MEGA BITCH!

indie heather duke. movie based. by saint.

[nvyhthr]

to celebrate my birthday ,  IM  STREAMING  HEATHERS  IN  20  MINUTES !

[nvyhthr]

to celebrate my birthday ,  IM  STREAMING  HEATHERS  IN  20  MINUTES !

[groovybih]

yet another great day of being Manipulative™

[nvyhthr]

VERONICA :  GET  A  CLUE !

            ❛  As  if  she’s  not  for  everything  else.  What’s  the  worse  that  can  happen  ??  Some  frat  spills  a  drink  on  my  shoes  ??  ❜

              ‘  more  along  the  lines  of  a  bunch  of  drunk  assholes  thinking  you  owe  them  handjobs .  ‘       it’s  almost  jarring  how  non-chalantly  she  says  this ,   not  even  bothering  to  tear  her  eyes  from  moby  dick  to  answer  veronica .       ‘  which  you  do ,  of  course .  after  all ,  why  else  would  frats  hang  with  high school  girls ?       ‘    heather  finally  looks  up  to  lock  emerald  gaze  with  veronica’s .  ‘  take  my  advice ,  veronica -  don’t  go . ‘

[nvyhthr]

BLOG UPDATES :

      new  fc ,  new  psd ,   also  heather  is  trans  now  <3

[bxstxrds]

!!i need to be kissed !!!!!!! and wanted !!?!/??1!! and maybe even held?!!!?!!!! and then !!! kissed some more!!!!!

[nvyhthr]

‘  how  do  we  forgive  ourselves  for  all  the  tings  we  did  not  become  ?  ‘  -Martha

                  ‘  try  jumping  into  traffic  yet ,  porky ?  ‘    she  laughs ,  less  of  a  cackle  ,  more  a  girlish  giggle .    in  truth ,   she  has  no  idea  how  to  answer  the  question ,   &  it  is  one  she  ponders  near  constantly .   yet  if  she  were  to  be  seen  having  a  kumbaya  with  martha  dumptruck ,   she  might  as  well  take  her  own  advice !

[christianslater]

[nvyhthr]

VERONICA :   WHAT  A  FUCKING  HYPOCRITE !

as much as she wanted to leave heather alone, she could’t let what had just happened slide. earlier, heather chandler thought it’d be funny to poke at heather duke’s bulimia & although veronica helps enable the behaviour, she definitely wouldn’t allow others to make fun of it. quietly, veronica approaches her, sitting on the desk on the opposite side, sapphire eyes narrow in concern, dark brows furrowing.   “  heather, i know it’s easier said than done, but you shouldn’t let heather chandler make fun of you like that. what you’re dealing with is a SERIOUS issue & maybe you should see a doctor for that? my dad’s a doctor, maybe he can refer you to someone?  ”

              ‘  not  that  serious .  ‘     her  words  feel  underwater-  distant ,  as  if  the  syllables  were  lost  in  some  far  away  breath  of  wind .   but  it  isn’t  long  before  she  snaps  out  of  it ,  letting  the  calm  turn  to  energy ,  letting  the  resentment  boil  into  a  flash  of  anger .    ‘ who  put  you  up  to  this  anyways ?   we  both  know  you  don’t  fucking  care ,  &  you  won’t  ever  understand !  ‘     there’s  a  smile  across  painted  lips ,  sickly  sweet  in  an  effort  to  make  veronica  feel  the  sting  of  cavities .   ‘  not  all  of  us  can  have  a  fast  metabolism  &  a  pretty  face !  ‘

[nvyhthr]

           hey  guys  :)  you  ever  :)  think  that  :)  just  maybe  :)  the  reason  :)  heather  is  :)  so  apathetic  to  other  ppl’s  mental  health  problems  :)  is  that  no one  :)  really  gives  a  shit  :)  abt  her  openly  struggling  w  an  :)  eating  disorder  :)  and  most  people  :)  make  fun  of  her  for  it  :)  :)  :)

[prevvasilyevna]

THEY  FIND  HER  BEAUTIFUL  AS  THE  DAY  !    est  02.01.16,    est.  05.28.17.

