(ask from stella twins anon i just realized i still havent answered aahahhh whoops my bad stella anon. for real though sorry) (ok i swear im going to answer this soon a lie or at lest try to do it this week..! i. was not in the mood for that. like. more on tags)
last updated : 04/2026
this is a nsfw x reader blog, ranging from darker-ish to sexual themes. im a bit slow to answer and am prone to forgetting but ill do my best!
rules are basic, right now only writing for Fragaria Memories, maybe Twisted Wonderland (depends on the ask and charas)
wait time should be around 2 weeks... maybe more. probably more depending on how many characters there are
i will not write incest, noncon and such, maaaybe dubcon (questionable. probably not?)
i am up to writing yandere, top/bot and dom/sub reader and characters alike (i do have a preference tho lol) and most kinks i think (am i gonna regret this?)
if not specified im going to do a small drabble + some thoughts regarding the ask. besides that, headcanons, drabbles and scenarios are on the table
limit of 6 characters (since theyre groups of six. yes im going to regret that later)
might not answer asks i dont like/just because
nikkippynsfw writes : writing tag
nikkippynsfw ideas : ideas (au) tag
nikkippynsfw recs : recommended things in general
nikkippynsfw draws : drawing tag
nikkippynsfw answers : answering tag (for asks and chatting)
nikkippynsfw rambles : rambling tag
authors note : announcements and such
sfw blog is @nikkippy
there should be another post with the au tags but i dont want to do that rn (big mistake, might end up never doing it) and i was going to have a tag for sexual posts but tumblr fucks me up i dont know why (translation - when i up #frmm smut or smthg it just. stops showing up on all tags for some reason, still dont know why) (add #yandere to that too)
hi im nikki a very tired sometimes horny person, have fun reading whatever i cook up
this ended up turning into the main blog somehow but i can try shifting between the two if people would rather have the other one more active (since i sometimes post about things that arent technically nsfw and all)
Hi again sorry if i requested something on the wrong blog sometimes i get confused since im new to requesting stuff since this is a NSFW blog could I request a yandere merold and cielomort reaction to being rejected by reader and how they might sabotage the reader chances of getting into another relationship that isn't with them or how they might manipulate them into getting with them instead. Thanks and take your time if your busy
no worries darling! besides, i know my blogs info/posts tend to be messy so thats on me too..! anyways, apologies for taking so long (i took my sweet time... sorry) with both of your requests but at last! it is here! hope you enjoy it! (cielos part is kind of bad... my bad)
(yan content, manipulation, isolation. i guess condescending? patronizing? merold. not my flavor of yan but we try something new sometimes..! ah but maybe cielo is a bit of a wet cat. a lot actually. small mention of willmesh+spoiler for lost kitty in cielos part)
merold
thats, unexpected, even to him. that wasnt in his plans at all. ah truly, you give him quite the work, darling. dont you realize hes doing this for your safety?
will be a bit annoyed because now he has to deal with so many suitors going after you. hah, you truly dont realize what you do to those around you (especially him..!)
working overtime behind the scenes, using his magic here and there when his natural charm doesnt work. before you notice, some people are avoiding you and others are ignoring you
he doesnt mind being a coward, nor using underhanded tactics if it means youll be safe and by his side
dont worry your pretty little head and let him handle everything, ok? he knows whats best for you, so leave it all to him
cielomort
at first he might think it is due to his lack of social skills. was it his approach? did he come off too strong? or maybe he did something you disliked, hey wont you tell him whats wrong so he can fix it?
hes overbearing to a degree you cant seem to shake him off (except for when he needs to do his duties as a fragaria. even then...)
is way too desperate to be in your good graces and does everything in his power to change your mind, his efforts are truly impressive! even if it comes at the price of his own health, then so be it
regardless of how the relationship changes or how you view him. in the end, he will still be by your side protecting you, whether you want him or not. he cant have what happened to willmesh happen to you too, right?
after all, it is a given he should protect whats important to him, and that includes you
authors note: ahh i really took way too long with finishing all requests but i am finally free!! anyways, re reading this it feels like i didnt write shit but i swear i tried for so long i ended up too annoyed so i just. posted it like this despite not being up to my standards. apologies crytsal... i think i need to update my pinned post with some disclaimers about requests somehow lol. let it be known my writing fluctuates a lot or something. like.. time, lenght and quality... will think about that later...
Hi is it okay to ask if you could write how the characters from fragaria memories would react to the reader giving them sketches they drew of their lords(sanrio characters) you don't have to if you don't want to I just thought it would be a cute headcanon to write.
why yes it is! you can find it here in my other blog! (since it is sfw! apologies for the confusion with both blogs..! i will try to make it more clear next time which is which!)
truly sorry for how long this took me..! and thank you for your patience! hopefully youll like it!
Nikki, would it be possible to request some headcanon regarding potential fetishes for Kurode, Chaco (individually)?
Thank you so much in advance! ♡
it sure would be possible, dear anon! and thank you for your patience, hopefully this is to your liking, though i do apologize for how lacking it is.. ive been pretty tired....! (and ive been trying to write this for a while, which is why i posted even though it wasnt the best thing..! feel free to send another ask if anything and i will be delivering more i swear..!)
