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@parksprout
Good news is I finally broke up with my abusive partner, bad news is I'm lowk couch surfing and haven't been back home to see my kitties in a week because I've been threatened with violence 👍
A big part of me feels like this is karma for my past mistakes, so I'm trying to take it in stride but man I miss my cats so so so much ugh :((
My girls :(
Saw this on Twitter and ran to draw it 🥰 dungeon meshi 😋
Phantom ♡ Moda Center, Portland OR | 02.17.26 | © Ryan Chang
WOW I need to bring my tumblr back and clean all the depressing shit off here, what in the world. Anyone even alive out there anymore⁉️
I miss posting online a lil bit, I've been too locked in for too long I need my touys
queue this post when it’s your birthday and be surprise
I scheduled this on Aug 29th :3 let's see if it surprises me
i love trans people so much
thank you current monster high fans in the notes for enlightening me to the fact that frankie stein is apparently canonically nonbinary & uses they/them in the reboot. as above (trans kids loving monster high) so below (monster high becomes trans kids)
I 🥔 you too, Vessel.
On this day
A Savior was Born
PICREW TIME!
i haven't seen any in a while and i felt like doing one so here we are
LINK
tagging: @trans-hawk @harpyharpyharpy @hearty-an0n @thebreakfastgenie @killerwhaletank + anyone that sees this and feels like it
yippee ty for the tag ^_^
@95028841 @needingsleep @all-seeing-tomato @colonelpancakes @forty-crows-in-a-trenchcoat @strawbrrysoda1 @dykant
@nearlysurvived @poorlyillustrated @vereel @kandeekiller @ anyone who wants
THANK YOU FOR THE TAG<333
@haunted-hallowed-grove @ruelukas22 @missinoe @critterbutt @cookiemonsterv3 @icarianiscariot @grrrbelle @areallynervousnurse @anyone who wants to♡
I look like I've been transported into a Romance novel after I got myself some cocoa 😭 The pissed/sceptical look is so accurate. I'd be like "What is this bullshit?" This is so funny omg!
Thank you for the tag @nearlysurvived
Kudos to the Picrew for actually having my hair length for once!
NPT:
@friendlyneighbourhoodelf @anxiousotters @the-starry-seas @thespacebetweenworlds
@stardustloki @hastalavistabyebye @dndshredderajk @withyourrhythm
And anyone who sees this and wants to participate <3
Thanks for the tag <3 These are actually so fun (also not me projecting my femme self onto this)
And then with a different eyebrows and haircut cause why not:
Anyway tags, I used to struggle to tag five people and now I’ve got to struggle to not tag 26 but errrm @pleasegetoutofmywalls @kaylee123124 @sugarandspite05 @daughterofgemini and anyone else who comes across this :)
I haven’t played around in picrew for so long
@pleasegetoutofmywalls @ales-macaroni @virginia-madison @sugarandspite05 @elipopre-official & anyone else
What I wished I looked like lol
I’ll tag @debas3rr @idiotspacecowboy @simplytoastyt
i forgot how much i love tag games! thank you for the tag<33
@goosetowns @knightsofrohan @cityofdelusionn @ziggy-stardust-is-in-love @keo6323 @tooth-eater and anyone else:))
ahhh so much fun! btw prev you remind me of sister imperator 😂❤
alr tagging: @ctrsdoesart @silmarvision @madangel19 @tschulijulesjulie @mypluginbaby @vesselsscarlet @flowers-and-fichte @ecoustsaintmein and whoever else wants
Thank you @keo6323 for the tag.. well here I am. I guess? Maybe it's like 70% accurate? Dunno lol. But it was fun.
I am tagging @fivewholeminutes @takemetoasgard @sleeby-vessel @joey-jerbil and everyone else who wants to do it though. (Just picked my inner friends circle rn lol.)
Have fun yall!
100% accurate rbf thanks for the tag @vesselsscarlet
I tag (no pressure): @a-s-levynn @fivewholeminutes @polteergeistt @ruinme-please
Thank you lovely @takemetoasgard for the tag 💜 added some holiday spirit with the lights
Tagging: @inv3ga @watertankafternoon @bayfacion @littlequeenofthemangoes @stellasplendens if you feel like it :)
Thank you, wifey♡ @ruinme-please
Here's a bit of realism for you. I call it, "Schiz'n with The Shitten" 😂
Tagging: @vagueconfusion @pastlivesxpastlie @ghostlygothicgay @arbitraryfaggot @frothingatthemaw @ivys-thick-juicy-thighs @terrywaryobituary
Thank you lovey @inv3ga
No pressure: @aaron-is-comatose @adenobabe @intake-of-breath @glitterghost
@fruitsandcheese
JEHE i definitely look like this irl
@ivys-thick-juicy-thighs @bubble-gum-bat @parksprout @domesticwaffles77 and anyone else who sees this !!!!
