I am not for everyone. My blog is not a safe space. It is a space I use for my own benefit.
Feel free to utilize the block function, I won't be offended. That's why it's there!
I block folk under 20, because I am uncomfortable trying to relate with teenagers. If I followed you and you're under 20 it's because I couldn't easily find an age and decided to follow and see. (Tumblr mobile is difficult). Feel free to block me first!
Info about this blog and side-blogs under the cut.
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This blog is where we tend to comment/diary, and post "heavier" stuff. I talk about a lot of troubling things and I'm not the best at tagging things, though I do try to remember for the bigger things.
Some tags I use more consistently that you might want to block are:
#vent art : this is for stuff that expresses pain, can definitely be triggering for folk
#diary; self : me talking about/to myself
#long post : self explanatory
#the symptoms™️: this is my tag for relatable things, both fun and distributing
#those dissociative feels, #those traumatized feels: these two are also "relatable" tags, for having a dissociative disorder and being traumatized, respectively
We have side blogs!
@snd-things-we-like is where we share, well, things we like. Usually without comment. It's a more little-friendly place, full of animals, art, jokes. It is a very safe blog re: triggering content, unless you have issues with animals or bugs. It's run almost entirely on queue, and most things are tagged with general tags.
@snd-remember-positivity is where we share recovery and positivity things. Lots of casual mention of the existence of trauma/abuse/disordered eating/self esteem and body image issues (as those are big things we're recovering from/need positivity for). Mostly untagged.
@snd-answers-things We like playing "ask games", but we don't like interaction/want to answer the questions just for ourselves. So this is where we're letting ourself do that without clogging the main blog ✌️
@snd-arts is our art blog, and is now where we promote our buyable art.
@ghostgetsablog is not a side blog, but another main made by ghost. They, and "their group", have different interests and ways of interacting with the world at large than I and "my group" do. I will not argue for their beliefs here, nor will they argue for mine there. However none of us will tolerate unkindness directed at the others.
@roslin-jade a blog for The Girls. Definitely NSFW, they wanted it mostly for horny and kink posting. However we've also been using it to share nature photos we take, as well as collecting things of a specific vibe. They have more or less subsumed @snd-spirituality, so there are various pagan/witchy/spiritual things that pop up
@someday-vivarium a place for our vivarium dreams
@ghostlearnstech is also pretty self explanatory. We're slowly teaching ourself programming.
“[kink] is bad because [thing the kink is based on] is bad” is such a funny take. we’re acting. you hate theater. you’re standing up in the audience and mansplaining to lady macbeth that killing people is wrong
just realized i never posted this piece here?? i made this in an intro to sculpture class that i took during my last semester of college and its something im really really proud of, i learned how to weld for it!
[ID: a sculpture made of two distinct parts. The first is a dark metal piece welded together at seams, creating a shape that looks like a human torso and arms. The arms wrap tightly around the second part, which is covered in green corduroy fabric. This part is shaped like a human torso, arms and head. The arms are sewn together with green string behind the back of the metal part, making them look like they are embracing. /End ID]
i think it's important to acknowledge that the reason why mastercard/visa has such a stranglehold on american society is because cash is not the main form of payment in the usa. the predominance of card has effectively privatized currency
in japan, one of the reasons why dlsite and other similar websites are able to just remove visa as a payment option instead of changing any of their merchandise (aside from the fact that visa doesn't have a monopoly here) is because cash payments for online transactions remain an option. even if you don't have a jcb credit card or paypay or whatever, you can still pay for your online purchases using cash by taking your barcode to a convenience store, and you can do this for essentially every online vendor, meaning credit card companies can't just impose their moral judgments on your purchases with much repercussion
one of my most firmly held beliefs is there's no such thing as an inappropriate book for a kid and people try to debate me saying like buhhhhhh I shouldnt have been reading the things I did when I was a kid and it's like cool but did you die??? did anything bad happen to you?? or were you allowed to think about what you did and didn't know and walk away when something got too intense or whatever.
Lemme take this a step further: when people talk about whatever big adult book they shouldn’t have been reading: why shouldn’t you have been reading it? Were you curious about something? Did it teach you something or offer new perspectives?? Were you entertained for hours having fun?? Let’s discuss!