(sexual-ish content, kinks, pretty sure it can be either dom/sub ish for both of them..! i think..!)
kurode
i feel like even if slightly, his self deprecation/inferiority complex may end up with him having a thing for praise, so be sure to tell him how hes making you feel and that he is 'doing very good'! (and maybe something like possession, like 'my love' or simply 'mine'. giving or receiving honestly, i think it is probably both though lol)
something about necks... either being one of his ero zones or just him fixating there and kissing and sucking around that area. well at he very least if he needs to hide hickeys he can try to use his headphones i suppose. as for you, lets hope he has a pair so youre both matching! (both the headphones and hickeys lol)
really likes to hear you, from single words or full on phrases to incoherent babbling. even if he doesnt understand what youre saying, your voice is much too tempting at the moment and he needs to hear any and all sounds coming out of your mouth
chaco
im sorry but have you seen him. he has a collar. what do you want me to say besides 'drag him around like a dog'. ok jokes (not a joke though) aside, he strikes me as having a bit of an oral fixation or just likes giving you pleasure (eating you out or giving you a blowjob whatever) as long as he is in between your legs and putting his mouth to work then you best believe it isnt ending any time soon
any and all reactions, if you blush too much or your pulse starts to race that may get him going and escalate whatever is going on between you two. which is also why he likes using his mouth on you, he will be enjoying himself more than you realize just by making you come, just dont hide your pretty face, ok?
a bit into overstimulation too because of last point, that being seeing your blissed out face after a few rounds. the longer it goes on, the more youll react to small things he does. say he ends up licking an already sore spot around your chest and it makes you yelp, that kind of gives him a thrill quite unlike what hes used to
authors note: i almost put choking on chacos part (partly because of the collar) but felt unsure about it so i ended up taking that out, that and scent thingy (because of the ep lol). kurode on the other hand wasnt as troublesome, i think it went pretty smoothly..! (that is. as well as it could right now..!) also they were almost too submissive..! i tried making it as switch (dom and sub) as i could for the both of them (i need to get better at that anyways so i dont mind the 'trouble'. pretty fun if i power through my brain going 'but what about pretty boys being submissive' hahah)
since when did the twst fic get to 100 likes..? i mean. it isnt that surprising since. twst and yan but like. huh
anyways, hopefully by the end of this month i will finish all requests..! although this month is going to be pretty busy for me..! (but im trying my best to write whenever i can..!) (also at the very least this month wont have eps of lk so i can take my sweet time finishing things i need to do..!)
also ive been slowly working on other things (that are going to take quite long until ready... haha....... ah. i swear im writing)
Cough cough yan!baku yokai willmesh🤔🤔 like mizuki from genshin... Maybe like he is always there to protect you from other bad yokai.. ahem just a request or an idea idk
why yes..! hi hi yuuna, thank you for being so patient and i hope you like it! i ended up just rambling some ideas i had so if you wanted a oneshot, hcs or drabble, do let me know and i will see what i can do..!
(yandere of course, violence..? to others..! not towards reader!! though he kind of traumatizes reader..? when 'eating' the other yokais. also he kind of follows you around so stalking?)
willmesh, as a baku, is even more shy than normal, so good luck trying to catch him besides a blurry figure that comes and goes in your dreams. you never quite remember his face, but you do know he is warm (beware if you do try to lure him. if your bad dreams arent enough, he may just take something else from you. dont worry too much..! he would never actually harm you, no, no! from you, only small, unimportant stuff, like say, some other worries or troublesome thoughts you had! others around you though... well, he cant guarantee their safety)
he makes sure you have good dreams every night, as such hes always watching over you (that is, whether youre sleeping or not. after all, who knows when you will take a nap..! he knows. he doesnt need to keep watch, and yet.)
if hes there to protect you from an ill intended yokai, make sure you dont look his way for just a minute! though if you do end up looking, be prepared to have him visiting you to help with the oncoming nightmares featuring the gruesome sight of willmesh ending whatever entity came too close to you that night..! dont feel that bad, that yokais fate was already sealed after the mere thought of hurting you. after all, he wont have mercy on those who have bad intentions with you. safe to say those yokais are. out of comission. forever (he will feel embarassed, but knowing you now have his face seared into your memories does make him feel. something)
authors note: i feel like im getting better at writing yan but it still feels. eeh.. you know? anyways..! these days ive been doing more stuff and i already want to just lay down and sleep a whole day but i cant! (also not really related but ive had some nightmares recently alright. not very fun. lets hope that after writing this my brain just goes 'ah, yes. no more nightmares as theyre gone because of the baku' or something)
ugh.. i really am the worst to deal with emotions.. i cant even handle mine and im trying to help others lol thats crazy
...anyways..! i actually dont have time to write this week (what a surprise) i really thought id have more time but i ended up swamped with things..! although most of them were last minute and today im just going out with a friend (for a somewhat important..? thing..? not really lol but yeah)
ah. i was reminded of the isekai au today and kept thinking about it for so long... i actually had an epiphany and had like a really good idea but i dont know 1 in which bouquet i use it and 2 how the fuck do i write again. also 3 how am i going to write for lost kitty?!?
