okay so i have no idea how to fuckin request things, butcha asked for s&b requests so here i am. literally ANYTHING with nikolai. maybe comfort sex? idfk. i just love that man to death and will gladly take anything. afab is preferable. thanks :)
I like you, youโre forward
(afab reader, fighting, sexual themes)
โIโm so sick of this Nikolai!โ You shouted, slamming the large white door of the bathroom. You and your husband had been fighting more than usual, and there was a list of reasons why.
โDonโt you dare run from me.โ Nikolai demanded, following you to the bathroom at the same pace you were fleeing his presence. He couldnโt quite catch up, his body colliding against the front of the door once you shut him out. โDammit!โ He cursed, taking a stiff hand and raking it through the top of his hair in frustration. โYouโre driving me mad..โ he mumbled, but you could hear it through the door.
โMad? Iโm driving you mad?โ You scoffed, your eyes growing wide as a fire ignited in your chest. โHow am I supposed to feel when my husband, my dear sweet husband is always off somewhere taking care of other people?โ You asked him as if heโd know the answer to your question.
โWhat do you mean?โ He asked, exasperated and taking the hand that had tried to soothe out his honey blonde locks and bringing it to do the same to his face. He rubbed his skin, stopping at the bridge of his nose as he sighed.
You felt tears well up, how does he not understand? It all seemed so obvious to you, every single time he would return home from being away youโd be curled into a ball inside your shared bed. Dried tears on your face and the white shirt he wore so much clutched to your chest. Maybe he didnโt notice, you tried to comfort yourself by begging your brain to believe that maybe heโs just as upset as you. Maybe he wonโt show it. Or maybe he just doesnโt care. Thatโs when the tears began to fall, your cheeks stinging with the heat of anger.
โWhen you leave I-โ your sentence was cut off by a sob, which scared the living hell out of Nikolai because now he knew you were crying.
โLet me in.โ Nikolai demanded, his voice sounding calm, but on the other end of the door he was erratic with his wide eyes and palms splayed out against the wood of the door.
โFucking let me in.โ He cursed, emotion slipping through into his voice. You knew he was panicked. There was guilt in your stomach for scaring him, but then anger came after that because it wasnโt your fault he had hurt you. You brought your hand to the knob, twisting and unlocking the chain that held it shut tight. Once you opened the door he seemed to almost appear inside the bathroom so fast you got dizzy when he wrapped his arms around you. He enveloped you, his body connecting to yours like some kind of shield.
โTell me.. When I leave, what?โ He asked, questioning the sentence you began but cut yourself off from. You finally gave in, resting your cheek against his chest, listening to his wildly beating heart.
โWhen you leave.. I hear all these things from the maids in the palace. They say when you leave me so often that-..โ You couldnโt possibly say it, the very words would rip your lips into shreds. Nikolai would never kiss you then.
โWhat. Do. You. Hear.โ He spoke through gritted teeth, his hands that were gripping your waist tightened. Nikolai heard a plethora of rumors about himself, some were more believable than others, but he had a sickening feeling about where this was going.
โThey say you sleep with others.. They say you have someone in every kingdom..โ you admitted, your heart skipping a beat. You were right. You wanted to rip your mouth from your face, you wanted to throw away your voice and promise to never speak again if it meant youโd never have to say something like that once more. Nikolai didnโt react in the way you thought. He didnโt pull away and deny any of the rumors that you both swore werenโt true. He knew no matter what he said it wouldnโt change what others whispered into your ear as they tightened your corset or tailored your hair. You were his queen, of course, and everyone else wanted under that crown.
Nikolai brought his hands to cup your cheeks, wiping a tear from your eye with his thumb so delicately you wondered if he was afraid to break you.
โPromise me you wonโt listen to them.โ He asked of you, his voice soothing out into a calm whisper. His beautiful eyes were looking down into yours, the eyes that always seemed to be full of ambition and fearlessness. They were full of guilt now, sadness replaced the usual crystalline color.
โPromise me that whatever they say youโll shut out.โ He spoke again, tilting your chin up to look at him even more deeply.
โAnd that you donโt believe a word that comes from their mouth.โ
All you could do was nod, and when he kissed you it almost knocked your feet from under you. It was full of passion, full of regret for everything you had to endure just being his wife. You clutched his jacket, the fabric pooling in your fists as you tugged him closer. Nikolai met your wishes with a step forward, pressing his body against yours.
โDo you need me to remind you who I married?โ He cooed, crowding your form back until you were pressed against the wall. The coldness of it sent a chill up your spine, so you gasped, but Nikolai covered your mouth to keep you from making anymore noises.
You could feel yourself go warm with slick, your cheeks heating so much you wondered if Nikolai could feel it under his palm. You nodded, compliantly, and then he smiled wickedly as he hoisted your leg up around his waist. He pressed his core against you in a way that made you squirm for more, but you know heโd give it to you. He always did.
โLet me show my absolute adoration for my queen..โ
