♡︎❀NAMIKI❀♡︎

Live, Laugh, Love Yanfei❤️ Genshin, TADC, BFDI Artist, Writer, Professional Yapper Multishipper, ♾️

[namikibee24]

“There's a lady who's sure all that glitters is gold, And she's buying a stairway to Heaven”

@justtheclippy You’ve turned me into a feral Ragatha fan girl she’s my favorite tragedy😩

(Im not the best at perspective or backgrounds so I hope I was able to portray her looking up in fear like I wanted to lol.)

[arrowsperpetualcringe]

bunnydoll yuri bunnydoll yuri bun-

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I'm an emotional abuse survivor, and Ragatha's story in Digital Circus hits me like a train and genuinely, I have no idea how no one else is talking about it

I knew FROM THIS MOMENT exactly why Ragatha is the way she is. The way she pulls herself short because you DO NOT TALK about what you go through, you do not tell anyone what your parent does to you or says to you. No one gets it. It's embarrassing. It's too much.

But her torture scene in the new episode just cemented it for me.

It's always at the dinner table. You can't get away at dinner. You have to sit with your abuser, who has probably already hit their limit for the day and is looking for someone to unleash their stress at. And you have to take it, because it gets SO much worse if you get up from the table before you're finished.

All the mannequins make me wonder if Ragatha has a big family. That's an awful lot of people who have already been beaten down and aren't speaking up to defend her.

Ragatha is a rag doll because Caine can see in her mind files that she's been used that way all her life. Thats how she sees herself. She's a soft thing to be thrown about. She can stand up to rough treatment. You can fling as many knives at her as you like and it doesn't matter, because she's made of stuffing, it doesn't hurt. You can just patch her up and keep going.

But if course it hurts. Look at her.

(and obviously her mother didn't *actually stab her in the eye*, come on guys.)

But I have to go back to how Ragatha's mother is shown here, because it speaks volumes to Ragatha's entire character. It's so screamingly obvious to me, probably because I mould my own life exactly how Ragatha does, for better or for worse.

The mother looks like Ragatha. She has the same hair, the same body type.

And the whole time she's abusing Ragatha, she's *smiling.* She's enjoying it. She's exactly the type of vile bully that comes up with her most hurtful thing to say, and smiles in your face while she says it, because it makes her feel good.

THAT is why Ragatha is so accommodating. THAT'S why she doesn't tell Jax to fuck off until she's given "permission" by Pomni at the softball game (who immediately gets freaked out by her big feelings and tells her she's being irrational).

THAT is why she tries to keep the peace and not upset people. THAT is why, almost to the very last, she tries to placate Caine.

Because she thinks that if she hurts someone's feelings, *SHE IS EXACTLY LIKE HER MOTHER.* And in Ragatha's mind, there is nothing worse in the whole world than finding out you're just like your abuser. Cosmically, you might even think that's why they hurt you in the first place. Because you're bad. You deserve it.

So you make nice. You stay quiet. You give compliments. You make sure everyone is happy.

You pick yourself up and keep going, despite constantly being knocked down, dismissed, laughed at. You try your best not to set them off, not set *anyone* off, because if they freak out, you end up being the villain. And there's always that tiny part of your brain that is terrified, deep down, that you are going to hurt people in the same way you were hurt.

[namikibee24]

Istg we’re closer to getting a Jax-themed rabbit vibrator than we are to getting Ragatha Pendantz

[namikibee24]

I’ve never been a big angst person for this reason but I’m writing an angsty Ragapom fic right now and I literally can’t stop crying thinking about it. I hope that means it’ll be good lol

[garlicnoodle1]

Those TADC fans when someone goes “You guys can’t handle complex female characters!” but it’s another woman who isn’t Jax so they don’t gaf

[jell-o101]

"We want more complicated female characters!"

Ya'll couldn't even handle HER.

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Important tags to include actually.

[namikibee24]

You are all such fucking hypocrites cause SAME PEOPLE who were giving Ragatha shit for standing up to Jax saying she’s “toxic” for RIGHTFULLY being concerned about Jax and Pomni’s relationship. When jax transitioned in the fandom yall were QUICK to excuse all the abuse, calling people transphobic for calling out the misogynistic rhetoric being perpetuated throughout the show for the past two years even if Jax doesn’t fall under the patriarchy anymore.