i mean sure im still pretty far from it but like.. itd do one (me) good to think ahead, since plot and story is like. main thing i need to prepare and all
aahhhh but i had so many ideas suddenly that im actually thinking about finishing that post and then going back to reqs... (. can i.. do both..... lets hope so hahah)
wow it feels so nice to know it is showing up in the tags because i dont know how long ive been trying to make them show up whenever i do put either yan or smut tags ahahaha
anyways! i will try to write more this week (read: will do my best to post another request this week..! next one is for a mutual as well, yuuna im sorry i took so long... ough. yes next one is yan baku will)
Hi!! Ignore if this is bad, I'm using a translator 😔Anyway, I saw that you're accepting requests! So how about one where the Overblot boys start to become possessive and too attached to Yuu!Reader (female or neutral) because she was the one who helped them, and then they start competing with each other for who gets more attention. If you prefer, you can make an ending with each of them where they have sex with Yuu in the same post, or make a post for each with the same ending, or maybe a different ending if you don't want to include sex. I don't know, it's up to you. And if you're going to do one of them, please do Idia or Malleus 🙂↕️💅
hello dear anon..! dont worry, i think i understood it just fine! while i did want to write for all the dormleaders i already took long enough as is (meaning i went with riddle, leona, azul and idia) and in the end i couldnt write the sex part.. well..! i hope you enjoy this regardless
(ended up going with gn for the reader. yandere..? just slightly yan i think.. kind of possessive and stalking. slight invasion of privacy in idias part..? also im not found of the popular depiction of yanderes. read: a few of them are kind of pathetic. like wet cats)
riddle
despite being one of the youngest, he isnt one to be underestimated, he is a dormleader after all
his prowess in magic and good grades means he can use those in his favor, by helping you study of course. as such, he can be quite strict with your schedule. most of your time is taken by him, either in study dates meetings or tea parties (where everyone avoids you, which only makes you stay close to riddle as he is a familiar figure to you). still, quite suffocating to have him hovering over your shoulder at all times
as more and more people start to take a liking to you, hes prone to being in a bad mood (he was here first..!) to make matters worse, he cant really do much directly against the others. what he can do is lure you away with promises of sweets and playing with the animals in his dorm. he can... even do your work..! i mean, help you with your work (but if you ask nicely and praise him well.. then maybe... just, promise to keep your eyes on him, ok? or else, he doesnt want to think what he could do)
leona
much like a lion, he is quite territorial and likes to mark you in his own ways so others steer clear
from scenting, giving actual pieces of clothing from his closet (which obviously has his scent in them) to even patrolling around areas he knows youre most likely to be around (if he does see someone try to approach you he might growl at them) no he isnt stalking you, he just happened to be there when you were too, definitely just a coincidence (even if that ends up happening more times than you can keep count)
this time around, he will definitely be the first one and steal you away, he wont play around. whatever the others try to do against him, hes already one step ahead. much like how he plays chess, he can see the others moves and plans accordingly, from evading chores and whisking you away from the others to ruining whatever romantic moments you could have with anyone that isnt him
azul
he too is very troublesome, both for you and others. having the means and being resourceful makes him quite annoying
his determination and need for validation makes him do many things for you, he makes time in his schedule (it doesnt matter if he had a meeting, youre here..! to see him..!) and doesnt let you pay whenever you go to the mostro lounge (that way youll spend more time with him! he can even cook something that isnt in the menu for you!) although, he can be a bit too eager for praise from you, you could even say hes desperate for it (youre pretty sure if he could, hed cling to you with all of his arms in his mer form and even have the suctions glued to you)
oh my, is riddles way of teaching far too demanding for you? worry not, hes here to help! leona is much too frustating to deal with? fret not! for you, the price is only spending some time with him (you can even use that time you now have youd otherwise waste with azul! he will help you free of charge..!) and he shall be there for you, you poor soul
idia
as soon as he gets comfortable with you be prepared to have him sending you messages nonstop
mightve installed a gps tracker in one or two items of yours (most probably one you have in your person at any given time) for your safety of course! this school is full of stupid teenagers who can use magic and have a way bigger ego than they should have so who knows what they can do..!
and ok it may or may not have a camera or audio feature, to be sure nothing is happening to you (and not to see whos talking to you and make notes of anything you show interest in)
he lets the others fight amongst them as he takes you into his room for yet another sleepover. hm? theres no need to get out of here, ortho can bring more food and you can attend classes online just like him, besides, whatever else you need or want he can just order it online, yeah? dont worry, if it is for you he can talk with the headmaster about the online classes and moving you to ignihydes dorms (either his room or the one next to it)
authors note: thank you for your patience and apologies for taking so long! it has been a while since i wrote for twst (and i dont like to be reminded of my fics from a few years ago but it is what it is) but i still like twst very much. i just havent really been updated in the recent books (with rsa and all. maybe the ending of book 7..? also thats why i couldnt write for malleus, my bad) neither have i been in the xreader tag in quite some time.. so if this seems repetitive or too similar to other works, sorry..!
hello there! i recently got into fragaria memories but omg its soooo good!
is it okay to request some nsfw (any format is okay!) for soft dom kurode with a slightly taller fem reader (5'10+) who refuses to come in front of him because shes a squirter and that makes her super embarrassed?
thank u so much! <33
hello darling, apologies for taking so long to see this ask. unfortunately, as of the moment, my requests are closed..!
looking through the active/recent blogs that do write for frmm, i couldnt find one that writes for both nsfw and fem reader, so im afraid you will have to wait a bit more for when i do open my requests..! once more, truly sorry for taking this long for such a lacking answer (but if it makes you better..! it is ok to request that once i open requests again..! im just. unsure if it will be well written but i will do my best..!)
