Anjell

Filipina || 17

[nevver]

Stray light, Clarissa M Bonet

[ohartanghel]

hey, i’m questioning my worth again.

[shaxza]

every damn day

[memeuplift]

[cinematv]

Howl’s Moving Castle (2004) | dir. Hayao Miyazaki

[hella1975]

I love that hugging and hand-holding is a thing. like humans really looked at our bodies and went ‘when I move like this and you move like that we fit against each other and it makes me feel nice :)’ like how fucking wild is that

[kataflush]

[ohartanghel]

Today....

I feel like shit

I look like shit

and

I’m fucking shutting y’all

[ohartanghel]

an internet friend of mine died today.... it’s morning and it was the first thing i saw on fb : ( 

[mamamutual]

u dont have dark circles u have normal fucking eyes and u dont have acne u have normal fucking skin

[mamamutual]

undereyes are not naturally bright. stop letting the beauty industry tell u you look sleepy for having a normal fucking face. skin is not blemish or texture free. stop letting the beauty industry tell u you have bad skin bcs its not as smooth and shiny as glass

[ohartanghel]

January

Am I okay?

No.

Will I be okay?

Yeah.

I guess so.

I hope so.

[helenasurvives]

i am asked about my favorite color.

i am seven

and my reply is

pink

because i am a girl

and pink

is a princess color.

i am asked about my favorite color.

i am ten

and i like

green

because a boy told me that pink

is lame and girly.

i am asked about my favorite color.

i am thirteen

and i tell them

purple

it is unique and spunky

like i want to be.

i am asked about my favorite color.

i am seventeen

and i just say

red

i do not say

it is bright and angry at the world

as i am

i cannot form the words to express

all of my frustrations

so i paint my lips with

rage.

i am asked about my favorite color.

i am twenty

and it’s pink

i remember the joy

of being a child

i reclaim the freedom

of femininity

because i cannot remember

what my shoulders felt like

before the depression

hung from them.

i am asked about my favorite color.

i am twenty-six

and my answer is

brown

it confuses most people

they don’t see it

they may think of dirt

and dust

and dead things

but it is coffee with friends

and the chocolate chip cookies

my mom used to make.

it is my hair

and my eyes

amber and gold

in the sun

and i love myself

again

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[ohartanghel]

yes, i hate random sad days...

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

being at war with yourself is exhausting. don’t ever think for a second that your pain isn’t valid, that it isn’t real or that people who don’t understand get to tell you whether it hurts or not. also know that i believe in your ability to survive this and anything else, everything else.

[dilfosaur]

i noticed my burnout comic was making rounds but the full comic is no longer available after the collegehumor website went offline…. so here it is!!!

i wrote/drew this back in 2018 when i was struggling w hella burnout and depression. i hope everyone is taking care of themselves :3

[ohartanghel]

i never knew i needed this :((( 

[flowerais-deactivated20211031]

things that will happen to you:

you will find a new song that you can play on repeat when you can’t sleep

new people will come into your life unexpectedly and make everything better

you will get good grades, graduate and find a job that you like

your heart will heal and you’ll slowly learn to manage the pain

good things that will make you v happy to be alive

[depressed4dayz]

Speaking it into existence

[yourlover-x-deactivated20220903]

x

[ohartanghel]

don’t ask the obvious pls