Two years of people excusing a (from what we knew then) man’s bad behavior. Now that she’s transitioned yall wanna act like it all never happened. What a wonderful fandom👍🏼

[hornyharpy]

hehe

[namikibee24]

I’ve already seen the movie BUT I found this bingo card I made before any of the leaks came out so I’m sharing it for those who haven’t yet seen it (and have somehow avoided spoilers which I applaud you👏)

I put in a lot of popular theories and such, plus stuff I wanted to happen. So yeah…..

[namikibee24]

WAIT A DAMN MINUTE

(SPOILERS FOR THE LAST ACT)

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So in the infamous “Totally normal cartoon fight” scene in Episode 6, Pomni attacks Jax but he doesn’t fight back (other than pushing her off). The whole idea is that there’s something stopping him from fighting back.

Well, I think Episode 9 gave us the true reason.

During Jax’s dreamscape scene, Jax stands at Ragathas door with a completely void expression, masking hard. Pomni comes up to him saying the same types of “please let me help you” “I can fix you” from before (def amplified since that’s his perseption of her). THEN he chokes her out, willingly hurting her and finally “fighting back”

This proves to me that the reason Jax didn’t fight back was because of Ragatha. Whether that means he didn’t wanna prove Ragatha right by fighting back before (since Ragatha believed him to be dangerous and therefore protective of Pomni) or that there was a small part of him that still cared for his former freind, who knows.

Ragatha is the last person alive that knew Jax since the beginning, so she probably has a special place in his heart. Her death could be the death of who he was the beginning, letting him fully embrace his abuse. .It could also be Jax taking out his emotions over Ragathas abstraction on Pomni, assuming he’d, once again, be the reason with him befriending Pomni to spite her (even if his motivations changed further on).

Idk, I’m just so happy to have that confirmation that in some way or form, Jax and Ragatha cared about each other. I wish we could’ve seen a more in depth look into Ragatha’s reaction to his abstraction. But, what’s done is done.

[namikibee24]

I keep thinking about how Ragatha is so Maxine Baker from Ginny and Georgia coded to me😅

Both are very happy go lucky, energetic and annoying to some. Both are the “glass children” in their respective groups. Both very gay and also very depressed. Maxine’s storyline in Season 3 about feeling rejected by her friends because she’s “too much” felt so similar to Ragatha feeling rejected by Pomni and the other cast members because her kindness was “fake”

Maybe I’ll draw Ragatha in some of these scenes idk

[garlicnoodle1]

Ragatha was right about everything and you all hated her for it.

[luzooo]

Maybe for a while, if that's okay

(im so freaking excited for the finale)

[garlicnoodle1]

The Amazing Digital Circus’ biggest fumble to me will always be how it handled Ragatha and Jax’s relationship. Not because it was a poorly written dynamic but because it was so complex in comparison to most of TADC’s dynamics to make for a wonderful foil story. Yet, the show never bothers to explore them any further outside of Ribbit and Pomni.

Ragatha and Jax were introduced as narrative foils, had an ambivalent relationship that always hinted at more, had parallels to Ted/Ellen and several married characters, were confirmed to be ex-friends, often criticized the other but still cared about them, etc. Yet, the show never properly addresses this dynamic between both of them outside of their sole POVS. Past 5-6, it genuinely felt like they no longer cared about developing Ragatha’s character any further, especially with Jax. Ragatha and Jax’s dynamic was too peak for Goose, it combusted.

[snouwelle]

"Awww look at my little superstars!"

[doctorforks]

inappropriate timing

[namikibee24]

She deadass told Ragatha that “you were always my closest friend” as Jax’s abstracted body runs around in circles below them. It’s nice to hear but DAMN IT reads like Pomni treating Ragatha like sloppy seconds😬😬😬

[namikibee24]

TW EP. 9 Spoilers!!!!!!

GUYS RAGATHA HAS A PIANO IN HER FUCKING ROOM WHAT DO MEAN JAX PLAYS PIANO AND POMNIS LIKE “omg that’s like so cool” OR WTVR AND THEY GET TO BOND OVER THAT??? DOES RAGATHA EVEN MAYTER ANYMORE? WE NEVER GET TO SEE HER ROOM GOD IM SO TIRED OF THIS BULLSHIT