Alright i'm gonna be 𩩠anon then! How is/was your day? What have you been up to lately? Ohh i wanna start a new series.. do you have any recommendations?
My days going good babe ! I started one of those expensive d*et things so Iâm very tired and peek by so much bc is drinking so much water LMFAO Iâve just been chillin really, I was in SC last week bc my fam has a house but Iâm back home nowđđ how are you love ??! Iâve been looking for fic recs too but Iâve read a lot of @nostalthicc âs series or really anything on @nataliesgringa masterlist !
summary: jj would take the fall for any of his friends, heâs always ready to intervene and save the day. whenever y/n needed his help without question he was ready to move the mountains for her, he would do anything for her even if it meant giving up a lot himself.Â
warnings: drug usage, soft jj, i didnât read this over yikes
inspired by the netflix original series the society and the heart-warming scene of jj taking the blame for pope so he could keep his scholarship. there is a chunk of dialogue from the societyâ all rights to them.Â
a/n: hello this is my outer banks side-blog you can find my other writing here at @nostalthiccâ. send some request.Â
you never want to be the one on the outside looking in but for y/nâs friends that precisely what they were going through. for the last hour or so, kiara, pope, and jj have been posted outside of y/nâs room door waiting for her to let them in and explain whatâs going on. she was honestly an open person, so this caught everyone by surprise, what would happen for y/n to spend hours crying in her room? none of them knew what to do or what to expect; thatâs why the pogues stayed at her door listening to the horrifying sobs, waiting for john b to get here with some food and drinks.
âwhat do you mean she wonât come out?â john b asked calmly as he pinched the bridge of his nose, pondering for a solution. food didnât work, nor did her favorite drink. they needed to get creative because everyone was restless, and jj was ready to kick down the door- this was strongly disapproved by all the pogues. âokay, okay, listen. clearly, she doesnât want all of us to see her right now, so we send one of us, right?â everyone nodded in agreement before all their eyes trailed to jj.
he rolled her eyes, gesturing john b to give him goods, it was no lie when it came to jj and y/n, the two of them had an unbreakable bond, and they were hoping that would help him get through to the girl. âiâll call you in an hour.â
once the rest of the pogues were gone, jj slid down the wall, he knocked a few times announcing he was the only one left but still no response. after many failed attempts, he did the only logical thing to do, jj pushed a perfectly rolled blunt under the door.
a few moments later, he heard her hoarse voice. âi donât have a lighter.â
a smirk graced his lips, jj knew weed would do the trick, it always does. he was close to sliding his lighter to y/n, but an idea popped into his head. âif you want it, you gotta open the door.â he hesitantly spoke, hoping it wouldnât cause her to inclose herself back into the room but to jjâs luck y/n opened the door. it was difficult for him to take in her appearance, her hair was a disheveled mess atop her head, her eyes and nose were red from crying, tear stains ran down her cheeks, and y/n had a broken look in her eyes. jj hated seeing his friend like this, he would give anything to see a smile on her face instead of her dull expression.
âstop starring and give me the lighter.â y/n held her hand out. âplease.â she added, not looking the boy in his eyes in fear of him asking her more questions. but she should have none better; this was jj.
âhey, wait, wait, wait.â he began, getting onto his feet. âyou donât get to lock us out of your room when youâre clearly hurting and then act as though nothing happened. uh-uh y/n, not with me. you and i both know i donât work that way.â
âwell, maybe you should have let kie or pope stay because i have every intention of pretending nothing happened. iâm fine.â a scowl was evident on your face, but he knew she was hurting and trying to push him away, heâd done it a thousand times himself.
jj drew a long breath before stepping into the room, noting she didnât try to stop him. âdoesnât matter. iâm here, and you are not fine, so tell me whatâs up.â
y/n wanted to tell him, she really did, but none of this was his problem, y/n knew jj already had enough on his plate and didnât need to be plagued with her difficulties- none of them did. she needed to figure this out on her own, the pogues wouldnât help her get out of this one. the smoke from jjâs hit drew y/n out of her thoughts, she hadnât even noticed he had made himself right at home on her bed.
âokay, hit me.â he leaned towards the girl, handing her the lit blunt. she declined, turning away and dragged her fingers through the mess on her head. âsomethingâs definitely wrong, you donât want to smoke. whatâs going on, you opened the door for my lighter but not to light the blunt? that doesnât make a lick of sense, not one bit. you know you have to light it to smoke it, right?â
his rambling was overwhelming the girl, she couldnât even begin to think when jj wouldnât shut up. of course, she knew she had to light the blunt, she wasnât an idiot, but the consequences that came with the blunt werenât worth it. before jj could send her into another spiraling break down y/n rushed to the bathroom, unintentionally slamming the door. little did she knew it allowed jj the perfect opportunity to get some answers, which he indeed found.
ây/n, iâm not playing this game again, open the door.â he hissed while tugging on the doorknob. âthe rest arenât here to stop me, i will kick this down.â silence. âi know, y/n, i know youâre pregnant, just come out.â
âiâm scared,â she confessed, a sob raking through her body.
âi know, sweetheart, but if you open the door i can help you, weâll figure this out, okay?â jj smiled triumphantly when y/n slowly appeared, but it instantly faded when he regarded her broken stance. quickly he swept her into his arms, holding her in a tight embrace as she cried.
y/n momentarily pulled away. âi fucked up bad, i fucked up so bad. what am i supposed to do?â jj didnât want to engage in such a touchy conversation until she had calmed down and was in the right headspace, so he held onto her tighter, rocking back and forth.
when y/n finally regained herself and dried all her tears, the two were able to sit face to face, one pogue to another, and have the awaited conversation. although y/n would admit it, she was relieved to have the weight lifted off her chest.
