NURSE'S NOTES

I am a Nurse and I write Notes.

[nanamz]

Hello 2020!

So another year has just passed! Wow! Can't believe I survived 2019 because it was one heck of a rollercoaster ride. Well, it surely was.

2019 was rough. I had unending worries that kept troubling me throughout the end of the year. Be it professionally, personally, financially, emotionally, mentally and even spiritually. I thought I lost it last year but good thing I have people around me that never left my side. Shout out to my constants--family and friends. But honestly, the above-mentioned causes of my worries were really hard to manage. There were multiple times that I thought of leaving the country in search for greeneries (you know what that is) and then suddenly deleting those thoughts because I felt short in different aspects. I mean one, I am not sure if I could survive being out there alone and two, I am scared of everything. I am such a baby.

It amazes me because January 2019 was still clear to me. I remember writing down things that I should be doing for the new year but then ended up screwing all of them because I am good at that. Then February was sad. I lost my aunt. March, my birth month, was fun. I turned 28. Wow! I'm old. Last April, the highlight was probably travelling to Manila with my sister and cousins. We spent a few days there just having fun and forgetting that I have a tiring job. Then during May, June, July, August, September, October, November and December, I remember the highlight was being always tired most of the time and kept complaining about my job. Because I do not know how to have a work-life balance. And for the nth time, I thought of wanting to leave and work at a better place. Or maybe because I felt pressured? But I realized that if I leave I'd still be a nurse and might probably continue to complain. It is an endless cycle. I don't know anymore. At some point I thought of changing careers and wanting to start something much more interesting that is a bit less stressful for me. But what should it be? How should I start it? And when should I start doing it? Ambot. There were even times that I just wanted to cry and give up. Feeling gani nako bipolar nako or nag develop nakog anxiety disorder. Ay ambot.

Anyway, 2019 has been incredibly patient to me. Hopefully in 2020 I will have a clearer and peaceful mind. Cheers!

[nanamz]

Finally! A dream come true! I can now proudly say that I own a copy of the book that I've always wanted to have! Big thanks to my supportive friend who hand-carried this treasure all the way from Brighton to Dumaguete just to fulfill my wish. Thank you loads Diane for this gift, I promise to keep this for as long as I live!

For years, my mother would usually complain of how I casually repeat clothes and wear the same boring hues of black or grey or navy blue on a daily basis, and I would just simply answer her that those colors just represent how dark my soul is. But nope! Of course I don't see my life that way. My clothes may look  soulless but I still see and live a colorful life with everyone I love in it.

Though I heavily rotate on dark tones on a daily, I still own pieces of reds and greens that I sometimes wear depending on the weather and my mood. I also have a number of whites that I prefer to wear whenever the sun decides to scare the clouds away all day.

Back then, I thought I had a very poor taste in clothing and thought that I was weird that I keep resorting to wearing the basics, and I also even thought of cleaning and clearing out pieces of clothing that I rarely wear. Clearly, for years, I've done sorts of things in organizing stuff and had various decisions that helped me improve in controlling and maintaining my things, like minimalism and the Konmari method, but I wanted more inspos.

Then one day, I stumbled upon Anna Newton's Youtube channel and got so much inspiration. Her videos have taught me so much that I became so sure of wanting a copy of her book because I know that that book will surely amplify my ideas in keeping a decluttered life.

Honestly, by now, I don't find my taste in clothing weird anymore because in the end, my happiness is what matters most.

[nanamz]

#27

It’s that time of the year again that you get to receive loads of birthday wishes, and yes I did receive tons. By the way, I just turned 27 yesterday. I actually don’t know what to feel. LOL. But truthfully, I feel blessed that I got the chance to turn 27.

I did not get enough sleep the night before my big day baya, well I haven’t been really sleeping well for some weeks now, blame the noc shift haha! I was on noc duty last March 5th and I never gave hints to my co-workers about my birthday. No one really knew, and I found it fun. I really don’t want people to know man pod sa workplace. But then, in the morning, a friend came and announced it. So nabal-an na sa tanan. Nang greet na sila pero wapakels rako haha. Kapoy jud kaayo basta gikan noc shift. Nahurot na akong energy. Then nag brekky ko with Papa then nidagkot sa Cathedral kay tradition naman namo. And then wala ko naka sleep dayon, as usual. I kept answering birthday greetings and wishes man gud haha!

But this year, our family decided to skip the party thingy kay we know the aftermath of it, kapoy baya manghipos oy. So wala mi nag tapok sa house. We headed out for dinner kay request pod ni Papa bear. So eat out it is. Then naabot akong superfriend nga si Theriz. And I’m just so thankful that I have friends that are loyal and trustworthy, nga dili jud ka biyaan. Charot diba pero tinuod pod hehe. And now, here I am sa room, trying to sleep pero I do not want to sleep man pod, so gora nalang ko sa pag write diri. Bitaw, I just wanna show you some photos that we took kanina to remember my 27th. And I wanna thank everybody for the well wishes. Love you all!  

