Man growing up is kinda scary.
As a child everyone is after your life for the smallest stuff, beta ye karo beta aise mat karo. And suddenly you find yourself in a hostel (or somewhere far from home) having to take decisions to keep yourself in a good state,
Going to sleep whenever walking up whenever, aimlessly staring at your wall because you just cannot get yourself to study, despite the fact that you have your exams in less than a month.
It feels like a distant dream, when you used to study for everything and revise together with maa, she used to quiz you and reward you with hugs and praise. Life was good, going to sleep on time, waking up on time, eating what your mother packed for you.
Sometimes I just don’t want to be responsible for my own life anymore. It was so much simpler when I was a small being. I wish I could just be a child again.
Every single thing I do now has such high stakes, don’t eat too much junk you have a tendency to fall ill easily, and you don’t wanna get any fatter than you already are ( but I still do it anyway, hoping the little I walk around will help balance it)
Study and study well otherwise your parents would be disappointed, and people will snicker and say I told you maybe law wasn’t the right answer
My classmates will rejoice because? Just because?
Sleep on time, wake up on time. Study. Study well. Stop caring about what other people think.
Try to maintain your sanity. (If this is sane anymore?)
Vo bhi nahi ho paa raha
Stop letting people consume you
You exist even when you are not wanted
You exist even when you don’t invest every single waking moment of yours into other people.
Please please please can life be simple again?
Can people be kind to me?