âitâs not mine, though, right? i donât remember anything, but iâve been pretty drunk in the past.â the boy teased, earning a small smile from his best friend, a smile he has been waiting to see for ages. y/n threw a pillow at his face claiming this wasnât a joking matter, but jj didnât miss the giggle passing her lips. âseriously, do you know who the father is?â
âi donât ever want you to ask me that question again .â y/n was slightly offended he would even fix his mouth to mutter such a question, but she pushed her offensive away to reply. âjust respect that one thing, Â i donât want him in my babyâs life, ever. thatâs the end of it, donât ever ask me that again.â
jj apologized; those were not at all his intentions, but he was curious about who had landed the girl, not many others. he had a few ideas of his own; however, he chose to not further push the subject. he adverted his attention and proposed more simplistic questions, the basics; when did you find out? how did you find out? how are you feeling? do your parents know?
most we easy, straight-forward questions, yet one specifically caught notice. âyes, they know, i needed to ask my mom for guidance, they just want to know who the father is and i canât tell them, i wonât tell them, but i fear what will happen if i donât.â
âthis guy, you really donât want him anywhere near you or your baby?â jj entreated, y/n replied with a nod. she could see the wheels turning in his head, which never resulted in a good idea. âthen iâll be the father, iâm the father, simple.â
y/n eyes grew the size of saucers, she had no words, no thoughts, all she could do was stare closely at her friend who wore a look of eagerness upon his features. y/n wasnât sure she heard him right. âno, you donât have to do that?â
âwhy not? jj counted.
she scoffed, rolling her eyes at his attempt. "this isnât like taking the blame for me when i almost blew up the chemistry lab-.â
â-god, you owe me so much.â
âiâm serious, this isnât a joke, jj.â she tucked a few fly-aways behind her air. âitâs big, and itâs forever. you donât get to say that if you donât mean it.â a mix of emotions were coursing through her veins; sadness, confusion, anger, gratitude, hatred. y/n couldnât pinpoint exactly which one, but they all were making her dizzy.
âyouâre my best friend, and i love you. of course, i mean it.â jj placed a light kiss on the top of her head, he often made impulsive decisions especially when they involved the people he loved, but this one felt right. y/n felt right, she had done so much for him, and he was ready to do this for her and the baby. his baby. âiâd do anything for you y/n, and thatâll never change, i will do everything to protect the two of you.â
she watched with admiration in her eyes as jj explained all the details, she has a new level of respect and love for him, one that can never be replaced. y/n was content; finally, an emotion she never thought would plague her being after she found out the news, she was awaiting the future, but the future didnât have as glorious as plans as the pair hoped for.
jj had convinced y/n it was best if they told her parents as soon as they got home, he didnât want her to face y/f/n and y/m/nâs wrath any longer. they were typical, uptight, materialistic kooks, and he had soon how disapproving they could be up close and personal. once they were informed, y/n and jj could better plan for the future, like a doctorâs appointment as soon as possible. maybe it didnât go as smoothly as they planned, but at least it was over with.
âa pogue?â y/nâs mother gasped, earning a stone-cold glare from her daughter. her fatherâs reaction was much less surprising as if he expected the news. âas if you hanging around them wasnât enough.â
ây/m/n, calm down.â mr. l/n spoke in a somber tone, sure maybe he wanted to throw around some unkind words of his own, he was keeping his composure together for his daughterâs sake. âthatâs not what we need to focus on.â he began, scratching at his chin. âiâll make an appointment with dr. chen on the mainland, we will help you financially, but we expect you two to show some initiative as well.â
y/m/n scoffed, her eyes zeroed in of jj, disgust was written on her face. she hated pogues because she used to be one and since she married y/nâs father. y/m/n had wholly forgotten where she came from. âweâd be better off sending y/n to live with your aunt, you think he will be able to support y/n and her baby.â
â-our baby.â jj intervened. âyouâre not sending her or my baby away. i may be a pogue, but i know better than anyone how important family is, and i will assure i will do everything for these two.â y/nâs heart clenched as he spoke, she couldnât help but feel guilty for the way her parents were treating him when the baby wasnât even his. he shouldnât have to worry about providing for the baby, none of this was fair, and y/n felt ashamed for allowing jj to do this.
shortly after jjâs rant, the two were able to get out of there and away from her mother. now it all came down to somehow explaining this the pogues. the entire drive to the cut y/n kept asking the boy if he was absolutely certain he wanted to go through with this, that there was still time to back out and live his life, but jj continuously assured her this is what he wanted to do, and he wasnât changing his mind.
the group had mixed reactions, which jj and y/n had expected. john b was mainly confused as to how this happened, the pair had never shown a romantic interest in each other, or a sexual one either. many questions plagued through his head, but john b decided to wait because he understood how overwhelming this is for his friends. pope was freaking out, going on about how a baby is a lot of work and itâs presence throwing off the dynamic of the group. he shared his troubles with y/nâs schooling as well as other minor concerns, pope sounded more like their parents than a friend. and lastly kiara, she was a bit leerier about the subject, she was a hard believer of the no pogue on pogue macking rule and with good reason to. whatâs done is done, and she made it clear she was the babyâs godmother, this caused john b and pope to start bickering about how got to be the godfather.
