Kevin

my personal sideblog ◾ disability and politics mostly ◾@orbityyxy is my main ◾ yes my username says lola but my name is kevin

[orbitlola]

Having an undercover smart af gf is so fun at times. I show people pictures and they're like "so pretty" and I hit them with "she quite literally is the star student of her grad program"

[stillfuckingtired]

Me lying down: I feel pretty much fine. What am I doing lying around? I should get up and do something. Or at least sit upright, damn.

Me when I’m upright: oh, Jesus. Oh, damn. Oh, RIGHT—this is why I was lying down.

[orbitlola]

I only have three coping skills: substance abuse, unsafe sex, and self-infantalization !!!

[orbitlola]

First wlw heartbreak really is worse than they say

[choccy-sippy]

Like a dog inspires a rabbit

[two-wizards-in-a-trench-coat]

i think a lot of poeple think of racism and sexism as something you have to actively opt in to perpetuate rather than something you have to continuously actively opt out of if you want to maybe help dismantle it

[cungadero]

i hate viruses so fucking much. literally getting attacked by a fucking shape. a concept. consumes no energy. responds to no stimuli. its only existence is to fuck with you. like fuck offf

[thrice-the-nobling]

prev's tags are too good not to save

[orbitlola]

no I'm not in pain everyday, only the days I actually move!

[dysphoria-things]

fuck self care. start taking care of your friends

[dysphoria-things]

originally, self care was “help yourself so you can help others” and “help yourself when no one else will help you”. and that’s still important. but with the only ways we can take care of ourselves now being isolating yourself by buying a little treat and doing skincare and being in bed alone, you’re not going to feel better when you ultimately don’t have that support system when you need it.

and it doesnt start with everyone else helping you when it’s your turn to suffer.

it means noticing your friend is having a long day and bringing them a coffee. it means cooking a few freeze-able meals for your friend who just had a c-section and cant cook full meals. it means going to a protest and checking in on the person who got thrown to the ground. it means carrying bandaids and ibuprofen. it means having a really long day but calling your friend who just moved because they dont have anyone to tell about their new shitty dishwasher. it means getting narcan training. it means studying with that stranger from your class that just cant get it. and then it can mean texting your coworker that you’re going to be late, please cover for me. it can mean knowing someone on the bus will help if you drop your stuff and are struggling to get it all back. it means when you have that long day or week or month and cant get up, your friends will take care of you

[orbitlola]

people: omg your body is tea

me: thanks, im scared to eat because of unbearable stomach aches

[the-furthest-city-light]

[orbitlola]

can't kill myself, got some bitches to outlive

[orbitlola]

girlfriend is mad at me , might need to kms

[orbitlola]

having trauma from bullying is crazy , like some fuckass 10 year old decided I was less than and I never recovered 😭

[treehutbird-deactivated20251121]

The devil DID reach me

[orbitlola]

that 22 year old realization that the mental illness is not going away and will be ruining the rest of my life

[wheelie-sick]

this is why I don't believe people when they say they dislocate joints 8,000× a day. I don't think they're lying, I just think they're wrong.

if this was true you would have some wild tissue & nerve damage. you would be in and out of urgent care- they would know you by name. yes, you can sometimes learn to relocate joints yourself but it's super fucking hard to actually do that (and sometimes impossible)

but like

I have less than 50% of the cartilage beneath my kneecaps left and I have only had one major dislocation and many smaller ones (certainly not every day). if you were dealing with daily dislocations then you would have serious osteoarthritis and would be looking at joint replacement.

joint makes popping sound ≠ dislocation or subluxation

[rexmanda]

i think alphonse would still experience depersonalization and dysmorphia even after getting his body back