[nanamz]

HOLA 2018!

I have been very dedicated(?) to my profession around the past 2 years that I failed keeping this blog alive as it was extremely intense and nerve-racking! Didto nako na-prove nga dili lalim ning trabahoa oy. Grabe! Mind, body, soul pati everything in between ana nila ang ma-apektohan. But no regrets. I still feel very fulfilled.

I decided to enter SUMC last June 2016 with a brave heart and began my reliever status by October of that same year. That period was seriously “grabe” that various emotions flooded. Seriously! Naka try nako nga ni duty nga “zero sleep” as in no sleep jud! I felt like a zombie nga nagsakay ug magic carpet. As in! And I do not want to experience that ever again!

But God is really loving that he gave me another blessing. Na regular nako bai! Haha! It became official last January 1, 2018. Grabe no? Paspas raman diay ang panahon. Nag start akong probationary period atong July 2017 nga nag sige kog complain na dugay pa kaayo ang 6 months, but hey, 2018 na, and look, na absorb nako. I just feel so blessed that the Lord helped me in my baby steps. 

Last month, na receive na nako akong rice and grocery allowances na ako rang gi dream masulayan ug dawat. Yey! Aside ana, I gained new friends and experienced life-changing nursing duties. But naka experience pod kog unfortunate times. Like na admit ko atong March 2016 kay ga balik-balik akong ubo. Mygosh! Makaulaw tong uboha! And kanang mga sick leave nga very needed para ma rest pod nako akong lawas. Todo kayod tas atong trabaho nga malimtan na nato usahay amping atong own health. Even karon, ga sick leave man kog 3 days kay nihubag akong tonsils. Boo! Ikr. Makaulaw kaayo pero tawo raman pod ang nurse, madutlan japon ug sakit. Duh? Lol.

I do not know what’s in store for me, but I am surely excited. I cannot wait for God’s wonderful blessings for me and my family this year. Hinay-hinay rata ani mga besh, baby steps ragud. 

[nanamz]

Study Time

So... Here I am, reviewing for tomorrow's post test, and I am feeling so tired. Kapoy kaayo pramis! 😔 Late kong ni sleep last night kay gitiwas nako akong work but because daghan ang load, late nako jud naka sleep. And I went to SUMC very early looking like a zombie, only to find out na 8am mag start kay naay photocopies wala na andam sa facilitators. Kaloka! As innnnn! Maboang nako. But dili ko dapat mag complain because this is what I prayed for. I'm here and I'm blessed. Right now, I have handouts about Intravenous Therapy. I'm praying I'll be able to finish at least one handout. As in bisag one lang. IV therapy is one of those topics na makabalaw tun-an kay kabalo naka about ani but then makalimot ra japon ka and then mubalik napod kag basa. Makabalaw jud lagi. But reading about the complications reminded me of my fair share of IV moments back when I was admitted for dengue in high school. I could remember how I laid nervously inside the treatment room and how the IV therapist inserted the needle onto my left hand. It was painful! I even teared, but I did not cry. I hated it. I hated being sick. That was one of the reasons why I do not like to be in a hospital. However, I am always inside one because ako napod ang manugsok ug mga tawo. 😂 But of course, I know how painful it is so ako pong i-try akong best na dili maka cause ug complications sa akong patients. I pray I become the nurse that people can trust and depend on. 😉

[nanamz]

LAST WEEK

Last week was intense! Really! Everything went as planned and it was overwhelming. Sure it was, I even got sick! 😂 And I know I shouldn't be absent that's why I'm self-medicating. But makaulaw kaayo ko kay the entire week kong gaduka, well hello, wala pako ka adjust sa akong new sleeping pattern and mao to ang cause sa akong gibati. Anyway, we'll be reviewing about Basic ECG Reading tomorrow. Wish me luck kay di jud nako bet nah nga topic muhaha! Goodnight yalls! 💋

[nanamz]

So I had to review about Basic Life Support last week and right now I'm just waiting for my license to come. 🎉 I can legally save lives now. LOL!

