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Raph || 19 | She/her | Theatre, music, books

[nightowlbookcat]

One-Week Account Deletion Notice

Hello, everyone! This is to formally let you know that I will be deleting this account on August 8, 2023 Monday 1200h UTC+8 as I hope to manage my internet accounts much better.

My decision to create this account has been a notable part of my fan experience on the internet, as this website was not blocked on our school wifi and enabled me to check on my fandoms from time to time… sometimes during class.

Thank you very much for being an integral part of my navigation of the fandom experience <3

[perseannabeth]

The Lightning Thief Musical Trio  Theatreworks 2014 Off-Broadway 2017 National Tour 2019

[dredsina]

mormon kids under the age of 18 being told their church is a cult

mormons 18-24 after they go through their endowment ceremony and receive their new name and secret clothing and learn the secret handshakes and passwords and realize everyone around them has been secretly doing this the whole time and now theyre going to be sent away from their family for 2 years where they will literally not be allowed to be alone for 1 second of the day except to go to the bathroom and they have no idea how to get out of what they just got into

[dredsina]

one of the only perks of being a mormon woman is that i didn’t get my endowment at age 19 and i had a little extra time to mature and be out on my own. that’s all i needed to make a clean break and i got out at 21 before i wouldve gotten my endowment. 

[kittleimp]

wait what? can anyone elaborate on this? because I had no idea this was a thing

[dredsina]

basically when youre a mormon kid growing up you realize your church is a little strict but you’re like whatever. i have friends at church because i go to church 6 days a week and everyone around me is affirming that this is the right thing to do and we have special knowledge no one else has otherwise everyone would be like this. so youve gotta go teach them & it’s the greatest thing in the world to be a missionary. also the temple is beautiful and amazing and spiritual and holy and everyone wants to go there. but it’s a secret! :) because it’s holy and sacred

then if youre a boy and u turn 18 they’re like wow amazing!!! you get to go on a mission and be like all the great men around you!! and now you get to go through the temple! so #blessed!

and then you go through the temple and all the above mentioned SECRET CULTY SHIT happens (EXPLANATION HERE http://mormoncurtain.infymus.com/topic_templeceremonies.html) and youre shipped off to a strange place where everything you eat, wear, go, listen to and do is controlled, and you’re not allowed to talk to your family or friends (except through a once-a-week email) and you literally are being watched by your companion at all. times. 

some might say “you can leave at any time” but consider that i never went on a mission and i never went through the temple and i still consider leaving the mormon church the hardest thing i ever did. you have no social network outside the church. you are lacking major knowledge and skills. you have to grapple with the fact that you may never see your family again.

[chortletortoise]

I’m reblogging this again bc I have Thoughts.

Leaving is such an isolating experience. No one inside wants anything to do with you anymore and no one outside understands the scale of messed up that Mormonism is. Like it’s easy to point and laugh at the ridiculousness, but it’s literally a cult. There’s so much trauma involved and there’s trauma in leaving.

People on the outside don’t understand how hard it is to leave. I grew up where all my friends were catholic and are no longer religious and they’re like “well everyone hates church, you just stop going” but Mormonism isn’t like that at all. For starters I had to get a lawyer involved to leave and then the ostracization from the entire community that nurtured me growing up was just the cherry on top. It’s effectively being shunned. Everyone you were forced to call sister and brother growing up no longer wants anything to do with you. And you deserve it, because you shouldn’t have fallen for the anti-Mormon lies.

Leaving The Church was the hardest thing I ever did and my family accepts me so I’m a lucky one. But they still ardently adhere to the institution that hurt me and has resulted in the deaths of people I love. I will never understand.

[antique-scarecrow]

“There’s so much trauma involved and there’s trauma in leaving.”

It’s easy for people looking in from the outside to forget this. Thank you for the reminder. Can anyone recommend resources for young Mormons looking to explore their options?

[periwinklepromise]

Please note: this post will be directly addressed to those hypothetical young Mormons

If you know you’re ready to leave, use quitmormon.com. It’s run by the guy from reddit who is now famous in exmormon circles for offering absolutely free legal services to anybody who needs help leaving. You can give your church id number if you know it, but it’s not required (I never memorized mine, and I sure wasn’t going to ask for it). He takes care of everything. This keeps TSCC (the so-called church) from getting all your latest info and keeps them from hassling you or harassing you. They have to talk to your lawyer instead. Pre 2015, it felt almost impossible to try to leave, but it’s a lot easier now! The years of picketing General Conference to force an excommunication trial are over!

