i'll only ruin everything.
work? overstimulated during peak hours in the restaurant and couldn't do anything while i watch others do everything for me. poor communication skills and i get blocked by a customer.
going outside? panic attacks. running away. made it to the venue, had to go home after barely staying there for 3 minutes. every time i go out, everyone has to take care of me.
relationships? pushing people away. not being able to go out means i don't care enough about others, so everyone left. always saying the wrong thing and hurting people, making them cry.
my life is a mess. everything i try to do, everything i fail to do. i'm selfish, self-centred, apathetic, cold, stupid, lazy, a disgrace, a disappointment.












