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matthew | they | mental health blog

[medleysystem-deactivated2019070]

@all​ did/osdd alters

you’re really amazing and thank you for existing 

i know that the main reason you came to exist isn’t exactly a good one, but you’re here and you’re making the best of it

[adhdshiba]

[ryabbbb]

[paked-botato]

Your abuser’s past trauma and mental health problems do not excuse their treatment of you. The validity of both your experiences are not mutually exclusive. Abuse doesn’t take place inside a vacuum, and the shit they went through/are going through does not minimize the pain they’ve caused you.

[mentalchillness]

psychiatrist: are you feeling suicidal today? me, not a fool, knowing damn well i’ll get hospitalized if i answer truthfully: no, feeling better lately actually :)

[buddhaprayerbeads]

A simple mental health pain scale.

[southernbitchface]

I’m so thankful this exists. I think that many people with mental health issues (myself included) downplay what they’re going through.

I’m an 8 right now. If I hadn’t seen this chart tonight I’d keep denying my struggle. Now I have to face it.

[angrysurvivorofcsa]

I was so small…

[alter-madness]

Does anyone else ever switch but they still feel like the host so all you can think about is am I faking it all?

[0deerling0-inactive]

If you’re one of those people who thinks executive dysfunction only happens for things we don’t like (school, cleaning,) then please consider the fact that I’ve been meaning to plug my phone in for 20 minutes and I’m now at 2% and still putting it off to write this post ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[hawkeyedflame]

My anime/video game list consists of over 100 titles, easily, and yet I almost never get around to watching/playing any of them.

Executive dysfunction is not just for boring or unenjoyable things. It’s for everything. Even eating.

[biphobicerasurer]

What is executive dysfunction? O.o

[hawkeyedflame]

Put simply, it’s difficulty/inability with initiating tasks. The prefrontal cortex is responsible for executive functions, like decision-making and impulse control. People with ADHD and other neurological disorders that affect the prefrontal cortex often experience difficulty making decisions and performing tasks, as well as exercising self restraint. Part of why people with ADHD tend to procrastinate so badly is out of genuine inability to begin tasks, even if they’re very important.

It feels, for me at least, like I’m constantly waiting for something and I can’t start X task because I’m waiting. I never know what exactly I’m waiting for, but that doesn’t stop me from wasting hours and days not doing the things I need to do, even if I have a desire to do them.

[ewanmrozny]

It feels, for me at least, like I’m constantly waiting for something and I can’t start X task because I’m waiting. I never know what exactly I’m waiting for, but that doesn’t stop me from wasting hours and days not doing the things I need to do, even if I have a desire to do them.

Oh thank god, someone put it into words.

For me it’s also waiting for the “right” time to come to complete the task because for some reason my brain thinks doing the task at any other time is horribly, horribly wrong, weird, and out of order. The “right” time might come eventually, might not. It’s a lottery.

[lady-feral]

Yeah.  This.

[silvermoonphantom]

Y’all make it sound so deep but tbh to me it feels like tapping on the ‘Do the dishes’ button but a screen pops up saying ‘you must be lvl 27 to do this activity’ and I’m like ‘well shit I’m only lvl 26 so I guess I’ll just dick around until my exp goes up 

And then next time I tap ‘do the dishes’ it demands I’m lvl 28 and by that time it’s getting a bit moldy and I’m just staring furiously at this pile of dishes, slapping the ‘Do the Dishes’ button to no avail. The stars aren’t in position. 

The stars are never in position.

[cumaeansibyl]

sometimes there’s a Just Fucking Do It special move available but it depletes your entire power bar and the recharge speed is completely unpredictable

[goodbye-risperdolly]

Too mentally ill to be “normal,” too good at faking functionality for people to take my issues seriously.

[cruzh-the-world]

Where’s hyperfocus when you need it?

[arthurmorgansbride-deactivated2]

i like when ppl reblog posts “so&so just did this by taking adderall” and its usually an amazing or wild feat and i just gotta say, as someone with adhd. this is why my insurance doesnt cover adderall. this is why adderall is classified as a narcotic in my state. im glad yall are havin fun abusing meds i need to live. hope it was worth it.

[arthurmorgansbride-deactivated2]

this post is okay and encouraged to reblog bc yall keep turning a blind eye to this nonsense

[kateinator]

Other people: only kids can have adhd!!! Adults don’t have it!!!

My ADHD ass: wow, I’m cured, it’s a goddamn miracle

[adhighdefinition]

fixed it

[shadowthephoenix-deactivated201]

Suicidal people deserve better than to be told the main reason they shouldn’t kill themselves is because of how it might effect others. Suicidal people deserve love and help, not guilt trips. Suicidal people deserve to feel like their life is worth living, for their own sake… for their own happiness, their own experiences, their own possibilities, their own future.

[tullipsink]

why do i feel like i am so hard to love

[autistickryptonian-deactivated2]

[uchanda]

therapist: how was your week?

me: mm.. i can’t remember