Fake It Till You Make It Baby 🖤

[thewanderingmillennial]

Just tell me ...

[sad-lonely-broken]

”I wanted to kill myself a long time ago, was always close to it. I did not do it because I was afraid to explain myself if it didn‘t work.“

— sad-lonely-broken

[the-suicide-effect]

"It all starts with not wanting to get out of bed, that's how you know you're getting bad again"

[lovelyblackthoughts]

Why can’t I just feel happy? Why can’t I just feel beautiful? Why can’t I just be okay?

[sunflowerletters]

“Perhaps the saddest thing, Is that one moment, you’re in love, or you’re best friends, or you’re in a committed relationship, And the next; you’re just a nuisance, you’re blocked without any good explanation, you’re just another stranger. Or worse yet, you’re forgotten completely.”

— Excerpt from a Book I’ll Never Write, Perhaps the Saddest Thing

[natalieilov]

Tonight, I met up with a friend of mine and I felt as though I needed to cry more then ever before. She told me that my “best friend” isn’t worth sticking up for because if I do something “wrong” she blames it on me and never truly wants to see me succeed in life. She doesn’t want me to “out shine” her and thats why I never feel confident. It hurt me to know that, that’s what others see when they see me and her. I don’t blame them since I never could get any guy but she can get anyone.

So, I’ve decided I’m done. I’ve understood I can never get anyone nor have anyone truly like me so I’m done. I’m done feeling emotions and I’ve decided to just live life day by day and honestly wouldn’t mind dying right now. It’s become obvious I will never get into any relationship and will die alone so I’ll try to travel as much as I can before I die but honestly don’t care anymore.

I’ve never truly realized how much those around me have put me down till now. I’ll never be ok. I’ll always hate myself and my body. I’ll never be anyone’s first choice. I’m the duff of my friend group so what’s the point? Because honestly I don’t see one.

[natalieilov]

To anyone who sees my post I’m sorry but I’m making this my diary from now on lol

[natalieilov]

I’ve been feeling down lately and not wanting to get up from bed and all my friend can do is yell at me and be pissed off instead of caring.

[natalieilov]

I just want to fall asleep and never wake up.....

[why-am-i-breathing-deactivated2]

[natalieilov]

Having friends who are pretty is hard.

Being the ugly friend, you always have to deal with guys coming up to you for help on how to get with your friends.

No guys every just wants you or to get to know you.

It’s also hard when I myself have those friends who know they are pretty and flaunt it.

They always brag about how many guys they can get and how every guy they know wants to get with them.

They bring up on how hard guys try and that they have them wrapped around their fingers.

It’s annoying sitting there listening to it all knowing, that’ll never happen to me.

I’ll never get a guy because as soon as they see the rest of my friends, I become the ugly troll that turns invisible.

[natalieilov]

Ugly

Being the ugly friend is the worst. You can never truly be happy.

You will never be posted on any of your friends social media accounts because you aren’t pretty enough like them.

You will never get any guys because as soon as they see your friends they’ll ask you to hook them up with them.

You aren’t invited to anything unless they ask if it’s ok you come along.

You get brushed aside as if your nothing.

They only know you as their friend not your actual name.

No one ever remembers you.

They never truly acknowledge you unless they need help. Other then that, you are invisible.

You will never get “hyped up” on how you look so good and how any guy would be lucky to have you.

They never want to take pictures with you.

No one ever wants to hang out with you unless one of them are there.

Being the ugly friend sucks and no matter what you do nothing will ever change that.

[averagetransman]

Self-harm isn't always razors and nooses.

Sometimes it's intentionally neglecting your health because you think you don't deserve to be well. Sometimes it's starving yourself because you think you don't deserve to eat. Sometimes it's abusing drugs to the point where the addiction nearly kills you. Sometimes it's dating abusive people because you think you don't deserve to be in a happy, loving relationship. Sometimes it's pushing away the people you love because you think you don't deserve companionship.

Self-harm comes in many forms. If you see anyone doing any of these, please reach out.

[bulimicbunnny]

[chl-e]

“Suicide is stupid? You wanna know what is stupid? Hurting someone so much emotionally, that they think suicide is the only answer.”

— Macklemore

[natalieilov]

Isn’t it sad....

You can be so depressed to the point you cry yourself to sleep everyday and just get to the point you don’t want to leave your bed....

But as soon as someone asks you

“Are you ok?”

All you say is, with a smile,

“Yeah Im ok!”

And they don’t even question it. They just go on with their day while you... you are still there... sitting in pain because you don’t feel like you are wanted anymore...

But no ones know it because they don’t take the time to actually ask and really be there for you....

[noone0314]

Baby, I’ve been trying but you can't feel the same

About me, baby.