Hi Nikki guess who I’m just gonna send this in the “reserve” a spot but if you end up with too many feel free to toss it into the back burner lol but I apologize for my lack of brain power but I leave you with one word:
Hetakuso
Happy writing!
i had to think much harder than normal for this so it may not be as good as my normal works..! hopefully this is still to your tastes oh stella expert stella twins anon..! lol but i really do mean it stella anon, i hope this is to your liking! (if anything i should be the one apologizing. you should send another ask because i feel like i did this half assed... the authors notes might be longer than what i wrote. actually dont worry i deleted part of my yapping instead of writing more lol)
(a more developed/refined idea of things i talked with stella anon about. mainly the making out with klark for lung capacity training. and him whispering in your ear. yeah. smug dom(? dom ish?) klark for once in his life. no actual sex though.. as always i fail to deliver. my bad) (the actual ask we talked about 'hetakuso' and him whispering is here! while the training idea is here!)
when you first asked for help with singing for klark, this is definitely not what you had in mind (but who are you to deny)
who even thinks of training like this to begin with?
he is so close to you right now you can feel his breath hitting your flushed cheeks. his smug grin filling your vision as he somehow gets even closer. at first he gives you a small peck, then two, and then he is actually kissing you
with every kiss that comes it takes longer for you two to part, yet the pause between them gets shorter. before you realize it youre out of breath, and he still goes for one more kiss, deepening it by angling his head. as if that wasnt enough, as soon as your mouth opens slightly he takes the opportunity. using his tongue, he gently pokes your lips as a sign. you, in turn, give him access to your mouth
trying to take control of the situation, you battle for dominance, though the lack of air makes itself more noticeable as your mind gets hazy, making your movements sloppy, which klark easily wins against
before parting ways, he teases you by soflty biting your lower lip, then gently sucking. as he finally detaches from you, a string of saliva still connects the two of you. that soon breaks once he moves near your ear
"hah, you suck at this"
he whispers before blowing faintly right in your ear, delighting himself in your reactions and the sound you unwillingly made just now
taking your chin in his hand, he tilts your head in his direction
"dont worry, i will be sure to train you properly"
authors note: im sorry for taking so long but at long last we are here..! i said this before but i actually had a different idea at first but forgot... anyways..! it was pretty hard to find a scenario where klark had the upperhand (lol) and a good reason for being that. domineering..? i suppose? (that being said, he definitely can dom..! just. not the way i normally see him as. lol) i feel like i couldve written this better or done more but my creative juices are..! malfunctioning..!! (im also unsure if he was characterized right..? ah. i need to get back to studying their characters i suppose) anyways..! wow! klark actually handled all that! amazing! (that being said this isnt nearly as much fun. oh well. still, quite the entertainment i suppose..!)
this is most of the 'secrets/references' there are in this post of yokai au, yeah it got so long i had to make it its own post. mostly me yapping while not making sense and going insane over all lyrics with hallritt (and shadow hallritts solo)
ok..! so, those were some scattered thoughts i had after mostly listening to 'never cred', along with 'moment horizon' and some other stuff i listened in the making of this post, this is going to be very long (maybe more than the actual content i wrote lol) so better ready yourselves..! most of the extra thoughts were supposed to be longer but i wanted to post it soon and then. it was supposed to be longer but i cant work that long in one project. some of the references are more obvious (read: are written with the correct spelling) while others may be more subtle (but honestly i dont remember all of the secrets? i put so i dont know at this point anymore) and quite a few of them overlap..! i will be explaining most of them below! (at least the ones i remember lol)
starting off, i took inspiration from his chivalry code (trust) and, as he is shadowritt, made him lose that trust, or more like that broke after seeing how powerless they are, not being able to stop your death. besides that, the phrase 'Through good times and bad, I'll always be by your side' is part of what he says in his introduction thingy ("If you stumble, it's always OK to stop and catch your breath. Through good times and bad, I'll always be by your side." which you can hear in the wiki too!)
