A blog in which I occasionally interact with others and sample what this site has to offer. Neurotically apathetic and yet individualistic. Socially maladjusted writer. World-building enjoyer. Character interaction enthusiast. Dealer, analyzer, and synthesizer of information and content. Insane to a degree of certain concern. Proud practitioner of "non-consensual creator-consumer role-play". Self-described as an "ace in the hole". Fueled by spite.
My bio tells you everything already and you can call me Narky.
Yes, I am currently into [insert fandom, object, work, argument, etc., here] and will snort it’s powdered snow as I see fit to.
No, this is not a [insert fandom, object, work, argument, etc., here]-centric blog nor will it ever be, as you can see from my disjointed posts, inconsistent archive and scattered followings.
And yes, it is always like this.
Welcome to ground zero, motherfuckers.
(Tagging system below the cut.)
My somewhat reliable tagging system (work in progress):
#narky thinks - My own posts
#narky speaks - My responses to asks and submissions (submissions tagged separately)
#narky is ____ - Bullshit, it doesn’t matter. Any duplication is purely coincidental
#narky spies something a bit out there - The posts I make or reblog that might not be for everyone. Use this to filter for uncomfortable stuff.
#reblog - Exactly what it means (I need to get better at that)
#[any fandom, object, or anything of the sort] - most reliable if you want to look for posts with specific mentions of specific content in them (i.e. #genshin impact, #scp, #jin yong, and so forth).
#[series] - I don’t usually make things, but when I do, I tag them under a ridiculous and out of pocket title. The more obnoxious and audacious it sounds, the more likely that that is the one you’re going to block for the foreseeable future. Mostly for sorting. Actual series down below this section (eternally under construction).
#[anon] - How to keep up with yourself if you’re an anon. Chances are, I’ve named you after something in the sentences you sent and the words we exchanged, but I can totally change it if you want.
#[mutual] - Virtually non-existent. I’ll try revamping it, but the posts I’ve made and collected . . . over 1,000 of em . . . I make no promises.
odysseus absolutely does present a threat to penelope if he perceives her as at all unfaithful, and i feel the unfairness of this, and i think people tend to undersell how much tension at least potentially exists between odysseus and penelope. but i'm also like. his reaction, all speculation aside, his actual reaction in the odyssey to her flirting with the suitors is delight, because he immediately ascertains that she is running a con. sorry that they're so in-sync in spite of the forces that try to drive a wedge between them, including their own misgiving hearts. sorry that they invented homophrosyne ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
if you dont decouple your drive to create from your desire for attention you will go insane. simple as. you will never feel satisfied b/c you will always want more and you will feel perpetually bitter that you did not get what you are “owed”
It’s an unpopular opinion but it is absolutely and completely true. I’ve never seen someone who creates for engagement happy with the engagement they get. I posit they can’t ever be happy that way because it will NEVER be enough
But, because I see statements like this turn into a sort of general notion of “it’s bad to want validation or attention or engagement”, and to me, that’s not what this means.
It’s perfectly valid to want people to like and engage with what you create. In a general sense, when you create anything, you do it to share with other human beings. Art, craft, food, anything you create is a way to connect with others through our shared humanity.
And wanting someone to like you fanart or read your fanfic is part of that.
the words used by OP is decouple, and this is important. Nothing wrong wanting engagement. But it cannot be tightly coupled with the drive to create.
look at the republican calendar and see which animal/plant/item is associated with your birthday ok. if you're born january 14 you get the day of the cat
shoutout to the words "overmorrow" and "ereyesterday". english losing these words was stupid. "the day after tomorrow" "the day before yesterday" clunky-ass constructions. revolting. i'm bringing overmorrow and ereyesterday back in my idiolect and there is nothing you can do about it
Hey. If people aren't aware, Microsoft admitted they know who you and where you are at all times and will give your info to the police.
They have a Global Device Identifier (GDID) Tracker that functions as a fingerprint for your PC that can surpass VPNs, proxy servers and countries. Although it can't survive a clean reinstall of Windows (it can survive updates), because Microsoft forces you to go to the internet and log in into a Microsoft account, they will be able to get to you.
Microsoft kept it secret and it was only found out when the FBI tracked a hacker thanks to the information Microsoft gave them.
You should be paying attention to this, and possibly consider moving away from Windows. If a government, especially the US government, doesn't like you for some reason, this could be seriously concerning.
This article specifically notes:
For journalism, activism, or domestic abuse situations, skip Windows and use Linux routed through Tor instead of a commercial VPN. A GDID doesn’t care which VPN you use, only that it’s still the same Windows installation.
GDID is the persistent Windows ID that helped FBI trace a Scattered Spider hacker despite VPNs. Here's how it works and how to limit it.
Other important quotes:
What has researchers uneasy is everything else the case reveals. Costin Raiu, a well-known malware researcher, asked on the Three Buddy Problem podcast how much of this exists on other platforms, and whether it is linked more permanently to hardware. Matthew Hickey, another security researcher, called Windows “surveillance software”.
Two things back that up:
There’s no consent screen. A GDID gets assigned when you sign into a Microsoft Account. Apple’s advertising identifier needs an App Tracking Transparency prompt and a visible reset; Android’s works the same way. GDID has neither, and a Windows reinstall only gets you a new number Microsoft can still get back to the same account.
Then there’s activation. Massgrave, the group behind Microsoft Activation Scripts, notes that Windows setup sends hardware info to Microsoft and gets identifiers back, the same tokens later used for Store access and licensing: “It’s impossible to prevent Windows from getting a GDID without breaking activation and UWP app[s].” Anyone who lost a license after swapping a motherboard has already met a smaller version of this.
Here's the complaint filed to the court, the primary source for the case mentioned in the article. You can find mentions of GDID on page 30 of the document or 34 of the PDF.
explained to an 8 year old that once a fruit is ripe you only have so much time until it rots so you have to eat it soon and she said so i'll never be able to keep it perfect like this forever? no and there are about a million pieces of art for you unrelatedly
i beat myself up for not knowing enough about my special interests a lot but then i remember the average person off the street has no idea what the carboniferous is and i feel better
Do you think that the radioactive shrimp from Walmart would be able to cancel out the cyclosporiasis in the iceberg lettuce from Taylor Farms, or would it be the worst of both afflictions?
