technically her age in the lore is 6 years old but for her species she’s basically like 20 in human years
she keeps to herself a lot so we don’t know much about her
caretaker
BO-BELL
He/him
in his lore he’s not even a year old but he’s more like a 3-4 year old
He’s supposed to be like one of those school bells u see in like high school movies and crap
PUSO
Idk it’s puso from house of puso
idk what to say it’s just. Him.
We r I think a traumagenic system
even though four and x and puso were added intentionally they were added for comfort and in order to hold trauma
DNI: anyone who’s gonna harass us for anything we like or believe in, etc. other than that go free my children
The main reason we r hiding, from Rain, listed below. Tw for grooming and sh so if u don’t wanna read allat, we r hiding basically cuz our dad has decided to take control of all our social media so we can’t safely vent on our main tumblr. If u find our main tumblr then good for you just don’t tell anyone publicly.
I tried discord for the first time in 2 years. and me and 2 other ppl got groomed by a dude with a sh fetish that made us cut and show him and when we realized he threatened to post the pictures on his Twitter and yt(hasn't did it tho). And my dad found out. He's destroying my only safe place. I made him think that the groomer was from Tumblr and he said he was gonna delete my Tumblr and when I bawled my eyes out, he decided: he's going to create an email and take control of my Tumblr, YouTube, Pinterest, and Instagram. I don't post on insta, but I use Tumblr a ton and Pinterest sometimes. And he's banning me from using X and discord. I told him Tumblr was my only safe place and he got mad and said safe places are for people who are abused, and that I'm not beaten or cussed out or yelled at all the time so I don't need a "safe place." I can't safely communicate with people anymore. He said I'm clearly not ready for social media and I said he's taking away my freedom and he got mad and said he's protecting me and cutting me off from anything that could hurt me. I can't vent on Tumblr anymore. That was taken away from me. I can't vent my anger to anyone. I can't even talk to my friend from Brazil now cuz the only way we could possibly ever message each other is thru Tumblr. I'm truly existing in a prison. my dad went though my phone, violated my privacy, and he's now taking control over my life and labeling it as protection. And while he was announcing his control to me, what did my mom do? SHE DIDNT EVEN TRY TO DEFEND ME. SHE JUST STAYED SILENT AND LET HIM TRY TO MANIPULATE AND ESTABLISH CONTROL OVER ME. My dad said I need to learn, and that someday I need to decide through bad situations by myself, because some day him and my mom won't be there to help. But I think I don't want them to be there to help. He even read my browsing history out loud. And he laughed a few times and called me a fibber and both him and my mom say I lie all the time so they need to protect me because they say I fib a lot so they can't tell when I'm lying or telling the truth. He's also trying to take over my yt too but he can't figure out how. My online identity is being erased. I hate them both.
We’ve made this account in secret to hide from our dad. We plan on secretly buying a cheap android phone to hide and use for this. We can’t vent on our main tumblr, nor directly let anyone know what account we r. Just know we r artist and we like bfdi. If you figure out what account we r, good for you. It’ll probably become obvious over time if you’ve came across our art before. Just please don’t tell anyone because he will find out.
I don’t feel good… I went to the creek with my friend but I barley enjoyed it… we broke up recently and they said they wouldn’t be for forever but also that same day we broke up they and my other friend announced how they basically don’t want me venting to them anymore.
Nothing feels good. I barely even feel like drawing anymore. I hate every second that goes by because I could be doing something productive but I can’t. My dad is constantly breathing down our neck, controlling everything we do, trying to isolate us. I feel like nobody cares about me and the few friends I do care about have their own struggles they deal with and/or feel the same as us but just don’t wanna talk to us.
All I do all day is sit around on my devices doing nothing. I don’t know how to make myself happy. I tried taking my medicine again but it did nothing. I feel like nobody loves me. I have everything I want. I have a “loving” family. 2 Irl friends. But I just can’t be happy. I have what would be considered luxury for many, many people. I do basically nothing all day because I’m beginning to hate doing anything irl. I’m losing the point in why this system should even live. I hate how I get attached so easily. I’m so worried about people I see who seem to be in distress, even if I don’t actually know them. I want friends so bad, but I’m way too shy irl, and even when I do make friends irl or online, I say or do something I don’t realize is hurtful or mean or distressing and things don’t go my way and our friendship is destroyed and I loose another friend.
Why can’t I just have someone? Someone who won’t just leave me randomly or ghost me? Someone who won’t feel bad or depressed if I don’t respond right away? Someone who will talk about crazy stuff with me, like weird fantasies or hating life or even porn and gore, without judging me? Why can’t I find another bfdi-loving system(besides my other friend) to yap to and screw around with? Why can’t I have someone who won’t drift apart from me and be friends even if we were together and broke up? Why can’t I have someone who’s also lonely, isolated, loves bfdi, is messed up in the head, maybe even is a system, desperate for love, just like me, who will love me? I’m too scared to message first, but I swear once I know u, I won’t be always scared to message first anymore.
I need someone to love. I don’t care if they hurt me. Just make me feel like I’m not alone, please…
if someone says proship dni or darkship dni am I like…. Not allowed to follow them, or comment on their posts? Like I don’t care if you don’t like me I just wanna look at ur art. Is that so bad? If you don’t want me interacting with u does that mean I can’t even enjoy ur blog? I mean if you don’t want me talking about proships or darkships I won’t… I’ll say I’ dislike a ship but I won’t harass people for shipping it. Just let me look at ur art pls I don’t care about ur personal views and anti-this blah blah blah unless ur a pedo or rapist or racist or whatever I don’t care I just wanna see ur blog cuz ur cool
I mean I don’t wanna be a proshipper or dark shipper but I can’t help but never get mad at any strange ship and I can’t help but enjoy mean or evil ships, I don’t know why. I can’t help it…
is it weird I see Four and X kinda like parents/caretakers f/o cuz they care for me in headspace but also kinda like a romantic f/o??? It feels weird. F/Os feel weird and kinda offensive cuz it’s characters I don’t own but like this is the first time I’ve ever tried/accepted f/o-ing something so idk. This feels like incest I feel evil
our dads threatening to send us to a facility to get better about cvtting he’s like “they’ll take all ur devices away and you won’t be able to talk to anyone” like I mean he was acting all nice about it but I know his fake comforting voice
Four and X r kinda my caregivers in this system,,, they’re like parents but also like friends hrrrrmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm whaht. I really wanna like insert me into a fictional characters ship/life/relationships but it just feels illegal
I hate how one bad experience with some Roblox bfdi rp friends have caused me to be super reluctant to watch object shows now. Like it wasn’t their fault, I just got mad, and now I have like several bfdia episodes to watch and the new itft episode and still gotta watch tpot 21 and 22. I feel dumb stupid dummy dum
sadly any community has groomers, and yes the radqueer community does often have more due to how we say were open to all, most of us try to push those people out to the best of our abilities by sharing around who they are and what they've done
I just found this really good fourx hanahaki fic with gardening/plant motifs omg. Read it read it read it x is so cute in this he has a plushie fort i think his internal dialogue fits him so well. my poor x :(
+ the drawing you can see in the corner. i drew this shi t at liek 3 am cus i wanted to see how they'd look w non human skin tones ... its a permanent change now
pedos, zoos, rapists, etc that do not act on their desires or act consensually (as in both parties give consent (theres a thing called consensual abuse for harmful people)) are allowed in, but people that are genuinely predators and offenders and do not want to get better are shunned from the community
ooohh good good idk tho I heard the Rq community has a lot of groomers and I literally got groomed like a week ago so