y/n was happy with her friendâs reaction, sure they may not know the entire truth, but the pogues treat her or act any different. it was merely another hardship theyâd have to face together because it takes a whole village to raise a child, right? but no all good things last and y/nâs pregnancy announcement spread very fast through the outer banks, and it may have caught a certain kook by a bit of a surprise.
this is my outer banks side blog if any of you wanted to you know read some stuff. ALSO MY OBX REAUEST WILL GO ON THIS PAGE but i'll include them in my masterlist
my mutuals..... all very sweet and cute even if we havenât spoken.... my followers....... so nice and lovely even tho I am a dumbass..... very good vibes
Hello! I was just wondering if you were going to do a part 2 for White Lies? Because tbh iâve been trying to debate on whether or not y/n would ever forgive Jeff and start talking again (obviously after she heals herself). I wanted to know how you feel about it because now Iâm torn:/ x -đ€
i was not planing on making another part but i can share where i imagined jeff and y/n ended up after y/n healed and got back on her feet.
SOOO basically i think after y/n healed she and jeff became friends, she didn't want to rush into anything because she was focused on rebuilding her online imagine and controlling her inner demons- and jeff was willing to take any interaction with y/n as he could.
at first he was a little overbearing, always asking her want she needed, if she was okay, having flowers delivered to her house everyday, apologizing every chance he good, getting defensive over her, etc...clearly he wasn't over her and he was trying but it was too overwhelming for y/n at the time. and she had to tell jeff to back off a bit, spend some time apart and keep encounters on a low. but when she was feeling better she missed him.
they would ease back into things, jeff was still asl ways at her beck and call but it was better- it was enjoyable and comforting to be with each other. they needed each other and y/n knew he was not coming out of a place of hate but love and that helped her in the forgiving and (re)trusting process. BUT eventually they got back to normal, best friends at least.
one night jeff decides he's reading, so he takes her out to a nice dinner and asks y/n to be his girl friend again. of course she said yes- but that didn't mean throwing it in the media as well, they spent a while apart and the internet picked up on that and they didn't want to be labeled the off and on couple of youtube. plus y/n wanted to rekindle their relationship with out all the questions and rumors.
BUT YOU KNOW EXACTLY WHAT THEY DID AFTER THE DATE.
Reader calling one of the vlog squad guy crying cause there a wasp in her car and she has no clue how to get rid of it (sheâs tried the obvious but it didnât work) -âïž
warnings: cursing, a wasp??
you tried you really did but nothing worked, the stubborn ass wasp wouldnât leave.Â
you swore it was karma for having heath remove the wasp nest from your backyard a few weeks ago. and you were sure the wasp gods were out to get you
so you did the only reasonable thing to do...
call todd
luckily for you, he happened to be with todd -- but maybe by a small chance, you knew they were together
you needed as much protection as you could get
when the boys got there you were freaking out, pulling out your hair and yelling type freaking out. you didnât any footage, nor coffee and the wasp gods were highly against you
âget it! please, get it!âÂ
todd tried to calm you down but nothing would seem to work, that was until jeff walked out of the car with a tray of goldenâs- your favorite coffee shop
after giving jeff the biggest you could muster, you quickly demand the boys help with your dilemma.Â
things were going great and they almost had the wasp out until it landed on toddâs hand and he completely flipped out and locked your keys and his own in your car.
ây/n you have to crawl through the window! youâre the smallest!âÂ
âiâm not going in there! send jeff in there!â
your banter went on for ages until you finally agreed to crawl into the car IF the two of them agreed to buy your drinks for the rest of the year
and for each of you, it seemed like a fair trade-off but we all know whose getting the short end of the stick
cough cough todd and jeff cough cough
the entire time you squeezed yourself through the window you bitched and fussed
but you mainly kept your gaze on the small but evil creature eyeing you down on top of the glove department
âwhere are the keys?â
âon the floor, by the breakâ
when you finally got the keys, the boys pulled you out, cheering you on happily
Maybe a fanfic where youâve been with Jeff for awhile and you decide to go home for the holidays and introduce him to your family. Includes your mom loving him, siblings not so sure but end up bonding, dad doesnât like him at first, and then seeing Jeff interact with your nieces/nephews. Idk, something super fluffy and cute!
