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911 (Buddie)
911: Lone Star (Tarlos)
Kingsman (Hartwin, Merhartwin, Merlahad)
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Diabolical thought: out of the two of them, Ilya has way more fun with genderfuckery in dressing: tossing on eyeliner, lipstick, PVC booty shorts and a lacy top, for example.
I mean obviously. I think that Ilya has a sense of style and dresses them both when theyre married but I don't think he really plays with his gender until they're retired.
Like obviously we've all watched the same show and Ilya clearly has something faggy going on but also I think Ilya is very aware of public perception. He's not scared like Shane is but he is aware that he and Shane are stretching the limits.
But imagine this, its a pride parade maybe they go to New York Pride as a vacation, 45 year old Ilya in pvc booty shorts (shane likes the feeling of the shorts but hates wearing pvc), a mesh top that shows off Ilya's nipple piercings (they both also want Ilya to get his dick pierced but they're concerned about the sex ban for 3-6 months), a choker with the word Faggot on it. Ilya has rainbow makeup all over his face. And right next to him is his jock husband in his short running shorts, a backwards cap, and Shanes jock lingerie underneath everything. The only concession to pride is, as a birthday present to Ilya, Shane is wearing a crop top that says "his little slut" and his collar that looks like a dog collar.
Sorry what were you talking about i got distracted
The way all the 2020s have done so far have been making me categorically against every new generation of tech that comes out is insane. Like I'm from a technological boom generation, saw the first portable phones, nokias & blackberries & flipphones etc, and the first smartphones, and the first ipods & ipads & tablets in general while still having cassettes & DVD & MP3 players around so I know how all of it work, I had computer classes in high school, I did the transition between home desktop computers to laptops and back to gaming computers. But then they started to put internet in your printer & microwave, everything has ads & AI now and every update is worst than the last. I literally loved technology and they ruined it
Now you KNOW I love a good unconventional a/b/o dynamic, so of COURSE alpha4alpha hollanov is on the agenda. Inspired by an ask I sent to the lovely @probablily
When Shane presented, he was relieved. Obviously, presentation wasn't mandated in hockey, you didn't HAVE to disclose your status, but come on. He wasn't naive. He knew being an Alpha gave him a heads up, at least on paper.
(he was also maybe relieved for another reason - this meant his strange fascination with other alphas, their scents, their muscles, their commanding energies - was probably just him keeping a look out for the competition. So what if he wasn't really interested in omegas yet? There's nothing wrong with being a late bloomer. And besides, omegas were just a distraction. Shane had his heart set on going pro - he couldn't afford distractions).
And then Shane meets Ilya. And then the draft. And then the photoshoot.
And then Ilya - takes off his scent patches in the shower?? Releases his PHEREMONES at Shane?? Like he's some kind of,,, swooning omega he's trying to court?? Like Shane's just gonna,,, roll over and present for him???
As an alpha, having another alpha display at him like that should infuriate him. Forget raising his hackles - Ilya's lucky he doesn't fly across the room and try to bite him.
But that's not what happens. Because Shane takes one whiff of Ilya's scent and it takes all his mental willpower not to bare his neck and whine.
But somehow, Ilya's looking at Shane through the billowing steam of the showers like he knows what Shane is feeling. And when Ilya's fangs flash through his smirking mouth, Shane almost caves and shows the Alpha his throat, anyways.
The Hollander Boyfriend Checklist
Hollanov | Rated: T | Chapter One
Inspired by this post by @watermelontuesdays!
Summary:
In a world where Shane & Ilya never hooked up and were only ever rivals and colleagues, Shane does eventually come out (after Scott and Kip’s kiss that changed everything.) He keeps the media at bay by teasing what he’s looking for in an ideal boyfriend.
Ilya starts taking notes.
He’s not the only one.
Excerpt:
Shane
Shane’s life was hockey. As soon as he’d learned to skate, he lived and breathed the game. Knew the rules. Understood them in a way that was a head-rush of relief in a world that usually offered him nothing, but stress and discomfort. Hockey helped him carve out a space for himself and he loved it for that.
He knew the love he got in return was always conditional, but over the years he’d convinced himself it was enough. It had to be.
And then he watched Scott Hunter kiss his boyfriend out on the ice, after winning the Cup, and Shane realized not only did he want more…
He needed it.
That place inside of himself where he’d packed away everything that didn’t fit into the world he loved—everything he’d tried so desperately to ignore—cracked wide open and it all poured out.
Aching loneliness.
Bitter jealousy.
A deep, yearning want.
And the worst one—the one that he never seemed to be able to stamp out, no matter how hard he tried: a spark of hope.
Could I have that?
Staring at Hunter, who was fully fucking making out with his boyfriend between declarations of love, Shane didn’t even realize he’d started crying until his mom reached over to swipe a gentle finger down his cheek. He startled, huffing out a laugh as he scrubbed a hand across his face, suddenly aware of how the cheers from the TV were the only sound in the room.
“Sweetheart,” she began and Shane shook his head.
“I’m okay. I’m—” Fine? Happy for Hunter? Any answer would be good enough in its own way, something his parents would accept, but he couldn’t sit there in this moment and bring himself to say anything but the truth.
“…I’m gay.”
Silence fell over the living room again and Shane held his breath. He couldn’t take the words back, wasn’t even sure if he wanted to, but this—this would change everything. Every scenario he’d run through his brain before was purely theoretical. Ready or not, he was about to find out if their love was conditional too.
His dad cleared his throat, leaning forward to brace his elbows on his knees as he dipped his head to meet Shane’s gaze. “Hi, gay,” he said. “I’m Dad.”
unfortunately very true. Doing Better does not always mean never being upset or never being triggered or never having trouble. often Doing Better means experiencing those things and being able to keep going/cope healthily/move on. if you’re in a bubble with no sensation, if you’re numbing yourself out, that’s not what recovering really is. it won’t help you have a happier life it’ll just make your world smaller and smaller until you can’t fit anywhere anymore. gotta learn to make peace with the hard stuff too, that’s the only way to keep going
i'm bored so i'm gonna make some sweeping generalizations.
i feel like most people can be split into two groups: shane coded ilya fuckers, and ilya coded shane fuckers. to be clear that's you identify with shane, and want to fuck ilya. or you identify with ilya, and want to fuck shane.
but then like..... to complicate things....
there's also shane coded shane fuckers.... rare and peculiar. ilya coded ilya fuckers.......?????!!! someone call security.........