[ocd-room]

Intro

This blog was made with the purpose of sharing obsessive-compulsive disorder related posts.

warning: constantly searching for information about the disorder can be a symptom of ocd. If you find yourself feeling uneasy and bad while scrolling through this blog, I'd advise to take a deep breath and put down your phone. Be safe!

★ Main goal is to spread awareness and offer support for people with ocd!

★ I accept asks! Please, send asks sharing your experience with ocd, your vents or questions. Basically anything you wish to share, related to ocd.

Try to avoid reassurance seeking but if you aren't sure if your ask includes it or not you can send it anyway.

Important addition to ask rules

Anons are on.

★ Please note that I'm not a professional, just a person with ocd who wants to make a safe space for others like me. Everything I say is taken out of my personal experience and my own research and shouldn't be taken as an undeniable truth or actual medical advice.

★ People who don't have ocd are welcome here too. If you don't know or not sure if you have ocd or not, I still support you.

★ I'll try to tag every post accordingly to what type of ocd mentioned and anything that might be triggering. If I forgot to tag something, please tell me. If you need me to tag something, also ask.

★ English isn't my native language. I can make mistakes. It's not that serious.

I don't have dni but I block freely.

This is my sideblog. Main blog @magpiegutted

My pronouns — it/she/he. You can call me Magpie or Soroka.

List of anons sign offs below

Every tag follow the structure 'room anon sign off'

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[sweetpea67]

I don’t think most Tumblr people are intentionally trying to hurt anyone with moral OCD when they make posts that say things like “even after you apologize you should continue to think about how terrible you were and never forgive yourself” and “meditate constantly on your ability to do harm” and “if you don’t reblog this you’re part of the problem” and “you yes you are not doing enough for the cause” but it sure as hell is a real common side effect.

[what-even-is-thiss]

It’s so annoying when I say I have an irrational fear or a phobia and people try to logic me out of it. I just told you that it’s irrational.

[ocd-room]

Meanwhile this blog almost got 200 followers

This is genuinely a lot to me, considering I didn't even think this blog would get more than 20 followers when making it!

This week is my birthday week and I couldn't ask for a better present. I am really happy that I'm able to help people.

Usually I dread my birthdays but in the end it's just another day that means that I survived.

In my life I had really bad days. Really bad ocd flare ups. Days and days that I would waste on fear and rituals. But I'm still here. And despite all that I still have happy moments.

So whoever is struggling right now — you are seen. You can get through this. Let's do this together, okay?

[bubblebaath]

filthy

[foldedchip]

The most helpful things I learned while recovering from OCD that might help you if you are in the recovery process:

My worst fear coming true in real life was less unpleasant than the anxiety and panic attacks I had been struggling with every day just THINKING about my worst fear. When it actually happened, I rated the worst fear as a 4/7 discomfort, and a really bad mental health day as a 7/7.

Having a few rough days did not mean that all was lost and I was at the bottom again. Recovery isn’t linear and setbacks are normal and should be expected, even years after recovery. It does not mean that you’re starting all over and it isn’t a sign that something is going wrong.

I was not capable of letting a lot of things go when I first started treatment. It would have been like asking someone with a broken leg to run a 10k. Letting things go takes time and exercise when you’re struggling with OCD, just like healing and strengthening a broken leg takes time and exercise. Start as small as you have to and advance to bigger things. You can get very strong if you keep practicing, and you will feel a huge positive difference in your day-to-day life.

Every time you push against what your OCD wants you to do, you get a little stronger. The strength adds up and it is crucial for getting out of the OCD cycles and living a better life.

Feeling anger at myself and hating my thoughts and fears didn’t change them. I wasn’t wrong to feel that way, but it didn’t make any positive difference, it just felt bad. What actually made things better was acting in opposition to my obsessive thoughts and doing the exact things I was afraid of doing.

Magical thinking compulsions are just as harmful to the brain as physical compulsions. I had to realize when I was using magical thinking, and then purposefully act in opposition to it. This was very tricky but I was able to do it with practice and guidance from an OCD therapist.

Not every therapist is trained to help someone recover from OCD. Different therapists have different specialties and areas of experience, and a treatment that works well against a different disorder could be unhelpful against OCD.

If you’re recovering from OCD right now, whether you’ve just started or you’ve been working hard for a long time, I hope at least one of the things I learned can help you out. You are really brave for deciding to push against this force that has taken over your life, and you are not alone in your pursuit <3

[ocd-room]

Sometimes I wish I had no thoughts at all

[the-bar-sinister]

"I need to stop starting fandom projects so I stop disappointing people."

it's okay to disappoint people

it's okay to work slowly

it's okay to let yourself rest

it's okay to drop projects

Stop treating yourself like you are the workers at a fast food franchise.