IMMMM SOOORYYY this is sooo bad :(((
âcome on, jeff. youâve already met my mom and she absolutely loved you- more than me i think,â you told your boyfriend, squeezing his hand in your own. you had been trying to ease his nerves for the entire road trip to your parentâs cabin, they had invited the two of you for the annual pre-thanksgiving trip this year. âthey will love you just as much as i do if anything i think theyâre more upset i havenât taken you sooner.âÂ
âyes but that was just your mom, now itâs your sibling and your dad- who i know for a fact he doesnât like me because everyone was sending me his twitter post.â you rolled your eyes as jeff tried to justify his reasons to be nervous, you could understand where he was coming from; meeting his parents was terrifying but you didnât want to lead him in there with an ounce of doubt. seems a little too late, though. âwe should go back, say your sick of something.â
you giggled, matching jeffâs serious expression with a goofy smile. âjeff, my dad is a comedian, he did that to you on purpose, just to scare you a little bit but trust me when he meets you heâll be taking you into his studio making you listen to him talk about how he built his career from nothing.â you couldnât lie, having comedian/actor as a dad made bringing the boyfriends home a little hard because he couldnât help but mess with them but your dad had too big of a heart to truly treat someone bad. âhe does something like this to every boy i bring home.âÂ
âwait, how many are we talking? just for future references?âÂ
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âyou guys made it early!â your mom engulfed you in a warm hug, her vanilla lavender perfume causes a rush of nostalgia to plague your mind. âhow was the trip?â she asked before switching her attention to jeff who happily accepted her embrace.Â
âlong and boring but iâm so glad to see the cabin,â you handed jeff your bag as you took in the house, clearly your mother had made some changes; there used to be colorful handprints littered along the floorboard from you and your older brother. âmama, whereâs nathan?âÂ
she pointed out back before giving the two of you a big smile and heading back into the study. jeff looked as though he was going through a mid-life crisis causing you to giggle, grabbing his hand to lead him to the back door to meet your siblings, nathan and rose.Â
ây/n! youâre here!â rose shouted as she jumped off the lawn chair, running up to you. rose always had a fondness of you since she was a baby, youâd do anything for your baby sister. she snuggled into the crook of your neck before looking up at jeff who awkwardly waved. âoh my gad, y/n/n! you never said you were dating jeff l-like jeff, jeff.â you have your sister a confused look. âfrom vlog squad!â
you looked back at jeff. âoh, iâm dating jeff from vlog squad.âÂ
âthis is awesome! have you met david? is he funny? wait, can i meet everyone one day?âÂ
âi will answer all your questions later and after you properly introduce yourself,â you replied, resting your hands on her shoulders. rose had ADD and when she didnât have school she wouldnât take her medicine so you understood why she was so excited but also was a little worried she would act like this the entire visit. rose nodded while pulling out of your hug, as jeff and your sister talked you made your way to your brother who was sitting on the dock was his son, ryan and your dad.Â
âthe favorite child has arrived.â you joked, causing both men to turn around.Â
âyou wish.â nathan said pulling you into a tight hug, he held onto you until ryan started wiggling between your bodies. you messed with the baby before turning to your dad, engulfing him in a hug as well. your family was big on hugs, clearly. you took the baby from your brotherâs arms as jeff made his way to the dock.Â
you cheerfully smiled at your boyfriend who looked frightened, to say the least. âguys, i want you to meet jeff, my boyfriend jeff.â you lightly hip-bumped jeff closer to the boys, both your dad and nathan held unreadable expressions.Â
ânice you meet you, iâm nathan and this is my son, ryan.â your brother was the first to speak, pointing to the baby in your arms before shaking jeffâs hand. you rolled your eyes at his formalities, nathan was a goofy person in general and his âtough brotherâ act didnât fool you one bit. you just wanted all the unneeded tension to be over with and for everyone to get along. you were fueled to force the bonding process
âso, jay. can i call you jay?â your dad said, patting jeff on the back as he pulled him a little closer. âyes? perfect! how did you and my daughter meet?âÂ
jeff swallowed thickly before shaking the manâs hand. âwell, uh, we met at our friendâs davidâs house, he was having a party and we exchanged numbers and stuff. she did a video for my channel and we just clicked, sir, mr. y/l/n, sir.âÂ
ây/d/n is fine, you know what? iâm gonna go help your mother.â your dad said rudely, causing not only you but nathan to scowl as well. he was being unnecessarily nasty towards jeff and it was clear he was doing it on purpose as well. at least with your brother, it was obvious he was messing around.Â
âyikes.â nathan joked.
âyikes? w-what does that mean?â jeff asked franticly, looking between you and nathan. ây/n? what does yikes mean.âÂ
a little while later, your parents were finishing up on dinner while the rest of the kids messed around until they were called. you were sitting with tara- your brotherâs wife -watching jeff and nathan play with their kids, as they talk about cars. you never knew how good jeff was with kids, it made you feel something deep down, a nice warm feeling youâd never want to go away. having jeff here with your family made you feel a type of way- even though your dad was treating him badly- it was like another piece to an unknown puzzle.Â
âi know that look,â tara teased, bumping her side to bring you out of your trance. you looked at her quizzically, your eyebrows furrowed together. âbaby fever! i looked at your auntâs son like that and what do you know another baby was born.â
âi most definitely do not have baby fever, iâm just happy.âÂ
tara gave you a pointed look. âcome on y/n, youâve been together for a long time, and youâre content in your relationship so you know, marriage or kids. but thatâs just my take on things.âÂ
âcan i tell you a secret?â you asked the women. âiâm pregnant.â
Could I request maybe Jeff thinks heâs not good enough for the reader because of his past?? x
warnings: cursing, not proofread
you were perfect, at least thatâs what everyone said, anyone who tried to find just one flaw would fail and somewhere along the way fall in love. there wasnât a person who disliked you and even if they tried it wouldnât last too long, you would give them millions of reasons not to. headlines called you the goddess of love, beauty and sex, Aphrodite herself due to your kind nature, how drop-dead gorgeous you were, and your painfully seductive stature. of course, you were way too oblivious and humble to notice the trance you put people in but there was someone who seemed to be hyper-focused on your allure.Â
jeff wittek, the only person who truly despised your charm but he loved it because it made you, you. the same woman who thought itâd be a good idea to be with him, it completely blew his mind that someone like you would even acknowledge his presence. a sleazy ex-felon from staten island. but it kept him in prospective during the relationship, jeff knew this was temporary, that the two of you wouldnât last because you had way bigger, better places to be than stuck with him. he knew he was the one holding you back from being the best you, he believed he was your one flaw, even if no one saw it but him.Â
maybe you werenât aware of jeffâs thoughts but you were highly aware of the change in his attitude, he was painfully distant and was constantly pushing you away. immediately you thought he was going to break it off soon, trying to soften the blow by pulling up but you were persistent and jeff wasnât getting rid of you that easy, he the was that best thing that ever happened to you and you were not willing to give that up. even the thought made a bitter taste settle in your mouth. you were not backing down until you got to the bottom of this.Â
âhey, y/n.â he used to call you babe or baby. âiâm gonna go out with david tonight, will you be okay to get dinner or would you like me to pick it up before i go?â jeff said, scratching the back of his neck. you thought he looked like a young kid being forced to talk to their aunt over the phone like he had a thousand other places to be. it did hurt you, it hurts how fast his demeanor towards you changed when jeff used to treat you like a queen. what had i done? was there someone else? the same questions jeff asked himself every day.