for extra thoughts 1, we actually have a plot reason for his knot being untied and why, even though it was untied it still stays or whatever. that ribbon being the red string thingy and all. because shadow hallritt is a different entity, he has his own string apart from hallritt (which ended up being the one tied closest to you. somehow. in a way i wont explain) and why he asks that you tie it once more on him
on the extra thoughts 2 i ended up twisting the lyrics from both 'never cred' and 'moment horizon' (modoru nara doko wo omou - 'if you were to go back, where do you think of' or something along those lines, im not a translator so thats the best i can do) ('If my future holds only wandering in desolate solitude, if I can't go back'. and then i threw him in the torture chamber.). i was also going to make him wander around and think a lot while trying to find you but i didnt like that and was not in the mood to write that. hopefully it still has that feeling..? (about louter.. hm. not feeling it right now so i wont explain further either lol. besides, i think all the information is there already)
lastly, extra thoughts 3, i tried somewhat translating shadowritts title thing but i think i got it wrong and just. didnt bother to look too deep into it. lol. so please dont take that one too seriously. also to show the relationship between shadowritt and the others (in short. not very good right now) (and because i like collars. i can have something for me once in a while. i like to indulge myself which is why i wrote that to begin with)
the beginning where he tries to get his shit together is a part of 'rare' ('I'm not an easygoing adult' and 'I should want to act calm and composed') and although it is rimicha that sings, some parts felt kind of hallritt/shadowritt ('The me who loses sight of even his "likeness" in the palm of his hand is Rare' and 'I wanted to burn for something, I've burnt myself out' when using his life force to save you) plus the last lines hallritt sings ('Starve, this immature youth's on a Rampage' and 'Stuffed, unleash my shred of talent' related to him being able to change forms as a yokai. last one but 'Please, please accept all of me, this Specialty' too for him offering the string)
the parts where he spirals on (why why and all that) are from 'your melody' (he says it around 6 times in the music lol). theres also the being connected part ('I want to be connected with the same rhythm') in the red string. along with 'your melody', him hearing your voice/your heartbeat is also a node to ever red ('Listen to the soft, sweet whispers and don't get dismayed' from your melody) ('Words of yearning, of longing, of wanting to hear your voice. Memories of weakness remain unspoken' from hallritts solo in 'ever red')
regarding his changing form once more, theres more in '& I WILL' (I'm not the self I envisioned on that day, and yet will you tell me I'm fine as I am?) with him being somewhat self concious about turning into a nekoshou. and of course always being with you. theres also 'It's possible I may lose it all in the end, so why did I gain so many more treasures?' which is very on the nose.. the entire ending of that song actually is. really on character for this au. like. strangely so. being a bit late, the future slipping and getting scared but unwiling to give up. and all the questions at the end showing how hes still not as fine as he 'pretends' to be around you
the scene where youre crying and hes so desperate to make it stop is from 'bouquet of wishes' (With those tears like a gift My mind becomes blurred Dearest one, always, gently, please, please Don’t cry!) along with the ending (him offering you his red string -> 'It’s a symbol of love' of his love, to be more precise)
things related to the sun and all, while linked to 'ever red' ('the sun shines down as if to show me the path i must take') are also connected to both hallritt/shadow hallritts titles ('A bright sun lighting the path to the future' and shadowritts is something like the shadow cast by the sun something something i dont remember and wont bother to check right now so dont use me as a reference here). final note here..! the last line is what hallritt says in 'ever red' (also what shadow hallritt says according to the wiki..!) but that also has another meaning here. when using his magic to bring you back, he ended up. connected. to you, in a sense, with the red string and all that. no i wont elaborate any more than this (for now at least)
no actual louter this time around but little mentions here and there (this is a shadow hallritt/hallritt post ok. louters time will come later if at all. he has too much screen time in this blog already. courtesy of a certain someone) but he does have a somewhat important role here, more on that in another post because. just. look at the lenght of this post
sorry for taking so long with posting things here again guys (lost track of time reading instead of writing... though this post was only possible through reading some yan stuff so yay..? plus you already know but that song ended me. i was not sane at all here) also ive been seriously thinking about doing something like twstedforyou and have you on fragaria world after your death (totally not because i want to see 4 hallritts hahahahahah. no.... the greed is immesurable... this is the type of greed they talk about in the bible) but also i mean why not you know? one has to do things for oneself from time to time
i honestly have a really hard with the 'you die' part and how thats going to go about. plus the timelines.... and the ominous, looming meeting between all hallritts since i tend to write as i go (or when inspiration strikes basically when new content drops) but if anyone wants to ask anything about yokai au im very open (dont worry about the reqs.. hah.) because im in the zone right now and need to use it up as much as i can before all my brain power dissolves (tldr you can send requests for yokau au. i will probably answer if i can write something for it. else it will stay there for a while. very long while...)