There is no book that is inappropriate for all children... But some are for some children, imo.
If a child doesn't have the resources necessary to healthily engage with the material, I think it's inappropriate for them.
Those resources can be knowledgeable, safe adults to help process confusing or upsetting information, dictionaries to look up words, emotional regulation skills to handle being presented with difficult topics, etc..
Radio station WJLX can no longer broadcast its AM programming since the incident.
“What do you mean the tower is gone? Are you sure you’re in the right place? I actually used more colorful words than that,” Brett Elmore recounted to NBC News. “He said there’s wires all over the ground and the tower is gone.”
so this lead me down a fucking hour-long rabbit hole. i watched a video (linked on the radio station's wikipedia page) where some young guys walk through the radio tower property a week after it was allegedly stolen, and it's an overgrown jungle. looks like it's been abandoned for years. the door is hanging open and there is lichen growing on the linoleum floor inside.
down in the comments there are locals saying the area is not exactly out in the boonies, either; there are people and businesses on that road. not to mention that a 200 foot radio tower is fucking gigantic.
there is no crushed vegetation from dismantling the tower. no sign of any vehicles recently on the property other than the 1 set of tire tracks from the police vehicle which came to check it out when the report was received.
the tower wasn't stolen. it hadn't been there for years before the report was filed. google earth shows the tower up on site in 2022 and gone in 2023 so in all likelihood, it fell down sometime then. ALLEGEDLY, the fcc had been on them for an inspection of their am radio tower, and then a week before the fcc were scheduled to come out and inspect it, the station reported the tower missing. so. that's an hour of my life gone. you're welcome? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Hi, so admittedly I own one of the other radio stations in the same freaking town. And by own I mean it's in my name but I leave the technical stuff to my dad and pretty much absorb my information from being around him and the station all the time.
ANYWAYS!
The guy who runs WJLX isn't actually licensed to run an LPFM he is licensed to run an AM station. The AM station is supposed to be the one he plays his music on and he can run a translator to broadcast onto the FM frequencies as well. BUT! Only if his AM is still the main station. He can't do FM only.
That means two power bills basically. Those can be pretty hefty for a radio station.
And since no one really cares about AM these days he did the worst thing possible. He LET HIS AM STATION GO OFF THE AIR. His AM station has been off the air since as far back 2013. We have video of us testing his frequencies that far back. He's been running full time as an LPFM only for at least a decade now which in his case is illegal AF and is a $10,000 per day fine from the FCC if he's ever caught.
Well, low and behold he was caught and now he's trying to claim he didn't know because his tower was "obviously stolen".
For starters, it was eventually stolen. But only after it had already collapsed to the ground and rusted for several years. Metal scrappers will take nearly anything that looks to have been abandoned long enough.
TLDR; If he'd been running his station properly then he'd have known the exact moment his tower stopped broadcasting. He'd have known the moment it fell. There are these things called silence detectors (at least that's what we call them) and their whole job is to tell us we're not broadcasting anymore.
Thank you tumblr for the mystery and the solution.
This is like an episode of Scooby Doo where there’s a mysterious event that surprises everyone but then eventually turns out to be a corrupt businessman lying about things.
It does sadly lack the mid-episode ghost/monster running and chasing scenes though, which is a shame.
General hot take: hatred is a really shitty fuel for action, and I have never met a single leftist who openly admits to being fueled by a hatred of right-wing extremists who isn't also a tar pit of a human being who destroys all of their relationships by being a mean, combative bully in every aspect of their lives.
Hatred has never solved anything. It is corrosive to you and everyone around you. It doesn't build, it only destroys.
listen. clutching your stupid head to my chest and stroking you. you're not a bad dog. idc what they told you, they were wrong. you're a good, sweet, brave little puppy and you've experienced things that nobody should ever go through. i'm so proud of you for making it this far and still having a heart overflowing with this much kindness. i love you so much.
Without including my repetitive forays into weaving, braiding, and knitting as a child, I've been working with yarn and fibre for over 15 years now.
