the most beautiful church of tetanus

gamer. mage. lace-drenched sweetheart. noblewoman from a fantasy world. disenfranchised academic. cat.

[golyadkin]

talking to your parents in your 20’s moodboard

[mikkeneko]

2 types of notes on here:

1) parents noticed something wrong and tried to get a diagnosis, were dismissed by medical professionals

2) medical professionals noticed something wrong and tried to offer a diagnosis, were dismissed by parents

[gay-jesus-probably]

3) Parents knew EXACTLY what was wrong, and refused to get a diagnosis or tell the child in question they were neurodivergent because they ‘didn’t want you to have to deal with the stigma’ so instead they specifically ensured you went through public school with a severe learning disability and zero support until you could finally get yourself diagnosed+medicated at 18

not that i’m bitter or anything

[dragonfrost-system]

4) parents were in hardcore denial that anything was wrong cuz they didn’t want to deal with a disabled child and its easier for them to dismiss you as just lazy and making excuses

[squeeful]

5) Parents did get a diagnosis but didn’t want to do any of the work to actually deal with it

[coffeeseed]

6) YOU noticed the syptom but your parents didn’t believe you and thought you were making it up or overreacting

7) parents ALSO have (illness) so they think it’s just normal behavior or plain do not have the capacity to deal with it unless they get their own shit together (which they won’t) so you get trapped in a cycle of toxic behavior because you don’t know any other way of dealing with things

8) Parents know something is wrong but just berate you for having something wrong with you and don’t offer any solutions that don’t involve threats or yelling

[nekomantic]

9) parents ALSO have (illness) so YOU believed it was normal adult behaviour and weren’t worried when you e.g. slept all day after school

[sailorcuba]

the purest form of serotonin is when a cat looks at u and u go like “what?” and it meows at u

[arborealgargoyle]

like, that is a very unspecific response I still have no idea what you want but I applaud how adorably you meowed all the same, well done

[arborealgargoyle]

This post led me to reminisce on the nature of cat’s meowing, and I have a funny story

I befriended a feral cat once who had spent her life in the forest without human interaction. I was worried about her because she had a paw damaged from an old injury and was emaciated but obviously nursing kittens that were hidden away somewhere. It took me weeks of putting out food and sitting across the yard every evening for her to trust me even a little and when she decided we were friends and she expected dinner every night she started coming to my door and trying to call for me in the evening, but she didn’t meow. Why would she? Cats only meow naturally as kittens when their vocal chords/ears aren’t fully developed, adult cats communicate with vocalizations that aren’t audible to humans. She probably tried making noises I couldn’t hear to call me but ended up sticking to the one I always responded to- a horrible yowling growl that she had made at me when we first encountered each other in the forest. Except once we were friends she would make this noise while purring and rubbing affectionately against a nearby tree or the porch railing (because she didn’t want to touch me yet). This understandably freaked my family members out but I was touched that she had taken the time to find a way to basically yell FUCK OFF in an affectionate way.

Fast forward to when she finally trusts me enough to bring her hidden kittens out of the forest to me, long story short I gained their trust and put them in this big pen, that I had previously used to keep chickens in, so they’d be safe and to keep her from having another litter. Except she was already secretly pregnant again! (Fix your pets, guys, they make SO many babies) and ended up having her new babies in this pen. I kept my distance, sitting on the outside once they were born until she seemed comfortable enough to let me come inside. The kittens were a bit wild, hissing viscously at me as soon as they opened their eyes, but they warmed up to me. There were four of them and soon they all wanted to be the center of attention during the twice daily play sessions. I’d be playing with one and another would meow insistently behind me and I’d immediately answer them and give them love, teaching them that humans could be friends that answer their needs- making them adoptable once they were weaned. Mama cat (Artie) would just watch me play with them, and I guess she was doing some thinking because one day when they were about a month old I was playing with them and one meowed behind me. I was confused because I hadn’t realized there was a kitten behind me and when I turned, there wasn’t. The only cat there was Artie looking at me really intensely. I turned back around to the kittens and I heard the meow again, I turned back to Artie and responded in the way I always did with the kittens “yes baby?” And she meowed again in an exact imitation of her kittens! After that she would.not.shut.up. It was like she had cracked some kind of code, meowing for attention and snacks and just to say hi. Her two older kittens, the ones she’d had in the forest, had never meowed at me either but started to once they saw how I responded to their mom. and I find it endlessly fascinating because before that it had never occurred to me that cats only meow at humans because they were taught by other cats to keep meowing past kittenhood because that’s the best way to get a human’s attention.