[nvyhthr]

                    ‘  m ,   i’m  sorry  for  calling  so  late ,   i’m  just -  ‘     shaky  breaths  on  the  end  of  the  phone ,   surely  heather  can  hear  how  DESPERATE  every  inhale  feels .     ‘  i  threw  up  some  blood-    heather ,    i  don’t  know  what  to  do ,    my  parents  won’t  understand-    can  you  come  over ?    please ?   ‘     she  feels  weak  asking  for  help ,    but  who  else  will  be  there  for  her ?   /  @ylwhthr

[nvyhthr]

              ‘  i  don’t  want  to  talk  about  it-  ‘      she  turns  the  page  of  MOBY  DICK  ,   letting  her  green-polished  finger  linger  against  the page .       ‘  i  just  need  some  ME TIME ,  veronica .  ‘   /    @deadwalked

[nvyhthr]

JD :  WHAT A WASTE ,  OH THE HUMANITY !

                  ❛     it’s  a  word  wrapped  in  an  enigma,  heather     —     i  like  to  think  was,        uh  …  my  magnum  opus,  shall  we  say.  you  have  your  entire  afterlife  to  ponder  it,  do  your  english  teachers  proud.     ❜     singed  &  crooked  smirk  is  here  to  stay,  arms  splaying  to  present  burnt,  ETERNAL  vessel.         ❛     it’s  plain  to  see  that’s  an  understatement,         eh  ?     ❜    

                ' CLEARLY .  guess  you  weren’t  satisfied  with  going  out  with  anything  but  a  bang ,  some  people  can  be  so  dramatic .  ‘         a  pause-  duke’s  insides  would  have  threatened  to  spill  out  if  they  were  still  more  tender  pink  than  rotting  crimson .  though ,   at  this  point  in  her  afterlife ,   she  should  be  used  to  such  GROTESQUE  displays .      ‘   english  teachers  don’t  matter  here-  nor  do  PRETTY  GIRL  ACTS .  sad  that  heather  got  the  suicide  note  i  would  have  written ,  leaving  me  with  nothing  but  life  sucks .  still ,  i  doubt  anyone  would  have  suspected  anything  so  eloquent  from  me . ‘   seems  self-pity  can  indeed  persist  long  after  death !    ‘  speaking  of-  did  you  even  leave  a  note  ? ‘ 

[ylwhthr]

          ‘  if  everyone  jumped  off  a  bridge,    would  you  ?  ‘    ‘  PROBABLY.  ‘    /    independent  movie  -  based    heather  mcnamara,    written  by  charlie.    credit. 

[nvyhthr]

stop  pulling  on  my dick !   //  indie  &  selective  heather  duke  by  saint.

[nvyhthr]

20 STARTERS FROM LOVE LETTERS OR SUICIDE NOTES

adapted from doc luben’s amazing spoken word poem found here

'  don’t    freak    out.  ‘

‘  we    both    know  this  has  been  coming  for  a  long  time.  ‘

‘  i’ve  been  staying  awake  at  night,  wondering  if  i  should  tell  you.  ‘  

‘  i  bought  the  kind  of  crackers  you  can  eat.  they  are  in  the  hall    cupboard.  ‘

‘  now  that  we  have  watched  all  the  episodes  of  _____,  i  do  not  know  what  else  to  do  next.  ‘  

‘  i  always  imagined  this  would  happen  without  warning,  like  suddenly  on  an  ocean  cliff-side.  ‘

‘  this  is  the  kind  of  thing  where  waiting  for  the  time  to  be  right  would  just  mean  waiting  forever.  ‘

‘  iv’e  just  been  too  afraid  for  too  long.  ‘

‘  it  can  only  be  me  that  did  it.  ‘

‘  it’s  the  kind  of  thing  a  ghost  would  do,  to  prove  to  the  living  that  they  are  still  there.  ‘  

‘  i  am  haunting  my  own  home.  ‘  

‘  i  cannot  imagine  how  we  forgive  ourselves  for  all  the  things  we  didn’t  say  until  it  was  too  late.  ‘

‘  i  keep  imaging  my  furniture  in  your  apartment.  ‘  

‘  i  wonder  how  many  likes  this  will  get  on  facebook.  ‘  

‘  my  dad  always  used  to  tell  the  same  joke,  but  i  can’t  remember  the  punchline.  ‘  

‘  the  ivy  grew  too  fast.  ‘  

‘  how  can  something  be  there,  &  then  not  be  there  ?  ‘

‘  how  do  we  forgive  ourselves  for  all  the  tings  we  did  not  become  ?  ‘  

‘  i  wanted  them,  but  thought  they  were  too  brash.  ‘  

‘  i  knew  that  you  would  like  them.  ‘