WAHHHH I DID MY BEST BUT I LOOK MORE LIKE AN IDEAL THAN REAL PARK SPROUT. @aaron-is-comatose thank you for tagging me <33 yours is so cute
@robertseanleonardthinker @w0rldclassjelly @chaoticcatbehaviour @bardic-inspo sorry y'all I know we ain't particularly close but I don't have many Tumblr moots!!! No pressure :3
wish we had more internal organ emojis
Sending spleen emojis to my depressed friends to indicate that their excessive black bile is causing their melancholia
The spleen is deep purple and slightly curved:
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So you can convey this with any emoji of similar color and shape. You could also indicate an excess of bile by showing liquid seeping out of the spleen, and of course melancholy is already covered by existing emoji, so to clearly communicate the message "I think you are depressed because your spleen has too much black bile" with existing emoji you should text your friend:
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12/22/24
Hey Tumblr. I hope everyone is having a really good holiday season <3 whatever you're celebrating, or if you don't celebrate, I hope that you're at least enjoying your breaks from school and work :) me? I'm doing okay these days, not the best but also not particularly bad either.
I haven't been having nightmares the past few days, so that's something to celebrate! I've recently rearranged my room, started burning incense before sleep, washed all of my sheets with the best smelling detergent I've ever used and gotten used to going to bed without passing out on my phone. I've been choosing when to sleep, which is very nice.
I have a few things I wanna talk about tonight, some of which are a little more on the depressive side, some of them are proud moments and all of them are reflective. Let's start with the depressive first and we can work through the happiness a bit more after that, though I think that each will be tinged with bits and pieces of the other.
Let's talk about the holidays first. This isn't a part of the year I'm typically very grateful for. I don't come from a very financially well off family, nor one that was particularly fond of holiday traditions, so this time of the year I have always defaulted to an honest form of jealousy. I'm pretty forthright about the fact that I envy other families who are close, who have a Christmas tree in the parlor and gifts under it's needles. I envy having people to buy presents for, and the money to buy gifts or the time to make them. I'm not angry about that jealousy, but I am slightly hurt by it every year when it comes to this time again and here I am still alone while others celebrate. I don't consider myself bitter about it at least, in fact I kinda use it as a bit of an aspiration for myself.
That brings me to the next thing I wanna talk about actually; this is the first holiday in a few years I'm not going to be with the person I love. Me and Aaron haven't gotten to spend an actual holiday season together together in person before, so it's not like... we're going from something jovial and festive to nothing at all, but it's still a loss. I remember waking up on Christmas morning before and sending them selfies, voice messages, telling them that I know neither of us celebrate this holiday in any severe way but that I'm glad to spend it with them. This year was actually supposed to be the first big one for us, they finally agreed to let me get them a present back in August and.. I spent at least a little bit of time every day between then and the breakup thinking of little things to include in the gift to make it special, to make it about us, to give them the first taste of what I want to give them in life and the joy we could share. Then the breakup happened and I wasn't sure if we'd even get that ever but... now that we're talking every day again I've long since decided to still send them this present, even if it hurts me quite a bit to know that it won't be received with the love and excitement I wanted originally. I've still added a lot of love to this present, though. It's got a lot of parts to it, most of them are surprises and ... none of them are particularly grand besides the pieces they already know about, but they are still so important to me. Right now while I write this my heart is aching for them, it's both a physical and emotional sensation. My chest is tight and aching ever so slightly while my eyebrows knit together and my teeth grind, I'm fiddling with my lip piercing in my mouth and chewing on my cheeks thinking about everything. Emotionally I'm feeling fragile right now, I'm feeling especially vulnerable these recent days and... pent up in a lot of ways. But I also know that they don't really get to celebrate Christmas in the big way that a lot of people do either, so I'm excited to give them a little taste of it even if I'm not there to celebrate with them :) I'm gonna wrap all of their presents and I hope they have so much fun opening them even if half of it won't be a surprise at all. There's a big part of me that's hoping that they will still see a lot of what we could be shine through this gift, that they'll understand the love I have and the effort I'm willing to go through even in times of pain, that I'd give them the world if they needed it. I don't think that's ever been in question, though. That's one of those parts of the relationship I know they never doubted was my effort. Ough... I also, gosh. I wish that... with New Years coming up? I wish that we were both thinking about kissing each other as this year turns over to the next. You can never know for certain, so maybe I can hold out hope that in the next week or so they decide it's my face they'd want to hold while the earth completes it's trek back to where it started. Now I'm really pining delusional, but at least I can acknowledge that it's probably not gonna happen so fast now.