Find a support system. Lean on your friends that have never been mormon, any family members who left, anyone you know who left. I’m an exmormon happy to answer any questions, and I’m sure there are plenty others in the notes who would be super willing to be supportive too. Exmormon groups are many and varied now, and it’s best to find the one that vibes for you. There’s a subreddit that’s popular, but I personally used - and I know this sounds weird, since I don’t have kids - a forum called Mormonism & More on the site babycenter.com. It was started several years ago by some mormons who had questions they weren’t allowed to ask on the normal mormon board (because that board required uplifting, mormon-approved answers at all times). It’s since shifted to ex-mormons or people who want to leave but can’t right now because of family situations. Even though the threads were years old, I spent weeks on that forum, reading about what other people had gone through and how they got through it, and to me, that was super helpful.

Research the culty stuff at your own peril. I liked learning about that stuff for a really long time, because I felt learning about all those secrets (I especially liked learning about the truth of the Book of Abraham) … it helped me feel valid in my choice. It helped me keep in mind that this was something that I had escaped, something that had wanted to hurt me. Missing your abuser doesn’t mean you should go back, it means you should keep moving forward. Missing your cult has the same solution. Lots of people fell for the “we’re totally not a cult!” line by TSCC. Some of them will not offer sympathy. If you want to watch the hidden camera videos of endowments and other temple stuff, I would super super recommend you have a trusted friend watch them with you. And bring comfort food. You’ll probably need it.

TSCC put out a series of essays on controversial (read: faith-killing, eye-opening, omg how could I have ever supported the people who did this) issues in mormon history. They are the Orthodox LDS pre-approved responses to a lot of the more incriminating accusations that have been leveled at TSCC over the years. They should be hosted on TSCC website somewhere, and would have been posted around or after 2015. They may reaffirm your faith now that you know TSCC’s defense, but they may push you right out the door. (Or break the shelf? Do Mormons still use the shelf analogy, or is that retired now?)

Lots of mormons become atheists after leaving. Many join mainstream xian churches. Some become witches, some study every religion they can get their hands on, some try to go back and realize all the magic (or holy spirit, if you prefer) is gone. Don’t think you have to know right away. Some people throw away or burn all their mormon stuff, some people keep it to show their kids, but again, you don’t have to make that decision right away. Some people call TSCC a cult after they leave, myself included, but you don’t have to if it makes you uncomfortable or it it doesn’t feel true to your experience.

Look up religious trauma syndrome. It’s real. The pain you will probably feel is real, the grief you will probably feel is real, and in many ways, you may have to mourn the death of what you were always told Life Will Be For You.

And learn that the world is not half as evil as TSCC told you. Your coworkers who drink a beer at the end of the day are not evil or abusive. Your friends who wear sleeveless shirts are not evil or promiscuous. You’re allowed to wear short shorts! You’re allowed to drink coffee! You’re allowed to ask questions in a faith community without being silenced or condemned! You’re allowed to not want kids! There’s a lot of unlearning here.

TLDR? You have options. You have freedom. Find nonmormon friends who will support you. Be kind to yourself.

[justslowdown]

People joke about Mormons but this is the first time I’ve seen anything at all directed towards people who need to get out.

I had a high school friend turned college roommate who left, moved 4 hrs away, and I had to lie to people who showed up repeatedly that he wasn’t home. That’s just the smallest outside perspective of this. They kept coming.

It is a cult. It operates by manipulating people. My aunt, who also left, converted from Catholicism when she was a single mother in her 20s who needed help. The church gave her a network of tangible support and got her through a vulnerable, scary time in her life–and used that

[faeriegardens]

vieparlafoi

[mamoru]

I keep telling myself to stop making posts about FDA activities...but there are so many products hurting people

[mamoru]

fuck it

ice cream listeria outbreak. again. did you know that illness due to listeria has a 20-30% mortality rate?

family dollar recalling a bunch of drugs and supplements because they stored them wrong

lucky charms and cheerios continue to make children and adults sick, the cause is still under investigation, and no recall has been issued. terrifying. that means it is almost definitely not one of the common causes like salmonella...

daily harvest said tara flour made customers sick. FDA is mad they announced that because the exact cause has still not been found. daily harvest products have given people liver damage so bad they needed to have their gallbladders removed. while the current FDA investigation only involves the leek + lentil crumbles, there are many reports of other daily harvest foods like the flatbreads also harming people. if you have been affected by daily harvest's bullshit, there is now a subreddit for it.

revive superfoods also pulling products with tara flour, for also giving people severe liver damage

several honey products are being recalled for having undisclosed, get this...VIAGRA in them. and cialis. sildenafil and tadalafil.

