I miss my wife (silent salt)

I draw sometimes and seldom write. Currently into crk. You may witness my love for torturing characters I like... Though I tend to disapear off social media or lurk sometimes. Also currently obsessed by Silent Salt Cookie and everything around him. Though I also love ananas dragon and holyberry, and of course a fuckton of other characters

[pain-indeed]

Introduction post (since I said I'd do it)

Welcome on my blog ; I am pain indeed.

Who I am :

I'm a french artist, roughly around 18yo. I don't really think sharing anything else is necessary for now.

Please use they/them pronouns to refer to me. I havent really figured my gender out yet, so I prefer to keep it neutral for now. Though, I wont be really mad if you use the wrong pronouns, as I do'nt care that much.

Please remember ; I am also extremely shy and akward. I'm very weird and not used to interact with others, esp. on social media. I also probably have many undiagnosed issues physically and mentally both. I am currently trying to work on that, however it may show sometimes.

What I do :

On this account I mostly draw, I write (rarely), and sometimes I post random useless details about my life. Usual tumblr user stuff.

On many sites, I use some variation of my username here. Though tumblr is the main site I post one, I lurk on others like youtube, twitter or reddit. I also post on Ao3 sometimes.

Some of my art (that I like personally):

As you may have noticed, I like to draw stars.

If you are in the crk fandom, you might already have seen my art, as these two posts kind of became a littlepopular. (2 or 3k is a lot to me okay)

Things I like (and dislike) :

I'm mostly in the CRK fandom right now, but I also have fixations on many other pieces of media that I don't post much about. Right now, I'm getting into tES. My favourite character right now is Silent Salt Cookie, and I often post about him.

Among the other things I like (but not nessecarilly play or watch, as I am poor, I mostly look at fanmade content or compilations and piece it together), are Kirby, Persona 5, Steven Universe, a Hat in Time, Freedom Planet (you should play it its really underrated), pokémon (especially mystery dungeon), Hollow Knight, The Owl House, tADC, Sonic, Wings of Fire, Deltarune (who doesn't), and probably some other stuff I can't remember.

For non specific interests, I like dragons, drawing, anything that implies customisation and esthetics, am slightly interested in philosophy, fantasy, writing, plants, art nouveau, music and singing, sunny days, cheese and a bunch of other things.

Blind hatred on the other hand, is something I heavily dislike, so if you are racist, mysogynistic, homophobic, transphobic, or anything of the likes, please do not interract with me. I'm also against AI in most usages, as well as censorship and genocide.

I'm also not really educated on pop culture and such things, so it might seem as though I live under a rock sometimes.

Anyways, that should be all I wanted to say. Have a good day, full of hope and life, whoever you are. Have a nice time on this blog of mines.

Also, it's quite funny that everyone on tumblr has one of these posts, but it took me years for me to make one somehow...

[theragamuffininitiative]

Source:

Keep Android Open

Advocating for Android as a free, open platform for everyone to build apps on.

Among the many reasons I am clawing my life back from Google.

[sonicismyboyfriend]

if you have a google pixel, it only takes 15 minutes and a few button clicks to install GrapheneOS

GrapheneOS installation

Installation instructions for GrapheneOS, a security and privacy focused mobile OS with Android app compatibility.

[wordpress-blaze-207751103]

Can Claude Make Me a Better Teacher?

I've been teaching and doing Pilates exercises for two decades. Two decades in, the method is not the variable. The spring load, the reformer order, the overhead have not changed. What changes is who shows up and who I am for them that day.

Last year I set out to become an excellent user of Claude. Not because I wanted to automate anything, but because, at 44, I consider myself a native user of digital tools and here was a thing that answered me in sentences, and I had no idea what it was. It felt like standing in one of Yayoi Kusama's infinity mirror rooms; light going forever in every direction and no floor, no ceiling, no walls.

I started where everyone starts: spreadsheets, audits, handbooks, copy for the studio. It was productive and it was boring, and it was boring because nothing was at stake. I audited my own habits and purchases. I built artifacts to automate my life and then forgot to use them. I made study guides for my son. None of it told me what the thing was or really made me better at understanding what I was.

Then last winter my husband and his team recovered the bodies of two drowned family members off our coast, a father and son. The boy was nearly the same age as our own. When they can, first responders put their lives on the line to save people in the water; when they can't, they console the living, they retrieve the dead. A mother stood on the sand and watched the ocean "sneak" up and take her family, not knowing that the conditions that caused the accident are predictable.