âcan i come with?â you asked, a beautiful smile gracing your lips.Â
jeff froze, completely thrown off guard by the question, you didnât like going clubbing and you had just complained early you didnât feel very good. âyou said you had a headache this morning, i wouldnât want it to get worse or anything.âÂ
âit doesnât matter, i just wanna hang out with you.â you watched as jeff avoided looking anywhere near your own two eyes. you just wanted to fix what was going on, you didn't like being on bad terms- if you could even call them that. âif you just don't want me to go then that's okay, i won't be upset or anything. you need to spend time with your friends obviously.â you took a much needed deep breath to calm yourself down. âi just want to know whatâs going on, jeff.âÂ
many things went through jeffâs mind at your words, he wanted to run, but he also wanted this whole conversation to disappear, maybe even a small part of him wanted to actually state his troubles. jeff knew what he had to do at this moment, he needed to come clean because your relationship canât go on like this. he sighed, before sitting next to you on the couch. ây/n, be honest, please. do you see us together in the future, like do you really see me and you?âÂ
âyes! of course!â you said, waving your hands in the air, wondering why he would even ask a question like that. âd-do you not? what is this about?âÂ
âdonât you see it, y/n?â you shook your head. âyouâre way too good for me, you are perfect and iâm a fucking mess. your heart is made of gold, meant to spread positivity anywhere you go. so tell me someone as amazing as you would be with someone as trashy as me, huh?â jeff stressed, earning a noted look from you. âiâm nothing compared to you and you shouldnât be with me, iâm bad for you.â
you continuously shook your head, mumbling things under your breath. how could you have missed this? how could you have let this go on for so long? âbad for me? you think youâre bad for me? jeff! you idiot, if youâre bad for me how come you helped me get through my dadâs overdose? if youâre bad for me why do make sure iâm always okay whenever you leave the house? if youâre bad for me why would you support me the way you do, iâve accomplished everything because you were there cheering me on-â
âcome on, you could have easily done that yourself.â
âno! jeff, i need you, i love you, i wouldnât be the person i am today without. youâre my backbone and if you ever say youâre not good enough i will not hesitate to show you otherwise because y-you are my everything.âÂ
summary: he was the boy youâve had a crush on since you were 12, also the boy your sisterâs datings, the same boy whoâs tutoring you for your chem exam
warnings: swearing, mistakes, mentions of cheating
warnings: angst, postpartum, soft jeff(?? a warning
requested / anon - "Heyyyy, iâd die for a jeff wittek imagine inspired by the prompt list 2,3,10,13, love yaaq" i love you more
2. Please don't cry.
3. Why are you awake right now
10. I'm worried about you.
13. If you don't hug me right now, i think i might fall apart. ( i changed a bit :)
the constant wailing of grayson pulled jeff awake from his slumber, this was not the first time he has dreadfully awake to the sound of his son pitiful cry in the early hours of the morning. he turned around in the bed touching the empty spot where you should have occupied but instead, he was met with the warm, balled up sheets. jeff cursed under his breath, jumping out of the bed on his way to graysonâs nursery. he had been trying to get to your son before you could because the therapist wanted you sleeping longer than you had been since the baby was born.
when jeff made it to the nursery, you were sitting on the ground crisscrossed with grayson in your lap. he knocked on the door frame to make his presence known, jeff didn't want to startle you while you seemed so preoccupied with the baby. but even after the light taps you still did not turn to acknowledge him nor, make a sound sending him into a deeper state of worry. he lightly stalked to where you and the baby were posted, the closer he got the more he realized; your breathing was uneasy, grayson was only in a diaper, and you were only wearing a bra- meaning you were trying to feed him.
âhey, gray, why are you awake right now?â jeff cooed, crouching down to the floor beside you. a warm, comforting hand rubbed circles along your back. jeffâs heart broke once again as he watched you try to get the boy to latch, frustration was written across your features.
you finally turned to jeff, her tired eyes begging for a solution. âi-i canât get him to, he wonât latch and i donât why.â you whispered softly, earning a sympathetic look from her boyfriend. âiâve tried everything and you wonât stop crying, iâm sorry, i didnât mean to wake you up.â ever since your son was born you have been suffering from postpartum depression, nothing went right anymore, you blame yourself for every little inconvenience, you believed your baby hated you, and your mood had shifted drastically. luckily jeff and your mother were able to catch the signs early and get you the treatment you needed before your condition escalated too far.
