there's a zine i want to make about my thoughts on being fat & non-medically-transitioning trans BUT that latter bit is a really cumbersome collection of words & it's tripping me up. the thing is i'm not sure there's anything shorter because this is not a cohesive identity, it's just a circumstance - sometimes it's a choice, sometimes it's not, sometimes it's a forever thing & sometimes people decide / are able to do some medical transitioning later. but imo it might be useful to be able to refer it (neutrally!) as a state of being.
i've seen people say "non-transitioning" but i think that's not an accurate term at all. medical transition is not the only kind of transition. it used to be more common to see folks identifying as "non-op" but in my experience that had more connection to trans women & was purely about surgery rather than HRT
of course there is the (often loaded) distinction "transsexual" for medically-transitioning trans people, vs....well, usually "transtrenders" or "tucutes" or "theyfabs" (i am unaware of an equivalent pejorative for AMAB non-binary people) or whatever inane term is being used currently to refer to a very diverse group of people as if we're all attention-seeking teenagers who have never experienced transphobia or violent gender policing. & i don't begrudge anyone the use of the term transsexual, it DOES make sense (you are literally changing your sex characteristics) & it makes cis people uncomfortable which is always fun, it's just that particular usage of it as the only Real kind of trans that you have to watch out for
anyway. me as a trans person not medically transitioning has to do with SO MANY THINGS including my particular (lack of) gender experience, my history of medical abuse, my chronic illnesses & disability, what i would want from HRT (there are a couple of things) vs. what i would realistically get, aaaaaaand the fact that i am fat & have spent considerable years working on my relationship to my fat body, which impacts both how i feel about the "sexed/gendered" fat on my body (including my breasts, hips, etc.) & also my ability to access things like top surgery if i felt differently.
these are things i want to be able to talk about & maybe connect with other trans people around, without being accused of trying to "take away trans healthcare" from Real Transsexuals :') which is really fucking rich. but people's "this is the fault of non-binary people" response was truly so fucking fast the last time a major anti-trans healthcare ruling came down. i hate it here