if by the time i post this there still isnt the english version on the wiki. i can try to do something about it.. but then again i dont know jp enough for translations. one thing is understanding it by vibes and my brain doing the work unconsciouly, the other is to understand both languages and make it so the meaning isnt lost but still reads smoothly
tldr: translating is hard but i can give you a bad translation of never cred if needed
yokai au thoughts.. word vomit i have no idea whats going on here. once again, yokai au is heavily inspired by @twstedforyou (hopefully i can make it more unique lol but um most of the things here are preeetty similar my bad i cant think very well) yes finally another piece of actual lore for you guys, all of this was written in a random order so it may not be very coherent if at all
(reader death, hallritt spirals and goes slightly insane over it and turns into shadow hallritt. very hallritt/shadowritt centric, um yandere? i think. some things are ambiguous by lack of brainpower plus i wanted to post also maybe slight mystery for later..? lol)
it is unfair. life is unfair
it doesnt matter whatever useless powers they have, your death remains unchanged. what good does having so many familiars do to you? they failed you. thats a fact
what does his being even exist for? why are they still here if youre gone? nothing in life matters if his reason of living disappears, if you disappear
no. no, no, no. hallritt wont let that be the end. as your most trusted yokai, he cant let that happen. he cant falter right now, even if hes seeing the life spilling from your eyes (he cant. he cant think, cant stay calm, no. your life is at stake. he cant lose you)
fate be damned, he wont stand by and do nothing as your soul continues to break. regardless of any suffering he has to endure, if theres a single chance of being able to guide you once more to be together again, theres nothing else he wishes for
ever since your first meeting he swore to you
('Through good times and bad, I'll always be by your side')
he doesnt care as his body changes and his magic goes haywire, nor how he feels his life force getting drained (it isnt like he would want to live a life without you with him). all hallritt needs is to be by your side once more. and if he has to go against life itself then so be it
youre still too far from him, he wont reach you like this. he needs something to bound you to him, something connected to him. right now, theres only one thing he can do
(ah, his ribbon is coming undone)
that hurts, it hurts so much, but not more than seeing you look so scared. dont worry, hes going to save you, please trust him one more time. hes so close to getting through to you until his energy collapses and everything turns black
for a split second all of his senses become numb and he is consumed by his thoughts. he feels lost, nothing makes sense, was he not strong enough? where is he? and more importantly, where are you? are you safe? just why? why did this happen? why you of all people?
why why why--
then, just for a moment, he can feel you, your presence
though faint, he can hear you, your heart beating slowly but surely, your breathing. you, it is you. he cant make out the exact words but youre trying to say something to him
his relief is short-lived as he finally makes you out, his vision giving way to your tears running down your face, hand extended, trying to reach him. even though he doesnt understand whats happening, all his blurry mind can do is mirror you, with a desperation he cant control, hand as far as can be and yet--
Dearest one, please Don’t cry!
as soon as he opens his eyes, hes back at your place, and yet the air feels wrong, all stuffy and stagnant
the many familiar allarmed voices close by makes hallritt(?) search in that direction. all that havoc only makes him more hopeless, maybe he couldnt save you, maybe that was all a dream
no, hes seeing you, alive and well (as well as you can be after fainting shortly). he sees you be smothered by all those yokais and doesnt waste a second in coming forth, a hurry in his steps he cant hold back
ah, his form has changed so maybe you wont recognize him. still, he cant help reacting like this, wanting to be by your side. however, the horde of yokai looking at him with both confusion and suspicion make a wall between you two. that familiar twinkle in your eyes as you look at him gives him all the information he needs to know
his heart yearns for you
he comes closer. despite your many familiars protests, you let him come near and they listen to you, albeit unwilling (your wish is their command after all). hallritt(?) doesnt waste a second as he lowers himself, kneeling before you
in his hands he presents to you once more the red string that binds you two together
Because I know we'll always feel the same
(kind of an explanation..? more info) essentially, a yokai may end up as their 'seed/shadow form' after losing their master, often losing their senses and most rationality. it is highly likely they end up hating this world for making you suffer and die, and as such try to destroy it, that or theyll try to cope with their own ways (hopefully your other familiars are sane and strong enough to stop those who dont want anything to do with this world anymore..! if not, well. someone will have to deal with them). though that might not be as necessary, seeing as although they gain a considerable amount of strength and magic, their life force dwindles until they end up... disappearing
with your death, your familiars are unstable enough for some of them (hallritt) to go through changes such as shadow hallritt (not a good sign..! though, with the situation at hand, that was the only way they could save the 'you' they love so much, so please forgive them for doing this without your permission!)
in hallritts case, despite being a young and unexperienced nekomata (somewhat of a contradiction i know) he bypassed the necessary conditions when turning into shadow hallritt and thus became a nekoshou (since he was fairly young and had a lot of potential, all of his life force ended up being used in the process though. he doesnt regret it one bit, after all, hes back together with you, no?). he concentrated all of his power into 'guiding you to them' again, however by that time, your soul was much too fragmented for a full restoration. fret not, as he bounded himself to you so intrinsically he kind of lives within you. or something... (do you see what i did there haha. shadow hallritt is inside you). he ended up as an entirely different entity separate from hallritt, somehow. i havent actually thought much about that part (prone to changes..!)
extra thoughts 1 - 'when guiding you back to them': you were so far away from shadow hallritt he ended up using his ribbon as a 'rope' of some sort, undoing your knot to make the 'string' longer enough to reach you (which you grabbed without a second thought. that in turn only made shadow hallritt more desperate to save you). the ribbon is connected to the both of you after all, both emotional and now physically
extra thoughts 2 - 'the past he cant return to': shadow hallritt has taken it upon him to prevent the future he came from of happening by all means necessary. by that logic, he ended up stranded in the 'past' and doesnt have a place to go back to (as the 'berserk louter' from his timeline also used all of his life force, this timelines louter doesnt have the necessary magic to return him not like hed want to neither will he go on a frenzy any time soon). shadow hallritt here was essentially the light at the end of the tunnel for you, burning with an intensity so bright he looked like a melting sun (hah)
extra thoughts 3 - 'the untied shadow casted by the sun': although hes not used to this new form, shadow hallritt tends to connect himself to you at all times (stemming from his fear of losing you again). you also no longer have a need for a gps! he can be your guide dog, just put a collar in him or else he will bite your other pets..! (of course you dont need to worry, hed follow you anywhere you go regardless of having or not a collar, thats, more for your other familiars safety)
authors note: i moved the actual explanations of my references to another post (which will be linked shortly after i post it. not today though..!) because it got. way too long. at that point it deserved to be its own post, try to find some if you want..! do know that theres, quite an amount..!