âhey, hey, hey, please donât cry. itâs okay, itâs okay, baby.â jeff noticed the tears building in your eyes almost immediately, he knew exactly how you were feeling because this was not the first time he had been awoken to you and grayson crying together in the nursery. ây/n, itâs okay, youâre doing amazing, weâre taking this step by step.â he reassured, reaching his arms out to take the baby. âiâll hold him and you go make him a bottle, okay?â
your ego couldnât help but take a tiny punch to gut at the idea of grayson wanting a bottle instead of breastfeeding but whatever could get him to crying you were willing to try. your hands shook as you mixed the formula and baby water, you cringed at the mess you'd made completing the simple task you should've been able to do in your sleep. before you walked back into the room you wiped your face clear of tears, you didn't want jeff thinking you were anymore of a bad mother more than he already did. even with your foul mood a smile still graced your features at the sight of your boyfriend with your 3 month old son cradled in his arms, it seemed like he was made to be a father.
âgo get back in bed mamas. i'll be there in a second.â jeff kissed your forehead before taking the bottle from your grasp and turning his attention back to grayson, who had yet to calm down.
it wasn't long until jeff did in fact join you back in the bed, you had changed into one of his t-shirts to try and get more comfortable and out of breast milk stained pants. âi'm worried about you, y/n.â he whispered, turning the baby monitor back on. you had be a ghost of yourself and he feared what that meant for your future. âplease tell me what i can do to help you, i want to help you.â
summary: y/n and jeff both find out some pretty unsettling things about their relationship
warnings: cursing, horribly written, hella mistakes, im just not that happy with itÂ
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y/n didnât find herself in a relationship very often, so she understood why her friends were so eager to hear about this new guy she had been seeing for about five months. theyâve had to watch y/n come home in the early hours of the morning, new designer items pop into her closet and her mood suddenly shifted from her usual unbothered attitude to a brand new happy woman and hadnât even heard a peep about who caused all these changes in their friendâs life.
but today was the day, y/nâs small group of friends sat crowded around her bed as she started to tell them about her newfound relationship- if she could even call it that. âwe met at sandyâs, the club near the outlet mall. and you know me when i have one, two many drinks. i thought he was gonna kick me out in the morning but ended up making me breakfast and asked for my number.â y/n said, pausing as she noticed the girls were dying to interrupt her story with questions.
âhow was it?âÂ
âwhat does he look like?â
âwhatâs his name?â
âeggplant and baby carrot?âÂ
âdoes he have a brother?â
y/nâs eyes widen at the abundance of words thrown her way, she knew they were curious but not this much so. âone, thatâs for me to know, court. two, heâs really fucking hot, iâll show you guys a picture in a second, three his name is jeff wittek-â
before she could go any farther, her older friend, nora blurted out: âWhat?! Jeff?â y/n gave her a questionable look, urging nora to quiet down and explain her sudden outburst. ây/n, no, you have to end things, you canât get involved with him.â she said frantically. âh-heâs not a good person.â
summary: y/n and jeff both find out some pretty unsettling things about their relationship
warnings: cursing, horribly written, hella mistakes, im just not that happy with itÂ
3k words
y/n didnât find herself in a relationship very often, so she understood why her friends were so eager to hear about this new guy she had been seeing for about five months. theyâve had to watch y/n come home in the early hours of the morning, new designer items pop into her closet and her mood suddenly shifted from her usual unbothered attitude to a brand new happy woman and hadnât even heard a peep about who caused all these changes in their friendâs life.
but today was the day, y/nâs small group of friends sat crowded around her bed as she started to tell them about her newfound relationship- if she could even call it that. âwe met at sandyâs, the club near the outlet mall. and you know me when i have one, two many drinks. i thought he was gonna kick me out in the morning but ended up making me breakfast and asked for my number.â y/n said, pausing as she noticed the girls were dying to interrupt her story with questions.
âhow was it?âÂ
âwhat does he look like?â
âwhatâs his name?â
âeggplant and baby carrot?âÂ
âdoes he have a brother?â
y/nâs eyes widen at the abundance of words thrown her way, she knew they were curious but not this much so. âone, thatâs for me to know, court. two, heâs really fucking hot, iâll show you guys a picture in a second, three his name is jeff wittek-â
before she could go any farther, her older friend, nora blurted out: âWhat?! Jeff?â y/n gave her a questionable look, urging nora to quiet down and explain her sudden outburst. ây/n, no, you have to end things, you canât get involved with him.â she said frantically. âh-heâs not a good person.â
âwhat are you talking about?â y/n asked, her eyebrows furrowed. jeff was one of the kindest people she met whenever they were together, she couldnât imagine a bad bone in his body. what nora was saying didnât add up, it seems her friend must have been confused and was talking about the wrong jeff. since the first time she met him he had been nothing but nice to y/n and the people around them and every one of jeffâs friends were also highly kind to her.Â
âare you stupid, y/n? jeff wittek is the mob boss that haunts this god forsake town. how could you be so clueless and naive?â nora whispered harshly, causing all the girlâs eyes to widen. theyâve never seen nora act this way, she was always chill and down to earth so to see her blowing up as she was, was shocking.Â
everyone had their attention focused on nora they completely missed the look of horror on y/nâs face. little pieces of the puzzle were starting to come together, she knew he was hiding something but y/n never thought it would be of this capacity. the late-night or early morning phone calls, they obnoxious amount of weapons hidden throughout his house, jeffâs constant stance of authority with everyone around him, the bloodied clothing he swore were nose bleeds or bar fights, and the never-ending pit of drugs he had handy at all times. it all made sense now, y/n had dismissed it because she wanted jeff to tell her what his secret was when he was ready but now y/n really regrets her idea. why would he not tell her? how many people has he killed? would he ever hurt her?Â
âdo you know what he does? he kills people, y/n.â she seethed, earning unprovable glares from surrounding customers- not that she cared. nora knew what she had to do and she was willing to do it at any cost. âyou better get away before he kills you as he does with all his little whores!â
ânora!â
