though?”

[thatdiabolicalfeminist]

I routinely have people well aware of my disabilities/chronic illness congratulate me on how I “seem to be doing so much better these days!” on a good pain/energy day and then basically try to stage an intervention a week later on a bad one. “You seem to be on a decline lately, I’m just concerned you’re not taking care of yourself!” And then a week later on a good day again congratulate me on how I really seem to have improved and must be making a real effort to keep on top of my health, with no irony or self-awareness whatsoever. The narrative of “getting better” is so ingrained that healthy abled people will ignore massive amounts of cognitive dissonance to apply it where it makes absolutely no sense.

[birdkeeperklink]

And this belief in “getting better” is actively harmful because that’s how we get shitty things like people having their benefits “reviewed” and taken away because it’s been ten years and they’re not going to the doctor “enough.” They don’t need to get constant treatment after they know what they have, but that doesn’t mean they’re magically cured or just “not trying”!!! It means they’re ill, they’re always going to be ill, and going to the doctor every week isn’t going to change that (not to mention it’s expensive af)!

I see this in my job much more frequently than I should (we help people fight benefit denials and occasionally get back benefits after these “reviews”). Sometimes it’s justified - the person went back to work - but more often, it’s not, it’s just that some worker somewhere decided that this person or that person should be all better by now, and that’s just not how chronic illness works, so ending this idea that chronically ill people will just get better would help put a stop to shit like that.

[rosslynpaladin]

They cannot comprehend that we do not control our health. In their world, when people are sick it’s because they caught it from someone else, and if you stay sick it’s your fault for not taking care of yourself. They cannot fathom a  world where you can 

do everything right and still be sick. 

“don’t let your disability define you! Fight! INspirEd! Taking back my life from Cancer!” This narrative is everywhere in Able culture. If you JUST tried harder you’d get better. THAT is what they live and believe.

Therefore to them if we are “still” sick or “Sick Again” it’s because WE did something wrong. They can’t comprehend a world where you can’t Earn health as a reward for performing purity, kale and yoga.

[mssticha]

Now for my regularly unscheduled appear-out-of-nowhere-then-disappear-back-into-nothingness update:

My life is still pure chaos, but there's light at the end of the tunnel. I'm currently recovering from one surgery and am almost back to normal. This next week is my anniversary, we're moving into a house, then it's my birthday, then I have to go out of town for my fourth and hopefully final surgery in 12 months (8th in a little over 3 years)

This is the big one, though. I'm getting my real, final boobs! Recovery won't be short or fun, but I'll be able to take it slow. It'll be nice to feel like a normal person again.

Hopefully things will finally slow down after that so I can find time to get back in here and actually create again. To those of you still around, thanks for being patient.

[honestlyitsjustsam]

Shepard: *all sweaty, carrying heavy space shit that shows off their biceps and triceps*

Kaidan: I want Shepard to break me apart like a chopstick.

Liara: *sighs* Same.

Both:...

Kaidan: If you don’t tell, i won’t either.

Liara: Deal.

[nifriel]

Biotic god Kaidan Alenko, second human Spectre :3

More MASS EFFECT

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[mssticha]

Really Tumblr?!?

I tried to post and update of my breast reconstruction issues along with a picture. Long story short, an expander ruptured and Tumblr thinks you guys can't handle a bare, flat, flabby, nipple-less breast, even in the name of health education.

It's in appeal, but I'm not holding my breath

[mssticha]

Since I've posted most of my journey through breast reconstruction so far, I decided I may as well put this up here too.

You guys wanna see something super shitty? This is what happens when an expander ruptures.

Yay. Flat, floppy breast. My surgeon can't get me in until next week, and my final surgery wasn't scheduled until the end of May, so I have no idea what the next step is. Fortunately, my body just reabsorbed the saline so there's no problem here aside from being completely asymmetrical. Well, that and the kick in the nuts to my mental health.

Breast cancer is the gift that keeps giving.

[mssticha]

So, a quick update (and pathetic attempt at an explanation of why I disappear so often): my health is a challenge as usual, my anxiety and depression are running rampant despite my attempts to control them with diet, exercise, and drugs, and my fucking expander popped on one side so I have a deflated breast.

So... uh... sorry if you come here looking for me to be productive or interactive or whatever.

Cheers. Hope you're all well. I'm off to pop more pills and pretend to be a good parent or whatever.

[agirlwithadiary]

Can we just talk about the fact that in mass effect 3, during Mars archive mission when the squad learns of how Cerberus got into the base, Liara asks Shepard how she keeps her focus on things and Shepard says “when there’s a lot at stake, I just think about what I’ll lose”.. WHILST. LOOKING. AT. KAIDAN.

[mssticha]

And then he does that little double take and lowers his weapon a bit and if I had any skill whatsoever I would find that moment and make a gif so I could relive it forever

[agirlwithadiary]

Omg I know what you’re talking about. It was like a stolen moment between them. 😭

[agirlwithadiary]

Heyyyy @mssticha excellent news! You asked for it and I made it.. sorry it took a while. Had to learn a few things first. I’ve also got a video if you wanna hear words 🤗

[mssticha]

My hero!!

[ristay]

Sorry if it’s a little cramped- had to make this all fit in ten photos. Hope you guys like it….. and again…. sorry Andrew

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[th3morrigan]

Kaidan I kinda feel the way he looks. It’s been a long day.

[agirlwithadiary]

Can we just talk about the fact that in mass effect 3, during Mars archive mission when the squad learns of how Cerberus got into the base, Liara asks Shepard how she keeps her focus on things and Shepard says “when there’s a lot at stake, I just think about what I’ll lose”.. WHILST. LOOKING. AT. KAIDAN.

[mssticha]

And then he does that little double take and lowers his weapon a bit and if I had any skill whatsoever I would find that moment and make a gif so I could relive it forever

[sylkana]

*sighs* i miss kaidan alenko