CVS is recalling lemon flavored magnesium-based laxatives due to contamination with gluconacetobacter liquefaciens, which can cause life-threatening infections in immunodeficient people.

[nightowlbookcat]

yes hello im back and yes im reblogging a lot of ltmusical because i miss them a lot, they’re breaking my heart and i’m trying to hear it pound

[its-a-show-stoppin-number]

The Seven as Chris McCarrell tweets:

Percy:

Annabeth:

Leo:

Piper:

Jason:

Frank:

Hazel:

Bonus:

all of the kids when their godly parent sends them on a quest:

[annabelle--cane]

you’ve heard of “high schooler who wears blue and sells their soul for popularity while being haunted by a figure only they can see,” now get ready for the next incredibly niche archetype: tenor in a greek myth based muscial who goes to the underworld and back to try and save a woman who is very important to him

[helpimstuckinafandom]

“I’m doing great!” babe you’re listening to the Lightning Thief Musical soundtrack and crying

[movie-gifs]

Mulan dir. Tony Bancroft, Barry Cook | 1998

[ian-lythe]

Support Filipino Artists!

(CW Discrimination, heavy themes and Politics)

So you may or may not know the current state of Philippine politics. There’s a very strong possibility that the son of one the most heinous and bloody dictators we’ve had in history is going to be president. Couple that with the VP-elect being the daughter of our current Human Rights violating President. We are not in the best state of things. As a Filipino I fear for my own stability and safety in the next 6 years alongside many others. We are fighting for our fragile democracy to not fall into the hands of yet another Marcos Regime. As of now there are peaceful protests and calls for our commission on elections to investigate all electoral anomalies.

Now over the past few days. Filipino artists are experiencing a significant withdrawal of clients simply based on the fact they are Filipino. With the main reason being the results of our elections and our president-elect. 

Needless to say this is discrimination over something that’s quite unfair. These are artists who work to help support their own livelihoods and these discriminatory pricks are being heartless. To put it in the most civil of terms, we filipinos, who are non-supporters, of the new political regime are being discriminated against for our nationality. We are not our president-elect.

As we all know commissions can be crucial to artists’ survival so please if you are capable please commission some of our amazing artists. Even if you can’t commission, we all know about the power of online advocacy. Spread the word and if able, encourage others to support filipino artists. Here’s a twitter thread on the current situation concerning filipino artists

A growing twitter thread full of filipino artists to support 

To all my fellow Filipinos, May liwanag sa dilim. We will get through this.

[ramqiu]

PLEASE SUPPORT FILIPINO ARTISTS!

This is going to be a bit of a read but I’m going to try to keep it as concise as possible.

The Philippines just held elections yesterday, and it’s getting really messy over here because of the current unofficial count showing Bongbong Marcos, the son of a previous dictator, in the lead for presidency. I’m not going to get into the details of the politics, and I don’t want to make this about the candidates, but essentially a lot of investors are pulling out of the country and PH stocks are falling. This has led to a rumor that PayPal will be shutting down in the Philippines (likely because of what happened in Russia), but there is little to no real basis for the claim, especially since the situation is quite different from Ukraine.

However, news, no matter how credible, spreads fast on social media. A lot of PH artists are the sole source of income for their families and rely a lot on commissions from international clients via PayPal, and while it is highly unlikely that the service will become unavailable here, they have every right to be worried.

Another issue is that because of the news surrounding the election, a lot of clients from overseas are backing out of commissions simply because the artist they were working with is Filipino. I’ve seen posts where clients say that it’s “too risky” to commission someone from the PH, even though they have no ties to politics or for some, aren’t even of voting age. It’s likely that the whole PayPal situation is a reason as well.

All of the things happening in the Philippines is NOT the fault of anyone but the corrupt government officials. So if you’ve been looking for someone to commission, please look into filipino artists!

A lot of them are on Twitter and Instagram as far as I know, and you can probably find a few easily by just searching! I’ve also linked support threads here and here that have a lot of people in the replies.

PH artists on tumblr feel free to promo yourself however you like under this post too!

I have all of like 350 followers on here, so I don’t know how many people I can reach with this, but hopefully this can help out a bit…

[danseru-kun]

Saving this here since the thread got deleted. Our democracy was poisoned by mass disinformation and historical revisionism by paid troll farms using the data from Cambridge Analytica.

