Pages from the Book I Never Wrote

The Dyslexic Poet | Mental Health Advocate | LGBTQ+ Friendly

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reblog with the tv show ur parents wouldn’t let u watch when u were younger in the tags i’ll start mine was married…with children

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@ literally everyone reblogging this post what the FUCK was happening on ed, edd, & eddy

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The Fairly Odd Parents and Johnny Bravo!

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If a woman is sexually harassed in the woods, but doesn't take legal actions, does the sound of them telling you it happened fall on deaf ears?

Yes, apparently so.

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Unsolicited dick pics are like the dead mice your cat brings home. No ill intention, he’s all proud and looking for approval, but yuck, no thanks.

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Pride Month Affirmation:

EVEN 👏IF 👏YOUR 👏ASEXUALITY 👏IS 👏A 👏RESULT 👏OF 👏OR 👏INFLUENCED 👏BY 👏TRAUMA, 👏YOU 👏ARE 👏STILL 👏A 👏VALID 👏ASEXUAL.👏

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What I should be doing: sleeping

What I’m actually doing: not the fuck that

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I'm sorry that I'm more than you signed up to love.

I should have warned you.

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I Need Help Tracking down a Video

TW: suicide mention

There was a LGBTQ+ video/short film circulating that showed a gay/queer teenage boy getting caught putting on makeup by his father who is a pastor. His father forced him to go to conversion therapy, which ultimately led to the son attempting suicide by hanging himself in his closet before being found by his dad in the last minute. Then the video totally rewinds and instead it plays out with the father accepting his son and why it's important to do that for your LGBTQ+ child unconditionally.

There was a SONG in the background of this video that I really want to know the name of if you guys could help me find this video.

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I can slowly see myself becoming that friend who people only remember when they need something.

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If you knowingly and intentionally guilt a mentally ill person, then you are the literal scum of the earth.

Guilt will push a mentally ill person right over the edge; it is their worst enemy.

If you prey on that vulnerability,

Consider yourself dead to me.

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I have determined that Emma Gonzalez is the real life Negasonic Teenage Warhead.

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My OCD doesn't always appear to be stereotypical

Some common manifestations I experience:

1. Intrusive Thoughts

It isn't generally the common type of intrusive thought where you feel compelled to do something irrational like swerve your car into a pole. I get absolutely arbitrary phrases stuck in my head for no reason at all. Some of these include "I would be none the wiser," "in the middle of bumfuck nowher," and "Pete and repeat were on a boat. Pete fell off. Who was left?" These phrases repeat over and over in my mind so loudly that I cannot think or hear over them.

2. Executive Dysfunction Derived from Fixation

When there is something in my mind that I cannot quite put a name too (like the tip of the tongue phenomenon), all functions cease until that need to identify is met. This is usually a song stuck in my head when I cannot remember what it is. I always have music in my head, and sometimes it's too loud to think. If I need to figure out what it is, I cannot move on until I've nailed it down. I cannot even walk properly because every step or two I freeze again because my brain is allocating all of its resources toward solving the mystery.

3. Concrete Habits

This falls into the category of compulsive behaviours. In 2008, my family participated in Lent the traditional way in which you abstain from eating meat (with fish exempt) for the entire 40 days. After that 40 days, my brain refused to revert back to eating meat. I have been a pescatarian ever since solely because OCD causes permanence of habits.

4. Obedience

I don't have it in me to disobey a rule, law, or standard that is established before me. As much as I wish I could, I cannot speed when I drive (5+ mph over) because the speed limit is non-negotiable. I could never let someone cheat off my own homework in school (and you can forget about me ever copying someone else). The part about this that really sucks is that I don't want to be this rigid, but my brain does not allow for flexibility.

5. Hoarding

This is by far the most embarrassing aspect of my OCD. I can't get rid of ANYTHING that I think could possibly be useful in the future. I mean things like twisty ties in packaging all the way to old tennis ball cans. Granted most of it gets used, and I love repurposing, but the amount of stuff that I have is overwhelming and I wish I could part with so much of it.

So while I do have some of the stereotypic traits like excessive cleaning and very structured routines, there are so many invisible aspects which is where the most distress lies. OCD is clinically identified and diagnosed as a disorder when it causes significant interference with your ability to function in everyday life. When it's such an integral part of every thought you have and move you make, despite what is visible to other people, that is OCD.

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Generic Name of Common OTC Drugs

I don't know why they don't teach this in health class, but knowing the actual drug names prevents you from duplicating products in your medicine cabinet (and even worse, taking them in combination) thinking they're different.

Always buy by reading the Active Ingredients list on the back of packaging. Multiple brands have the same active ingredient. A lot of OTC brand name medications are a combination of multiple active ingredients (like cold medicines, for example).

Here are a few common ones:

Diphenhydramine Benadryl/ZzzQuil/Unisom/Banophen (antihistamine)

Ibuprofen Advil/Motrin (anti-inflammatory)

Acetaminophen/Paracetamol Tylenol (analgesic)

Aspirin Bayer (anti-inflammatory)

Naproxen Aleve (anti-inflammatory)

Dextromethorphan Delsym/Robitussin DM/Theraflu (cough suppressant)

Guifenasin Mucinex/Robitussin (expectorant)

Pseudophedrine Sudafed (decongestant)

Simethicone Gas-X (antigas)

Calcium Carbonate Tums/Rolaids (antacid)

This is intended to be a reference and not medical advice.

Reblog to save a life.

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I need an "Enby Hibernation"

like how bears do to preserve themselves through what otherwise would have been a difficult period to withstand given increased external stress with no decrease in internal needs for survival. But instead of just "ceasing to enby" I'll just hibernate where my "sleep" is just to exist on these online spaces where I am not expending all of my resources.

I'm tired of feeling internally pressured to assert my pronouns. I'm tired of feeling like I spend all of my time advocating for recognition of my gender. I'm tired of being in an uphill battle against my ASAB. I'm just going to hibernate for a bit, because damn I'm tired.

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I think, at this point, I’m more afraid of living than I am of dying.

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HOLY SHIT I NEVER THOUGHT THERE WOULD COME A DAY WHEN HAIKU BOT REBLOGGED ME!

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I think, at this point, I'm more afraid of living than I am of dying.

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You know that stage of depression where you're desperate to sleep so you don't have to feel like you exist? And then you maybe took too much medication, but you don't really care if you sleep or die...

Thats where I'm at now.

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Nations can’t come together to fight hunger, end oppression, or create lasting peace….but for bobsledding, no problem.