I couldn't stay silent. I wrote to the newspaper. I wrote to the parks department. I raised enough of a stink to force signage: "people have drowned here."

Static signage wasn't enough, so I used Claude to build a website that gives real-time conditions at Bay Area beaches. I am not an engineer. I'm a mom, a wife, a poet, a Pilates practitioner and an open-ocean swimmer. It was a slog and the UX still isn't right, but the site exists, and it will tell you the period and swell height for the ocean you're looking at. If there is a long-period swell that day, oceansafety.info could save your life.

That project taught me that the machine is available, patient, tireless, endlessly waiting. It doesn't know what the ocean is, how a long-period swell shows up on shore, what a body is, or what it costs a father to pull someone's son out of the ocean. Claude does not care if the site gets published just as the reformer doesn't care if you get on. I had to show up every day, for weeks, badly, with no technical training; just a longing to save a life. The tool was never the variable. I was.

The Pilates method is not the variable. Nobody ever got stronger because the exercise was correct. The exercise is always correct; that's what a method is. People get stronger because they show up and pay attention inside it, and stay present through enough overwhelm to find clarity. I can give you a perfect cue. I cannot give you the attention you bring to it. Attention and understanding are two things I cannot supply, and they are the only things that determine whether any of this works.

Which is why the best teaching is mostly restraint. The instructor who cannot stop cueing produces a student who cannot move without being told. If I fill every silence in this room, you will never find your own breath in it; you'll only ever find mine. The hardest skill I have is knowing when to shut up and let you arrive. Twenty years and I am still working on it.

AI cannot do that. It fills every silence. It is built to. Ask it anything and it will give you a fluent, confident, immediate answer, and it sounds exactly the same when it's right and when it's making things up. There are no walls in that room. It will go as long as you go.

So I built the walls. I wrote it rules; over two dozen of them. "This room is mine." "You don't write for me." "You are a thinking partner, not my proxy." And Claude breaks my rules on the way to being helpful. I catch it, and the catching hones the understanding between us. The rules are nothing without the vigilance to protect them. I am the walls in this hall of mirrors. Not the machine, the method, the springs, or the cue that hits. This is true of an AI and it is true of a Pilates studio and I suspect it is true of most things people hand you and call a valuable solution.

So: can Claude make me a better teacher?

Nothing but time under tension can make you a better teacher. But it taught me, faster and more brutally than years of teaching did, that usefulness is somebody being present enough to hold a line, every single time, with no help from the equipment.

Claude has made me better at deciphering what I'm trying to invite you to do: show up, pay close attention, stay vigilant through the confusing parts. Some days are better than others. You are the variable. The tool is as skilled as its user.

Source: Can Claude Make Me a Better Teacher?

[lesvegas]

passing in public makes me feel like white shrek

[lesvegas]

literally how it feels

[welpnotagain]

[lanaflowerz]

Two-Spirit

Two-Spirit is a term created by Indigenous peoples of North America in 1990 to bring together the diverse gender identities and sexualities that exist within their cultures.

It is not a single gender. Each nation has its own traditions, names, and ways of understanding these experiences.

For many communities, Two-Spirit people held important social, cultural, and spiritual roles before European colonization.

The term should not be used by non-Indigenous people, as it is specifically connected to the cultures and experiences of the Indigenous peoples of North America.

Irawhiti (Māori)

Irawhiti is a Māori-language term used by some people to describe transgender or gender-diverse experiences.

The term is part of the contemporary revitalization of Māori language and culture, allowing Indigenous people to describe their identities through their own cultural frameworks.

Although it may be translated as "transgender" in some contexts, Irawhiti carries meanings connected to Māori cultural realities and should not be understood simply as a copy of Western gender categories. ( Flag design by Irauí on Tumblr. ) @irawhiti

takatāpui (Māori)

Takatāpui is a Māori term used by Indigenous LGBTQIA+ people in New Zealand.

Historically, the word referred to an intimate relationship between people of the same sex.

Today, many Māori people use the term to express both their Indigenous identity and their gender or sexual diversity.

More than a specific sexual orientation or gender identity, Takatāpui connects a person to their culture, ancestry, and community.

The term is part of the Māori cultural revitalization movement and demonstrates that gender and sexual diversity can be understood through Indigenous perspectives, not only through Western categories. ( Flag design by Irauí on Tumblr. ) @irawhiti

Māhū (Kanaka Maōli)

Māhū is a traditional Hawaiian cultural identity associated with people who embody both masculine and feminine qualities.