Imagine befriending some weird giant with the wrong number of legs that you met in the forest who seems nice enough but doesn’t seem to be able to hear you, until your friend explains that all they can understand is fuck off! And I’m a baby give me love!

[nekomantic]

Just tonight, my cat was in the kitchen meowing at me. got her water, pet her, etc and could not figure out what it was she was meowing about, but she was so clear and insistent. The meow of a cat who wanted something.

Finally partner got out the catnip. She practically jumped a step forward and meowed with a happier tone. We could tell instantly that that was the right answer!

[kae77p]

[washiinmachiine]

first date? aka wiki how do you unnoticeably put your arm around your gf because you’re bad at showing affection

[shavingryansprivates-deactivate]

remember when we were kids and we used to all sing that demented version of the barney song where it was like “i hate you you hate me let’s go out and kill barney”

[shadowcat]

i don’t remember ever doing this. you were a fucked up kid

[igotadeadspiderinmypocket-deact]

i hate you

you hate me

let’s go out an kill barney

with a baseball bat

and a 4x4

NO MORE PURPLE DINOSAUR

[notchicken]

really? Our version was more like..

i hate you

you hate me

lets go out and kill barney

with a great big gun

two bullets to the head

WOOPS LOOK AT THAT, BARNEY’S DEAD.

[residentartichoke-deactivated20]

Ours was like:

JOY TO THE WORLD THAT BARNEY’S DEAD

WE BARBECUED HIS HEAD

DON’T WORRY ‘BOUT THE BODY

WE FLUSHED IT DOWN THE POTTY

AND ROUND AND ROUND IT GOES

AND ROUND AND ROUND IT GOES

AND ROUND AND ROUUUUUND AND ROUND IT GOES

[aph-homophobicwaiter-deactivate]

I hate you,

You hate me,

Let’s get together and kill Barney, 

With an AK-47 and a shot to the head,

Uh-oh Barney’s dead

[hdyoshi]

The one I knew was:

I hate you, 

you hate me, 

let’s get together and kill barney

sorry kids but Barney’s dead, 

we just shot him in the head

[gaymccarrol]

a b c d e f g

barney is my enemy

stick a rifle up his nose

pull the trigger there he goes

sorry kids barney’s dead

here he is without a head

[korokchan]

You’re all fucked up

[luidilovins]

Barney: *exists*

Adolescents on the playground:

[moon-eyed-fox]

the one we learned was :

I hate you, you hate me

Let’s tie Barney to a tree

Shoot him with a 64

No more purple dinosaur

[nekomantic]

I feel I have to add my school’s very special “I love you, you love me, Barney gave me HIV. Medicare is such a bore, Boy, I hate that dinosaur.”

[they-better-be-mysterious-deact]

Rabbit ears.

Okay but this makes actual sense! You’d want a stylist who was used to cutting hair so that it lays nicely around the ears. ( Friends = miqo'te?)

[heikala]

Inktober day 18, A wizard cat

On a quest to find the magical catnip.

[they-better-be-mysterious-deact]

Where do FF’s coeurls come from? It turns out they come from a 1939 science fiction short story, which actually explains a lot of things about them including their lightning elemental affinity and their blaster attack.

(@behemothblogging said they were based on the ‘displacer beasts’ from D&D, but whoever brought the coeurls into FF clearly knew they were called coeurls, so I think it’s more likely a direct reference to the story.)

[fuckyeahcomicsbaby]

Thermohalia

[nekomantic]

oh i enjoyed this. it's a shame it stopped after a few chapters! (btw there is such a cute sentient robot cat) so pretty. the colours are lovely and i like the sea theme and the society is so interesting i wish there were more (x)

[they-better-be-mysterious-deact]

wOW what a typo. c’rrah says thancred tia would get torn a new one if he acted like he does, and also that he has ugly hyur ears.

[crrahsa-yamah]

(you all need to see this XD)

[they-better-be-mysterious-deact]

please tell me more

[ffxivruhneamariyo]

WHAT

[tiergan-vashir]

Where can we find this info? Is it in game?