[shitstheysaid]

This may be out-of-brand, random, and quite a long read, but please spare some time to read. I just want to share with all of you who stayed in this blog despite my frequent long absences, that I am from the Philippines. Yesterday, May 9, we had our national elections that will decide the 17th president of this country. And it was rigged. The son of the dictator who ruled this country in terror for 20 years was said to have won. Blatant misinformation drives through all these years that repainted the martial law as the golden years of this country, and the commission of elections fucked us up, and now I'm terrified. The elections were sold long before it even began.

You know how fucked up it felt when Trump got elected? That's how we feel rn except that this is much, much worse because Marcos Jr. is an actual useless elitist git with prior multiple tax evasion cases, a liar, and was actually jobless for the last 6 years since he lost when he ran for the vice-presidential seat. He presented no platform during his campaign and refused to join debates that will clear up his aims for the country against the other aspirants. There are hundred thousands of unaccounted deaths and still missing and tortured during Marcos' martial law. His family has 7 counts of graft and corruption cases against them and an outstanding 203B pesos debt on estate taxes. In addition to this, the stolen wealth from all the years they reigned is yet to be completely recovered. The debt created by their regime is still being paid by this generation and the next. That famous ridiculous woman who owns thousands of shoes named Imelda Marcos? That's his mom. He is backed by oligarchs, troll farms and fanatics who nearly treat him as king.

The vice presidential seat that is separately elected here, was given (I refuse to believe that they are actually elected) to the daughter of the current president whose most prominent legacy is the deaths caused by his war against drugs. She was equally brutal in her leadership as the mayor of her hometown.

The other front-runner in the presidential race Marcos was up against was a woman who sowed hope to all of us. Leni Robredo made me believe in radical love. As the then vice-president, she spearheaded countless efforts against COVID-19 and other natural disasters. She became the beacon of hope and shone a light on the goodness we can offer to our nation. It may sound fanatical, but it's so far from that. It's even the other way around. Her campaign birthed a monumental movement of volunteerism. She made us feel that there is still a possibility of a government that genuinely cares for us and is willing to listen. For the first time in my life, I actually care about my country. Not just in passing, but I really felt it from within me.

But now we are going to be under another Marcos again. And I'm terrified and heartbroken for my country.

People are vigilant. The youth is reeling in anger. Some are even out in the streets, protesting against this incoming administration. But I fear that it is to a lost cause. The proclamation is tomorrow, May 11 and despite the countless cries of anomalies and irregularities in this election that gives all the reason to announce a failure of election, the commission on elections is continually turning a blind eye against all of it.

The regime under Marcos Sr. from 36 years ago could get me killed just by this post alone. And we are afraid that history may repeat itself. Some of my countrymen have forgotten the atrociousness of the Marcos' dictatorship through historical revisionism and we are going to work hard against it from within.

Just like I said, they fucked us up and we will never forget that.

Please reblog this and spread it. Also, if any of you could spare me some more time (this became too long. I'm sorry.), watch this documentary streamed for free on youtube to get a clearer picture of what we are against.

6 years is a long time, but we will not be backing down.

[nightowlbookcat]

i go on here once every six months when im at the stage in my social media cycle wherein i consciously hate flooding my friends with explanatiom threads on twitter and then remember tumblr lets me type however long the fck i want lol

[sadclowncentral]

my opinion on quantum physics is that we should stop looking into it. it’s none of our business and frankly the particles seem to agree

[3pblueberry]

scientists should walk away really exaggerated and call out ‘OK! i guess i’ll stop researching quantum physics…’ and then when the particles relax, they whip around super fast like a kid who just watched Toy Story trying to trick their toys into acting alive

[bogleech]

Isn’t that already how it’s studied

[garbage-empress]

time smells bad.

[chrome--horse]

what Synesthetic bullcrap is this now

[garbage-empress]

Listen

I accidentally leave the milk out overnight.

Milk smells bad the next day.

Why does milk smell bad?

Time gets in it.

[garbage-empress]

@ryanthecynic

[larckla]

Just realised this implies that a fridge cancels or slows time down

[garbage-empress]

As a simple experiment I will put some plutonium in my refrigerator and see if it decays slower, brb

[garbage-empress]

The results are in!

I have radiation poisoning!

[lastvalyrian]

this time it’s the opposite of Greek philosophy because you used the scientific method

[derinthescarletpescatarian]

Conclusion: the scientific method gives people radiation poisoning