[oldwitchbitch]

i have no fucking energy left. the depression has taken it all.

[oldwitchbitch]

i don't want to die. I just want to be someone else.

[oldwitchbitch]

i do not deserve love and happiness. i do not deserve to be cared for. my mother was right all along. i deserve nothing but the pain and misery i pass on to others, whether i can control it or not.

[oldwitchbitch]

TW FAKE BLOOD

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CW. SFX make up

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trying to go deeper. go knows how long it has been since i last cut.

[oldwitchbitch]

cant wait to go home so i can slice through my skin like cake <3

[thisuserisgonesorry]

when you're having a hard time and trying to reach out for support and suddenly you're a child again hearing "i'll give you something to cry about"

[honeypleasejustkillme]

how i sleep knowing im lonelier than i've ever been and i do it to myself by never texting anyone back or talking to them because im terrified

[svnflowerdreams]

i know i’m annoying. i know i’m not important. silly to ever think otherwise :/

[oldwitchbitch]

i wake up every morning asking why the fuck i am still here.

[smiertelnieprzeznaczona]

that was me at the age of 12

[ana-butnot-pro]

rel

[exxitialiss]

[oldwitchbitch]

i just want to say goodbye and do it, but i know no one will miss me. They'll just be angry at my timing.

[oldwitchbitch]

its getting harder to convince myself im okay. on the outside to everyone else i seem to be getting better but everyday i get closer to ending it. I'm lonely. so lonely. i dont want to be here, i don't want to carry on, i don't want to wait for it to get better.

nothing lasts forever, and that includes me.

[disgustinggf]

[oldwitchbitch]

if you'd have told me 6 years ago, i would still be feeling the same pain, having the same thoughts, wanting the same ending all these years on, i would have ended my life then and there.

but there were always promises, hope, false hope of recovery, and a better life. yet here we are nearly 7 years down the line and not even a glimpse of change. no matter what i do, this feeling never leaves. I've tried and tried for all this time and i think its finally getting too much.

[oldwitchbitch]

I think I was a mistake. I'm not made for this world. Life goes on, but I just drag behind. People can try to pull me along, but they let go because they have to. If they didn't, I'd drag them down too. I'm not made for this world. I was a mistake.

[oldwitchbitch]

I'm so tired