Akin to many fibre artists, making a sweater is well up there in the "goal projects" list. I have made two heavier weight cardigans and a baby sweater, but I've yet to make one for me. (Well, technically the one cardigan was officially meant for me, but I ended up gifting it to my mother for reasons I still don't know. Maybe someday my brain will enlighten me 🤷).
I've just never been able to commit to making one for myself. It's not that I can't find patterns or yarn I like. I thought for a while it might be a self worth thing (I don't tend to make myself things), but have since realised that's more because I prefer to craft things that aren't to my fashion taste (I like making 'interesting' patterns but like to wear simple things).
I'm trying once again to settle on a pattern for some yarn I have that I'd really like a lightweight pullover from, and I'm realizing: I'm hesitant because of chest dysphoria.
Without including my repetitive forays into weaving, braiding, and knitting as a child, I've been working with yarn and fibre for over 15 years now.
Akin to many fibre artists, making a sweater is well up there in the "goal projects" list. I have made two heavier weight cardigans and a baby sweater, but I've yet to make one for me. (Well, technically the one cardigan was officially meant for me, but I ended up gifting it to my mother for reasons I still don't know. Maybe someday my brain will enlighten me 🤷).
I've just never been able to commit to making one for myself. It's not that I can't find patterns or yarn I like. I thought for a while it might be a self worth thing (I don't tend to make myself things), but have since realised that's more because I prefer to craft things that aren't to my fashion taste (I like making 'interesting' patterns but like to wear simple things).
I'm trying once again to settle on a pattern for some yarn I have that I'd really like a lightweight pullover from, and I'm realizing: I'm hesitant because of chest dysphoria.
I want to apologize to my friends and family who have children for low key treating their kids like dogs but the standard methods for training dogs are even more effective of them because they actually understand language and are better at reasoning.
Positive reinforcement is amazingly effective, like I saw my nephew poking their cat so I sternly told him no, he stopped and I immediately changed my demeanor and cheerfully told him thank you and how happy I was that he listened to me instead of staying angry at him and he got this strange “Oh…It actually does make a difference wether I’m naughty or not” and later my sister in law asked why he’s so polite around me.
That’s literally what works best on dogs. Let them know when you don’t like what they’re doing but also let them know when you’re happy with them even if that means changing your demeanor on a dime (and even if you’re still a bit mad at them for doing it in the first place).
Oh and little treats. I skipped the aunt phase and is already turning into a grandma who has candy in her pockets for the kiddos for good behavior.
Partially as a natural way of being, partially because the year of Behavioural Science I took in college.
Yet when you explain it bluntly like this to "kid people" so many of them get, like, offended?
It's tough being a kid, trying to learn the world for the first time ever. Having people be very clear about what is and isn't okay makes it easier!
Making the punishment fit the severity of the issue and not drawing out the emotional punishment after the behaviour is changed makes it clear that what they were doing was the problem, not them.
Plus being clear on exactly what the issue was and why, in a patient way? And returning to normal when they do?
The kids appreciate the clarity and consistency. I definitely did as a kid.
I realized the other day that, by many metrics, I'm at the best point in my life so far. I may not feel great all the time, but there is no point in my life I can look back on and say "I wish I was there again".
In contrast, both my partners are currently experiencing struggles that make them look fondly on points in the past, when things were easier and/or better, in various ways.
It's a strange place to be in. Trying to empathize with them, validate their experiences and struggles, while at the same time having this background noise in my brain. This feeling of...
Dismissive envy, I suppose?
The world kinda sucks, and it's always sucked for me. So I've adapted to the experience of the world sandpapering my soul pretty much constantly.
They haven't adapted to these particular kinds of sandpaper yet, because they didn't have to before/for a long time. I'm envious of the ease they experienced in those ways.
And it makes me feel dismissive of how difficult it is for them to adapt, because I've been doing it for so long. It's just how the world *is*, as far as my experience goes. Why make a big deal about it, it only increases your suffering.
But it's new to _them_. So of course it's hard.
I'm glad my patience and cognitive empathy runs stronger than this feeling, because it isn't one I'm proud of or want to encourage. But I need to acknowledge it.