[onwesterlywinds]

Okay! Here’s a quick run-down on XII’s Esper lore from your friendly local Ivalician. Keep in mind that there’s lots of information spread across more than four games (Tactics, Tactics Advance, XII, and to a lesser extent, Vagrant Story), and this only barely scratches the surface of what we know!

The Kiltian gods - the deities of Ivalice - created a total of twenty-four magnificent beings known as Scions. Of these, eleven were Scions of Light and eleven were Scions of Darkness, with each Scion of Light corresponding to a Scion of Darkness and vice versa. Only two - Ultima and Zodiark - were given no equal.

The Scions of Darkness were created to help curb the evil in the world. Over time, however, that evil began to corrupt them. It was Ultima the High Seraph, the Virgo Esper, who essentially snapped first; she enlisted the Scions of Darkness to overthrow the gods who created them. (Since 1997, Altima/Ultima has been a symbol of Lucifer from Christian tradition, and her rebellion against the gods is very much akin to the great battle in Heaven described in the Book of Revelations.) She and the eleven Scions of Darkness failed in their attempts to revolt, however, and as punishment, they were confined to twisted corporeal forms in the mortal realm.

Eleven of the Ascians’ names come from the eleven Scions of Light, none of whom are ever seen in XII. We don’t need to see them, strictly speaking - since they never rebelled against their gods, they have no cause to be in Ivalice at all. The Ascian representing Virgo simply takes the PSX Tactics mistranslation of Ultima’s name, “Altima.” In English, at least. The name Elidibus also comes from Tactics: Elidibus was the host for the thirteenth Esper, Zodiark, representing the sign Ophiuchus.

Many of XII’s Scions of Darkness are references to previous Final Fantasy antagonists. Mateus, shown above, is one such example: he’s a reference to Emperor Mateus Palamecia from Final Fantasy II. XII’s Scions of Darkness also include Chaos, Zeromus, and Exodus (Exdeath). But unfortunately, only those Espers who appeared in Tactics (referred to as the Lucavi demons) are ever given any distinct personalities within an Ivalice game. I’ve seen people try to compare the Esper Mateus’s motives to Lahabrea’s in XIV, and I’m sorry to say that there’s just not enough substance to Mateus as a character for us to make any connections there.

The XIV devs have confirmed that the Ascians’ names being taken from the Scions of Light are just namedrops and shouldn’t be taken as anything more than references.

There are, however, some additional details that those who have played Ivalice games (especially Tactics) might pick up on. For instance, Ivalice’s Scorpios are often manipulative even among other antagonists, and they are also usually the first to die. This more or less held true in XIV as well. Similarly, Shemhazai, the Sagittarius Esper, is distinctly referred to as female; the Sagittarius Ascian is given a female voice in XIV.

I hope this helps! If anyone has any further questions about the Espers or about Ivalice lore, please don’t hesitate to ask away! They’re some of my favorite topics in all Final Fantasy by far.

[they-better-be-mysterious-deact]

Wow, this is cool to know! Thank you~ :D

I really like Esper/eidolon/aeon/summoned-beast lore in general! So what I’d love to know about most is the motives and choices involved in the Scions of Light/Darkness conflict, really, but I figure there’s probably nothing more than what you’ve said above. 

I do find the summon names in XII really creepy because, although I have a patchy memory of the second half of Tactics and don’t know FFII, I sure as heck caught the origin of Zeromus’s name and it freaked me out. I haven’t seen Chaos/Exdeath yet, but I’ll be keeping an eye on them when I do get that far. It’s fascinating to think of the group of them as possibly representing, on an archetypal sort of level, all the villains that have threatened extinction-level harm to the peoples of all of these worlds. Which is something you can say of Lahabrea as well, even though he’s a Scion of Light! 

But yes, what I’m looking for is… ah. Not the sort of parallel where things are omg sekritly connected, but rather an exploration of archetypal echoes. I wanted to know if there was an overarching thematic trend/cluster of associations, like the way Espers tend to be styled and symbolized across games– one game’s Ifrit isn’t another game’s Ifrit, but they are both Ifrit-like. It’s not the kind of “sameness” that has anything to do with factual things occurring in lore; it’s a “sameness” of concept and inspiration that interests me.

(If I’d known my post was going to get 200+ notes, I would’ve explained in the main post text that it was a screencap of the FFXII bestiary I was curious about because I liked the XIV character. I’m sorry if it confused anyone!)