[nanamz]

[nanamz]

I AM BACK

Hello 👋 I've been away for too long and I even thought of deleting this account but nahhh I'm back! LOL! But I can't share so much right now because I got loads of nurse stuff to do. Ahuh! Yep! I'm back in the field~ and I'll be writing my own version of the nurse's notes from time to time, just to let you know that this profession is... freakin hard to explain. 😂😂 Anyway, I'm updating myself about the latest on BLS now, so...... Bye~~ ❤

[nanamz]

Thank you for all the birthday greetings! You sure made my day extra colorful. A big big thanks to Mama and Papa, and an extra special thanks to my baby girl for spoiling me with love and colors today. Love you all! 🙏🌈💋💕💐🎉🎈🎁🎂👑

[nanamz]

Keeping my tummy happy and my system healthy! ✌

[nanamz]

03-06-2015

I am officially 24 and I am happy.

Earlier this day, my uncle had a serious health problem that shook all of us. I slept at around 3am when I received a text message from my aunt and fell asleep while waiting for her to reply. Minutes after, my mother woke me up holding my BP app and stet. She asked me to go check my uncle's condition. I was afraid but kept my cool. I was assessing him and it was for me, stroke. I prayed for him as he was rushed to the hospital. I was telling myself all will be well since today is my special day. I know the Lord will protect us all the way.

In the morning, my usual activities happened. Washed my face and brushed my teeth. Went to Lola's house to check on her and gave her her meds. Then I had breakfast and received phone calls from my BFFs. They sang for me and I was laughing the whole time because they definitely have their own birthday song versions haha.

Loads of birthday greetings came in and made me smile the entire morning. Then I hurried to the shower and prepared for my lunch date with some special people. I invited Debie and Dhale to lunch and Micmic invited herself in as well. Haha. It was so much fun!

Shiela and Mich plus her boyfie were there too. Actually, these people were planning to throw a surprise for me, but little did they know that as early as I received the lunch invitation from Shiela, I already had the hunch of what's going to happen. Hahaha sorry girls but my instincts are just so powerful. And they did try surprising me still hahaha.

My sister, who happens to be a princess, was there patiently waiting for her food. She was in distress most of the time and I could see it. She needed to be back to work before 1PM but the food was served very late. Good thing she walks fast and reached her office 2 minutes before 1. Way to go gerl!

After lunch, Shiela accompanied me to the mall and we both decided to hit the cinema. Oh boy, we watched Chappie. Oh what a movie! We were feeling a bit drowsy right at the start but went laughing from the middle to the end. It was such a hilarious movie. We both did not regret watching it, it was fun and crazy at the same time. Yeah robots and weird dudes. Yeah. Fun!

Night time, we had a simple family dinner. So busog! Thanks to Mama and Papa!

Last year, Jessie did something for me on my birthday, no not the curlfetti though. I requested for her to let this local dude, that I am majorly crushing on, to greet me because it was my day. That dude was so good, he responded. This year, I want that same dude to greet me. With the help of my princess sister and awesome friends, they harassed Markki Stroem's twitter account just to let him greet me. The flood started in the morning but he wasn't caring, I guess? Then evening time again, Jessie tried but no reply. When Nikki said she will use the last hour for my bday to act as my fairy godmother, she seriously flooded the dude's account, which I probably believe annoyed him that made him do it just to shut us up. Hahaha! Silly!

I am just thankful for all these people around me for making me feel happy and loved. They are truly my gifts and treasures. I am deeply grateful for everything that has happened to me the past year and I will wish for an even better year ahead, still with these people and more. 

Two words for them, Thank You! 

Oh and plus, I Love You.

[ilovebubat]

Ikont believe you’re 24. It seems only yesterday when you were 23 hahaha you’re an amazing woman with an amazing heart..and wallet. You’ve always put me your number one priority i’m so touched like when i’m hungry you go all “adto tas *somewhere out there*” nya ikaw mubayad tanan nya ikaw pud mu order bsag sugo-on ko nimo or “tabangi kog luto” pero di japun ko mutabang nya ako japun dakog kaon huhu 🙊 sorry caz i’m so stubborn ikont help it pls still love me ok 🙎 i’m beyond thankful caz the world gave me a bilikay yet very buotan sisturr who never gets sick of doing favors for me, bsag daghang gibuhat nya muingon ko ayuha akong buhok or akong kilay mutuo dayon ka hahahurrhurr thank you for everything and for always believing that i rly am a princess 😘 and every march6 i-claim jud nako na ako ng birthday ((awa apil kog blow sa candle)) you’ve always been selfless bsag atong infant pa ko hahahaha continue to be a blessing to everyone. Happy birthday my twin sister! Saranghae ❤💕🎁🎂🎈🎉

[nanamz]

Yehey! 🎊

[nanamz]

🎈🎈🎈

[nanamz]

23 to 24

Tomorrow's the big day; that is me turning 24 and I honestly don't know what to feel. K. Bye.

[nanamz]

Once upon a time, there was a nurse and that nurse was me. ✌