Panini Queen

she/her • 25 • part time poet, part time swiftie, part time tv show obsessive, full time lover of cute little woodland creature illustrations

[watchingwisteria]

i am growing up, but i look back far too often. everyone else is five steps ahead of me, yet i can’t bring myself to catch up.

nothing new by taylor swift ft. phoebe bridgers // the girl i left behind me (1872), eastman johnson // peace by taylor swift // little women (2019) dir. greta gerwig // as it was by harry styles // blackberry picking (1966) by seamus heaney // ribs by lorde // christina’s world (1948), andrew wyeth // the end is near by phoebe bridgers

[parakeet]

if you go looking for doom and gloom all you will see is doom and gloom. if you go looking for reduced items at the grocery store you may find a littol treat

[savagedefectives]

Lucia Berlin

[rabbittongues]

[paniniqueen]

I’m like if a boyfriend was a girlie

[paniniqueen]

I just took a shower and damn it, they were right. It helped

[8nin]

“what’s stopping you from-“ listen i am so so sleepy

[um-jammer-tranny]

and like. broke

[machinot]

when u look at 2017 and think “oh that’s only like 3 years ago” and it’s actually 12,000 years ago and everything is gone and everyone you know has been reduced to ash and the world is completely different

[desescrita]

“At times, it feels as if the past is very near. On certain evenings, when the sun has dropped and the air is turning blue, when barn owls float above the meadow grass and a pared-down moon breaches the treeline, a mist will sometimes lift from the surface of the river. It is then that the strangeness of water becomes apparent. The earth hoards its treasures and what is buried there remains until it’s disinterred by spade or plough, but a river is more shifty, relinquishing its possessions haphazardly and without regard to the landlocked chronology historians hold so dear. A history compiled by way of water is by its nature quick and fluid, full of submerged life and capable, as I would discover, of flooding unexpectedly into the present.”

— Olivia Laing, To the River: A Journey Beneath the Surface

[paniniqueen]

Down beside the water

time rolls on

the river just runs in one way

[spitzy-speaks-jp]

I love Greek food I love. that zeekey sauce

[throathole]

The humble and beautiful PDF does not deserve to now have the term “PDF file” be a censored version of the word pedophile. She has been nothing but good to us. You all apologize right now

[lovely-v]

okay okay i can close some tabs i don't need this google image search of "pear trees"....well you never know actually

[cataclysmictide]

Pain's Like Cold Water Your Brain Just Gets Used To It

No Complaints - Noah Kahan/That Funny Feeling - Bo Burnham/Ask Polly: Help I'm The Loneliest Person In The World - Heather Havrilesky/Ladybird (2017)/Tennessee Williams/unknown/No Complaints - Noah Kahan/Perks of Being a Wallflower (2012)/Ask Polly: Help I'm The Loneliest Person In The World - Heather Havrilesky/That Funny Feeling - Bo Burnham/No Complaints - Noah Kahan/That Funny Feeling - Bo Burnham/Unknown/Perks of Being a Wallflower (2012)/'Ectesy' - Georges Bataille/Warsan Shire/Ladybird (2017)/How to Cure a Ghost - Fariha Róisín/That Funny Feeling - Bo Burnham/No Complaints - Noah Kahan

[paniniqueen]

It’s the middle of September, and for the first time in my life the month has me thinking of the future instead of the past. Cruel hope fills my heart, and I can’t help but smile at the sky and believe that positive change is coming…

unknown // unkown // William Metcalf // unkown // Laura Jaworski // Franz Wright, “Night Walk” // F. Scott Fitzgerald // Sylvia Plath // Franz Wright, “Voice” // Unknown // Ben Rector, “The Best is Yet to Come”

[paniniqueen]

I won’t say Happy September. Instead, I’ll wish you a Hopeful September, Peaceful September, September filled with growth for you all and grace from those that know you

[paniniqueen]

On Time

Thoughts on time and thoughts on being on time, which I have never been and will always want to be

Anon. (can’t find it anymore…rip) // Czeslaw Milosz, Songs of Adrian Zielinski // Twitter user @lovethediosa // screencap from Back to the Future // BoyGenius, “Not Strong Enough” // my notes app // Allen Ginsberg, The Book of Martyrdom and Artifice // Anna Nalick, “Breathe (2 AM)” // “Five More Minutes” by Olivia Larson // The Lumineers, “Cleopatra”

[great-gatsby]

bye den

[paniniqueen]

I’m 23 years old! I should be still at the restaurant, still sitting in the corner I haunt, cross-legged in the dim light