[hydaelyn-horoscopes]

Reblog with your Character’s Nameday and Server!

We’re making a list of character’s namedays! Reblog this with the name of your character, their nameday, and what server they are on, and on their nameday we’ll post a special message!

IE: Hydaelyn Horoscopes, 7th Sun of the First Umbral Moon, Coeurl!

[yourou-ffxiv]

Angel Lerat, 32nd Sun of the Fifth Umbral Moon, Balmung

[praise-be-to-azeyma]

Kyno Pygan, 16th Sun of the 2nd Umbral Moon, Coeurl.

[grimoire-of-geekery]

Alasdair Threefold, 10th Sun of the Fifth Astral Moon, Malboro

[intangirble]

Di’midrahk Mohk, 29th Sun of the 3rd Umbral Moon, Balmung

Sahraa Njibrak, 18th Sun of the 5th Umbral Moon, Midgardsormr

[they-better-be-mysterious-deact]

C’rrahsa Yamah, 16th Sun of the 4th Umbral Moon, Midgardsormr & Balmung

[fragiledustwitch]

I don’t know why I’ve seen several people lately that make very dark skinned characters with the sole intention of making them as ugly as possible. Mismatched eye/facepaint colors, extremely bright and clashing makeup. Maybe it’s just a Gilgamesh thing, but it’s odd.

With how few dark skinned characters I run into anyways, it’s a little disappointing. 

[diskwrite-ffxiv]

That’s poop.

Dark skinned characters are great.

I mean, maybe I don’t really count, cause Duskwights basically look like Drows.  But this game gives us such a variety of skin color choices, and it’s a shame so many people only use the lighter ones.

So here’s my Duskwight siblings and a couple other of my friends (@sea-wolf-coast-to-coast and @toffeeatoms) who play characters with darker skintones.

Lookit how handsome my friends’ characters are! 

I encourage people to make characters with darker skintones from time to time. Take advantage of the wide palate the game gives us! 

And, I mean, how could you not like this face?

So, folks- show me your dark-skinned characters. I want to see them!

[autumnoathxiv]

i’m beautiful and no one can tell me otherwise

[diskwrite-ffxiv]

You are! :D

[sea-wolf-coast-to-coast]

OH, gods. Sylb’s face! lol

[blodforblod-blog]

Did someone say dark-skinned characters?

[dreamedrealityart]

Jacques Guillaume

Zabine Ombremont

Ojune Wajune

Sunny Bee

Sukbaator Mol

I almost exclusively make darkerskinned characters. I <3 them all.

[nightmaze]

Really ?

[scion-of-the-seventh-dawn]

Finally, something I get to join in on!

[lauranis]

Keinaan Nanayra

Kiran Ishnar

[seducing-dragon-blog]

~Alastor Azhar~

~Yachiyo Naeuri~

~Yesuntei Noykin~

[gamesfaff]

Mirabella Lovewin! Not enough dark skinned Lalafell out there… (Although @askremquick should really do this.)

[askremquick-blog]

“Huh? I should do what?”

[shofie-ffxiv]

[fishesandflirts]

[wamoura]

Mimila Mila!

A’Dyane Mahkun!

[they-better-be-mysterious-deact]

I know so many people with gorgeous dark-skinned characters, but all I’ve got is this cute little guy who I made as a drawing reference one time. He’s meant to be an avatar of Nald’Thal.

His hair was meant to reference gold, not to look like a chocobo… idek why I thought that was a good idea. XDDD

[they-better-be-mysterious-deact]

I wish we had terminology for being just on the very edge of a generation divide. I know we just do it by decade because we have to draw the line somewhere, but it’s a bit surreal that this one girl I used to play with because her parents were friends with mine– yeah, she felt like an Older Kid because she was two years older, but the concept that she’s part of a different generation, as if she grew up in a whole different time period, is mind-bending to me.

Also, millenials are people who were kids during the new millenium, but I was already in college where there was a party scene for that, and it’s really different from people who were actually kids. Millenials “grew up with the internet” but most people my age didn’t have it until college. It was a really different climate. Seems like something we could use a word for.

[bigbigtruck]

quotes taken from the source

[they-better-be-mysterious-deact]

[ardinaryas]

If you know this girl, you are probably old xD Support me on http://patreon.com/artspell

[they-better-be-mysterious-deact]

no but we need to discuss the Extreme Mode hallway at nicolette-cutely‘s place