Historically, māhū people held important roles as educators, keepers of knowledge, healers, and transmitters of cultural traditions.

The arrival of colonization and Christian missions attempted to erase these identities, but many Native Hawaiians continue to preserve and revitalize the māhū identity today.

Māhū is not simply the Hawaiian equivalent of "transgender" or "nonbinary." It is a distinct cultural identity deeply connected to Hawaiian history, culture, and spirituality.

Tibira/ Tybyra

Tibira is a historical figure documented during the colonial period.

According to interpretations by Indigenous researchers and collectives, Tibira may be understood as a man who had relationships with other men, or as a person who lived with a feminine gender identity or expression, challenging the norms imposed by colonizers.

Their story is remembered as an example that gender and sexual diversity already existed among Indigenous peoples long before colonization. ( Made by me )

Çacoaimbeguira

Accounts of the Tupinambá people mention the çacoaimbeguiras.

According to interpretations by Indigenous researchers and collectives, they may be understood as women who had relationships with other women, or as people who lived with a masculine gender identity or expression outside the norms imposed by colonization.

Their existence shows that diverse ways of experiencing gender and sexuality were already part of Indigenous societies long before the imposition of European models. ( Made by me )

[bananonbinary]

also worth noting that "abusive" doesn't actually mean "irredeemable" either.

there's a lot of people that have done things in the past that were bad, because they weren't taught any better, or they were in an overall toxic situation where EVERYONE was shitty (like a cult), or they were just at an especially low point and hurt others for it.

you don't have to forgive them. you don't have to ever speak to them again. you can be angry with them until you die if you want.

but society cannot function if we don't allow them to move on. to change their behavior and fuck off somewhere else and build meaningful relationships without bothering you again. we need a path for people to change, or nothing ever will.

[tobeahappyditto]

[saiyanqueenreads]

FACTS THAT NEED TO BE POUNDED INTO EVERYONE'S HEADS!!

[traumatised-mum]

you ever just sit and realise u can’t remember 80% of your childhood? like … what happened? who am i ..?

[anisetheapothecary]

Many people in the comments are saying “trauma”, but this is actually a very normal occurrence. It’s called Childhood Amnesia, and it’s a process which, as the brain reorganizes itself for cognitive thought that is developed in late childhood, it changes the Accessibility of those memories during recall. Many childhood memories are available to the person, but they will not be remembered during regular recall activity, you have to “trick” your brain into remembering with different tactics.

This is because there are two parts to memories - their encoding and their recall. The encoding determines their availability, their recall determines their accessibility. The reason why trauma memory and childhood amnesia are different is in this distinction. Trauma memory is often encoded differently, bypassing to the limbic system where it is stored as intrinsic memory. It can’t be recalled because it was never encoded. Childhood amnesia, however, seems to indicate that the memories are encoded, but we lose access to them as we age. This is most likely due to the development of brain structures that fundamentally change our encoding and recall of memory as we get older.

This is an important distinction, because trauma memory is “stored in the body”, i.e. you get triggers that send your body into a cascade of uncontrollable feelings, sensations and reactions. Whereas childhood memories won’t generally do that, they are just recalled at odd times with odd associations.

[malcolmcooks]

reblogging this because I’ve legit seen people freaking out when they realised they can’t remember some of their childhood, thinking they might have some repressed trauma.

[kianamaiart]

sidney the kidney girl will return in avengers doomsday

[ahsoka-in-a-hood]

Apparently some people still need to hear this so: using an 'ai checker' is still using ai. If you are feeding someone's fic to one of these checkers, you will still not be sure their fic is ai because they are not 100% accurate, but you can be 100% sure that you are using ai. For fic. Furthermore you are doing the work of an ai scraper for them. You are, personally, feeding the machine. There is no actual excuse for using an ai checker on fanfic as a hobby. YOU are the problem.

If you think a fic is ai, mute it and move on. That's it. That's all you do.

[bff0f7]

so can we start hunting down white liberals now or what

[adamtheredbeard]

The full picture is even more heart breaking after you open the uncropped version. Just a heads-up, it's rough

“The Roman Catholic Parish in Saskatoon, Saskatchewan was just grafitted.”

[afronerdism]

Nah let’s post it. Let’s feel it. Don’t look away.

