the little moment of frank by himself after the relocation makes me wonder how, when he was fully detoxing in rehab, whether he told himself he'd never be able to do it all again because it would hurt too much, both emotionally/psychologically and physically. makes me wonder, too, how much he had craved that "good work" from both robby and abbot. how easy (well, not easy, exactly, but with ease) it was in comparison to how bad all those hours sweating and shaking and wishing he was dead from withdrawal were for him. how shocking it was for robby to actually praise him.
All the emotions in his body language and on his face!
Overwhelm, relief, remnants of fear and anxiety that it might go wrong, then that smile, joy, pride and disbelief. Everything all at once. Patrick Ball is a fucken amazing actor. So controlled, and so evocative at the same time.
Yes, it is a culmination of the ten months of struggle. Ten months of uncertainty, self-doubt, dreading about his future as a doctor and, by extension, as a man, a husband and a father. Was it the drugs that made him able to do this job? What if all it was, were the drugs? What if he "didn't have it" without them?
That first shift, Robby sidelining him, and Frank staying on, trying time and time again, pushing through, all of it shows incredible resilience on his part. I'm so glad he had that moment to shine, right here. He deserved it. And he deserved the "nice work" from Robby.
He didn't see Robby's face, though!
Shocking? Yes. For Frank for sure. But earned nonetheless.
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