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midnights-dragon

In case anyone is having a bad night

(The best of this post and its reblogs, but with links that work)

Here is a website where you can scroll down to all the different levels of the ocean

Here is a website where you can see the future of the universe

Here is a website where you can press a ‘make everything okay’ button, over and over, until things really are okay

Here is a website that you can read if you feel like a burden

Here is a website where you can look at strobe illusions (TW strobe/flashing)

Here is a website where you can cut stuff up (TW blood/sh)

Here and here are websites where you can play with sand

Here is a website where you can draw with macaroni and other fun foods

Here is a website where you can paint someone’s nails

Here is a website where you can grow a garden with emojis

Here is a website with hundreds of videos of people hugging you (rightfully dubbed ‘the nicest place on the internet’ because it really is, y’all, it made me cry)

Here is a website that will take you to other useless websites

Here is a website where you can make a tiny cat play bongo drums (and other instruments!)

Here is a website to help give you gentle reminders <3

Here is a website where you can grow a tiny farm

Here is a website where you can take a bunch of scientific personality tests

Here is a website of calm rain noise

Take a breath. It’s going to be okay, I promise.

mortallycrispygardener

shiftingbonesofapoltergeist-dea

I'm sorry WHAT

smallerontheoutside

'lazy people don't feel guilty about not doing anything' is insane to me and I have been trying to make my brain believe it for a long time, it shocked me to my core when I first heard it

astropithecus

An important corollary to "if you were faking your mental illness, you could stop whenever you wanted."

I think the biggest difference between Carol and Manousos is that Carol knows when to give up and accept help. They're both strong-willed and see the hivemind as hostile (especially at first) and want to save the world. But in Carol's case when she feels she can't go on, she accepts help and thus deepening the trust and lessening the hostility (which I don't think is a bad thing). I think Manousos's case is an example of what happens when you don't do that: you die (unless saved against your will). So while Manousos is possibly more resourceful at surviving (he made it accross half a continent), Carol is the better survivor.

#pluribus

Rewatching Pluribus episode 1 and I'm a bit fascinated by how much the scientists talk to each other and how little Helena and Carol talk during the airport scene (basically none but still with some gestures and words). It just makes me go "so this is how humans should act". And they set up the contrast nicely and parallel Helena and Carol's connection which is mostly nonverbal but not complete telepathy (as she has to indicate towards the bookstore). In a way it humanizes the hivemind. It makes sense that this is how humans would act if they knew everything about each other perfectly.

#pluribus

so-many-ocs

no dude it's so cool how attached you are to that character who is singled out and ostracized due to the external monstrousness that clashes with their internal spark of humanity. and i love how drawn you are to themes of horror and love, nature versus nurture, otherness, isolation, and the abject. i bet you have normal feelings about your own personhood

My friend asked is Carol/Zosia really F/F, isn't it more F/Σ

#carol x zosia #plurbius #which I think is just lit #so sharing

lost-boy-into-the-upper-heavenl

shutyourmoustache

I literally heard myself wheeze at one point reading these. 😂

shutyourmoustache

kaelio

My mind was playing around with good girl and bad girl.

So a good bad girl is still a bad girl

So is a bad bad girl

A good good girl is a good girl

but a bad good girl is bad girl.

Because I'm pretty sure this is how morality works

#shitposting #good and bad girls

naiya05

trying to grow up at 33 feels like going through 99 levels of self-cringe and shame. And the more you try the more you realize how further away you are (not like getting better isn’t worth it though). I wish I had developed normally so this would be long over with but noo.. bunch of trauma had to happen instead. Not for the first time I wish there was like another dimension I could go to and heal. Like an isekai adventure where you come back a changed person.

naiya05

I did sort of grow up. I'm 36 now. I had psychosis at 34 for three months. It was kind of like an isekai adventure but the type where you wake up in a psych ward afterwards. And the irony is I miss myself from that time. I was much more full of life, even as I was suicidal. Very much an "I can't wait to grow up" "I want to go back to how it used to be" situation.

I thought I had BPD and schizotypal then (and that was likely the correct diagnosis). I am now diagnosed with schizophrenia. In a way I had it worse and I am stable and generally better and better with boundaries and all. But it was also better in the sense that I felt more like me, even though I couldn't really tell.

#actually mentally ill

d4rkh34vn

captainjonnitkessler

Not "humans are inherently good" or "humans are inherently evil" but a secret third thing (humans are inherently social animals which means that we're very good at cooperating and being compassionate towards those we perceive as being part of our community but we're also very good at being tribal and violent towards those we perceive as threats to our community and everyone defines their community differently)