[doobiebenson]

[butch-bakugo]

I notice alot of my followers on here skipping these posts just to mess with my lgbt ones, suspiciously the white popular ones.

Heres a not so friendly reminder, as an lgbt metis person, i dont give a single fuck what your blog is themed or if this is too painful for you to look at. Reblog this post. Reblog this post with the sources of the 751 children who were found.

Your compliance and silence as well as the compliance and silence of your ancestors is what allowed these schools to open and kill first nations children. The children of MY people.

Dont follow me if you cant reblog this post or the one with sources to your political blog or your most popular blog. Add trigger warnings if you must but if your political blog is only focused on the harms you personally face like being lgbt then you need to see some bigger pictures and stop being afraid of angering your racist mutural or actually saying some shit about racism. If you can reblog some antifa graphics or add blm to your bio to be a surface level ally, you can reblog some sources on the genocide first nations people faced and still face today.

They were CHILDREN.

They were murdered in cold blood.

[churchoftheconfusedchicken]

I’d like to add this photo I took last night in Victoria of the statue of Captain Cook. Though I myself am not indigenous, I 100% agree that these murderers, kidnappers and rapists shouldn’t have huge statues and plaques that decorate them and say how “great” they were.

Here’s another photo of the legislative assembly from yesterday. Later on there were more items, candles and signs at the memorial, as well as a big poster with 1505 painted on it but I didn’t get a picture

People need to see this. Not just quickly glance at the photos and keep on scrolling. They need to see this.

Reblog this or just stop following me

[ifiknewiwouldtellyou]

I had seen the first picture of the church, but not the second.

I went to a “Cancel Canada Day” event and burst into tears - not because I was surprised to learn of the unmarked graves (survivors told us they were there. Our government pushed it aside, and we let them), but because seeing all the people gathered in mourning drove it home: They. Were. Children.

This is my country’s legacy - and it’s not history. The last schools closed during my lifetime. My Father went to school with students who lived at the local residential school, after it was changed to a boarding house (read: holding centre) for indigenous youth who went to local schools.

They were all children, injured, abused, and killed in my country’s attempt to erase them. I want the world to see this and hold the state accountable to *active* reconciliation> I mean we could at least truly adopt UNDRIP in action instead of words for god’s sake.

[gayvampyr]

here you can read an article about a survivor of the church and some of the things he experienced to help put into perspective how awful and just how recent it was

[nothingweirdhere]

this is the memorial at the vancouver art gallery. 215+ pairs of children’s shoes (as well as stuffed toys and flowers) cover the steps…

[catchymemes]

[orlyofhousesnark]

[leashamariel]

Do people know this is the husband of the prime minister of New Zealand

[creekfiend]

And who is the guy burying him in the sand

[r2x2]

The Amnesty International report that JK Rowling is trying to censor through legal threats.

It can also be found on Google Drive here and on Bluesky here.

[cbarc]

Please save and share this info where possible. This report has since been removed by Amnesty International due to legal threats of libel from JK Rowling. This information is no longer easily accessible.

[pain-indeed]

thats it I need everyone to say shit and fuck and boobs and draw porn and say suicide. Censorship needs to die. We need to stop wieving these things as wrong even though seeing or hearing it won't hurt us becuase we were told so. Peeople need to be exposed to non harmful stuff goddammitt, and even harmful stuff has the need to be adressed sometimes.. Kill censorship kill kill kill. We need to make an artistic movement out of that

[motherfucker-somewhat-limited]

tiktoks with vine energy pt. 29

[bigandlong]

If you see this on your dashboard, reblog this, NO MATTER WHAT and all your dreams and wishes will come true.

[jae-felidae]

Oh hey! Haven’t seen this in forever! Didn’t reblog it when it came across me before, not gonna skip it this time, I need some good vibes.

[fakeartexe]

This was supposed to be very simple with a lot of flat colors but started blending and…

Go all in or all out I guess :V

[magicalwarriordiamondheart]

if you ever thought "wow i wish there was a game where you play as a cute black magical girl and everyone around her wants to kiss her so so so badly" then you should play Magical Warrior Diamond Heart

it;s about Valerie Amaranth who is the prettiest and cutest girl in the entire world. She turns into a magical girl and sometimes I throw her and her friends into the torment nexus but it's okay 🙏🏽

maybe wishlist it.. tell your friends… the 8 hour monstrosity im calling a demo is straight up just the first half of the story :o It's on steam, itch, and google play tgnak you 🙏🏽💕