I've asked them several things recently to gauge their comfort, but sometimes I still get afraid that I'm far too much. They said it's okay that I send them posts, that I post about them, that I talk about them on my instagram story, that I talk to our mutual friend about us, that I yearn and long so publicly... but I wonder sometimes if I'm hurting them when I do this. If they secretly detest that I love them still, that my forthrightness about my own emotions might come off as frightening. It's funny, but one of their oldest friends is one of my biggest supporters these days asdkjhlfasdkjf. I show them messages sometimes before I send them to ask if they think I'm being too much, I ask them for advice, we share our own thoughts and hopes. They're sometimes more hopeful about me n' Aaron working out than I am akshjldfasdf but they also remind me to stay cautious and patient too. I've tried to refrain from adding anything new to me and Aaron's routines lately. I have such an incredible itch to flirt more heavily, to send them messages telling them how deeply I love their creativity, how much they make me laugh, how gorgeous they are and so much more but... I refrain and keep it kinda lighthearted. I tell them I love them every day still because I do, and... because a part of me believes that every human being deserves to be told they're loved at least once a day. I don't know if anyone else feels that way, or if I'm just projecting my own wish that somebody would say they love me every day, but I've felt this for a long long time. I do love Aaron, in every way from how I love another human being I've never met simply for the beauty intrinsic to their humanity all the way to the deep intimacy I could only feel towards someone I've shared this much with. I also like to tell Aaron I'm proud of him at every chance I get, that he's doing the right thing, that it's okay that he's taking his time figuring out life not only in terms of our relationship but also with his future in every other facet. Haha I think in a lot of ways these journals end up being my outlet for all of the raw affection I can't give to Aaron anymore. I would always stop if they ask me, but for now I'm glad that they're okay with me writing about us in all of the places I do - from here, to my instagram stories, to messages between friends, to when I say those three little words that mean so much in our own conversations. Their comfort really does mean the world to me, so I genuinely hope I'm never violating it. I don't think that anything has really changed about us in the past month since our last serious conversation, but it's still important to ask that so here soon I'm planning to talk to Aaron and see if they're continuing to see me grow in a positive way, and ask whether their opinions on our feasibility have changed. If they haven't? That's okay!! I'll keep treating them with the love and kindness that they deserve :) I'm okay carrying on like this for a while I think, each day it becomes easier to show them the love that I feel while knowing that they aren't yet (if ever) at the point that they want to show it back. Maybe someday in months or years they'll feel it back... on that day I'll be happy, but not for the first time since I lost them. I smile every single day with or without their love, I just hope to smile brightly together someday.
Speaking of friends, I have two things to say! One, I am absolutely so grateful for the people I have around me who have continued to support me through this breakup. I've been shocked at the absolute outpouring of support from them. Almost everyone I've told about my situation believes that hey, I'm doin' the right thing. Maybe not always in the right ways as I've been told, but that as long as I'm respecting Aaron's boundaries while trying to show him who I am and what we could be, that it's an alright thing. Second, oh my gosh I am finally getting details about my next trip to Europe!! We're probably going to shoot for July for the combination of me being out of school, my friend Gabe being able to request leave during that time and Sammy being as free as always. The plan is still being worked out fully but it's looking like 10 days with at least 2 of them being dedicated to traveling abroad while abroad! Specifically we're thinking of traveling to Amsterdam or Zurich, either of which would be fantastic. I love that... I actually get to experience this sort of life. I'm the only person in my family to travel so young, the only person to fully support themselves like I have and be able to afford this kinda vacation. I'm beyond proud.
That is a good segue into the more positive stuff I wanted to talk about actually :) most of which is... hey, Park? You have a lot to be proud of this year, even if it's not ending how you've wanted it to end.
Let's really think about this for a second, alright? There's over a dozen accomplishments (maybe not, I like to exaggerate) that I've had this year that really deserve celebration!
I visited Germany for the first time, already getting the breadth of knowledge that leaving your home country offers is fabulous y'know??
I got my drivers license
AND I GOT MY CAR!