some other explanations (not linked to the refs): you were crying because you thought he died (or maybe because you almost died!??)
something happened outside with your other familiars as you were being saved by hallritt/shadow hallritt (namely a certain time related magic user. yeah... i know thats for his normal form and not yokai au but like. im the one writing so whatever)
the crossed out question is because shadowritt is starting to doubt himself (losing trust. his chivalry) and while not quite aware of his changes he knows something happened to him (also later on he thinks if this new form is to your tastes)
note how he said 'back at your place' instead of home (because to him, home is where you are)
also, as soon as he sees you with the (unworthy, unreliable) rest of your familiars he rushes in because he cant trust them with you (neither himself actually. but thats for another day)
the 'familiar twinkle' in your eyes that shadowritt sees is somewhat connected to what your other familliars did back on the other timeline (and your memories being a mess.. fragmented memories. lol) and he knows about that by (once more, i know) being connected to you. also the chaos from your other familiars (before shadowritt finds you) is because you kind of 'passed out'/fell or something (yes, related to everything here. they all saved you one way or another)
his 'sacrifice' (regarding the ribbon) made him feel so many negative emotions along with the whole 'you died' that it ended up being the last straw he could handle, making him transform into his new form (nekoshou)
anyways, what do we think about this plot? i know reqs are closed but well. i can always make exceptions for this yokai au... (alo the extra thoughts 3 was really just for fun lol. to end on a lighter note)
also regarding the isekai au i wanted to use the eps name as the chapters name but um. i threw that out the window for yokai au. it is not my fault ok it just. felt like itd go well. besides it isnt like me to put title in things so this is probably a once in a blue moon type of thing
!!!!! i finished the yokai au post. that post was in my drafts since like. april 14 or something
the explanation with the references will be posted once i finish editing (probably later today since most of it is already done) so have fun finding all the references by yourselves in the meanwhile!
if theres any typos or something doesnt make sense please tell me because at some point it all looked like a jumble of letters to me and i kept writing anyways (bad decision. as always) i will try to fix it as soon as i can
yokai au thoughts.. word vomit i have no idea whats going on here. once again, yokai au is heavily inspired by @twstedforyou (hopefully i can make it more unique lol but um most of the things here are preeetty similar my bad i cant think very well) yes finally another piece of actual lore for you guys, all of this was written in a random order so it may not be very coherent if at all
(reader death, hallritt spirals and goes slightly insane over it and turns into shadow hallritt. very hallritt/shadowritt centric, um yandere? i think. some things are ambiguous by lack of brainpower plus i wanted to post also maybe slight mystery for later..? lol)
it is unfair. life is unfair
it doesnt matter whatever useless powers they have, your death remains unchanged. what good does having so many familiars do to you? they failed you. thats a fact
what does his being even exist for? why are they still here if youre gone? nothing in life matters if his reason of living disappears, if you disappear
no. no, no, no. hallritt wont let that be the end. as your most trusted yokai, he cant let that happen. he cant falter right now, even if hes seeing the life spilling from your eyes (he cant. he cant think, cant stay calm, no. your life is at stake. he cant lose you)
fate be damned, he wont stand by and do nothing as your soul continues to break. regardless of any suffering he has to endure, if theres a single chance of being able to guide you once more to be together again, theres nothing else he wishes for
ever since your first meeting he swore to you
('Through good times and bad, I'll always be by your side')
he doesnt care as his body changes and his magic goes haywire, nor how he feels his life force getting drained (it isnt like he would want to live a life without you with him). all hallritt needs is to be by your side once more. and if he has to go against life itself then so be it
youre still too far from him, he wont reach you like this. he needs something to bound you to him, something connected to him. right now, theres only one thing he can do
(ah, his ribbon is coming undone)
that hurts, it hurts so much, but not more than seeing you look so scared. dont worry, hes going to save you, please trust him one more time. hes so close to getting through to you until his energy collapses and everything turns black
for a split second all of his senses become numb and he is consumed by his thoughts. he feels lost, nothing makes sense, was he not strong enough? where is he? and more importantly, where are you? are you safe? just why? why did this happen? why you of all people?
why why why--
then, just for a moment, he can feel you, your presence
though faint, he can hear you, your heart beating slowly but surely, your breathing. you, it is you. he cant make out the exact words but youre trying to say something to him
his relief is short-lived as he finally makes you out, his vision giving way to your tears running down your face, hand extended, trying to reach him. even though he doesnt understand whats happening, all his blurry mind can do is mirror you, with a desperation he cant control, hand as far as can be and yet--
Dearest one, please Don’t cry!
