forget about where we are and let go

lucy. she/her. 25. larrie. sometimes a writer (or a wannabe on ao3. whatever u call it) 🤍 seasons of love.

[notlivys]

happy anniversary to the band of my life. one direction was created 15 years ago, which means more than 13 years ago i learnt how to be a fan of someone – i learnt admiration. happiness, hope, excitement, tears of joy. there are so many words that come to mind whenever i even think of them.

i don't know much about love. real, deep love; the one that changes the world and reverberates in the skies. after all, i grew up being an introvert girl, not sure of who she loved, not sure if crushes were supposed to be on your girl best friend too, not sure if love was even supposed to be talked out loud.

once i met one direction some things changed.

ironically, after hiding my love all my childhood the feelings they were making me experiment left me no other choice but to be so loud about it. and being a fan is one of the few things i can always just try to put into words with no luck, because i always end up feeling like you just have to be one to understand - that's the kind of love and admiration that not everyone really knows.

so, ironically, after being silent about every single feeling all my childhood, i found myself screaming from the top of my lungs at a concert crying tears of joy.

the love i still harbor for my idols is the fuel that keeps me alive. i enjoy the warmth of listening to them, i enjoy how safe i feel in something as simple as laying in my bed to watch a video or two, how easy it is for me now (being an adult, with a life busier than my 12 year old self's) to just find a moment to listen to at least one song of the band that shaped my adolescence, comforting me, reminding me that i'm not alone nor passionless in this world.

one direction gave me friends, memories, experiences, a purpose. i spent more time of my life loving them than not doing so, that means i can picture them - a song, a melody, a name - on the background of every single important thing in my life, of everything i am today.

so i think i lie when i say i don't know much about love, for i have witnessed it in me.

i lie when i say i don't know much about it, because i think being here after all these years with this feeling in my chest is a sign of pure love.

i think of my idols – of one direction, as the kind of love that heals old scars and makes life worth living.

forever, boys <3

[madhavimudling]

Half Man FYC panel

Richard Gadd being asked on the homoeroticism between Ruben and Niall (with captions and transcript added)

Many thanks to @we-are-all-in-the-gutter for original video here. 🧡

Transcript:

Interviewer: And I think that that is part of what makes the tension between them so electric and the love between them so electric is that it has this something else that feels really uncomfortable as part of this relationship. Was that something that was sort of like IN the script? Was that something that you found in, sort of, the process of making it together? And I'm curious for the other actors like how Richard kind of explained these dynamics or talked through these dynamics with you or how you understood them.

Richard: Yeah. Well, it was certainly intentional that their relationship existed on a kind of subliminal plane of kind of… Homoeroticism may be too strong a word. It is homoerotic for sure. I think really, like the show… in a lot of ways is two men struggling to articulate their love for one another and their love for themselves. And I think one of the biggest things they're repressing, apart from… along with their past and their own sense of identity and sexuality, is the profound, like, adoration for one another and profound love. And it veers into a very strange place for the both of them. And I think that sometimes like if we look back on all the relationships we've had in life and we think about the defining relationships we've had, it's not always the relationships we've had that are pure and beautiful and giving. The relationships we look back on are the ones that are fraught and complicated and you feel deeply for someone and you don't really know why. There are people, you know, that time in my life that I haven't spoken to in 10 years that years that I still… in there somewhere. And I don't really know why.

And these two people form a sort of primal bond where like the best psychiatrists in the world couldn't get to the heart of what they feel for one another. And I think it does veer into, certainly for Niall, a sort of sexual lust. And for Ruben, it's a sort of like a… something similar, but a need to sort of dominate this innocence, this kind of almost like… envelop this man. So it certainly veers into like a primal place. But I think as human beings, like I think sometimes like my biggest issue with sometimes television and storytelling sometimes in general is that all the relationships are so clear and defined. You know human life and human behaviour is complicated. Even like the whole being here and the whole existence of life is so confusing. And I always try to bring that to the screen. I think that the most powerful relationships we have exist in the sphere of the unexplainable, and that's what I always try to get to with that. Ultimately their love for one another is… breaches a transcendental place that they're not even remotely capable of expressing.

[rylandgracie]

half man (2026) // interview with the vampire (2022-)

[nmorown]

[kingalicent]

what if i showed up on your wedding day like the personification of the angel of death that’s been haunting you for decades and you’re marrying a man whose face i permanently scarred so you can’t even look at him without thinking of me. and then i beat you up in a barn. what then.

