1. laughing, as friends, "i love you" but no homo, of course im not serious, of course not like that, of course this is how its supposed to be, two girls cant be in love, denial denial denial
2. silently, to yourself in bed, crying and wishing it wasnt true, all the built up feelings coming over you in waves, you feel like youre drowning and you wish you were, pain pain pain
3. scared, shes here, "i have to admit something" but its stuck in your throat, forcing it out with all your might and hoping she wont tell anyone, youre alone but for how long, fear fear fear
4. reciprocated, shes still here, looking at you with wide eyes as the words leave her mouth, youre not alone with this, she feels the same way and finally the world doesnt seem so scary anymore, relief relief relief
5. open, youre in public and you havent said it yet, not like this, not with others around, but its time, its time they know, "i love you and im not ashamed of it", "everyone can know", pride pride pride
6. casually, its become your habit, "i love you and its a big deal but saying it isnt scary anymore", you let her know whenever you can, at the breakfast table, youre together and you know and its good, happiness happiness happiness
7. in awe, its the big day, youre finally where little 11-year-old you always wished she could be, at the altar, and she's here, too, looking at you with eyes full of love, and you say it and she says it and this is forever, forever forever forever