as soon as he opens his eyes, hes back at your place, and yet the air feels wrong, all stuffy and stagnant
the many familiar allarmed voices close by makes hallritt(?) search in that direction. all that havoc only makes him more hopeless, maybe he couldnt save you, maybe that was all a dream
no, hes seeing you, alive and well (as well as you can be after fainting shortly). he sees you be smothered by all those yokais and doesnt waste a second in coming forth, a hurry in his steps he cant hold back
ah, his form has changed so maybe you wont recognize him. still, he cant help reacting like this, wanting to be by your side. however, the horde of yokai looking at him with both confusion and suspicion make a wall between you two. that familiar twinkle in your eyes as you look at him gives him all the information he needs to know
his heart yearns for you
he comes closer. despite your many familiars protests, you let him come near and they listen to you, albeit unwilling (your wish is their command after all). hallritt(?) doesnt waste a second as he lowers himself, kneeling before you
in his hands he presents to you once more the red string that binds you two together
Because I know we'll always feel the same
(kind of an explanation..? more info) essentially, a yokai may end up as their 'seed/shadow form' after losing their master, often losing their senses and most rationality. it is highly likely they end up hating this world for making you suffer and die, and as such try to destroy it, that or theyll try to cope with their own ways (hopefully your other familiars are sane and strong enough to stop those who dont want anything to do with this world anymore..! if not, well. someone will have to deal with them). though that might not be as necessary, seeing as although they gain a considerable amount of strength and magic, their life force dwindles until they end up... disappearing
with your death, your familiars are unstable enough for some of them (hallritt) to go through changes such as shadow hallritt (not a good sign..! though, with the situation at hand, that was the only way they could save the 'you' they love so much, so please forgive them for doing this without your permission!)
in hallritts case, despite being a young and unexperienced nekomata (somewhat of a contradiction i know) he bypassed the necessary conditions when turning into shadow hallritt and thus became a nekoshou (since he was fairly young and had a lot of potential, all of his life force ended up being used in the process though. he doesnt regret it one bit, after all, hes back together with you, no?). he concentrated all of his power into 'guiding you to them' again, however by that time, your soul was much too fragmented for a full restoration. fret not, as he bounded himself to you so intrinsically he kind of lives within you. or something... (do you see what i did there haha. shadow hallritt is inside you). he ended up as an entirely different entity separate from hallritt, somehow. i havent actually thought much about that part (prone to changes..!)
extra thoughts 1 - 'when guiding you back to them': you were so far away from shadow hallritt he ended up using his ribbon as a 'rope' of some sort, undoing your knot to make the 'string' longer enough to reach you (which you grabbed without a second thought. that in turn only made shadow hallritt more desperate to save you). the ribbon is connected to the both of you after all, both emotional and now physically
extra thoughts 2 - 'the past he cant return to': shadow hallritt has taken it upon him to prevent the future he came from of happening by all means necessary. by that logic, he ended up stranded in the 'past' and doesnt have a place to go back to (as the 'berserk louter' from his timeline also used all of his life force, this timelines louter doesnt have the necessary magic to return him not like hed want to neither will he go on a frenzy any time soon). shadow hallritt here was essentially the light at the end of the tunnel for you, burning with an intensity so bright he looked like a melting sun (hah)
extra thoughts 3 - 'the untied shadow casted by the sun': although hes not used to this new form, shadow hallritt tends to connect himself to you at all times (stemming from his fear of losing you again). you also no longer have a need for a gps! he can be your guide dog, just put a collar in him or else he will bite your other pets..! (of course you dont need to worry, hed follow you anywhere you go regardless of having or not a collar, thats, more for your other familiars safety)
authors note: i moved the actual explanations of my references to another post because it got. way too long. at that point it deserved to be its own post, try to find some if you want..! do know that theres, quite an amount..!
some other explanations (not linked to the refs): you were crying because you thought he died (or maybe because you almost died!??)
something happened outside with your other familiars as you were being saved by hallritt/shadow hallritt (namely a certain time related magic user. yeah... i know thats for his normal form and not yokai au but like. im the one writing so whatever)
the crossed out question is because shadowritt is starting to doubt himself (losing trust. his chivalry) and while not quite aware of his changes he knows something happened to him (also later on he thinks if this new form is to your tastes)
note how he said 'back at your place' instead of home (because to him, home is where you are)
also, as soon as he sees you with the (unworthy, unreliable) rest of your familiars he rushes in because he cant trust them with you (neither himself actually. but thats for another day)
the 'familiar twinkle' in your eyes that shadowritt sees is somewhat connected to what your other familliars did back on the other timeline (and your memories being a mess.. fragmented memories. lol) and he knows about that by (once more, i know) being connected to you. also the chaos from your other familiars (before shadowritt finds you) is because you kind of 'passed out'/fell or something (yes, related to everything here. they all saved you one way or another)
his 'sacrifice' (regarding the ribbon) made him feel so many negative emotions along with the whole 'you died' that it ended up being the last straw he could handle, making him transform into his new form (nekoshou)
anyways, what do we think about this plot? i know reqs are closed but well. i can always make exceptions for this yokai au... (alo the extra thoughts 3 was really just for fun lol. to end on a lighter note)
also regarding the isekai au i wanted to use the eps name as the chapters name but um. i threw that out the window for yokai au. it is not my fault ok it just. felt like itd go well. besides it isnt like me to put title in things so this is probably a once in a blue moon type of thing