[dedtobeginwith]

hdigh feels so much like that side of grief that makes you think about what it means to live a good life — one that is rich & goofy & brave & full of pleasure for the sake of pleasure just because you CAN, because even after everything you’re still HERE, & wow, isn’t that something to revel in?

[pop-punklouis]

WE ARE SO FUCKING BACK FOLKS

[queerxqueen]

byler aside, will and robin’s friendship and solidarity was so beautiful and so important and to see queer characters bond over their queerness and to have that queerness save the day in a major franchise is already so huge

[liamisperfection]

Thanks for all you've done, I've missed you for so long, I can't believe you're gone, You still live in me. And it's your song that sets me free. I'm glad it sets you free from sorrow, But I'll still love you more tomorrow.

Liam, I miss you dearly and I just cannot believe it has been a year already. It feels like it just happened but also like it happened a long time ago. Thinking about you and remembering you is now so often deeply tainted by negativity and sadness and that is not what you deserve. You deserve to be remembered for the joy you brought us, your energy on stage, your talent, your voice, your music. You lived for music and it was always so obvious and easy to see, even if it was just a livestream when you would randomly start to sing and cover the song better than it originally was or you being so knowledgeable about technical or creative decisions. No matter what I am sure you would have ended up on a stage, music was such a part of you. So here is me trying to remember your for your wonderful music.

I love and miss you Liam and I hate that I have to write that down. I will always remember you, xx.

companion piece | inspired by: X X X X X X

[whoreforlarrystuff]

Anne Twist shared this post to her Instagram stories in honor of Liam Payne on the 1 year anniversary of his passing

[sunflowervoltwentyeight]

If you want there to be a villain in the band so badly and want to pit them all against each other even a whole ass decade later, perhaps you just...don't really even like the band to begin with!

[louisplumpyass]

i watched the podcast, and the VERY first thing i would like to say is: go watch it. all this absolute foolery that has been happening around this podcast for ages now is absolutely ridiculous.

this is possibly the most gut-wrenchingly honest louis has ever, ever been. like, i can’t believe i’m saying this, but he has been far more open and honest about so many deeply uncomfortable parts of his life so freely and in a new light whilst respecting the parts that hurt him in the tragedy of it all.

i am speechless, but i have so much to say at the same time. i’ve said this before, and i will continue to say it till my absolute last breath: louis is the strongest person i have ever come across, and i say this whilst having an extremely tough life myself. he is still the same person he was back in one direction, when he released aotv, and now in this podcast. it’s just that he has so many versions of himself, but that doesn’t mean he has changed; he has only grown into this beautiful man whilst embracing it all.

that man is the testament of letting your vulnerability and weakness be your absolute fucking strength and to simply get up and brush off your bruises and keep moving even when everything feels impossible.

hear him out, and hear him out without any doubts or “oh, he must have spoken about this so fuck him, i guess.” because when that is done, it simply boils down to one exchanging this love as something that’s conditional.

the way his journey to success has been, multiple times that is, as he had to start from zero so many times is just, as always, so so so inspiring and brave. he is the bravest of all, even when things got/get so fucking impossibly difficult for him. he doesn’t let it define him. he only lets it make him stronger, and that’s unimaginably admirable.

please, i urge you to see him beyond the narratives. i say this for both him and harry. they are not characters in a movie; they are real people with a love they cannot express yet, or maybe they never will. and honestly, who am i, or who is anyone to be the judge of it? as i have said, this is not about us. it is never about us. it’s about them. and all of it eventually boils down to their individuality.

what a beautiful podcast, truly. i was in tears the whole time, just absolute love and respect for him. he is so so so loved by me, and i hope it is the same for most of us.

i’ll forever love him for who he is. like my goodness, i am so so so exhaustingly proud of him. i’d tear my heart open for him, he deserves nothing but the best of every fucking thing in this world.

it's just the beginning for him and all of us <3

[berrystainedsue]

28th september would be a good day to like another larry reel

[dailytomlinson]

Louis' Lemonade Recipe

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[notlivys]

Hola Lucy! Sólo pasaba a saludarte. Sé que no es gran cosa pero siempre que te veo en mis notificaciones te mando buenos deseos esperando que estes bien. Espero tengas una linda semana, te mando un abrazo. Feliz zouis day.

HOLAAAA CC 🥹🥹 si que es gran cosa!! me encanta verte en el inicio y siempre valoro tu presencia en el fandom <33

espero estes súper bien y tengas una linda semana tambien y obviamente seguir festejando toodo zouis 😌

[lizzylikescarrots]

i need someone to talk to about this

[berrystainedsue]