i always was a facinating creature...

Ashley. 25. 🌴Palm Springs🌴 But I'm still everywhere and nowhere all at once. Here's some shit I like.

[o0helln0o]

So I’ve been working on a secret little project… It’s been brewing for a while now and I couldn’t keep it to myself for any longer😆 Here’s two of a few, I’m definitely enjoying how they’re turning out and can’t wait to make more! This is just the beginning✨

[o0helln0o]

[o0helln0o]

F'real, what's goin' on??

[wnq-anonymous]

One of the hardest things you will ever have to do, my dear, is to grieve the loss of a person who is still alive.

Anonymous (via wnq-anonymous)

[pir-ado]

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[o0helln0o]

When you're feeling down..

And you just can't shake the shift.. Just remember.. Pobody is Nerfect.

[o0helln0o]

Umm..

Is anyone else getting a massive amount of porno profile followers??? Back the fuck up yo.

[scumbabe]

There’s such an unfortunately common misconception about drug-users that I wish more people who have never had to deal with that struggle could understand.. It’s widely believed that we do drugs, simply because drugs are fun, and they make us feel good. But doesn’t it it say something more when a mother cannot stop using, even for the sake of her own child? Doesn’t it say something more for the husband who lies, and hides behind the back of his ever-loving, and ever-trusting wife? Doesn’t it say something when you contract Hep C or whatever else, and yet you’re still there, shoving water-shots into the veins that are weak, but will still take your dose? Sure, using drugs might be a fun past-time as a teenager, or even a young adult, but when you are crawling on your floor for 6 hours, desperately picking through each and every individual thread of your carpet, just to see if there was an off-chance that you dropped something, it’s not fun anymore. It’s not fun when you lose limbs to infections, and you still can’t stop using. It’s not fun when it interferes with your passions, and your relationships. People look at us with disdain and disgust when we feel the need to lie to hide our shame and guilt. We never want to hurt the ones we love.. some of us are doomed for life, while others find help in loving and accepting groups such as NA or AA, and they never pick up again. When you judge someone because they use, or because you see their scars or track-marks, you are drawing a conclusion of your own which is robbing another human being of the chance to change. When you shame an addict, please try to realize that you are criticizing someone who is likely suffering a pain you’ve never felt before, and never will. If you don’t know what it’s like to be an addict, you (hopefully) will never know the greatest struggle known to mankind. We aren’t just junkies, we aren’t just thieves, we aren’t just monsters out to corrupt your children and clutter up your sidewalks. Not all of us have the benefit of having healthy coping-mechanisms. You might not understand that the “junkie that got clean” is now suffering crippling anxiety and depression. You might not know that they are now becoming an introvert because they’re literally afraid of everything without their DOC.. You might not know that the recovering addict is too afraid to pursue a career, or a relationship without the comfort of their vice.. And you DEFINITELY don’t know the pain of an addict going through withdrawal, if you’ve never been there before. I personally would rather die than be sick ever again in my life. Bottom line, before you label someone a “junkie,” and treat them as if they have no worth, nor purpose in this life, maybe try considering what got them there in the first place, because I can guarantee you, they don’t hunt, and scheme, and steal every single day just to “feel good.” And if you simply can’t consider that, maybe just take your close-minded attitude and focus on politics like the rest of them. If you can’t even begin to understand someone’s pain, leave them the fuck alone.

[lavendergin]

[rohie-deactivated20191102]

those petals are actually blush…what a time to be alive

[cosmetic-central]

Um, amazing

[bionicunicorn]

[o0helln0o]

*Ashes blunt on your opinion*

[kushandwizdom]

I shiver, thinking how easy it is to be totally wrong about people, to see one tiny part of them and confuse it for the whole.

Unknown, (via kushandwizdom)

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[kushandwizdom]

When you realize that other dimensions of existence exist, you’ll never think of life, death, yourself, or in the Universe the way again.

HighConscious_ (via kushandwizdom)

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[o0helln0o]

Shiii, yeaaa😁

[searchingandunloading]

While going through shit...

You tend to realize how much shit you can legitimately take. And it’s not shit, it’s just a whole heap load of life lessons. And when we realize that, it will make us so much stronger and grow to be a better person to yourself and to others. Sometimes we have to hit what we define as “rock bottom” to realize that everything that happens to us is literally for a reason. For a lesson. To make us a better us. And some don’t realize this. Some just think, “ wow, this always happens to me!” or “ of course, this would only happen to me!” or “ why does this keep happening to me?”. It’s because you haven’t learned your lesson. You have to deal with it differently if ~omg it fucking keeps happening to you~ These lessons are ment for you and there is nothing thrown at you that you cannot handle. There’s a solution to every situation that you encounter.

I’ve just realized people complain so much. It’s so sad. It’s like every little problem they come across they are completely ignoring the lesson. That’s why this shit keeps happening to you. You failed at learning your life lesson. Which does not make you a failure, it’ll just keep happening to you so you can learn how to deal with it. Then “omfg why does this keep happening” turns into “oh its nothing, its happened to me before, no biggie” Then you proceed to deal. with. it.

If you learn how to deal with your biggest problems without getting frustrated or complaining constantly to everyone around you about it, then maybe it’ll stop happening. Or at least you can figure it out in a manner where you can actually get knowledge from it and not have it effect yourself and the people close to you.

Another thing a lot of people don’t understand and I had a HUGE problem with it myself, was consistantly word vomiting our problems to others. Everyone has their own level of problems and pain. But that doesn’t necessarily mean everyone you know needs to know every single problem and pain. Have you ever realized in the middle of telling someone your problem, they go into this void in their head racing through all of THEIR problems (or “get me outta this convo!”) Then either the conversation goes into this woe is me convo, then you end up with two depressed people talking about their problems, complaining about something they can fix. Or you get one person slowly wrapping their word rope around you and just dumps all their troubles onto you. Which is not fair if someone is just trying to be there and genuinely cheer you up or trying to make you look at the bright side but you continually insist that you tell them about how much pain you are in or what happend that one Friday night when you decided to go out with friends and everyone else had a great time but you. You’re just wasting time, dwelling on the negitive. What can you do to make the situation better, keep talking about it? Telling the same story 20 times to 20 different people? That’s not helping. You’re only digging yourself deeper into a sad world, that’s made up in your head.

We all have the power to change the negitive into a positive.

And we all have learned a grip of life lessons, just think about it.

[o0helln0o]

[deadpoolsbottombitch]

Shoutout to the people who:

-have symptoms that aren’t visible to others

-are able to function even while in extreme pain

-hide their illness well

-who don’t “seem sick”

-who have flareups at night or other times when no one else sees

-fight a daily battle that others can’t see

-feel like they’re making too big of a deal out of their illness because “it could be worse!”

I see you out there, I feel you, you’re awesome.