I continued a relationship into it's third year, making it my second longest ever and the longest I've ever dated someone with no fights or without getting cheated on. It may have ended, but it was the best relationship I've ever had
Got my credit score about 730 YEAAAA BABEEYYYY
Lost 35 lbs over the course of the year
Finished my Spring semester with honors and a GPA still at 4.0 as I left community college
Got accepted to and started at the University of my dreams
Got a promotion at work officially
Wrote a 22 page long creative writing piece (MY LONGEST EVER)
Made new friends and reconnected with old ones
Passed all of my classes at University with a B or higher EVEN DESPITE THE HORRIBLE MENTAL STATE IVE BEEN IN!!!!
Honestly? Just... continued living despite it all. I've survived so much hardship this year and done nothing but become a better person through it.
Let's really talk about that final point for a second... I've been through so much, yet despite it all here I am? I'm a significantly better person in every single aspect of my life than I was one year, two years, five years or ten years ago. I'm thriving and fighting, I'm working my ass off despite everything that would've previously kept me back. Listen... I know I talk a lot about depression, angst, longing and difficulties during these journals, but these are designed to be a purge of bad emotions. For 95% of any given day I am incredibly happy and working harder than I ever have been before. I hope that... if people read these, they don't judge me too harshly for the weakness I show here. I think I'll end this journal here :) I think you can tell that I'm doing better these days from the way I write alone. Goodnight Tumblr <3 if this is my last entry before Christmas, then merry Christmas to those who celebrate it and happy holidays to anyone else out there who might be celebrating literally any holiday or personal festivity at this time!!!
I can honestly say that I'll be going into 2025 loving myself, this life, the people I have in it, my future and my past more than I ever have.
I love you all so much, goodnight Tumbie <33
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Hi guys!
So I wasn't planing on drawing this...but it kinda happend so here we go! A proper Eden piece for III. I might try and draw another one at some point but who knows. I hope you guys like it...because I actually do (imagine that.... Lol)
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Sprout Journal 12/17/24
Hi Tumbie <3 how are you today? Are you doing well? Are you hanging out, working on yourself, but still having fun in life? I hope you're having such a great time, seriously :3 anyone who reads this
Myself? I'm doing alright I think. For the most part I've hit emotional equilibrium these days, which is like ... fine I think? I wouldn't say I'm in a happy phase, but net neutral is a lot better than what I had before. My low's still happen, I still cry some days, but I'm never feeling as depressive as the early days of the breakup. My highs are actually a little bit less frequent than they were even post-breakup? I think it's because a lot of those days during the early to middle period of the breakup me and Aaron were having a lot of conversations where it felt very much like we might've started dating again quickly after that, so I would ride that high a bit delusionally for the day.
There's not a whole lot to talk about right now, but it's still important that I talk about what I do wanna get out so it doesn't fester methinks. So first I wanna get into some general life updates, then I wanna talk about my family, and then just... some more of the usual thoughts about Aaron, is that okay?!
Also, I haven't had very good relationships with my friends recently. Not that I'm falling out with any of them, but they've got other stuff going on. I think that a lot of them balked at me when they heard about the breakup, it was kinda a "oh not this again" reaction from a couple of them. Only my two closest friends have been fully receptive. I have made a couple of new friends lately! Or gotten some old ones back! I've gotten a lot closer with a mutual friend of me and Aaron's named Liv, we talk basically every day lately. Then there's Sarah and her boyfriend Aidan, both of which were great to meet up with and hang out with!! I also reached out to my old friend Hana who I had actually cut off forever ago because we had a kinda hot-cold almost dating thing before I met Aaron, BUT I obviously am super taken (even if I'm not technically dating them I really do consider myself off the table, I'm not interested in dating otherwise), and I actually saw that Hana is moving in with a boyfriend!!! So we caught up recently which was nice. We both kinda laughed about the way our friendship ended the last time, we had both been in relationships that went south then entered a strange friendship together and lost interest in hanging out because we fell for people aklsjdfh it's funny. But none of those friendships have been super like... active? We've had a few conversations and hung out here or there in Sarah & her bf's case but honestly no aspect of my social life is really feeling as fulfilling as I would like. I think that... in a lot of ways, I'm just ready to move on from a lot of the relationships I have at the moment? Not necessarily in a cutting them off sort of way, but in the like... I wouldn't mind being far from them for a while kinda way, I wouldn't mind leaving it all behind. I want to leave it all behind, actually, and that will be a returning theme of the journal today.
One piece of good news it that I officially passed my semester two days ago and became a junior in college. I'm entering the final stretch if you think about it, isn't that wild? I've been in school since summer of 2023 and in that time I've gone from nothing to a junior. I'm feeling very proud. I didn't maintain my 4.0 GPA into this first semester at an actual University and tbh I'm not even that mad about it. I got a B- in Archaeology, a B in Spanish, an A in Anthropology and an A+ in creative writing. That's still a damn good performance for someone who has literally been back and forth with suicidal ideations since late October, like I did a third of the semester under intense depressive episodes??? It's no small feat. But yeah now I'm on break and sooooo happy about it ugh.