y/n had heard enough, she swiftly grabbed her coat and purse and made a beeline for the door despite her friendâs calls. frustration was building deep inside her, why had everything gone to shit in a matter of minutes? y/n slammed her hands down on the steering wheel multiple times before resting her forehead against the cool leather. when her mind drifted to jeff a new emotion emerged, fear. she was scared. Â
y/n knew she needed to confront jeff or it would eat at her alive, she wants to hear the words come from his own two lips before she made any rash decisions. meanwhile, nora had escaped the mob of anger girls and was standing behind the cafe with a burner phone pressed to her ear and a cigarette between her lips.Â
âhello?â a gruff, agitated voice answer on the other line.Â
âdo i just have the funniest story for you?â she was met with silence from the man. rolling her eyes she continued. âyou assigned me to keep on an eye on y/n after you two called it quits but youâll never guess whoâs bed she crawled into...wittek.âÂ
the sound of glass shattering course through the speakers, he was angry, very angry. âjeff wittek?! you had one fucking, nora! one job, how did you manage to fuck it up?âÂ
âitâs not my fault.â nora defended herself, she was not threatened but the anger pouring through the phone and she was not going to be blamed for something she didnât do. âi was finding out right along with her dumbass friends, apparently y/nâs not one to openly talk about relationships because itâs been going on for three months but guessing from her reaction when she found out, i donât think itâll last much longer.â
âif something happens to her because you couldnât keep your mouth shut, so be it, i will put a bullet in your head.âÂ
nora chuckled, blowing out a puff of smoke. âdonât joke around like that i might get excited.âÂ
âââ
todd met y/n at the front door of jeffâs overly large house, he offered y/n a genuine smile but it quickly fell when she didnât return the gesture and kept her eyes trained on the floor. âhey, are you okay?â he asked, reaching to rest a comforting hand on her shoulder but y/n hopped back before he could come into contact with her. todd took her weird demeanor and silence as a sign to go get jeff, he can always cheer her up.Â
y/n was terrified to even be in this house, so many awful things must have gone down on this very floor, so much blood. y/n wanted to vomit at the thought. noraâs words continued to fill her brain, how could she have been so clueless? why did she ignore every sign of danger? y/n shook her shook, trying frantically to think of what to say when she heard the footsteps approaching. jeff walked into the entryway with a pair of tan cargo shorts loosely hanging on his hips. he was beautiful, his dark hair and tanned skin, his eyes, his lips, her eyes wandered down to his toned abs. on any other day, y/n would be quick to pounce on the man, she was still urged to greet him with a kiss even after the newfound news.
âs-stop. stay there.â y/n tried her best not to stutter but nothing could have prepared her for this moment, she wished she would have stayed in the car and driven home but her brain never worked when she wanted it to. y/n held her hand up when jeff ignored her wish, taking a few steps back. âplease, jeff.â
âbaby, whatâs wrong? toddy said you seemed upset.â jeff whispered softly, in hopes of not pushing y/n farther over the edge.
âwhy didnât you tell me?â a sob fell through the girlâs lips, a sound jeff swore he never wanted to hear as long as he lived. his mind raked with confusion until he noticed the look hidden in her eyes, his girl was scared of him, practically shaking with fear. how had he let this happen? how did she even find out?Â
jeff took a slow stride towards her, putting his hands up in defense. âbaby, listen to me-â
âstop! donât lie to me again, i donât want to hear any more lies! i want the truth jeff!â y/n shouted, her body simultaneously stood a little taller on her toes until she remembers who she was talking to. y/n went into a frenzy apologizing to jeff, while still keeping her distance but he kept coming closer and she knew this was most likely the end for her. âiâm sorry, iâm so sorry, i-i- please donât hurt me.âÂ
jeff froze as he watched y/n break down in front of him, he watched in silence as his nightmares came true. âno, no baby.â he reached a hand out to her cheek, whipping away the tears as new ones took their place. âplease donât say that. i couldnât even imagine laying a finger on your precious body if it wasnât to worship every inch. i would never hurt you, ever. okay, y/n, do you hear me? now, tell me who told you.â
y/n sniffled, taking deep breaths at their close proximity. ânora did. she said y-youâd kill me once you were done with me.â her limbs felt numb and hollow, this was all too much. jeff cursed under his breath, looking down as he tried to make any type of connection but he had y/n pretty well hidden.Â
âi would never hurt you, i could never hurt you. please, please stop saying that, youâre breaking my heart over here,â he said.Â
âbut you hurt other people.â she whispered, a lump forming in her throat. âhow many people have you killed? how many people's lives have you claimed? whatâs to stop you from doing the same to me?â y/n rambled on, asking so many questions, too many questions, pumping more worry into her head.Â
âbecause i love you, goddammit.â jeff shouted, running his fingers through his hair, he watched in horror as y/n flinched away from him, snapping her eyes shut tight, awaiting the blow. âiâm sorry, iâm sorry, i just wish youâd listen to me. i love you, i really do. i wanted to make you my queen, we would lead together. i promise i was going to tell you.â
y/n shook her head. âwhatever made you think iâd want to do that?â before jeff could answer she raised her hand to stop him, y/n had heard enough. âi-i need time, this is all too much.â she stood up slowly and started backing away from the man towards the front door, y/n wanted to bolt away but she didnât know how he would react to that. by the time y/n made it to the door, she looked back a jeff to see toddâs hands on his chest. her heart broke but if he truly did love her jeff would let her think things through.Â
âmy dear y/n, i knew iâd be hearing from you soon enough.â
for the few days y/n had been with ricky she started to remember why she broke things off with him in the first place. he was obsessive, power-hungry, an asshole and he wasnât him. ricky wasnât jeff and as much as y/n wanted to deny it, she missed him greatly. maybe she was realizing she loves him but her mind couldnât shake the thought of who jeff really was and how he had lied to her for so long.Â
âgod, y/n, i told you no one could treat you better than i can and you went ahead and got involved with a fucking psychopath.â ricky ranted, lighting another cigarette before turning to y/n, eyeing her carefully. y/n knew what he was waiting for and thatâs exactly why she bit her tongue. ricky wanted y/n to defend jeff so he could spit a thousand more reasons why jeff is a horrible person and she was stupid for leaving him in the first place but she was not giving him the satisfaction. y/n was starting to realize calling ricky in the first place was a mistake, he clearly had gotten worse since she left; he took her phone, won't let her leave the house, monitors all her meals, and even controls what she wears. ricky was sick.