Your writing is a hobby, don't let it turn into a source of guilt, shame and frustration instead of a source of joy.

[bpdmutt]

being self-aware but still unable to change your own reactions is such a uniquely miserable experience

[this-is-neuropsych-ableism]

"Its illegal to be straight during pride month!"

"If you think hateful thoughts about yourself, and you're queer, that's queerphobic, and it's illegal to be queerphobic during pride month!"

How about we not make straight queers* feel guilty and paranoid about being "not queer enough" during pride month? (*Aspec straights, trans & gender diverse straights, intersex straights, lesbihets, turihets, m-specs straights, polyamorous hets, nonrose hets, etc, etc, etc?)

How about we not make people with internalized queerphobia feel guilty for intrusive thoughts?

How about we stop making a billion posts encouraging moral OCD during pride month?

[PT: How about we stop making a billion posts encouraging moral OCD during pride month? /End PT]

[ocd-room]

It's okay to not know who you are. Take a deep breath. Uncertainty isn't the end of the world, even when it feels like it. You don't need to figure out everything.

[ocd-room]

I’m a creator, I’m an artist, writer, actress, etc. I haven’t made it big yet. I want to. I want to put my work out there.

But I have made mistakes in the past.

When I was in high school, the cost of these mistakes (usually an accidental overstep of boundaries or a misinterpreted situation or just displaying ND traits) was social ostracization. My former friends spread rumors about me around school so nobody wanted to be friends with me. I was a social outcast for things that were simple mistakes or just being autistic.

I was accused of sexually abusing a friend because I hugged her and acted flirty with her when we’d been play flirting for months. I was accused of being a transphobe because I stumbled often learning my partner’s they/them pronouns. I was accused of being abusive for playfully punching people in the arm. I was forced into an intervention groupchat where all my “friends” joined forces to tell me how bad of a person I was and how they didn’t want to be friends with me anymore.

On top of that, I grew up in an environment where I was rarely given the benefit of the doubt. Any misstep had to be actively malicious on my part. Other kids, teachers, even my parents always assumed I was the one causing problems for no reason.

And with being introduced to social justice through tumblr and learning through shame, it’s no wonder I developed moral OCD.

Along with being a Vivziepop fan and seeing people bring up stuff she did or said like 10-15 years ago as a “gotcha” and constantly harassing her and her fans about it… Yeah.

I have this deep, debilitating fear that when l finally put stuff out under my real name, when I finally gain traction, those same people who smeared me all those years ago are going to come out of the woodworks again. And nowadays, with the lack of nuance and critical thinking skills among the general population, I fear being harassed and made a pariah for every single mistake I’ve ever made.

I already got chased off tiktok basically because I said “hey saying you want/someone should get an abortion specifically because the kid might have a non-life threatening disability like Down’s syndrome is ableist actually” and people accused me of being a Trump supporter and a pro-lifer.

I’m so, so worried about all of this coming up again. I’ve even tried drafting a post to pin as an overarching apology/repentance for all my missteps. I’m so afraid of putting myself out there now because of this.

I’m not seeking reassurance because I know it’s bad, I’m just seeking a place to throw all this. Maybe this is my apology? I dunno. It’s nice to have a dumpster for this.

I'm really sorry you're going through that!

It's worth noting that often apologizing and writing out what seems to be your wrongdoings can also be a compulsion. I'm not trying to shame you or anything! Just a gentle reminder that it's your ocd talking and you don't need to constantly ask for forgiveness, especially not from people who doesn't have to do anything with those situations in the first place.

[goth-queen]

[openmindpsych]

believe it or not orientation OCD is not about being homophobic or biphobic or whatever it's about not being sure of your identity. you don't have to hate gay/bi people to be distressed by the idea of not knowing who you are and not being able to figure out such an important part of your life and identity. truly it's not about other people, it's about the fear of uncertainty, just like all OCD

[thelatestkate]

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[we-laid-with-it]

"queerness is often medicalized and pathologized, which can lead to queer people being isolated from the community (especially trans and aspec people)" yes, that's true and valuable to discuss!!!

"yeah lmao like what even is 'gender identity/sexual orientation ocd', sounds like a closet case to me" hey. hey, we don't have to be ableist. in fact, we can even let disabled people (such as people with ocd) discuss it amongst themselves!! wouldnt it be nice to listen to them? and wouldnt it be extra nice to not talk about things you're not at least a little bit informed on???

[thattripleabattery]

This is a threat