I visited my family yesterday. It was mostly to hang out with my little brother and his girlfriend because they're both chill as hell and we're close enough in age that we understand everything the other's do. I was also there for two other reasons. My sister who moved to NY forever ago was in town and I decided it'd be okay to see her, and I wanted to see how my dad's recovering. We really didn't do much of anything while I was there lol it was so boring aklsjdhfasdf my brother his gf and I did go to a restaurant to get some food!! Then when we got back I was talking with my family about my plans and I mentioned that I'd probably be moving away in the next couple of years. Now, I wasn't expecting them to be like... dragging me away from the idea, but I was expecting either more questions about the idea or at least a bit of curiosity, but they almost universally responded with shrugs or a lack of reaction entirely. I don't particularly like my family, but it would still be nice if like... I mentioned wanting to move away for school 2,000 miles away elicited some kind of reaction. Really, their reaction just solidified my decision.
I really don't feel like I belong anywhere these days as depressive as that sounds to say. It's not bothering me that heavily, but it's like... a square peg and a round hole. I don't think this city, this state, this place is right for me. I don't fit in with most of these people, I'm not making any meaningful connections here and... I keep cutting one string at a time tying me to this place. I'm here because I love my best friend Sammy, I love my other closest friend Jordan, and I love my sister Kimmy, but... Sammy plans to leave eventually anyways, Jordan and I could always be friends no matter the distance and Kimmy usually has too much going on in the first place AND she has openly stated that she supports me leaving because she always wished she had. I'm feeling ready to go, but there's a huge problem.
I don't know where I'll go.
I'm in a moment of standby still. Aaron and I are still up in the air, and for me it will be until either they tell me they're moved on forever or we start dating again. That relationship is a MASSIVE factor in where I decide to move to. If we work out? I'm there in their city as soon as I possibly can be, it'd work out really well too. Before the breakup I had reached out to an account my job has there inquiring about jobs and they are always accepting people for positions there especially if they're transfers with management experience, so I could have a job in their city day one. I was looking at apartments and had some really good areas in mind too. And then there's schooling. I don't wanna dox their location so I won't say the University but theres a state University basically in their city (it's technically a town over but I have a car lmao) that offers the masters degree program that I want to pursue and I'm 100% confident I could get accepted there. Literally every aspect of it works out except for me and Aaron for now. WHICH IS DRIVING ME INSANNNEEEEE!!! I wish that they would be okay trying again, because I would be there so soon. I don't even feel comfortable visiting their city unless we're together, let alone applying for school nearby ToT I've had crazy ex's who have shown up at my house, I don't want to ever give Aaron even a glimpse of a feeling like that because it's frankly terrifying.
MANNNNNN this wasn't supposed to post like this, I was working on adding a bunch more and then my phone crashed!! I'll just edit it from here and then add the pictures I was gonna add on my phone.
One of the things I appreciate the most about my current relationship with Aaron is the honesty of it all. I can be 100% honest about how I feel, I can share basically every thought I have about them, us and myself with them and Aaron seems to feel comfortable doing the same. Recently I've had some moments of genuine anxiety. Some people have consistently whispered in my ear that after I send Aaron their christmas present they'll have no reason to talk to me, and while I know Aaron and trust them whole heartedly to never do something like that the fear was honestly welling up so... I asked Aaron and they reassured me otherwise. Also, I asked if they were okay with me texting them so much still and especially with the posts I was sending and they said yes to that, too. I'm just happy to know I'm not annoying them, that I'm not pushing them further away through my flirting, yearning, constant yapping and inescapable need to share myself 100% with them. Really, I've been doing better about being overly attentive towards them, but better in that department with me is still a lot alksjdf. I'm happy they're patient with me and okay with the amount of attention I give them, though. Gosh. This was supposed to be a diferent kinda entry once I started editing it, but the exhaustion is just fucking smakcing me right now. Why am I so tired???? Ough. I'll just write another journal soon that'll be more comprehensible, I think that this entry has been basically nonsensical from the start askljdhfaskdf. Anyways, love you tumbie. I'm gonna go read a book ab out lesbians killing dragons together., Baiiiii
went to the pub for a drink on my first real day off in over a week and watched the girl behind the bar drop the entire cash drawer on the floor in the middle of the rush and then just stare at it at her feet for like a solid two minutes