âmy sweet doll, you naive, pathetic precious being,â ricky brushed his fingers across y/nâs chin, scowling as she pulls away from his touch. he was right where he wanted to be, he not only had y/n in his clutches but he had something he could use to bring jeff down. âhow do you think i know so much about wittek?â he asked bitterly, the name burning his tongue as he spoke.Â
y/n's eyes widen in realization. âbecause you're just like him.â y/n spoke, defeat clear in her voice. while running from one leader she ran straight into the arms of another mobster, she now more than ever she could be back at home cuddled up with jeff on the couch not stuck in a prison with her crazy ex-boyfriend.Â
âno!â he shouted, slamming his fist on the wall. âi am nothing like him, iâm so much better. jeff wittek wishes he could be like me, lead like me, own what i have.â his eyes cast down to y/nâs frightened face, a wicked smile gracing his features. this wasnât the same ricky y/n used to know, he changed, became a violent version of himself. before he had always been obsessive and controlling but never once had he been violent towards y/n or anyone for a matter of fact.Â
âyouâre sick, ricky!â he would have thought she knew to keep her mouth shut but y/n was never one to bite her tongue. it infuriated ricky that she didnât fear him the way she feared jeff, when y/n first called him to pick her up her voice was trembling with fear. why wasnât she scared of him too? he was just as horrible as jeff, so he thought. ricky grabbed y/nâs arm, dragging her to the living room towards the stairs when a voice halted all movement in the room.Â
âitâs taking everything in me to not rip your throat out with my teeth.â jeff smirked at the ricky while basking in his frightened appearance. when he finally found out where y/n was, he went out of his mind, doing everything he could to formulate a plan to get her back or away from that psycho. it was supposed to go down two days from now but when jeff got a text from nora he knew he couldnât wait any longer to retrieve his girl.Â
rickyâs mouth opened and closed, he became a stuttering mess as he tried to form words. âh-how? what are you doing here?â he asked, his grip tightening. sure, he was scared shitless- heâd never actually seen or been face to face with jeff fucking wittek -but he wasnât going to back down just yet, everyone had a weakness and ricky seemed to have found jeffâs.Â
a chuckle could be heard from the mob boss. ânewbieâs, man.â he mumbled, turning to todd who had a fancy-looking gun pointed at the rookie. âtheyâre always so naive.âÂ
nora made her appearance next to ricky, shoving a needle in his neck before he could react. he slipped to the floor, the hand constricting y/n falling swiftly to the ground with the rest of his limp body. she yelped, jumping away from nora and rickyâs body. y/n was sure everyone in the room could hear her heartbeat rumbling in her chest, all eyes were on her and all y/n could do was stare blankly at them.Â
ây/n, come on.â nora coaxed the girl over to her side with a warm smile and a desperate expression, jeff narrowed his eyes as he watched the scene unfold. he knew nora wasnât completely loyal to him or the mob but he didnât think she would try and take y/n away from him after all heâs done for her.Â
âno, y/n come to me!â jeff countered, earning a highly confused look from the girl. jeff sucked in a sharp breath when nora lost her patience and wrapped her arm around y/n, moving her into a chokehold and pointed a gun to her head. both of the guys pointed their guns at the hostage and her capture, nora had officially crossed the line of his mercy and she would not be leaving this building alive. but before jeff or todd could do anything y/n nailed nora in the stomach, grabbed her arm and pulled it back causing her to drop the gun she held onto right into y/nâs awaiting hand. not a second later she hit nora in the head with the butt of the gun, knocking her out cold.Â
âgod, she was annoying.â y/n muttered, dragging her hand along her throat. when she finally turned to face the boys with a smirk matching their confused and perplexed expressions. âi can tell by the look on your face, you knew, didnât you.âÂ
âi prayed it wasnât true. ignored it because i loved you, y/n.â jeff said, balling his fist at his side. even aiming a gun at his girlfriend felt foreign, it felt wrong, like he was betraying her and himself at the same time. âafter your performance i didnât believe the rumors but i guess that was a lapse in my judgment, huh?â
y/n internally flinched at the jeffâs use of âlovedâ, she wished the could have met in another light, where they were free to fall in love and be normal- rather than stuck in the life of mobs and mafias. âloved? god, jeff, you both were my targets but somehow iâm gonna get on this helicopter only eliminating one.â she explained painfully, her life with the boy she cares for so much a mere spec now, the life she built was years gone with the simple wave of a hand. âi-i love you too and i wonât kill you, not now at least, baby. iâll send your regards to my father.âÂ
