the queer language in Doktor Faustus is actually insane.
Adrian hides everything about his passion for music, he hides that he plays piano on his own, even from his childhood friend. then he flees from the pursuit of music by trying to study theology, which however bores him. his private music teacher wants to convince him to take the final step and finally abandon the study of theology for music. the narrator, Serenus the childhood friend, points out that Adrian's mother would have no reason to think the study of music as something disturbing or unbecoming, and yet she displays a certain hostility towards the music teacher and an unexplainable protectiveness towards Adrian in his presence.
there is an entire letter from Adrian to his teacher where he tries to reason his way out of studying music and gives a series of explanations as to why his personality is not fit for it. he shows this letter to Serenus.
the way music stands for sexuality after this is then reiterated. Adrian in Leipzig is led into a brothel by a devil-like individual, who sells him the place as a tavern. only inside does Adrian understand where he is, but instead of accepting the girls attentions, he goes to a piano and plays. until one touches him with an arm, then he leaves with nothing done. he writes about this to Serenus who is, oh my god, balls to the walls mad about it, but deflecting the reason why. he tells us no less than three times that we shouldn't read this worry and apprehension and fear as a tell on Serenus' own character. it only speaks as a reflection of Adrian's character. and like, you're saying this a bit too much for it to sound legit my buddy. methinks it's about both of you.
Adrian's letter also has gems such as
Chopin and Delacroix, ok lmao
Adrian seeing the piano in the brothel:
that absolutely unnecessary clarification (gazing at me, not you), the piano as a friend. are supposed to assume he simply sat down and played piano instead of doing what you do in a brothel? and if he really did simply play, even the mare fact that the act of music stands in substitution for what should technically have happened...
and Serenus commentary of it all, because oh my god. oh my god. and note the repetition of "angel" as a descriptor for Adrian which is the same thing Adrian said of, uh, Chopin.
I'm just copy-pasting parts here but this entire section is literally insane:
and last but absolutely not fucking least:
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yousharknotpass
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